08062005 - colonoscopy [part 1] + [part 2]

08062005 - colonoscopy [part 1]

guess wat.. i wakey at 6.20am tis mornin though i'm nt wkin..cos i ahv 2 eat breakfast b4 7am n start my medi frm 7am onwards..hav 2 clear my large intestine..clear all those wastes b4 goin 2 scope which is in e afternoon ard 3pm lyk tat lohz.. haiyo.. nw.. i'm alread weak le after goin in n out of e toilet 4 more than 6 times.. gosh!!! guess i'll b slimmer after clearin those unneccessary thingy.. n yet..i cant eat lunch.. dunoe how am i gonna walk ltr.. oh man!!! i jus dunoe y i so unlucky tis yr.. wat 2 do.. i mus b strong.. tat's wat kor kor sae de.. jus wonderin how is e situation nw in e company.. they mus b veri busi.. alamak.. if i nt feelin well tml.. am i still able 2 go wk?? dad went overseas le.. onli will b back durin e wkend..

courageous is e word.. i'm old enough.. so mus force all e probz myself.. rite?? i noe gohonzon is there wif mi.. i noe all my family n frenz r wif mi.. i noe hubby u r oso wif hu.. i will b strong.. even if i down wif sum illness.. i'll will face it.. tat's life.. no matter wat happens.. i noe even if i'm left wif 3 mths life.. i mus cherish tis period n do wat ever i lyk n fuifilled wat i hav yet 2 fuifill.. guess life is lyk tat.. everythingy is fated.. but wif e determination n courage.. nth is impossible.. life is filled wif mircale.. tat's wat i believe in.. it seems lyk mi kan kai a lot le.. even my so called "enemies".. nw i treat them as frenz..

i jus wanna sae sumthingy 2 all those out there.. i'm sorrie if i hav once offended u guys.. jus afraid got no chance 2 sae it anymore.. nth cums easy.. so cherish wat u hav.. grab it tite when opportunity r given.. wat ever u wanna do, go ahead n do it provided is e rite thingy.. dun hestiate.. tat's wat i believe..


# Everythingy that happenes to us has a meaning.
Even if you're sad and filled with pain and feel
like you can't go on, as long as you keep going
and pressing forward bravely,
living your life without being defeated,
you will come to see the meaning of that suffering and pain.

This is the power of FAITH.
It is also the essence of life.
The word KARMA is Sanskrit for ACTION.
All of our actions - what we think,
what we say,
and wat we actually do - are engraved in our life.
When our actions are good,
we will receive positive effects that will make us happy.
When our actions are bad,
we will receive negative effects that make us unhappy.
It all eventually comes back to us. #

#Daisaku Ikeda#


08062005 - colonoscopy [part 2]

guess at e moment nw.. i'm okie.. nt serious prob.. but i'm jus still worried abt myself.. seeing e colonorectal surgery specialist on e 23rd again.. sianz sia.. mom still nt wkin.. dad nw in thailand.. haiz.. guess we will face probz again.. so i'm hav no choice but 2 pay 4 my own medical fees.. n spend less on unneccessary thingys le.. anw.. dun worry frenz.. i'm fine (>.<)!!!! hehez.. relation wif hubby gettin beta than b4.. guess we alread understands how 2 give in 2 one another on different situation.. though in e past oso got mani sweet moments.. guess we will jus save them as our memories?? yeah..

anw.. realli tired after scoping.. e sedation haven even go in2 my bodi 2 make mi slp then e nurses start alread.. luckily.. i met a v handsum doctor.. standin by my side.. e doc onli help put sedation.. then e nurses will do e endoscopy.. i jus feel e pain.. wah.. tell u sumthingy.. i scare till i grab e doc hand so tite.. lolx.. anw.. still feelin giddi n uncomfortable nw.. gtg le..