早知今日，何必当初？

早知今日，何必当初？

well.. today got up and saw 卓文's sms.. he seems super polite till i feel like i am a stranger to him.. he asked me if i am free today for a meet up.. cause he want to get his things back from me.. just happened that i am going to Clementi for a meeting.. i suggested to him to meet at Clementi.. instead of meeting me early, he requested to meet me after my meeting..

well it's for his own convenience.. not for my sake.. met up at MOS burger then sat down and chit-chatted for an hour plus.. before we headed home in a train.. well, just pure catching up.. talking about school work and his application for job etc.. and his plans.. he seems much much happier than before.. maybe it's a good thing he let me go.. probably he feels that i won't be happy with him ba.. and he don't feel happy with me too.. well, i don't know if he's really happy.. but i would hope he is.. cause no matter what, he still holds an important place in my heart.. i want the best to be his..

i don't know what will happened to me and him in years to come.. but for now.. just pure friends.. like we were before.. and i want to walk out of this mess, and enjoy the happy moments i have now.. i don't know who is the next person who will come and make a mess of my life, but for now, i just want to concentrate of what i have now.. and cherish and treasure it, before it leaves me AGAIN..

Ben going to be away for an exchange program from May- July.. and he's preparing his exams now.. even if i am not okie, i know i wont want him to worry.. so..... i will try my best to get over it.. and not do things that will hurt myself.. and school reopening on monday.. i guess i'll be probably very affected that day.. cause it's supposed to be our anniversary.. SUPPOSED TO BE... so ya.. just hope things go well.. well, i shall stay positive about it=D

真心希望你真的快乐！=D