i'm working on others' happiness n let mine b found eventually

[i'm working on others' happiness n let mine be found eventually]

tis few daes been veri busi.. every dae is chiong-ing 4 my work.. my work is piling up.. n it jus gets taller n taller on my desk.. jus like fridae.. i got planning mtg at 8pm at bukit batok.. guess wat.. i onli managed 2 leave my work place at paya lebar at 7pm.. oh no.. luckily tat dae my admin manager cum sales personel goin hm early.. if not, i tink i 8pm oso dun need 2 go back.. haiz.. jus like yester.. i planned 2 work till 2pm n chiong 2 tbsc 4 e sd nationwide mtg de.. but office pple goin back early.. i left my work place ard 1.15plus ba.. oh no.. got lotsa work haven finish yet.. die lahz tis time round.. mondae sure got lotsa stuff 2 finish..

was pretti fun yester during e mtg actuall.. got lotsa sd seniors shared their testimony.. got mani cic n iic graduated oso.. got sum newly appointed ones oso.. was quite happi 4 them oso.. though i dun realli hav any institue.. but attending nrpsd de wif xueyun.. but xueyun has 2 leave early.. sobx.. luckily still lay leng ard.. was hopin 2 c him.. till e end of e mtg.. i tot it will b a disappointing dae 2 mi.. wanna sae gd bye 2 yvonne, caifeng n soo shan they all.. then when i turn round facing e exit door of e main hall.. i catch a glimpse of a person's back who realli look like him.. end up they sae take grp photos.. once again.. tat person disappear in front of mi.. after e photo taking, i left tbsc wif soo shan.. at e lobby area.. saw one of my close sista.. i dun realli feel e close-ness wif her anymore..

tat's wat how mi after she was attached.. tat's wat i hate 2 c oso.. i noe having a bf 2 mani gers is e most impt thingy in life.. but dun u need frenz n close frenz ard too?? last time.. when i was deeply in life in my sec sch life.. i oso tink e same way.. tink back.. i realli feel tat tat's a veri stupid way of thinking.. oops.. shld sae foolish.. i'm realli naive last time.. love is not everythingy.. jus like i once quote from sensei's guidance : " love is not 2 pple gazing at each other but 2 pple lookin ahead in e same direction ".. i can live out a bf's love.. but i noe there's lotsa frenz loving n caring 4 mi.. tat's enough le..

at e bus stop outside shell petrol kisok.. i saw him.. was quite happi actuall.. n my bus came.. i boarded e bus.. yet he didnt notice mi.. so sad.. n didnt hav e courage 2 call him oso.. was even more upset when i saw him not realli happi n feelin a bit down.. heartbroken.. but i'm praying 4 his absolute happiness everydae.. " You must be happy worz.. I'm praying earnestly for you.. "
thankie for waking mi up 2 my senses.. after seeing u yester.. i realised tat i should not be hopin 2 find my happiness so selflessly.. buy workin hard on others' happiness n let mine be found eventually.. jus like when we practice.. we mus practice 4 oneself n 4 others..

took a small test on chinese fortune thingy de.. n tat's how i'm being described..

[ Your life is represented by the garden full of rich soil with a devoted spirit, so you like to help people without asking for anything in return. You keep your word and you like kind and determined people. You look like an easy-going person but you are actually quite determined. It's hard to tell what's on your mind and you tend to keep a low profile.]

jus feel tat it's realli describe mi well.. i help pple n wont ask anythingy in return.. i do keep my words.. hahaz.. n as 4 relationship.. tat's wat they sae abt mi..

[ In your relationship, you are mutually loving and respectful of each other. Your love is full of romance and happiness. In romance, according to our analysis, you are easily attracted to someone you admire in your heart, but you often end up empty-handed because you are too shy to go after him. Generally speaking, men do not have deep first impression of you, so they need time to discover your inner beauty. You, however, tend to like a person at the first sight, but not after a period of time. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to show your inner beauty by doing more activities, establishing better habits, and socializing with more people. This way you can express your inner beauty naturally all the time, which makes your romance go more smoothly. In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner might be introduced by relatives and friends, or through matchmaking. You tend to be inexperienced in love, unable to express yourself, and do not know how to actively pursue someone without being too sticky or giving up easily. You have opportunities but are afraid to get hurt, so eventually it is not easy for you to have the spark of love. If you are still seeking your love partner don't rush because someone nearby likes you, so as long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.]

i'm tat kinda of timid person 2wards love.. n tat's true.. n i alwaz believe in 1st sight love a lot.. mayb bcos of my horoscope - sagittarius ba.. hahaz.. n i'm alwaz afraid 2 get hurt.. and n as 4 wealth.. they sae i noe how 2 make money but not gd in saving.. yup.. tat's true.. i not stingy type of person.. i'll spend wat i hav 2 spend even when i finacially tight.. lolx.. 1st one mus improve.. so i'm savin money now.. kekez..

P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask from u..