[ waiting for someone to fulfill my heart..... ]

waiting for someone to fulfill my heart.....

today.. have went to the doctor and rested at home.. was really very busy for the past 1 week.. everyday after school will be meeting with either Ms Chow or Mdm Qian.. earliest i can go home is like 8pm.. then when i come home, will be dumping my homework aside and do my red cross things first.. Mom has been really unhappy with me.. BUT, i got NO CHOICE! just can pray that she can understand me that i am doing this because of my future.. and i know she knows me well.. she knows i love to help people, love to make a difference in others' lives.. that's why i have chosen red cross as my cca..

FRIDAY - was excuse from class at 4pm.. went home to shower and get my things packed up.. cause there will be a pre-drive meeting and after which, i'll stay overnight at Woanlan's hostel.. met Ben Ben at 7.30pm at Boon Lay.. and then we took 179 from Boon Lay Interchange to NTU.. my FIRST time visiting NTU.. to me, it's a total UNFAMILIAR place.. and that Ben Ben.. SUPER IRRITATING.. know that i very TIMID still tease and scare me despite that he's really SICK.. the meeting took us about 2hours.. although it's a really important and meant to be serious meeting, we didnt forget about cracking jokes and releasing our LAUGHING gas! hahaz!

Ben Ben had offered a bed for me in his room.. BUT, he didnt bring his lappy.. and i got to arrange the shift for my ITE volunteers.. so, i didnt go over to his place.. and that guy.. Ms Chan offered him a ride, so he dumped me in Woanlan's hands.. Medy suggested to go for supper cause i havent take my dinner too.. so, Medy, Woanlan, Ferry and JJ brought me for dinner.. asking 2others along too.. we had supper at a coffeeshop.. the few of them.. sometimes, they really makes my BLOOD BOILS when they mentioned about the special "someone"!! but i know they were just joking! =] OMG!~ after supper, they brought me for EXERCISE! to Nanyang House.. it was indeed a FUN night.. just so SAD that Ben Ben cant join us! sobx!(T.T)

back into Woanlan's room, i had a shower and started to do up the list for the manpower allocation tomorrow.. only managed to finish everything at 3am.. and i woke up at 6am to prepare myself for the blood drive.. Really very TIRED..


SATURAY - was a REALLY long day.. early morning.. my BLOOD boils non-stop.. trying to settle the volunteers.. briefing them what to do.. the liase with NTU side.. and yet.. despite my information of reporting time was clear.. i still have more than half the strength was LATE!.. didnt had the time to have lunch.. after settling my volunteers' food and stuff.. i went to help out with the registration side.. so was PRETTY busy.. really had GASTRIC PAIN till i cannot take it.. and no choice.. got to forsake the blood donation and take the antacid..

last donor of the day was at around 7.20pm.. managed to clear up the place at around 8pm.. and had a debrief session.. 1st day results was GOOD.. had 280plus donors.. with 170plus 1st time donors.. it was really a PAID OFF for us to have such results on the 1st day.. dinner was at vivo city.. really very TIRED.. home with Ben Ben.. but halfway through, his gf boarded the bus.. so.. didnt really talk much with him on the way home.. BUT.. he was really KIND.. so TIRED liao reach home still sms and ask me to rest well..

SUNDAY - the last day of the Blood Drive event.. was really ANGRY in the morning.. cause many volunteers didnt turn up and didnt bother to even call me.. i was really thinking.. how can you be a nurse when you are so IRRESPONSIBLE? well.. think back.. i felt that i have no rights to judge them.. as different people have different perception and have different thinking regarding things they do.. i might think it's important, but others didnt have to agree with you.. started off with a bad day.. everyone in the main com knows that we are expecting a late NIGHT today.. with the packing up and debriefing and stuff..

and somehow.. my will power of going to class tomorrow is really LOW.. i arent feeling that well.. after the gastric pain strike me yesterday.. i feel much weaker and feel really lethargic.. thanks to Isabella.. i look really NICE today.. although Ben Ben say i look like a CHINA GIRL and kept asking me to behave like my age.. lolx.. I just DONT CARE! i just LOVE the HAIRSTYLE!... had lunch with my volunteers today.. well.. though i have a bad start in the morning.. people around me will always find a way to make me laugh.. especially Ben Ben.. and people like Woanlan, Medy, Ferry, JJ and Simin.. their funny actions will really BRIGHTEN my days..

the counter was open for registration at around 11plus.. the first 3hours was really BAD.. only had 80donors.. and everyone started to PANIC that we cant HIT our target.. BUT.. i just tell Ben Ben and Medy that i STRONGLY believe that we can HIT our target this time round.. cause i did pray for the success of this event.. was really TIRED at about 4plus.. and Ben Ben triggers me at the wrong timing.. and because of what he said.. the past few hours was HELL to him.. cause i practically IGNORED him when he tried to make me talked to him and stuff.. that's the consquence he has to bear for making me ANGRY.. after packing up, saw Ben Ben feeling really not well, so i went to talk to him..

we managed to hit our TARGET!! yeah yeah! and it really NICE to see the heart of life filled up! briefing started at 8plus.. and it drags and drags and drags...... everyone started shooting one another.... pointing their fingers at each other and finding faults.. it's really SADDENING that the event ended this way.. Ben Ben and me just couldnt take it.. and when Medy speaks.. i cried.. really broke down... when he mentioned about what i did for this event.. i dont feel that i have done much.. seriously.. but i know i sacrified a lot of my personal time.. even during weekends.. i'm doing red cross thing..

skipping school.. falling ill.. staying over at NTU.. bla bla bla... feel so TOUCHED over what he said.. and felt that my hardwork all this while have been paid off.. just because i know people do appreciated my efforts.. and thanks to Ben Ben.. thanks for giving me a pat.. and being there for me as a friend.. listening to my grumbles and shared my happiness.. and thanks medy for that hug when you saw me crying!!

me and Ben Ben went home together.. cause the rest are heading back to hostel to eat.. so left with me and Ben Ben only.. we took taxi to Yishun and ate at S11.. it's more like a supper than dinner.. then he walked me home from yishun central.. thank god that he sent me home.. cause we actually meet with a siao siao person under my block.. managed to get home at 12am.... tired..

going to sleep already.......