why it turns out like this?
*guess i jus been thru so mani thru out tis mth.. those "illnesses" tat r botherin mi.. they r yet 2 b known.. i jus wanna wk harder 2 support myself.. my medical fees.. my mom currently nt wkin ar.. is diff 4 e family.. yet dad.. jus got e " lost of words" feelin when i mention dad.. was asked out by yun.. at 1st i didnt noe wat's goin on..was told or shld sae booked by her onli.. until tat dae itself..which is todae..i knew tat we r goin 4 bowlin n steamboat.. i told him abt it.. he sound disappointed 2 mi.. i realli wk too hard tat i got no time 4 him..
was quite a miserable dae early mornin.. was feelin nt realli happi over wk yester.. guess i feel beta after i met them.. was late 4 bowlin.. cos onli manage 2 clear sum wk stuff onli at 3pm.. guess my nco warriors 03/04 will simply understand mi well.. lolx (>.<).. i didnt bowl actuall.. guess my abdominal pain r realli givin mi headache.. so i choose nt 2 make it worse.. though i realli feel lyk bowlin [ i dun realli noe how 2 ].. jus feel tat i'm filled wif all those big n small probz tat i hav yet 2 solve.. i noe by draggin it will make thingys worse.. but i'm realli exhausted.. he jus dun understand mi at all.. i hav changed.. so do u.. if u realli lurve mi.. plz.. accept e mi nw.. steamboat.. was realli upset when yun ask mi wat had gone wrong btw us.. mths again..we actuall faced e same thingys alread.. we had lost of words when we cum smsin or tokin on fone.. i knew sum how sumthingy will happened btw us..
guess 2005 was a bad yr 4 mi.. haiz.. we walked towards marina south.. instead of takin 400 bus.. thru out.. we had been discussin wat had happened btw mi n him.. at tat point of time.. i held on 2 my tears.. i noe sumthing bad is cumin my way.. haiz.. go there.. eat zheng fa steamboat.. actuall okie lahz.. jus tat i realli nt in e mood 2 eat ar.. but still force myself 2 b strong in front of my frenz..eat n eat.. they ate prawns oso.. live ones summore.. can c them jumpin.. haiz.. i'm stupid.. go ask him whether he still lurve mi nt.. in e end.. he finall voice out le.. all a sudden.. my tears jus flow out.. i tink i mus hav scare all of them.. mayb we r fated 2 end tis way ba.. wat 2 do.. haiz.. we broke up le.. you yuan neng zai xiang yu.. almost 11 mths le.. 3 more daes onli.. chang tong bu ru duan tong.. end le oso gd.. he sound so calm 2 mi.. isnt he sad lyk mi do?? i cried n cried non-stop.. till nw i still cryin.. anw.. u r in my heart 4ever..
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