hmmm... was doin my tagboard jus now.. changed 3 times.. kaoz.. kept givin probz.. i oso dunoe whether frenz tag mi or not.. haiz.. stupid blog.. went 2 read ah yun's blog jus now.. n left lotsa tag entries 4 her.. lolx.. dun sae i nv tag u worz.. hahaz.. who is ah yun?? 4 those who dunoe.. she is my best bud.. lolx.. haiz.. guess wat i'm doin now.. i jus taken my breakfast.. n i'm listenin 2 e cd 2 learn my gongyo.. haiz.. cos frenz of mine kept askin mi 2 learn gongyo asap.. includin my parents of cos.. hmmm.. especiall benny lohz.. sms mi oso ask mi do gongyo.. lolx.. mayb can show u sumthingy interestin..since i got my own digital camera.. lolx.. hahaz..but now camera chargin.. low batt..
(( my name written on e envelope ))
( guess is written by benny)
(( e cover page of my bdae card ))
(( greetings written by melvin 2 mi ))
(( greetings written by benny 2 mi ))
(( greetings written by stephanie 2 mi ))
(( greetings written by jiafeng 2 mi ))
see e difference btw e 4 greetings write by them ma?? lolx.. 3 of them ask mi learn gongyo.. so i promised them liao so i mus learn!!!!
hmmm.. 4 frenz concern abt my situation now.. okie.. i'm studyin basic german course now.. havin my very last lesson next week.. not intendin 2 take intermediate now.. cos no time le.. need 2 1/2 months 2 complete e course.. i dun hav time le.. not bcos i'm goin 2 mati.. but i'm germany le.. should b goin switzerland n western part of germany.. mus organize farewell party 4 mi worz.. lolx.. kiddin onli.. not goin veri long oso..
on fridae.. which is e 17th of tis month.. a grp of visitors came 2 my company.. n my boss actuall instructed my manager 2 send mi 2 e helicheck.. okie.. helicheck is a machine used by e QC 2 check e tools.. it is e machine bought from germany.. cost a lot.. lolx.. n i'm goin germany 4 training under tis machine.. it is computerized n needs setting.. n lotsa setting itself in e machine is in german lanaguage.. so.. no chance hav 2 learn german.. guess mayb i oso got chance 2 go overseas like my dad for yrs.. he once work in japan, china n switzerland.. 4 yrs.. companies in switzerland even send their pple 2 cum spore 2 hire my dad 2 work in switzerland..
i nv noe tat my dad is so great.. i noe all those from my boss.. he saes.. my dad can work overseas 4 yrs alone.. so he believe i oso can.. when my dad work in china.. he n my mom alread registered their marriage.. in yr 1981.. if my dad nv go overseas.. now i tink i'll b in my 20s liao le.. lolx.. hahaz.. sound so old 2 mi.. heez.. n i wont b able 2 noe such a great bunch of frenz.. n i wun bcum e alumni of soka kinder.. belongin 2 e 1st batch of soka kinder students.. i feel realli realli proud of myself.. heez.. n i'm realli glad tat i'm fortune baby..
i had been feelin depressed 4 e past few weeks.. cos havin headache n feel giddy veri often.. mayb bcos i'm slightly low blood.. dun believe rite?? i look so strong.. tat's was e past lahz.. cos last time in npcc ma.. alwaz jog n do exercises.. now.. sleepin oso no time.. on workin daes.. i onli sleep 5 to 6 hrs plus onli.. can u imagine tat?? so everydae work like vampire.. haiz.. no choice lahz..
2dae is sundae.. yet i woke up at 8.. but bcos i goin back 2 company 4 overtime.. not bcos under my block.. they havin community centre events.. ahhhhhhhhhhh.. so noisy.. actuall intend 2 slp till 12 noon de.. lolx.. if i noe so noisy.. i would hav wakey early n go 2 senja or telok blangah n do mornin daimoku n gongyo.. haiz.. i sae in march i wanna go.. but 4 2 sundaes.. i nv go.. cos no1: i'm jus too tired.. no2: nobodi pei mi go.. my mom hav 2 work.. my dad works too.. even if he dun, i wun choose goin chantin wif him.. he will jus nag n nag thru out e journey.. my bro.. even worse.. he dun cum out 4 activites de.. lazy pig.. onli go 4divison meetin monthly onli.. cos he same han as my dad.. no choice.. so tat's bein forced.. n he nv join ndp too.. cos he havin n'level tis yr.. lolx.. 2 of my reasons.. i noe they sounds more like excuses..
hey.. any soka frenz who saw my tis entries.. wanna pei mi go?? lolx.. even if u wanna go tampines de.. i oso can pei.. at least sum1 wif mi i'll feel more secure.. i got a veri bad habit.. i dun like 2 attend meetings alone.. i'm jus afraid of loneliness.. realli afraid.. so when 2 of my gd sistas.. stephanie n catherine graduated from fd 2 sd.. i nv attend fd meetings le.. now.. i'm not schoolin at e moment.. but attends sd meetin wif steph ard.. if not of her.. i'll b dislocate wif gakkai activites le..
last yr i had an operation.. after then.. 4 e 1 yr's time.. i havin been slpin.. not realli in2 practicin.. feel so guilty.. after stephy's bdae celebration.. she's been askin out 4 activites.. n on tat dae itself.. i oso noe 2 great frenz.. benny n melvin.. though they dun belongs 2 west region RHQ4.. lolx.. but guess i'll b gettin away west region activites le.. dunoe if i shld change a district.. i'm shiftin hse.. movin 2 our own flat i yishun soon le.. haiz.. in april i tink.. haiz.. cumin 4 RHQ4 activites will b a tough challenge 4 mi.. n my district.. majority r eldery.. they r cantonese spoken.. though i'm a cantonese n doesnt face a probz in speakin my dialect..
but e probz is my district isnt active at all.. includin my leaders.. especiall my ywd leader.. she havin lotsa of probz recently.. n she arent doin her part in askin mi out 4 activties.. hmmm.. she will sms mi informin mi of activties 4 e ywd.. but i nv c her attendin.. she alwaz havin personal stuffs n tight up wif work.. how will e member b active if e leader herself/himself isnt active?? as 4 my ymd leader.. he isnt callin his onli 2 ywd.. n tat' s e reason y my dad transfer my didi out of my district.. my dad used 2 b e leader of my district.. he is e asst. district leader.. in other words.. there's another district above him.. ever since my dad rise as e asst.district.. e district leader himself arent doin his part 4 e district.. cos he noes tat my dad is there 2 help him.. feelin frustrated n wantin him 2 do his part.. my dad transfered out of e district.. n my mom now.. she is e asst.district wd leader as well.. but my district.. e leaders themselves hav lotsa mis-communciation.. if e leaders themselves cant even communicate, how can e leaders interact well wif e members??
last time we used 2 hav gosho studies durin district meetings.. i dun seems 2 learn anythingy abt nichiren daishonin n so on.. if not 4 mi 2 attend e entrance exam n e byakuren kenshu yester.. i nv hav noe so much.. oh ya.. entrance exam.. my ywd n mi registered 4 it 2gether.. she was e one who encourages mi 2 take up e exam.. though i nv realli put in effort 2 go 4 e study meetings n study hard 4 it.. i still went 4 e exam last week.. but my leader didnt go.. y i nv attend study meetings?? cos my leader nv go.. so i didnt even feel like attendin.. guess i'll hav 2 wait another 3 yrs 2 attend e exam again ba.. haiz..
i will make yr 2006 a fulfilling yr 4 mi.. i wun waste my time on those unimportant stuff liao.. jus like my relation.. is was a down turn 4 mi last yr.. i broke off wif my ex on e dae i actuall celebrated my da jie, stephanie's bdae.. tat dae was realli a bit bad 4 mi.. if i'm wasnt wif her n e grp of soka frenz.. i wun noe wat silly thingy i'll do 2 myself.. n mani thingy happened as well.. jus dunoe wanna tok abt it..
i oso wanna thankie a few persons here.. tat is.. STEPHANIE.. she was e one who help mi a lot n pushin mi 4 activites.. JIAFENG oso.. like my da jie, stephanie.. tis brother-in-law of mine.. oso forces mi a lot.. n MELVIN.. durin my bdae celebration.. he told mi a very big incident tat happens in his family.. thru tat incident he told mi.. i came out wif my decision of solvin my probz.. n of cos BENNY lohz.. he tok 2 mi alot while we were walkin down e streets of orchard.. n ANNA.. my ywd leader.. she oso encourages mi a lot.. hmmm.. of cos there's other frenz as well.. sorrie 4 troublin u guys.. thankie 4 bein there 4 mi.. love u guys alwaz.. rmb.. u guys r e most impt assets of my life.. *wink*
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