[ it's been tough on you... and tough on me.. ]

[ it's been tough on you... and tough on me.. ]

it's been tough on you for the past few weeks.. from fever/flu to stomach flu to over exertation to virus infection.. i know it's tough on you.. really tough on you.. 5days of school.. yuan wasnt in school from monday to thursday.. he was down from fever.. got virus infection.. he simply physically and mentally weak now.. i guess he really feel pressurized.. i just dont understand why that guys usually wont feel comfortable talking to their loved ones their problems.. is it because they are afraid to lose face?? isnt it better to talk someone who understand you the best your problems?? why is it so important whether you will lose face or not??

recently.. he seems to very cold to me.. very cold at times.. that yuan i know dont seems to be one i know at first.. his sms is short and dont really want to talk to me at times.. is it because you think you're a burden to me?? or everything i can think of is only my wild guessing?? wo ye heng tong ku!! do you know that??

i was down from fever yesterday.. i'm supposed to go school for the meet-e-parents session.. end up.. i didnt go.. my fever rise from 38.3deg C to almost 40deg C.. i almost feel tat i'm dying le.. mayb i jus over exert myself too much recently ba.. plus inadquate amount of rest.. well.. i'm jus tired..

- will there be a day i will lose my smile ?? -