* jiu shi wo *

[ jiu shi wo ]

*it's mi of cos.. lolx.. haiz.. it's sundae again.. goin 4 gakkai stuff ltr again.. but tis time round.. haiz.. ah cat cannot make it again.. *sad*.. haiz.. i'm realli troubled.. troubled wif a probz tat i cant anyhow voice out 2 any1.. e worse thingy is tat.. my parents r e ones who cannot noe tis.. haiz.. how?? who shld i trust?? who can voice tis 2?? i'm goin 2 suffocate soon.... i dunoe when i will collapse soon liao le.. if i tell my parents, he will nv trust mi again.. tink tis will make thingys worse.. he wun voice out 2 mi.. i wun noe how he's gettin liao..

how bad can he b?? y he doesnt hav 2 wisdom 2 tink?? luckily.. he got e wisdom 2 let mi noe.. tat's e worse part.. it's givin mi headache.. goin 2 faint soon.. i'm late again.. late by one dae onli.. i tot of registerin 4 o'lvl private again.. i wanna give myself a last chance 2 study harder.. but e registration is close.. close yesterdae.. haiz.. i'm givin up.. i'm realli tired.. y is every1 pressurizin mi??

i jus finished my german course.. guess i'll fly any time.. 13hrs of flight 2 germany.. how i wish i'm not cumin back.. haiz.. i wanna hide.. i wanna run away.. run away.. i dun wanna face e fact.. dun wanna face e truth.. dun wanna b in e situation i am in now.. do u noe how i gettin on? do u noe how i push myself thru?? thru cheatin myself.. pian yi tian guo yi tian.........

y mus i sound so pathetic?? y?? c da jie(steph) filled wif happiness bein wif jie fu.. c xiu juan jie wif jiefu 4 almost 4 yrs.. i'm jus so envy.. haiz.. i oso need sum1 2 care 4 mi ar.. y i alwaz meet e wrong guy?? those i met.. they r jus nt truthworthy enough.. got 1 even step 2 boats at 1 time.. it's so hurtin.. if nv flower-heart means wanna zhan you mi.. i'm a human bein ar.. nt an object ar.. relationship thingy is yong you.. not zhan you ar.. i'm tired.......................................................................................