你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

meet up with yong ming yesterday.. it's been almost 9months plus since we last met each other.. well, it was great catching up with him.. met him at DG and from DG, we walked to Suntec.. along the way, we shared some of our nursing encounters with each other..

headed to Suntec cause there's a wider variety of food for us to choose from.. and we had Pepper Lunch!=] had my favourite Beef Pepper Rice.. then.. we continued to chat with each other.. after finishing our meals, we headed to Coffee Bean.. had a drink there.. and chit-chatted.. then, we met one of his friends.. nothing much.. just pure catching up.. and really thankful to him..

did talked some sense to me regarding me and 卓文.. cause he seen 卓文 before during last year's Vibrant blood drive.. well, many thought we are still together and will be ever lasting.. BUT.. the fact is that.. many don't know that we did have many disputes and unhappiness for the almost one year of time together.. maybe letting each other go is a relieve from all these ba.. maybe, only through this, can we be truly happy..

i don't know about him.. but to me.. it seems that he's been doing well.. and i am the ONLY ONE being AFFECTED BADLY.. i know it's not worth dwelling in it for so long but somehow rather, i just can't help it.. i really don't know what should i do to get myself out of these mess..

slept at 3am this morning.. and i couldn't wake up at 630am for the morning gongyo session at Senja.. have to A380 peishan because i can't get up.. and was struggling with my STUPID gastric pain.. so, i went back to sleep.. for the whole day.. just stayed at home and watch videos, play games etc.. and i finished watching 下一站，幸福 and 海派甜心! actually both shows also watched half way and stop a bit here and there.. it did enlightened me in some ways but it did sadden me a lot as well..

like what Ben tells me.. there's no turning back between us liao.. and i don't want to HOPE for anything.. cause i know once i HOPE, DEVASTATION will come and knock HOPE down again.. so, let's just let nature takes its course.. and most importantly now is my education and my work in future.. and i think it applies to him as well?:D 加油，李卓文！要让我的牺牲更有意义，就好好的把自己的生活打点好，努力完成你的梦想！