[ an unexpected wake... ]

an unexpected wake...

went to school as per normal.. meet up the BH proj group mates earlier to give our project the final shot.. met up at cafe 1.. did some cutting and stuff.. well, today, it doesnt seems to be a smooth day for me..

recieved Shaun's sms today.. he told us about Tom's grandma's passing.. well, at that moment when i saw the sms, hmm... i seriously dont know what i should reply.. should i reply said i will go, or just simply ignore the sms.. end up, i still replied asking Shaun what time he's going down.. he called me back immediately.. ask me if i want to go, since the wake is near where i stay.. i didnt know why.. BUT, i said OKIE! but after i said okie, i regretted the next minute.. girls are just sometimes too frickle-minded.

i told Shaun and tried explaining to him that it's going to be a bit weird that after so long, i appear in front of him again.. and that we are not on talking terms actually.. that's the WORSE thing actually.. hais, but as usual, Shaun's sharp tongue just will be able to convince me..

after which, continued doing my project.. everything in a MESS.. video not done, process report not done, photo frame not done.. hais.. demoralised!

finished school at about 4plus.. and it's like raining cats and dogs.. have no choice but to cab home cause i was supposed to meet Shaun and Miao zhen at 5plus at Yishun.. i think Shaun's scared i dont want to go? kept calling me.. LOLX.. but i went lahz.. i really went for it.. i didnt know where did i managed to plug up my courage from.. but i went.. and i was SHOCKED that actually, his grandma who passed away, she's the ONE i met before.. and she did invite me to her place too..

when i saw him crying, i really have a loss of words.. FIRST time see him cry.. and i feel sad too.. though i only met his grandma ONCE, but in my heart, i did really feel like crying.. and saw his parents and brother too.. was SHOCKED that his brother still can recognised me.. we didnt talk that much though we are just sitting side by side.. but, i guess the moral support was what he needed...

it was really a drama finding the place, though i stay near that area.. and my mouth was just like a gun, shooting Shaun, Miaozhen, Suhui.. well, i dont mean it lahz.. i guess i am just trying to hide my FEARS? went supper with Shaun and Guosheng after we left the place.. and i must really thank Shaun for encouraging me to accept him as a friend.. i just need some time Bro! you know me.. i cant digest things that fast.. i know you meant well.... thanks a lot:D

this whole incident, i didnt voice a single word to mom.. cause i just dont know what her reaction would be.. but i told Stella.. i guess she just think that i am stupid.. dont worry.. i know what is right and what is wrong now VERY CLEARLY! :D

please his grandma rest in peace.......