[ milkwalk?? ]

milkwalk ??

yupz.. woke up at 9plus today.. actually i intend to sleep till 10am.. but somehow.. i awaken by all the cling cling clack clack produced my DEAREST mom... she woke up.. and was doing so cleaning up in the kitchen.. did my morning prayers and went to have a shower.. at the same time.. my brother woke up.. was begging him to let me watch the tv programme at 11am.. want to watch wei xiao pasta before i go for the milkrun.. at first.. he didnt really agree.. end up.. i told him.. i will help to get him breakfast.. and he AGREED.. FINALLY.. i just have a feeling i wont get a chance to watch any tv programme in the evening.. dad will be home by then.. he sure will be the one OCCUPYING the tv.. and i guesss i will return home quite late also..

naomi sms and asked me what time i'm reaching zouk for the milkrun.. she didnt bring her running tag.. and asked if i can get it for her.. lolx.. somehow it sounds too impossible.. i'm no longer staying at clementi.. if not, going to holland village (her house) wont be a problem.. but now.. i'm staying at yishun.. meeting xianyun at 2pm at tiong bahru plaza... yupz. she's going for the milkrun too!!! actually i asked her quite last minute also.. only on monday.. and somehow.. to my surprise.. she agreed to take part.. love you lots xianyun!!!

left home at around 12.45.. took bus 851 to tiong.. i'm like practically taking this bus everyday.. cause everytime i go work, i'll take 851 to bugis and transfer to bus80 to tanjong pagar.. so afraid that i will be late.. but luckily.. i didnt.. just reached in time at 2pm.. xianyun was slightly late.. she was having church service.. feel so BAD that i must make her rush here and there.. but thanks for coming.. it's like so few months ago we seen each other.. somehow, beside all the blog entries.. we dont even know how each other is doing in our own respective life..

ya.. indeed.. i didnt do that well.. and things isnt going that well all this while for me.. and practically everyday, i'm repeating my story time and again.. i dont really want to say it.. but i know friends who are concern for me wants to know what really happened to me in order to encourage me.. yupz.. thanks guys!! i really feel so thankful and grateful to have such great friends in life.. the weather is kind of warm today.. and i simply sweat from head to toe even before the run starts.. kenji hurted himself so didnt make it for the milkrun.. but alvin came!! at least he make an effort.. though he is almost late for the event..

the run started at 4plus.. it was a 4km run.. but i think i practically walk through out.. lolx.. my leg is kind of painful all a sudden..maybe because of the fall the other time ba.. 4km.. challenging.. it's like so long i never walked such long distance.. last time.. i remember when me and Daryl are still together.. we once walked from bukit merah back to clementi.. pro right?? i also dont know how we made it.. kekez.. but that was SO LONG ago.. many years back.. saw many familiar faces also.. and hear many familiar voices.. and one of them is mr F.. dont want to mention who's he.. someone i'm afraid to see...

finally.. we made it for the WALK!! hahaz.. back to zouk at around 5plus.. went to queue at the bag deposit counter to claim our bags.. we waited for more than 30mins to get our barang barang back.. oh gosh!! xianyun almost went CRAZY queuing for the bags.. lolx.. after which , we went back to great world to get ourselves washed up... at first, xianyun supposed to meet her family at bugis for steamboat session.. but it will be the 3rd time she eating it if she goes.. end up.. she didnt go.. and we went into 7-eleven to get a drink.. had soya bean milk.. like so long never drink it liao le.. hahaz.. seriously..

after then, we took 51 to bugis.. throughout the journey.. was telling her about yuan.. i think i really makes her blood boiled.. she must be thinking : "yinmun, you're real stupid".. ya.. how stupid can i go ar? i tink not any further ba.. love makes me real stupid somehow.. has Mos burger for dinner.. ebi rice burger.. our favourite!! she was like cursing her way through.. but i dont hate him lehz.. if it's e jessica loh last time.. i'll sure hate him. but i dont.. i also dont know why.. i just believe.. it takes two hands to clap.. i think i must bear the responsiblity.. cant really blame him totally.. it sound so unfair.. jiayou ba!!

saw his msn nick yesterday.. "when will i get the chance to tell you i love you?? -but.. the heartless wind keep blowing in.." i really want to know who's the girl... she has really good ability to capture and lock your heart.. she must be someone real pretty.. real nice.. maybe by knowing, it will make the cells in my heart die faster.. Nad told me it isnt worthwhile.. and pointless to know.. but Joyce encouraged me to go talk to him and find out from him.. i want to.. and dying to.. but.. i know him well enough to confirm that he wont tell me.. who am i to him?? just a NOBODY.. seriously a NOBODY.. if he said and that person isnt me, that's worse.. i'll be like knocking myself against the wall right?? so stupid.. why must use a knife and pierce into your own heart??

xianyun asked me if he were to come back, will i still accept him?? i said i wont.. but xianyun just know me too well, she say i will... ya.. that's what in my mind.. i told her depend what's e reason he gave me... you're such a weakling !! *haiz*... saw him online again.. at 11plus somemore.. was kind of shocked he's online at this hour.. i just wonder he always change his nick purposely when i'm online to let me see ma?? you dont even consider how i feel.. if those words arent meant for me, you know how hurting it will be to see all those msn nicks?? "woaini, hold my hand".... i'm not blind.. seriously, i hope i am now..

hope i am blind.. so that i wont see what you writes.. hope i am deaf.. so that i wont have to hear what my friends are telling me to do... to be haste to him and things and that.. hope i am mute.. so that i wont have to repeat our story time and again.. hope that i can lose my sense of touch.. so that i wont feel the pain i'm bearing now.. grant me my wish!!