jessica loh is already dead !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[ jessica loh is already dead!!!!!!!! ]

* haiz.. so much misery surroundin mi.. n guess wat.. i'm suffocatin ar.. recently.. sum stupid rashes appeared on my skin.. haiz.. makin my skin so itchy.. oh no.. no choice.. is jus too itchy.. so i went 2 e doc.. n he gave mi mc.. wif tat.. i hav 2 inform my manager n tell him i wun b there 4 work.. n guess wat.. i sms him he dun wanna reply.. e next dae.. my mom wans mi 2 go 2 e doc again.. so no choice.. tis time round i called him.. called him 4 times n my dad called him twice.. he simply dun wanna pick up my call on purpose.. nvm it's okie.. so i called e office n look 4 him instead..

e moment he pick up e call.. he scolded mi.. sae i shld call e office instead of callin his hp.. i nv noe tat there such a rule ard in e company.. he jus unhappi over mi.. tis is my 1st job.. nobodi tells mi wat 2 do.. i jus hav 2 search n explore my way those all these shit.. thru out e 10 mins call.. i'm jus sayin hmmmm... n listenin 2 all those unreasonable n unneccesary scoldin from mi.. time n again.. he threatens mi.. sae bcos benson(my dad), i'll b ard till now.. if it's others.. they will b sack alread..

i rmb.. when i was confirmed by e company.. e HR director, who is oso my lao ban niang told mi in front of my manager tat " no one will compare u wif ur dad, u r u.. n ur dad is dad ".. he even agreed wif her.. but now.. my life is alwaz threatenin wif danger.. i jus dunoe who will stab mi from e back again.. i told my dad wat happened after i put down e fone.. guess wat.. i realli cant stand e pressure.. i bust out in2 tears.. i cried.. i jus realli tired.. y?? y mi?? y wateva i do, he's jus unhappi over mi?? y do i hav such a hypocritical manager?? he alwaz so nice 2 mi onli when e boss is ard.. but when my boss isnt.. here cums his fox's tail..

he alwaz threaten 2 sack mi.. n alwaz sae bcos of mi dad.. i can stay in e company till now.. haiz.. is jus hatred n personal attack btw e 2 of us.. 1 yr plus in e company.. i jus dunoe when will i realli break down.. he jus simply dun work wif compassion.. i'm jus a 17 yrs old ger.. he alwaz bull shit in e company.. tink tat he noes everything.. hahaha.. tat's funny.. he dun allows mi 2 tok.. ever 2 my jie n my close fren anna.. if they tok 2 mi.. they will in turn gets scoldin.. n he alwaz use my lao ban niang 2 threaten mi.. ever if i wanna take mc.. it mus b bcos of veri veri serious illness.. sumtimes.. it's not i realli loves skippin work.. is jus tat.. i alwaz weak.. i often hav flu.. n doc alwaz give mi mc.. he noe i'm under pressure.. i cant affect 2 neglect even is jus small sickness like cold flu..

i jus dunoe when will i go crazy.. i realli love tis job.. is alwaz filled wif challenges n filled wif experiences.. everyone is nice 2 mi.. onli my manager n my leader.. 2 hypocrites in one small department.. is realli bull shit.. i noe both boss n lao ban niang realli treat mi n my family veri nice.. dad n uncle roger (boss) noe each other 4 almost 30 yrs.. my dad used 2 work there.. but he met sum conflict n he left.. now he's back.. he intro mi in.. even wifout an interview by him(my manager).. i'm arranged 2 work in e qc under e instruction of boss.. tat's e veri 1st thingy tat makes him(my manager) so bei song(not happi).. now boss paid 4 y german course n wans mi 2 go 2 germany.. he's even more unahppi.. cos he alwaz wish tat boss will put his baobei(my leader) 4 e training in germany..

when he scolds mi.. he will sae " go hm n tell ur mom i scold u".. isnt tat tryin 2 threaten my mom 2 cum 2 company n scold him?? luckily my mom didnt.. once in a while, boss will look 4 mi.. he will alwaz ask how's my work n how's thingy in my department.. i'll alwaz sae " everythingy is fine, my manager treats mi veri nice ".. when one of e production manager knew tat i'm alwaz speakin up 4 my manager from my dad.. he sae i'm stupid n silly.. y dun i speak up e truth.. n y mus i cover up 4 him.. my manager's reputation in e company is bad.. he isnt gd wif all e salepersons: jess,soon hoe, uncle adrain, uncle ng, jeremy.. he isnt gd wif my director, uncle jonathan too.. neither e production managers like him especially uncle tok.. even my director dun likes him.. can u imagine?? there's oso a setter whom he used 2 b gd wif.. uncle seet.. now.. uncle seet dun even wanna speak 2 my manager..

tis thingy came in2 e ears of my boss.. even my boss oso feel tat it's cruel 2 treat a 17 yrs old ger wif hatred n personal attack.. he handle tis issue 2gether wif my dad n my director.. boss ask him twice.. " are u able 2 handle jessica or not??" till e end, my manager did not answer my boss.. he got a warning from my boss.. but till now.. is alread 2 weeks le.. thingys nv get anythingy better.. he still scolds mi wif out reasons.. but i noe i cant leave tis company.. cos i'm indebted 2 boss.. 4 wat he had done 2 my family.. my life is threatening 4 every sec i live.. my family.. now oso havin probz.. my idiotic bro oso veri kb.. he jus dun listen anyone of us.. n his studies.. jsu like shit.. i dun wan him 2 b like mi workin at such a young age..

haiz.. my mom n dad oso addin on 2 my pressure.. i noe they r tired at work.. but can u spare a tot tat i'm tired too?? i jus cant get 2 slp 4 e past 1 week.. n noe i'm been havin headache n flu.. but i noe i cant go 2 doc.. cos i can take mc again.. my studies.. is in a mess.. i cant opt 4 night class in poly.. they need min. 3 yrs of experience in my field.. my gakkai activities.. is tiring goin 4 meetin after work.. but i noe i need 2 chant hard 4 wisdom n strengthen.. 4 e gd fortunate..my byakuren training.. my work.. i oso dunoe wat 2 do.. i even tot of commitin suicide though i noe it wun helps.. but it will lessen my pain.. frenz mite find mi cheerful.. but i'm no longer e same old mi..

JESSICA LOH IS ALREADY DEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!