[ happy bdae my dear!! ]

happy bdae my dear!!

it's sept11... a very important day in the life of the US people.. BUT.. it's also a very important day in my life.. it's TOM's birthday!!

back in school for sim training today..i can say.. i'm really tired actually.. my eyes doesnt seems to be opening.. and in the rooms where our sim training senario are conducted, it's REALLY REALLY very cold.. luckily, i got my trusty jacket with me.. lolx! BUT, i was hoping he's THERE!! kekez.. cause, after i wear my trusty jacket, i still feel cold actually!!

saw many of my classmates today.. joyce, farhan, fara, aisha, izfa, citi....... it's izfa's birthday today too!! happy birthday to you too!! and saw mdm qian too!! i went over to hug her!! miss her so muchhhhhh..... i had role playing today too!! i was REALLY scared when i was out there handling the manikin... at the same time, i realised i wont fear when i'm handling real patients.. something must be wrong somewhere.. lolx.. me and joyce had lunch together at cafe1.. we had nasi lemak together.. as usual, i cant finish the rice.. just managed to stuff in the fillet and the chicken wing.. lolx.. i know you gonna scold me for eating so little.. lolx!

after the sim training itself, joyce accompanied me to the swimming pool's washroom for a shower.. thanks joyce!! love you lots!! ya, i'm supposed to meet tom for dinner with his parents tonight.. oh man!! i'm so SCARED!! i'm REALLY afriad that his parents wont like me.. hais!! but before that, i went to look for ms jill to submit my consent form!! yup!! i'm under 21!! and i really proud of it!! hahaz! called miao2.. SC having a birthday celebration for him!!

was pretty embarrassing when i'm there at cafe1 with him.. cause... i'm the only NON-SC members.. hahaz!! and think many people can see through our relation liao le.. fei bi xun chang!! we had a chocolate cake from bengawan solo... oh man!! the cream is real thick.. and i can imagined how much fats i'm taking in.. oh gosh!! cant blame... i'm REALLY TRYING to LOSE WEIGHT!! if i maintain my figure till before i get married, think i wont look nice in my wedding gown.. kekez.. and i'll be like really auntie when i get pregnant.. hahaz! think too much liao.. BUT, it's every girls' cinderalla wish to be pretty ar!!.... it's natural de...

after the celebration with SC members, tom drove miao2 and one of his SC friend to tampines.. there after, we headed to his place.. think at that very moment, i was having hypertension ba... really so scared!! and the first i saw when i stepped in his place is his mom.. it's just like heart attack.. there after was his younger brother and his dad.. we cut a cake at his place before we set off for our dinner..

we actually had yu tou lu.. and it was really a great achievement for me to finish up my bowl of rice.. even tom's mom was shocked.. lolx.. great achievement.. after the dinner itself, tom drove his parents and brother home.. actually i dont really want to go back that early, but.... tom's having exam tomorrow morning at 11am.. so no choice.. he havent finish his revision yet.. and i have a part to play.. it's my fault actually.. for the past 1 week, i have been spending a lot of time with him going out and on the phone.. so, i was the culprit who eats up his time.. just praying really hard for him that he can do well in his paper.. loveyoulots!

[ useless me....... ]

useless me.......

it's as usual routine.. woke up at 4.45am.. brushed my teeth.. and had my shower!! did my morning prayers.. and waited for my dearest hair to dry before i can bun it up.. ya.. my rebonded hair is gone case NOW!! less than 1yr then ko ya liao le.. was pretty tired actually.. as i have said, i'm always out.. didnt really have the time to rest..

counting down to my yunnan trip.. 2more weeks to go.. really feel so excitied and really looking forward to the trip.. caused i'll be there with someone special.. the person who gave me hope once.. let's describe that person.. he's a guy who thinks that he's the nicest guy on earth.. but true enough, he's really a nice guy.. he's someone who can go all out for things he wants with lots of CONFIDENT.. he's someone who can give me the secure feeling i need.. and what am i to him?? can you describe me??

was out in the ward today.. not really that busy but have a great time chatting with my patients.. one of my patients' sister say she will miss me if i finished my attachment at ttsh.. or after her sister discharged.. she said i'm cheerful and really helpful.. with all words, my hardwork and sweat all this while is worthy!! thanks for giving me the trust in the nursing care i'm giving.. even some of the staff nurses are real nice.. irma, rita, dewi, serina, huiping.... i'll miss you guys!!

i'm left with a more week with my attachment.. one more critical skill to complete.. and it determines my life and death.. ashiqa took my height and weight today.. shall not review what's my weight.. all i want to say is: i lost ONE kg!! sound like a GREAT ACHIEVEMENT.. lolx. but he isnt that happy.. he took it as his fault.. saying that ever since i know him, i hasnt been eating well and stomach not feeling well.. and he feels that he didnt take gd care of me.. it isnt the case lahz.. aiyoyoz.. stop blaming yourself yupz.. hugs!

you're the one i'm looking for....

[ true happiness... there you are... ]

true happiness... there you are...

too many things have been taking place recently.. i didnt really have the time to take a breath.. seriously no time.. i'm sorry that i have been missing in action for quite some time.. sorry for those who still reads my blog but i didnt update actually.. hahaz! grandma has been hospitalised for almost one and a half month liao le.. and i have not been visiting her for the past 2weeks.. too much commitments all a sudden and mom didnt really want me to run from hospital to hospital everyday..

plus.. for those who dont know.. i'm going to YUNNAN on the 23rd of sept.. i guess it will be difficult if you people want to send me off.. cause my flight is 8.10am in the morning.. and i have to be at the airport at 6am.. all a sudden.. i just feel so great.. though many things do happened to me.. oh ya.. daryl and me are seperated liao.. it was quite some times again liao.. well, i didnt cry.. shocking?? i think xianyun will be shocked to see that huh.. cause i will always sound like a crybaby.. but towards this incident this time, i didnt cry.. i guess more or less, i'm prepared for this outcome ba..

and gohonzon has given me another hope again.. a hope that makes me being able to see some bright days in my life.. though i dont know how far this hope will go, one thing i can be very assure, i will not wept again.. yes.. and hope is with me to yunnan to.. how good can things be to go on a trip with some hope with you?? sound so chim.. never mind guys.. you will know it some days..

been going out quite often recently.. just came back from a red cross camp last weekend.. and made many great friends.. mei leng, lee koon, fair yii, xiaobai, yu hang.. all 5 of them are from different red cross chapters from me.. it's a bless in disguise huh... BUT.. i hurt my dear hand.. sobx! it's all because of the musical hu-la hook game.. i actually went for acupunture on monday.. and i recovered.. thanks tom! thanks for accompanying me to the sensei.. and so coincidentally, his buddy is from soka.. and his buddy's girlfriend is someone i know.. okie.. it sounds complex yup??

hahaz.. never mind! i have not been resting well recently.. no enough sleep and stuff.. and my appetite arent really that good too.. stomach always upset and i'm having sore throat too.. tom's been nagging me to the doctor.. seriously, i know i'm okie.. so dont worry yup! mom's birthday on the 6th.. bought a cake from bengawan solo.. it's a coffee cake.. it's a gift from him actually.. thank you so much!! hugs!

all i want to say is: i'm enjoying my life now!! with no regrets!

``you wont forsake me right??``