[ my frustration..... ]

MY FRUSTRATION!!!!!!!!!

i'm seriously not the type who will deploy others a task or a job... cause i would feel insecure and feels that it would be safer to do it myself.. To gain my trust on your capability is not an easy task.. And my first impression of a person usually determines a death sentence or send you to heaven.. And we all know for a person that has been sentenced to death sentence to receive special 赦免 is so TOUGH..

This shows how impossible it would be for me to change my impression of you once the first impression you is set!... I'm a person who is afraid of making mistakes.. Cause sometimes once things are done, it cannot be undone.. From the past experiences i had, i learnt to think twice or thrice before making a decision.. Cause some decision made would simply ruin or take away your entire life.. And i must declare that i hate friends who lie to me.. cause this shows that you dont treat me as your friends or you dont trust me at all..

If I'm your friend, then i'm sure that things can be settled peacefully without having a need to create a lie.. cause once a lie is said, it also means that more lies need to be created to cover the first one you said.. it's going to be a endless chain of lies!!! if you want to stop, in other words, you have to own up and confess that you have been lying.. and which means, i'm sure i wont trust you anymore..

i seriously dont see a harm in speaking the truth.. By doing so, at least i would understand the reason and your difficulties.. and do as much to help you! You would gain my trust and allow me to be frank to you too.. DONT give me any chance to give you death sentence by starting a lie.. cause i can assure you that death sentence set by me is irreversible!

it's hard for me to trust a person to do something or change my impression.. BUT, there's always exception.. I do trust people around me.. it all just depends on your luck and your fate with me.. Try harder as the word IMPOSSIBLE can be written and read as I-M-POSSIBLE too! Like what others said: "When there's a will, there's a way!"

just have too many frustration recently.. if i dont let out, i'll be probably be like a FAT BALLOON in months to come!! someone please save me from this misery!!!! i need to ease my pain!!!!