(( e dae has finally came ))

(( e dae has finally came ))

I got back my results for my nursing studies test...yupz.. was quite a gd news actually.. i got 42.5/50.. it's a A.. hahaz.. I got a B tat time 4 my bioscience.. and now a A for my nursing studies.. hmmm.. It's like 2 years since I have the chance to study and mugging really hard into books for my test and exams le.. It feel so good all a sudden.. Though it can be quite stress at times.. BUT.. I know I'm enjoying the process of it.. hahaz... That's all about good news..

I just feel WEIRD this whole week.... My LIFE has been in a MESS.. I dont know what wrong with me too!! (=.=!?) It's just not the normal "Jessica Loh" everyone used to know.. well.. Monday blues.. BUT.. i think i "BLUES" throughout the whole week.... what kind of shit is this?? let's start off the entry on MONDAY ba.. well..

MONDAY - the day started off quite moody.. it's MONDAY blues.. yuan simply ignored me sia.. ARGH!~ It's driving me really crazy!!! first lesson was bioscience combined lecture.. early morning at MLT.. we didnt really talk actually... I also dont know why.. I simply cant get it figured out.. I had lessons till 5pm.. as for him, it's till 3pm actually.. but he got extra training for phase test from 5pm to 6pm like that.. so i waited for him to finish.. he finally voiced out what had happened to him.. he's mood swinging.. due to archery..

yupz.. as usual lahz.. It's archery.. that's e cause of everything.. sometimes I also dont know what I should do.. I dont know anything about archery.. It really makes me difficult to encourage him.. I have to be double careful with my words as well.. sound TEDIOUS huh.. what to do?? that's my fate lahz.. after he dismissed.. we walked to simei east point.. he has to get his PIE project done on tuesday.. so accompany him go NTUC to get the necessary stuffs.. yupz.. he's making cheese cake.. *yum yum* sound nice huh!?!? hahaz(>o<)..

after which.. we went to munch house for our dinner.. poor him.. I'm sick that's why he need to make things go my way.. can only eat things i can eat.. cause i cant eat fast food.. *sobx* on our way there.. we saw a group of nursing students.. hmm.. i caught them RED-HANDED.. yupz.. RED-HANDED!!! they SMOKE in UNIFORM.. BUT.. i have chosen to pretend not to see... i know it's not right to protect them like this.. but i just dont want to get myself in trouble.. they SAW me.. if they didnt.. the second day, they sure die a hard life..

after our dinner.. yuan sent me to the bus-stop.. this time round.. i really very obedient.. never miss any bus then i board liao.. cause i'm late.. it's already 7plus 8 already.. die.. if i gets home later than mom.. then die liao.. i just hope after that, yuan's feelings will get better.. just hoping.. *praying* oh shit!! so unlucky of me.. mom got home just 2 steps before me.. when i was already in the lift to my flat, she called.. ARGH~ she's really ANGRY with my behaviour.. cause i'm sick.. YET... i never guai guai come home earlier... haiz!

TUESDAY - the day where all the frustration starts to rise.. do you think waiting for your loved ones is a WASTE of TIME?? ya.. someone DID.. i cant imagine you will think this way.. well.. after all.. it's just my ILLUSION.. hmmm.. sorry for those who dont understand what i'm trying to write.. i'm just trying to VOICE out without people knowing the exact meaning behind it.. it's really HEART BREAKING for the person who hears that huh?? i PITY that person's ears.. OUCH!~ it SIMPLY HURTS!! i can understand how that person feel.. i think i will want to get my heart FREEZE then.. NUMB it!! lessons supposed to end at 3pm.. but got bioscience extra lesson till 5pm..

i'm super tired.. and having the terrible backache almost have taken my life away.. i turned pale during the phase test... i simply cannot CONCENTRATE.. Mdm Lam should be really really disappointed with my performance.. yupz.. I KNOW.. I know i SCREWED my phase test 2.. Mdm Qian saw my face turning hot and red.. yupz.. I'm running a FEVER.. after all the BUILD IN FRUSTRATION and SADNESS.. my temperature rise like rocket.. she wants me to go home and rest well.. but i insisted that i dont want to.. just dont want to miss lessons.. exams is round the corner!!

WEDNESDAY - it was just another TERRIBLE day.. but with early dismissal... early morning.. Mdm Qian saw me at cafe 1 and she came towards me.. she requested to see my mindmap on bioscience.. well.. she seems to hear people praising my mindmap.. lolx(>o<).. what a joke.. i dont think it's that great actually.. hahaz! but i didnt bring.. no bioscience lesson on wednesday actually.. during nursing studies the combined lecture at MLT.. a girl from class D asked if i'm jessica.. lolx.. she commented that i'm well-known.. WELL-KNOWN??!?? (=.=!?) question mark huh.. after which.. we had our SW class.. lolx.. half the class didnt bring PE attire.. and those who brought didnt bother to get change.. we begged.. begged for teacher for early dismissal.. well.. my terrible day just ended like that.. with all my sms-es all ignored.. thanks huh!!


THURSDAY - this is the only day of the week i dont have to feel so stress.. ya.. cause it's a holiday.. i dont have to go school.. and dont have to crack my little head to cheer him up... that's really tiring.. i'm not a mom.. went to study with farhan and nad.. and it rains!!! somehow.. the sky is pitying this little girl.. with her heart and soul all wound out.. i ate ice-cream with a packet of milo after that.. ice-cream helps to cheer my day.. as for milo.. i just hope i'll get diarrhoea and get to skip school tomorrow.. but somehow.. my stomach works normally then.. we went to support hafiz in his jamming performance at the west coast bowl. it's like so long i never step foot there.. *memories back-flow*

BUT.. so embarrassing of me.. i didnt get to stay till he perform.. what a miss!! i have to go for a hair cut.. actually.. it was meant to be cutting of my liu hai only.. but mom insist that i should trim my hair as well.. okie.. let things go your way this time round mom.. i have cut my 3000 fan nan si!!! ya.. it's pretty short i can say... 3inches of my hair gone.. just imagine dear friends!!!! hahaz.. kind of REGRET actually.. not the hair not nice.. but i think i look WEIRD.. my hair hasnt been that short ever since i start working.. i always have long hairs.. tat's my TRADEMARK since kindergarten.. hahaz.. SO PROUD of me.. *wink*

FRIDAY - the healing process.. everything has come to an end.. FINALLY... nad and farhan.. ur ears will stop bleeding because of my grumble!! FINALLY huh.. BUT my heart really aches.. my face changed colour.. just like chameleon.. i cant really smile.. ya.. Jessica Loh's TRADEMARK SMILE is GONE!!!! it's gonna be LOST forever this time round.. It melted many people's heart.. but i will choose not to smile.. this way will helps to LESSEN my PAIN.. ICE-CREAM.. i ate ice-cream again.. BUT.. it seems like i'm TOO MUCH IN PAIN.. i dont feel that the ICE-CREAM is WORKING on me.. i dont feel HAPPY after eating. I DONT!! why?!? why will the thing you feared the most comes faster than expected?? how long a WOUND takes to HEAL?? guys.. stop pinching salt onto my WOUND!!