[ my SWEET HISTORY....]

my SWEET HISTORY......

was at home TODAY... doing Project R.I.C.E and stuff.. and feel a little TIRED.. so nap and rest at home.. posted all my pictures that i have in facebook.. suddenly misses Yep Family A LOT! maybe because my grandma's anniversary round the corner and my birthday is coming.. that's why i miss them SO MUCH? hahaz! last year around this time, my grandma left me.. i remember attending only 2 hours of the Y-camp and i was called home because grandma is critically ill.. and MOST of them attend my grandma's wake one day after they finished their Y-camp.. am so TOUCHED cause they are really tired..

then i remember how Yep family tried to cheer me up by organising a trip to Escape theme park during my birthday.. i couldnt celebrate my birthday was my grandma was cremated one day before my birthday.. and they cheered me up by planning the trip.. my dream.. cause i have never been to Escape theme park though it existed for quite some time.. i always didnt make it when my other friends organised a trip there.. and to cheer me up, Yep family organised a trip there.. though it rains (and kind of spoilt everyone's mood) but we indeed have fun.. what i feel sad about is Amalina being angry cause we insisted on leaving the park after it started pouring..

and they surprised me with a gift too.. it was also the LAST trip i seen him.. there after, the cold shoulder increases and we said BYE.. actually, i know it would be the ending way before we started.. this is something i didnt tell anyone.. even my bestie Stella.. i just dont want to surrender and wont wish to believe it so i still gave it a try.. and i know i have tried my best and have no regrets.. i must be thankful cause he made me grown a lot in many ways.. now, i have learnt to be stronger and can differentiate right and wrong better.. Zaki posted a comment on a picture of me and him saying that it's sweet history.. it was indeed once sweet.....

like i said to many, i dont see a need why must i forget about him.. cause he is part of my memories.. be it sweet or bitter, i cherish it.. and wont forget it.. unless i knock my hair and 失意！hahaz! then that one cant help lahz..

to all those who are suffering a failed realtionship: what had happened, HAD HAPPENED.. even how hard you try to forget, you wont forget even if you want to.. just take it as a lesson taught.. it is not EASY to walk out of a 感情的创伤.. BUT.. it all boils down to your OWN DETERMINATION.. whether you want to keep dwelling into it or whether you want to learn a happy life.. it all can be determined by YOU and this decision is in your OWN hands..

it took me HALF A YEAR to GET OVER it... i can be very frank.. i can seems that i have walked out of it immediately, right after it happened.. but not many knows that i suffered quietly for half a year.. HALF A YEAR... i did cried, i did cursed, i did blamed myself.. BUT, did it helps to lessen my heartache? IT DIDNT, to be frank.. it added on to my heartache cause i kept dwelling into that.. NO ONE should be blame for that failure caused.. it's God's will, it's your destiny.. it might be a good fortune that you guys have been seperated.. maybe you wont see it now, but you will know it one day..

i know it seems easy to say.. BUT i have been through it myself.. i know it well.. it's easy said than done.. put some DETERMINATION in, add som COURAGE in.. and you will make it.. be it HALF A YEAR, ONE YEAR, take all the time you have to walk out of it.. and you know once you walked out of it, you will feel really relieved.. and also relieved that you wont blame him or either yourself anymore.. on the other hand, you will thank him.. stop grumbling and dwelling, it wont help.. jiayou le, for those who are trying to walk out of the failed relationship.. GAMBATTE! you have all my support! :D

hahaz, didnt know how come i will side track so much from Yep family to failed relationship.. BUT anyway, i want to thank Yep family for giving me so much wonderful memories.. and HIM for allowing me to grow.. Yep family, let's MEET UP! :D

let's make a promise to go back to watch the stars AGAIN! and bring honey stars this time too!:P