[ love is giving all that i have yet regret not being able to give you more..... ]

love is giving all that i have yet regret not being able to give you more.....

i got many many to updates.. i dont know if FIVE days straight of updates will be TOO MUCH for you guys to absorb what's happening to me now.. anyway, if you're TRUE FRIEND and FAITHFUL READER, you will read every single details!! :D am i right? =]

Monday - today is the first day of the JCI Replacement.. and was arranged to be on PM shift.. back to 8B.. cant believe some of the staffs can still recognise me.. though i really look much much plumper than i was in year 1.. time to do something about it!! lolx.. work was not really busy.. but everyone is chionging for Case-study cause submittion date is this coming WEDNESDAY.. just 3 days to complete the case-study, nursing care plan and find out the medication.. it's a bit too RUSH lohz.. somemore we can only read the patient's case notes when we are free.. actually, not really that free de.. cause everytime when we want to read the notes, then CALL-BELL will ring and stuff..

am a little tired today.. maybe cause i have 2 weeks of holidays and i start to grow a bit lazy.. but i know i will sure get used to it.. not much of a problem adapting to the ward cause i was here before actually:D Ms Jay went back to school.. so i didnt see her at all today.. but Ms Govri gave us a very short debrief about what Ms Jay wanted to tell us.. anyway, it's okie lahz.. all the skills FINISHED liao.. just have to do case-study and happily pass this 5days..

Tuesday - slept at 1am this morning.. was chionging my case-study last night while waiting for friend to call.. but friend didnt call me back.. hais.. on afternoon shift today AGAIN! am TIRED.. slept quite late actually.. have no time to check email actually.. cause back home, i'm already half dead liao.. though it's not really that busy but isnt relaxing at all.. somemore i was tasked at female side.. a lot of turning and changing..

busy with SK 15th anniversary cum k2 graduation event and also the SMU R.I.C.E project.. still have yet to do anything about my internal blood drive that will take place in this coming November.. gosh! Mdm Qian will KILL me manz! hais.. couldnt stop being stress at all.. worried about friend's problem too.. hasnt get a good chance to talk to friend cause busy with attachment this few days..

Wednesday - last afternoon shift for the week.. Friend sms me last night before i sleep.. say got things want to tell me.. hais.. i just dislike people tell me things half half lohz.. cause i will think and ponder about what is the thing they want to say.. anyway, i just hope things are not as bad as i thought.. managed to finish my case study last night.. and submit on time today.. went over to CDC 2 today to meet Sister Lay Hoon together with other groups of year 1 and year 2..

i just cant stand the year 1!!!!... are they really nurses not? the way they act... exactly like a kid. gosh! no professionism at all.. *piang* .. spoken to Sister Lay Hoon today regarding my sponsorship.. ask her about applying for polytechnic after i graduate.. am happy to hear that i can apply polytechnic on my own if i graduate with the gpa of more than 3.5.. hmmm.. i am really working hard to pull my gpa HIGHER.. Ms Jay was on MC today.. think she really work till too busy liao then fall sick.. work was okie today.. busy doing hourly para and changing, turning and NG feeding patient.. Friend sms me and i fall asleep.. gosh! am just too tired!! paiseh! too tired liao.. plus this few days, been having some pain over the left side of my stomach.. am starting to worry if there's anything wrong with me..

Thurday - slept at almost 1am today and woke up at 4.40am this morning.. gosh! i just barely drag myself out of bed!! on morning shift today.. Ms Jay didnt come today because she's needed in school for the seminar in school tomorrow.. sianz diao lohz.. she promised to be here for this one week.. but wont be here even tomorrow.. hais..

was left alone to be in the ward for 5days.. one patient of mine expired this morning.. hais.. am a little upset cause i nursed her since she came in.. hais! may gohonzon bless you... am busy today morning.. doing sponging and stuff.. didnt get to feed patient today.. but was quite busy doing my hourly para and stuff.. chiong home after finishing work at 3pm.. then went to meet Sakinah at Yishun Mac.. really want to complain.. they got adapter but cannot work.. end up my lappy just die in about an hour time.. sianz diao..

didnt get much things done.. but more like updating her.. then came home and continue doing my proposal.. talked to Friend today.. hais.. why are things becoming like this? why?!!!!!

TODAY - slept at 12plus yesterday and woke up for AM shift today.. last day in the ward today.. am really TIRED.. was really busy doing changing, sponging, feeding, hourly para... finished work at 3pm and had shower at the ward then headed to SK to meet Qisheng and Mrs Tay.. went to have dinner together then came back to get ready for the meeting..

i said a lot of stupid things today.. make Qisheng laugh at me and tease me lohz.. thanks lohz.. but i hasnt been laughing like this for long liao.. i'm grateful that Qisheng cracked jokes after jokes today.. i am not going to hold anymore hope.. cause what i end up having is DISAPPOINTMENT.. Stella, you know what i am saying right? hais.. something happened to one of Stella's friend.. the company she used to work in had a sports day.. then one of the friend collapsed after the event ended and passed away.. when i heard about this, i suddenly feel that life is so UNPREDICTABLE.. hais.. dont be too upset.. send prayers to him ba..

went to have some food after we finished the meeting.. me, my brother, Qisheng and Stella went to Tampines Mac.. and saw Siyi there.. she's waiting for Melvin (tan).. so i saw Melvin too.. then at about 11pm, we left home..

love this song..

他和她的故事

他说他很爱她他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬着疑问不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
谁爱谁谁又流乾了眼泪
谁后悔难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎谁又该乾脆离开
谁爱谁谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔谁在忍受着孤独
谁了解他退出她孤独
谁了解谁退出谁孤独
爱得太盲目
谁不满足