[ 明知相思苦，何必苦相思？]

明知相思苦，何必苦相思？

woke up at 1pm today.. my HEAD really ACHES! i can feel as though it is BURSTING open!.... Chee Ching sms early in the morning, i wanted to wake up BUT my brain isnt telling my body to do.. i just cant take it! THIS PAIN is UNBEARABLE! FORCED myself to wake up and wash up.. then, i realised i have a BIG "mountain" of clothes not ironed yet.. that includes my uniform.. well, i know if i am not going to get it done today, i will delay till sunday.. and end up, the "mountain" of clothes will grow bigger..

so, i set my heart down to plug in the iron and bring out all my clothes to iron.. while ironing the clothes, i realised that lately, i have been wearing a lot WHITE tops.. maybe since my grandma passed away, i have not been wearing any coloured clothing.. been wearing BLACK, WHITE, GREY top very often.. during this shao-mu session, i really miss my grandma and Lihua jie jie a lot.. and because of that, i hasnt been sleeping well lately.. and because i am going to share a testimony on my coming ITESD meeting, i have start to think about how my nursing career started.. and in the midst of my course, this two persons - my loved ones.. left me....

想到这点就让我感觉我的心好痛！not sleeping well, also means that my digestive system will get worse.. and my miagraine problem will start to haunt me too.. lunch was chicken wings rice.. and thanks to didi to be so kind to da-bao for me.. left home at about 5pm.. took bus855 to harbourfront.. on the way there, saw Daryl.. it's raining cats and dogs at the westside.. and thank god, i'm well-prepared this time round.. bringing my cardigan and umbrella with me! kekez! and it's so KIND of Chee Ching to remind me to bring my umbrella! ya, after the experience the other time , i have learnt my lesson liao..

meet Chee Ching for dinner.. and as usual, he's LATE.. cant blame him.. he look so TIRED and it's still busy at work.. discussion meeting planning at Aunty Helen's place today.. we didnt do any daimoku or gongyo.. went straight into going through the Setai list for members.. deadline heard was 16th april, next wednesday.. got to sumbit it on the Chapter meeting.. then, we went through the planning for our coming discussion meeting..

well, i think i will have a hard time from next week onwards, got to start school and it makes my gakkai activities tougher.. BUT, i know i can CHALLENGE it with abundant daimoku.. and not forgetting to plan my time well and have essential amount of rest.. no other NOT NECESSARY commitment! except for for gakkai activities and studies! and many many REST!.... gtg le.. dad bought durian for us! SUPPER time! heez=]

a song to recommend...

title:男人女人 by 许茹芸 and 阿穆隆

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情里好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生

爱爱爱爱了几回
也明白其中滋味
付出的从来不会等于收回
我却还在等待着谁能出现

伤伤伤伤了几回
也曾经为爱憔悴
爱情好人总比坏人狼狈
我却还是学不会狠心对谁

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真
让我不必再心疼

女人女人我答应做个好人
我答应用我一生
来换你的快乐一生

男人男人多希望你是好人
多希望用你的真让我不必再心疼
女人女人我答应做个好人
不会再让我(你)心疼一等再等
你就是我等的那个人

男人男人
女人女人
多么希望你是对的人