[ 看来我对你的好感似乎要有所保留了.... ]

看来我对你的好感似乎要有所保留了....

stayed home today.. woke up at about 11.30am this morning after sleeping at only 1am this morning.. has been considering whether to attend the memorial gongyo session at SCC but i didnt managed to fight the SANSHO SHIMA.. so i have chosen to STAY HOME and rest.. had a shower and did my morning prayers.. early morning when i looked into the mirror.. i was SCREAMING so LOUD.. cause my skin on my face is.... is... HORRIBLE.. 破皮了！think is the AFTER EFFECTS of the cycling trip that day.. i'm so SAD.. cause after so LONG, i turned MUCH MUCH FAIRER.. now.. BACK TO SQUARE after going into the sun for a cycling trip! haiyo! (T.T)

home alone today.. Mom went to work early in the morning.. Dad and didi went to work at about 2pm.. had chicken wings rice and fries for brunch today.. super FILLING.. and watched the korean drama - "我叫金三顺".. have watched it before actually but have chosen to watch it again since it's retelecast on channel U..

was really FUNNY at times.. and really TOUCHING at some moment.. till i wanted to CRY so much.. “好希望自己也可以那样感动！”i know i am DAY-DREAMING lahz.. BUT.. sometimes HUMAN BEINGS just need to have DREAMS to live on.. even if you know it's DAY-DREAMING, i also dont mind 一头栽下去.. 这也许就是所谓的“愚蠢”吧！went online at the same time too.. to check my email and update my blog for yesterday..

home alone was BORING.. i spent hours looking through friends' blog and updating mine.. and leaving the TV on just to create the image that i'm not home alone.. hahaz! how STUPID of me.. was sms-ing Zhiwen the whole day.. trying to come out with the plan for next wednesday's meet up.. and maybe Seeleng jie will be joining us too.. read through my friendster blog today.. and it reminds of the happy moments i had with Daryl.. why are the both of US so FOOLISH last time? why didnt we CHERISH one another? now, things doesnt seems to have a chance to turn back liao..

i know he still have feelings for me.. BUT.. i wasnt sure of mine.. i cant promise that we can be as happy again.. i cant promise i still have feelings for you.. and i cant see a future ahead of us... i'm sorry that i know if you were to see it, you will be very UPSET.. but, i dont wish to hurt you again.. just hope that when you enter NS, you will forget me gradually..

somehow have a good impression of a guy.. let's call him "W" .. just find him NICE.. BUT.. after getting close to him.. somehow, my impression of W changes.. i realised he isnt as NICE as i thought.. and like what i told Xueyun dajie.. i will tell him not to treat me so nice.. cause once i have feelings for him, even if he's BAD, i will be BLIND.. Dajie said i very 勇敢.. dare to tell W that.. cause i know if i dont make things clear.. 一旦我陷下去就一发不可收拾了！跌倒了再爬起来不是件谈何容易的一件事.... 我不想历史重演！我不想再为任何人哭泣了！

shao-mu tomorrow with Mom, 阿公 and 小舅！go 拜太公.. waking up at 7am tomorrow...


P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIWEN! love you lots! =]