HAPPY moments are always SHORT...
woke up at about 10plus this morning.. i must say that i am really TIRED.. slept almost at 1am this morning cause i was trying to finish reading the HR (Human Revolution) chapter - "Emerging from the Earth" for my sharing with Wei Zhong on the coming institution meeting.. managed to finish HALF yesterday.. and think i'll be able to finish yesterday it today.. Mom dont really like the Bonia bag she bought and hopes to change it.. so, i prayed and went with Mom to Northpoint..
went to change the bag and still got some spare money.. so Mom bought another wallet.. then i saw a shoes stall.. so went to take a look.. and bought a pair of shoes.. i LOVE it!! show casing the shoes!! =]
it cost me $23.90!then me and Mom went to the foodcourt to have our brunch.. had Chicken chop with mom.. then after which, mom wanted to buy some bread from Fourleaves de.. but we knows.. that area of shops are closed for renovation.. then i told Mom i would want to go to NTUC to search for the pen torch that i NEED to get it no matter what for my attachment.. search all the shops from Yishun central all the way to my house.. BUT, i didnt get it! SH**! but still managed to get the small calculator i need.. thinking of the calculator, it reminds me that i need to revise for my attachment.. HAIS!i'm still in a holiday MOOD! HOW? went home, showered and was taking a super LONG time to see what i should wear.. then decided to wear my black jeans at a white top i got during chinese new year and match it with my shoes and my new Bonia bag! =] loves loves!! ♥supposed to go to Ngee Ann to meet Xueyun.. but, end up, her project meet up with her friends was cancelled.. so went to JE to meet her instead.. and then we went to the NTUC to continue my search for my pen torch.. hais! dont have!! *sad sad* :( then we headed to IMM.. went to walk around.. and Xueyun went to look for her friend, Eileen as well.. my legs HURTS! regretted wearing a new pair of shoes out when i have to walk around throughout the whole day! hais!then at about 5plus, we left for Orchard.. went to meet Stella first and went tot Wisma and Taka to look for Willie's birthday cake.. he didnt know that we are celebrating his birthday in advance for him.. actually his birthday is on the 15th.. but, we wont be meeting that soon again so i propose the idea to celebrate his birthday for him earlier.. hahaz!was at Orchard MRT waiting for them.. many were LATE.. as usual.. and seriously, i dont like people who dont have a sense of time management.. BUT, i guess my MOOD is just BAD recently.. therefore, everything seems to be going WRONG.. i know you guys are late NOT on purpose.. so yup.. headed to Far East after everyone reached except Gina who will be extremely late because of her work.. understandable.. we went for the Indo restuarant i brought Woanlan to the other day.. and we tried new dishes this time.. beside eating the MUST EAT - Ayam Penyet.. we tried the egg plant and kangkong TOO! NICE NICE ! ♥LOVE it manz!then Gina came.. we had lots of jokes through out the dinner! and one of this was the sms Sky (loo) send me yesterday night before i sleep.. 人生起起落落，有时难，有时差，有时好，有时痛。当你跌倒时，要勇敢的站起来，然后转身问：“哇牢！谁推我？”i just CANT stop laughing when i saw this sms.. so was the people i shared this sms with!! hahaz! another FUNNY thing was.. Gina and May was quite late.. and they havent write the card we are giving to Willie.. so, i have to ask them to go toilet and write it in the toilet.. LOLX! funny lohz!! after dinner.. we headed to look for an ideal place to chill.. and we end up at Taka Coffeebean.. was hoping to go to Starbucks.. cause i have the voucher that i want to use.. and i prefer drinks from Starbucks too..then.. we got them to settle Willie down.. and me and Xueyun went off to buy for the cake.. was a CORRECT choice made.. the CAKE was NICE! and we really SURPRISE Willie.. he was totally SHOCKED and had a LOSS of WORDS! hahaz! Willie, be GRATEFUL that you have GREAT FRIENDS like US! heez!=]
The BIRTHDAY BOY - WILLIE! with the 2pieces of chocolate.. *dots*
his FIRST 19th year old BIRTHDAY CAKE!
the CHINGAY PEEPS!(( Willie, May, Stephanie(lam), Gina, Kevin, me, Xueyun and Stella!))it is SAD to say.. we cant always have the FULL STRENGTH around.. MISSING IN ACTION are Dixon, Darrell, Bryant, Yong Sheng, Penny, Liyan, Melvin(tang), Trey, Eunice and Jih Yang.. if Penny comes, we'll have FULL STRENGTH for female trainers.. and as for Cheoro.. only Gina representing this time.. and our Chingay I/Cs, Eunice and Jih Yang.. beside Chinese New Year gathering.. they are always not there for other gatherings.. *SAD SAD* while eating the cake, I was making Willie guess our birthday.. and i must DECLARE! he cant remember MINE! Ooi! what kind of comrade are you sia!?! i want to PROTEST! lolx! and Stella.. CONFIDENTly say WRONGLY! lolx! you are FORGIVEN cause you are part of IRON LADIES!!on our way HOME.. not forgetting to ZI LIAN a bit! hahaz! YEP family are at Far East for gathering too! thank god didnt knock into ***.. i dont know whether i am happy or sad not knocking into *** but.. this just prove one thing.. we DONT hav FATE.. shall not think about it too much! i just want to stay HAPPY!=]
Stella and me!! ((iron ladies missing one!))
us AGAIN!happy moments are REALLY SHORT! a short few hours meet up make me MISS THEM even MORE! meet up SOON again OKIE! i am starting attachment! i am DYING to see my schedule so that i can start planning for my gakkai activities and meet up with friends!! MISSES WOANLAN, MEDY, BEN BEN and HOOI YING.. MISSES ROSALINE and HUIWEN too! and MISSES XIANYUN too! didnt get to meet up with her during this holiday of mine.. think she's BUSY and i am VERY BUSY..TOMORROW- Daimoku chanting @ 1pm at SYC!- meeting Eunice and Weizhong at Cityhall @ 3.30pmmy life is kind of like a plain piece of paper now.. am i still hoping for the RIGHT one to come?
maybe i am just being selfish..woke up today at 10am.. think my body's clock has been fixed to sleep at 12am and wake up at 10am.. cant sleep any further when the clock reaches 10am.. as usual.. was awaken by many friends's sms.. then i went to showered, prayed and cook my breakfast again.. then didi told me that Peiyi dropping by to meet him for school.. kind of feel so ENVY.. they are so SWEET! and it reminds me of ***.. i know i shouldnt be thinking about ***.. cause i know many people will feel like scolding me if they know about it..
well, i just cant help it either.. we used to have sweet moments too.. though he really make me cry like crazy and i curse him like mad.. but i cant simply forget those moments.. unless i lost my memory.. but what i can say is.. i dont wish to be in a relationship at the moment now.. cause, it has made me really TIRED and EXHAUSTED.. i want to rest and dont wish to have any commitment.. and at the same time, i can be selfish to hope that my close friends can stay single as well.. cause whenever they are attached or when they have someone in mind, they TOTALLY FORGETTEN about me.. this thing DONT happen one time.. but REPEATEDLY! last time was Stephanie(goh), then Catherine.. then Rachel.. then now comes to Gakkai close friends.. some are attached, some have someone they like.. and i have TOTALLY been FORGETTEN.. and even BESTIE also like that.. hais!
and when you guys pick a quarrel with your girlfriend/ boyfriend, i was REMEMBERED SUDDENLY.. do you guys know this makes me feel so MISERABLE? this is what chinese saying always says: "无事不登三宝殿".. and i guess it shows clearly ba.. i am HAPPY that i was the one you turned to when you are down.. BUT, why must i be forgetten when you are HAPPY? see the reason why i say i am selfish? i cant help it myself either.. if my friends dont do this to me, i wont be that selfish ba.. BUT, what to do? i still have to live with it.. i guess what Seeleng jie and Yonghwee are correct.. FRIENDS are MORE IMPORTANT than your so called girlfriends and boyfriends now... and i always say this.. hais.. i was just being random.. my MOOD is in a MESS now after talking to someone just now.. i dont wish to mention who is it and what is the content.. i was just being JEALOUS.. hais..the above post in red was actually posted at about 12pm before i go out.. went to meet Xueyun at CCK Lot1.. then sat down with her and her friend at Long John.. chit-chat before heading back to Xueyun's house to let her get herself change.. chill at her place for awhile before heading to JP for dinner.. was supposed to meet Liyan after she finish work but end up she said she's meeting Simon.. so me and Xueyun heading to Mos Burger to have our dinner.. then we took MRT all the way to Tampines.. was just now ON TIME for the gongyo before the meeting starts..today is a SIGNIFICANT day for SGI.. as it's the Mentor-and-disciple day.. after the gongyo was some sharings and updating of the upcoming activities.. then was the performance by the FD milkrun.. i'm so TOUCHED when i see so many of our chingay kids performing up there.. like what i told Stella and Xueyun.. be PROUD that Chingay'07 has arise the potential and passion in dance of the chingay kids.. see them dancing almost got my tears flowing.. then was the milkrun STOMP item by SD.. felt equally proud too! cause Jia Hao is the chief trainer!! kekez=] jiayou for the Milkrun performance on this coming sunday!! =]headed home after the meeting.. very TIRED and had a MIXTURE of FEELINGS today! my MOOD is just BAD today!! although i tried putting on a smile.. got to know that one of my close friend is attached recently.. i should be feeling happy.. BUT, so coincidental.. i just talk about my friends being attached and neglected me.. to close friend: i hope that you keep to what you said.. and hope you wont turn out to be another one who will neglect me.. 我真心希望你会幸福！anything, can always come to me.. i'll be the MOST WILLING to lend a listening ear to you! ♥TOMORROW: meeting up with CHINGAY PEEPS!! =]
the road ahead is unpredictable...slept quite late yesterday.. at about 12am this morning.. was on the phone with Ben Ben for awhile.. and he was saying that he seems to be so long never talk to me.. like got months that long.. lolx! you cant blame me totally!! DONT complain say i heartless never sms you.. BUT, it's because i always look for you at the wrong time.. when i think you should be free and i sms you, you're with your girlfriend.. so, STOP BLAMING me HEARTLESS hor! you are the HEARTLESS one!! =P
woke up quite EARLY today!! i also dont know why.. for the next few days, i am going to try to sleep EARLIER and wake up EARLIER.. have to turn my alarm clock to fit my attachment time.. i going to wake up like 4.45am if i am on morning shift! *sianz* cook noodles myself today again.. too LAZY to buy breakfast.. and want to SAVE MONEY!! hahaz! i got so many things i want to buy!! *gosh!* so i must SAVE SAVE SAVE!! waited for mom to finish work.. have to buy the necessarites for my attachment.. the torch for eye check, a new pair of sissors, a new calculator, a small notebook.. BUT, i have yet to get any of them yet! SH**! waited for mom till i almost fall asleep at the sofa.. so i decided to go do my evening gongyo first.. then.. mom called when i was doing daimoku.. went to Yishun Northpoint to meet her.. and we had nasi briyani together.. then.. we went to Gurdian.. hoping that i can the sissor i want.. well, didnt manage to get anything i need in the list..
Mom dragged me into Bonia shop.. cause she wants to buy a bag for her work purpose.. not only she bought herself a bag and a coin pouch.. i bought ONE too! *gosh* i have been spending like mad this few days! DIE! but i am still HAPPY! cause i wanted this bag for quite some time liao!! everywhere you can see people carrying this bag.. but not from Bonia lahz.. those cheap cheap ones from Bugis.. LOLX! almost forgetten.. original price was $210, and after 20% discount is $168!! =]
my NEW bag!
then i came home, had a shower and went off for my meeting.. meeting Mrs Tay to take some contact list for the Alumni stuff.. then waited for Eunice and Wei Zhong to come.. who knows.. they are LATE! saw Freddie er zi, so sat down and talked to him.. was encouraging him to strive to do well for his studies so that he can go to poly next time.. seriously, i really dislike people who are late for meetings.. hais! but Eunice was sick.. so can understand.. saw Eugena too! it was so SWEET of her to give me a BIG HUG!! kekez!=]Eunice brought a believer for the stomp practice too.. and at the first glimpse, i find that she look so familiar.. she also feel that i look familiar to her.. then i realised.. she used to be one of our classmates, Adeline!!!! *gosh* i never expect that i will see her again.. it's FATE ba that her cousin introduce her to this religion and we met again.. was HAPPY to hear that she's back to study again! though not in nursing course.. we started our discussion for the HR sharing.. this time round, i am tasked to partner Wei Zhong for the HR sharing during our next saturday's institution meeting.. we are going to share on " Emerging from the Earth" this chapter on how Sensei actually met Toda Sensei.. well, i guess i will really learn a lot and hope to be able to inspire the ITESD members to read the HR as well=]discussion finished at about 10plus.. and i headed home with one of a new YMD member, Daniel.. just coincidentally that we stayed near each other so we took bus home together.. had a good dialogue with him.. reached home about 11pm.. and didi is still not home yet.. i hope you know your limits didi.. dont let mom worry for you!=]got to go sleep! tired! X.xtomorrow - meeting Xueyun at 5pm at JP, attending Nationwide Youth Leaders meeting at HQ (7.30pm)
the DEADLINE is here...
slept till almost 12pm today.. was so TIRED to wake up.. early morning.. and my hp has been beeping non-stop.. few of my friends sms me.. and i got up just to reply their sms and went back to sleep.. had a GOOD sleep from morning onwards.. after everyone left home and i was alone at home..
woke up.. showered, prayed and went to cook some noodles to eat.. and feel like eating luncheon meat.. i also dont know why.. have a crave suddenly.. so went to open one can secretly.. and i SCALDED my hand accidentally while cooking.. and that Ben Ben.. as usual.. he laughed at me! thanks huh! i wont forget laughing at you if it happens to you! =P
i have chosen to stay home today.. to REST.. came online and Nad came to ask me if i have studied and revise for my CP.. lolx.. what a GOOD question!! and the answer is i HAVENT!! lolx.. really got NO TIME.. busy with SK alumni stuff.. Red Cross stuff.. SD stuff.. Yongsha's stuff.. and holidays are ending and i have yet to receive the softcopy of the proposal from Candy to do my proposal for the blood drive.. hais! and Sk stuff also not done yet.. i really feel so FRUSTRATED!
didi brought her girlfriend, Peiyi to our place today.. Wah! she's really TALL! thank god didi is tall.. i must say i feel HAPPY that didi has found someone he loves.. it's never easy to meet with someone you like and be together with him/her.. so both of you better CHERISH one another!! =]
stayed at home and did some household chores for mom.. it was a DAY i am hoping for it to come.. and it CAME.. today was a day i set for myself as a DEADLINE to walk out of his SHADOW.. and i guess i did make it before the deadline came.. it was NEVER easy.. cause i always thought beside Daryl, he was my 2nd MIRCALE..! but it was more like a DREAM.. a LIE.. now that the deadline is up, i dont wish to think about it anymore.. i want to LIVE HAPPIER from this MOMENT onwards!! =]
tomorrow - ITESD preparation meeting, 7.30pm @ SK
狼狈比失去难受...woke up quite EARLY today.. couldnt sleep well because of the NOISE POLLUTION of the neighbour staying above me.. and because of Dad's snooring!! it really irritates me! woke up and dad told me SPAIN win the match.. actually i also predicted SPAIN will win.. cause Germany win the last round liao.. anyway, i DONT watch soccer.. so who win also wont affect me! =]went to have brunch with Mom and Dad.. Dad took half day leave after which watching the soccer match till morning.. Mom was commenting and complaining that it's been a long time Dad sat down to eat with us for breakfast.. last time, we used to do this during weekends morning to have breakfast together.. and i really HATE that.. cause i would always want to sleep in a bit more later.. BUT, mom will NEVER FAILS to DRAG me out my bed.. that's MOMs! after lunch, came home and showered and prayed.. came online to check my email and stuff.. and left home at about 1plus.. going to SHOPPING!! yes! at Orchard.. shall not revealed who i went shopping with.. we went to look at many BRANDED stuffs! like Coach, Gucci! the Coach wallet i want is so EXPENSIVE! $375 after discount! i can afford BUT i dont want to spend it.. the Gucci bag she eyed on is $1010!! hahaz! more EXPENSIVE than what i see! end up we went to Paragon Metro.. and i got myself a Pierre Cardin wallet.. before discount was $106, after discount is $86.40.. and she got herself a Coach bag.. before discount was 700++, after discount is 521.++! i like the BAG very much seriously! but i know if i buy it, for 2months i must save like hell..and when friends ask me for gathering.. i will have to turn them down.. lolx! went to Taka Departmental to continue shopping.. Uncle's wedding is drawing near.. at first, wanted to buy a bag for the dinner.. and after thinking, feel that it's kind of NOT WORTHWHILE.. talking about his wedding.. it makes my BLOOD BOILED! i'm his paternal niece.. yet, i was one of the LAST to know.. even my aunty's sons and daughter, my cousins also know about it liao.. they are just maternal grandchildren.. i am the paternal granddaughter and the oldest.. YET, i knew it later than them.. i hold the surname "LOH" okie! they DONT! get it clear! i'm just so ANGRY! mom's worse.. eldest daugther-in-law.. she has to go give hongbao and drink tea.. YET, she was the LAST to know.. am still considering whether to go for his wedding or not.. so what is he my paternal uncle? you dont give a damn and i wont give a SHIT! back to shopping.. we went to have mos burger and i drank my favourite milk tea.. then we continue to shop at Isetan Wisma and at Wisma Atrium.. i bought a bag from Charles & Keith!! kekez! though i didnt get anything from Coach nor Gucci.. i'm still quite satisified!!i sms Medy and Yuhang to wish them bon voyage for their trip.. both of them going on a china trip tomorrow.. so coincidental! and Medy was telling me he sad cause Spain win the match.. lolx!! kekez! luckily you didnt bet!! =]
tomorrow's plan - will be ROTTING at home!! =]
my purple bag from Charles & Keith! =]
My black colour Pierre Cardin wallet! =]Tomorrow marks an IMPORTANT DAY in my life..
Prudence goes a long way in life...woke up at 6.50am this morning.. very very TIRED!! cause yesterday was on the phone with seeleng jie, so yup.. slept quite LATE!! at least didnt want to go.. cause having TERRIBLE MIAGRAINE.. end up, ate 2panadols and went ahead for it.. woke up, washed up and prayed.. left home at about 7.30am with mom together.. course started at 9am as usual.. before that, had mac breakfast.. our instructor was Mr Joseph, a paramedic.. was taught on some of the basic theory of the heart.. then we went out for our practical session..quite a number of different instructor.. was taught how to do choking for consicous adult and infant.. and CPR for unconscious infant and adult.. felt so BREATHLESS cause i'm having blocked nose.. did the compressions until my hand also blue black.. hais!! went for lunch at Mac today.. did mac two times a day! GOSH! had Mcspicy meal.. on the way walking back, saw a lady fell from the steps of the bus.. and her teeth actually chip off! *gosh* so poor thing lohz!!back to Red Cross HQ, went through one more round of CPR and did a quick revision for theory.. then sat for the theory test.. scored 28/30!! hahaz! then waited quite long to sit for the practical.. cause got URTI so must give people first.. if not later i'll spread the germs to others.. while waiting for the rest to complete, i got more and more nervous.. cause i was so WORRIED that i cant pass the test because of my blocked nose..BUT! i still PASSED=] YES! after which, we went off to buy my FAVOURITE - Pearly Bandung Soya milk!! then i took 143 to look for mom at her workplace.. waited for her to finish work at 7pm.. we had our dinner at Clementi Central ate Pontian's wanton noodles.. hahaz! satisified.. then we headed home.. tomorrow - will be resting at home in the morning.. shopping in the afternoon!! =]
EMO freak!!woke up at 8.45 today morning.. very very TIRED.. but still have to go.. luckily woke up early.. Ann Nee (IIC) sms me and told me the meeting will start half an hour earlier.. thank godness i didnt overslept over something.. left home at about 9.30am and took 855 to Harbourfront.. feel kind of EMO today morning when i wake up.. hais! i also dont know why.. Eunice called me when i was about to reach Harbourfront.. so i met up with her at the control station.. before that, went to Vivo City to buy some makan to fill my EMPTY stomach.. bought the Seoul chicken cutlet.. try try.. cause never eat before.. quite NICE actually.. and on the way to TBSC.. have a plain catch up with Eunice.. and we knows.. actually Eunice know Hooiying too! hahaz!=] so coincidental!! then waited for Hooi ying to come.. then went to the meeting.. it's SD CIC meeting, and the lecturer is Reverend Watanabe!! we first started with doing daimoku chanting.. then follow by singing forever sensei.. then follow by some activities updates.. SD has been tasked to do the translation of a chinese book to english.. WOW! what a BIG TASK! sharing by Reverend Watanabe was really GOOD!! feel so COLD during the meeting.. and thanks to Eunice.. she borrowed me her scarf!! thanks thanks!=]after the meeting.. have to rush off to meet Cousins!! and feel so sorry.. have to abandon Hooiying.. cant accompany her to eat lunch.. SORRY!! then went off with Xueyun.. wanted to take 30 to Boon Lay.. but waited for so long, the bus also dont want to come. hais! end up, took 97 to JE and change MRT to Bukit Batok.. and so 可恶 of them.. Bukit Batok so near, they also can be LATE! joining in the gathering today were - Seeleng jie, Yong Hwee, Wanqi and my brother.. Ann nee went dating with her boyfriend.. and kor kor cant locate him!! went to Sakae at West Mall.. and this funny waiter.. keep talking to me.. at first Seeleng jie thought he's my friend or something.. lolx! then Wanqi even heard him saying to friend say "chio bu" or something.. and because of that i was TEASED! thanks lohz.. ate quite a lot of things.. weekends no buffet.. if not, i think we'll eat more than what we ate.. lolx!! i called mom and told her that kor kor fly us aeroplane.. then mom called 二舅母 to find out what happened.. then we found out that kor kor went to reservice then fall sick when he came home.. aiyoyoz..
then we were like so BAD.. before we know the reason why kor kor never come and never inform, we kept calling his handphone and sms him.. so BAD right? lolx! after finished makan at Sakae.. we went to Coffeebean to chill out.. i had pure chocolate!! my FAVOURITE! cause cant take any drink with caffeine mahz.. then at Coffeebean.. we talked lots of craps to even ghost stories!! hahaz! LAME lohz! 小舅called Wanqi and asked if she wants to go IMM shopping.. actually all of us wanted to go IMM.. end up, i said i very tired so i went home with didi..
took 852 from Bukit Batok back to Yishun.. had a small quarrel with Didi also.. hais! sometimes, i just feel he's so CHILDISH.. and on the way back, Deyun called and questioned me.. ANOTHER CHILDISH one.. he's angry because we didnt ask him along for the cousins gathering.. CHILDISH!!
got to go and sleep le..
tomorrow - BCLS course from 9-6pm @ Red Cross HQ..
Wanqi and Seeleng jie
Wanqi and Seeleng jie AGAIN!
me, my brother, Harry and Yong hweei want MORE cousins gathering!!!! =]
Dialogue with GD....woke up quite late today.. finally got chance to sleep in a bit later today.. but also not too late.. woke up at about 10plus.. prayed and went with mom to Chong Pang.. got to go to the bank to bank in my next month pocket money.. and at the same time update my bankbook and change my normal posb card to the "Go" card.. hahaz! *happy happy*.. finally changed it to the "Go" card..then after which, me and mom went to eat.. went to eat Curry Rice and drank sugarcane.. very satisfied!! then went to walk around.. bought some necessarites.. and mom also get herself a pants.. also bought some snacks back.. Fried Banana, Portugese egg tarts etc.. the weather is so WARM!! walked home with mom.. and on the way back.. saw a dead cat! oh gosh! so ke lian!! got ants crawling over it.. so DIGUSTING!went home and had a showered.. Shirley also called to ask if i want to meet her for dinner before going for the GD Dialogue.. super tired.. at about 4plus, i went to sleep.. 45minutes of sleep was DEFINITELY not enough.. BUT, at least better than nothing.. went out of the place at abput 5.30 and took the mrt to JE.. we had dinner at Long John Silver and then took 51 from JE to SYC..we first started with some daimoku and did evening gongyo.. then after which, we started the dialogue with Mr Ong.. this dialogue was really very ENCOURAGING.. and GD Ong actually asked me what advice can i give him and what i feel he should do for the organisation.. got a SHOCK! lolx.. so, i told him to take care of his health in order to do more for the organisation.. so SCARY manz! but it was a GREAT experience..then took 143 to Harbourfront and took 855 home.. very TIRED today.. tomorrow, got to wake up quite EARLY.. *sianz*Tomorrow:- SD CIC Training from 12 to 2.30pm- Meeting cousins! =]i miss you a lot...
against all odds..TODAY.. is the LAST day for the First Aid course.. as usual.. woke up at 6.50am to get myself ready.. i''m very TIRED and today will be our theory and practical test for our course.. and seriously speaking.. i didnt study lahz.. am still having a BLOCKED NOSE.. will have to do CPR later for practical on the manikin.. i think after i do it, someone else might have to do CPR on me! hahaz! cause everytime i do the CPR then the ventilation, i will feel breathless because of the STUPID blocked nose! argh! i just HATE falling ill..this few days, didnt talk much to Ben Ben.. he isnt feeling that well either.. ya. it's KARMA ben ben for laughing at me.. BUT, i still equally CONCERN for him.. cause he has asthmatic background.. and to have flu is TERRIBLE for him.. GET WELL SOON ben ben!! =] we had a 1 and a half hour break! so, Sakinah suggested to go to Lucky Plaza for Ayam Penyet.. lolx! this is my SECOND time eating it for this week!! hahaz! as usual.. had Ayam Penyet and Iced Cherry Soda with Milk!! the chilli.. really made my face turned like a TOMATO.. and Syahidah was laughing at me! thanks lohz! had a GREAT time eating, and i totally forgetten that i am having sore throat and blocked nose!! and after makan, was craving for some dessert.. wanted to have ICE-CREAM so much! think maybe because recently, my mood has been BAD.. and as close friends of mine know, ICE-CREAM is my MEDICINE for curing me when i am down and upset..but didnt get to eat.. went to 7-eleven and bought kinde bueno chocolate to eat.. seriously, recently, i have been PUTTING ON WEIGHT.. cause been rushing for meeting after meeting.. and fast food became my ONLY choice.. then always having dialogue and stuff.. so meeting up for dinner was much like a routine.. gosh! i seriously need to do something about my WEIGHT!back to the course.. went through some quick revision, did one round of CPR and bandaging.. and not forgetting to take pics! then sat for the theory paper.. score 27/30! hahaz! though not full marks but i'm proud of this revision after not studying and not paying much attention.. then went through CPR followed by bandaging.. so HAPPY! everyone in our class PASSED! heez! so NOW, i'm FIRST AID CERTIFIED! heez! dont be too happy... still got BCLS on sunday!! die die! my flu!! hope can recover faster!after the course finished, took 143 from orchard to look for mom at her workplace.. then waited for her to finish her work at 7.30pm.. and went for makan at Clementi central.. had pig stomach soup with RICE! rice again!! die die! i must cut down on the carhohydrate and protein i am taking in!!tomorrow - GD Dialogue at SYC @ 8pm!! =]a friend of mine send me this message yesterday - "describe me in ONE WORD, just one!....."so i sent it to some of my friends, and these are their replies..Benjamin Liao - ConcerningStella - TrustworthyBen Ben- FriendlyWoanlan - NannyYu Hang - Bubbly
me with a large arm sling!
i know the secret behind living longer..woke up super EARLY i should say.. 6.45am.. i almost want to DIE.. cause i'm so USED to the routine of sleeping at 2am and waking up at 1pm.. i slept at 12pm yesterday.. BUT, couldnt really sleep well because of my blocked nose and have to wake up at 6.45am.. Zhihao volunteered to wake me up.. but he only called at 7.05am.. lolx! luckily i didnt wait for him to call.. if not, i'll sure be late! =]woke up, showered and prayed.. then left home at about 7.30am.. hoping that the MRT will be as packed.. hahaz! dream-on.. it's peak hours now.. and the MRT is super PACKED.. i sometimes seriously HATE to take mrt.. cause it's SO PACKED.. and i HATE crowded places.. cause Ms Jessica will just get FRUSTRATED and IRRITATED easily! hahaz! reached PS quite early.. so, wanted to pamper myself a bit.. went to Mac for breakfast..ate my breakfast ALONE today! hmmm.. seriously speaking.. i HATE eating alone.. and i CANT shop or watch movie alone as well.. see, to a certain extent.. i'm NOT an independent girl actually! hahaz! so, friends who see me as a independent girl.. sorry to let you know.. i am NOT! and you are WRONG! lolx! course started promptly at 9am.. our instructor's name is Royal.. and he's a nurse as well.. i dont know why.. to a certain extent, i feel that he kind of pick on us cause we are nurses as well..well, if not because i need the certificate to perform First aid duty at the NDP.. i would not even go waste my time to attend the course.. cause Nursing has already brought us further than this.. First aid is just the basic.. lunch was at Kfc PS today.. had a great time eating with Sakinah, Shahidah, Wahida and Aliff.. as usual, i cant have my meals peacefully.. Amanda called to talk about the informing of our CP mates stuff.. and lunch time is always the time Ben Ben will call to talk to me.. he was so BAD to laugh at me when i told him i am SICK! bad lahz you!! dont worry! i'll do the same thing to you when you are sick1 *humphxback to the course.. we learnt quite a lot of stuff today.. CPR, arm sling etc.. and not forgetting to take photos!
Sakinah and Wahida! => elevation sling!
Sakinah and Wahida! => they are just being VAIN! hahaz!
me and Wahida! => blur.. thks to Sakinah!
the girls! => me, Sakinah, Wahida and Shahidah!
Sakinah and Wahida!! => elevation and large arm sling!course ended early than we expected.. finished at around 5.30pm and i headed to Orchard to meet Woanlan first.. then we went to Taka.. cause Woanlan wanted to reserve her i-phone.. then.. we intended to shop awhile while waiting for Ben Ben.. and who knows.. SMS came at the wrong time.. Ben Ben sms and say he's not feeling well.. and asked me if he can go back and rest and give this dinner meet up a miss..though it sounds like asking for permission.. but, he has the idea of going back liao.. you think you will feel happy if i insist that you must come? or do you think i will feel good if i become unreasonable and force you to come? hais! it was a disappointment today.. cause i was looking forward to this dinner treat to catch up with them.. Medy cant come.. i already quite disappointed.. then Ben Ben last minute also didnt turn up.. leaving me and Woanlan.. but, it was GOOD also.. Woanlan and i had a GREAT time eating Ayam Penyet and drinking Iced cherry soda with milk.. and we went to Far east to shop.. then we had Kungfu milk tea at Far East.. Medy and Ben Ben - BE JEALOUS! you guys missed it..
Iced Cherry Soda with Milk!
our Ayam Penyet!
see the Sambal Balachan?
the Breast meat, beancurd, yam(hiding) and the chili!i cant take the chilli at all.. too SPICY for me! you will see me turn like a TOMATO if i take too much.. plus i having sore throat and flu.. fried food is BAD enough.. well, shared a lot with Woanlan today.. really have a great catch up! tomorrow - 2nd day of first aid course- RESULTS out! sH** answer: NOT to have any hope so as NOT be disappointed...
the mucous flowing GIRL!today.. as usual.. weekdays are BAD times to choose to sleep in till too late.. today.. is not my friend waking me up.. it's my CP lecturer, Mdm Yeo.. Due to some reason, my group wont be going to KK this time for attachment in 2.1.. but will be going to AMK hospital for our gerontology posting.. 2weeks there! i seriously have NO IDEA what are we going to do there.. BUT, i know for sure.. it will reminds me of my Ah ma..woke up and went to wash up.. and sat in front of the tv and watched for 2hours.. is watching this taiwan + china drama - 麻雀爱上凤凰.. sounds a bit china china.. BUT, quite NICE! then after watching, went to shower and prayed.. then went down to the coffeeshop to take my brunch with Mom.. i felt so lethargic today.. maybe because of the vaccination today.. and feel my whole body aching.. worse thing is - i'm DOWN with FLU again! seriously, i hate the feeling of having flu.. with all your mucous running out and having your taste bud lost..and then Ben Ben called me.. he's been missing in action for the whole weekend.. too BUSY liao.. and i told him lala(Stella) saw him at Toa poyah Kfc.. lolx! he still thought i spy HIM! please lahz! if i spy you, you think i so stupid will tell you mehz? wahahaz! then from my voice, he knows i'm sick.. cant be helped.. i think i wont recover that soon.. cause this week, will be SUPER BUSY week for me.. so, i wont have a chance to sleep that much.. i dare not even take the flu medicine.. if not, i will become the drowsy queen again..had a chat with Xueyun and Daryl this afternoon.. and told Xueyun lots of things.. hahaz! it's for us to know, and for you to find out! :) then, went to have an hour+ nap just now in the afternoon.. and waking up feeling even MORE TIRED.. but got no choice.. have Dialogue today with Janice and Lay Hoon.. reached her place at about 7.20pm.. then chat till about 7.40pm and we decided to do some daimoku.. chanted for about 30minutes.. hahaz! all chiong-ing for Summer campaign.. then after the chanting, we sat down and chit chat.. ate strawberry and vanilla ice-cream with bread, ate papaya and drank soya milk.. had few hours of chat.. really a great time catching up with them.. left for home at about 10.30pm.. quite TIRED today.. tomorrow, have to wake up early for the First Aid training.. sianz! but night time, will be meeting Woanlan and Ben Ben for dinner! just too bad, Medy cant joined us! hais:(got to go sleep liao! tired!to LIAR: i'm still trying to accept the fact of knowing the truth yesterday.. hais! my deadline is reaching and yet i discover so many things.. and i saw your friendster's shout-up.. who was it meant for? i wouldnt want to know it's for me.. cause, i dont wish to hold anymore hopes on you.. i know i am giving up.. cause the half a year deadline is reaching...being single isn't wrong, being alone won't kill, but getting into a wrong/unhealthy relationship may kill you eventually..........
TRUTH are HEARTBROKEN-ing!
woke up quite early today.. at about 9.30am to get ready for my discussion meeting.. well, it was kind of a struggle for me cause today is SUNDAY and i have to drag myself out of bed.. and the worse thing is.. it was a really condusive day for me to sleep.. cause it's RAINING!! the weather is cooling and the best is to hide in the bed and sleep! hahaz! havent, i wasnt granted this chance.. woke up, showered, prayered and went out at about 10.45am.. it was still raining but no matter what, still have to go.. supposed to meet Cliff for lunch at 12pm.. BUT, he was LATE.. so i took my lunch first while waiting for him at the kfc.. had 2 piece chicken meal with whipped potato, fries and a cup of root beer.. Cliff only reached like 12.40pm.. and the reason he was late, so RIDICULOUS.. he set his alarm clock to 10am and woke up at about 10.15.. then when he went to the living room, he saw the clock showing - 11.40am!! hahaz! diaoz! that's why he 's late.. cause his alarm not working..well, forgive you this time:) dont always say i bully you.. you also got BULLY me! hahaz! and.. i saw Wei Dong today at kfc.. coincidentally.. hahaz! just a short chat.. then i continued my discussion with Cliff.. well, wasnt really prepared for this time's discussion meeting.. but thanks to Cliff.. i managed to go through it smoothly.. today's discussion meeting.. attendance still okie.. everything run well.. with Chapter WD Chief, Aunty Mun Kin and Asst Chapter WD Chief, Aunty Siew Ee , RHQ4 YWD Chief Shirley and WCZ YMD Xiao Feng down for the meeting..lolx.. last time my ex district, also dont have every session also got senior leader.. hahaz! this district, every month sure have.. after discussion meeting, all the leaders including the senior leaders sat down for a short review session of the discussion meeting.. have some positive feed back.. just that this month a bit too much "gravy".. too many testimonals shared already.. then after which, Aunty Mun Kin, Xiang hua, Aunty helen and me sat down to discuss about the PD item.. well, thank god.. we managed to finalise the dance we are dancing TODAY!! feel so RELIEVED!then i took 285 to look for Mom at her work place.. rotted for quite a few hours before she finished work at 7.30pm.. then we went back to my old family doctor at clementi west.. and i went for the Chickenpox vaccination.. was a bit PAINFUL when the jab is given.. spent 75bucks on that.. then we went for dinner.. went to have my FAVOURITE - chicken rice! that chicken rice REALLY NICE! i really LOVE it alot when i was still staying at Clementi West..then headed home.. came online.. and know a deceiving truth.. hais! how sad can it be to actually end a day like this?to LIAR: if i didnt browse through your friend's blog.. i wouldnt know the truth.. i still thought.. even it was our last meet up and i wasnt really happy at all.. BUT, at least, i cherish and remember it clearly.. though i didnt really expect you will get that as a gift for me.. i still accepted it and keep it in my cupboard.. now that i have seen her blog, i know it was just a gift you didnt want after your x'mas party gift exchange.. GET IT CLEAR! i am NOT a RUBBISH BIN! i'm NOT a place for you to keep your unwanted stuff.. i really HATE to know this TRUTH! i cant believe even my LAST dream was a LIE.. plans for the next whole week:Monday - Dialogue with Janice and Lay hoon at 7.30pm @ Janice's placeTuesday - First Aid course from 9am-6pm @ Red Cross HQ, meeting Ben Ben and Woanlan for dinner @ Lucky plazaWednesday - First Aid course from 9am-6pm @ Red Cross HQ, RESULTS RELEASING DAYThurday - First Aid course from 9am-6pm @ Red Cross HQFriday- WCZ Dialogue with GD at 7.30pm @ SYCSaturday - CIC Training from 12-2.30pm @ TBSCSunday - BCLS Training from 9am-6pm @ Red Cross HQsee my SCHEDULE! fully BOOKED!
我要为你冰冷的世界带来温度！
sleep only at 2am.. thanks to didi lohz.. cause.. he bought me Ramily burger from the Pasa Malam and i dont want to sleep immediately after makan.. so, no matter how TIRED.. i have to tahan for at least 1-2hours before going to bed.. and woke up this morning at 7am just to wake Xueyun up.. actually i can wake up like 7.30, 7.45 like that.. but because i need to morning call Xueyun, i got to wake up EARLY! be GUILTY xueyun, be GUITLY of that! hahaz!
and well, despite the morning calls and sms.. she's still LATE, never without fail! i can accept the reason she stay far from SK but i cant accept the reason that she went to back to sleep till 8am after i called her at 7am.. Xueyun, you really waste my money and my one more hour of sleep! reached SK at about 9.50.. as usual, i'm early.. and while waiting for Xueyun, i had my breakfast - Sausage Mcmuffin with egg, hashbrown and ice milo.. Lala (stella) cannot join us together.. she has to accompany Jian Li to the doctor.. Xueyun was there at about 10.30am.. chatted and discuss some stuffs.. i am SAD to say.. we didnt do anything much today.. pure SLACKING at SK..
maybe because Lala not there.. and we need the FULL strengthen of the 3 IRON LADIES before we can start planning for the making of t-shirts and lanyards.. tasked Xueyun to call her group people.. and hoping that the response will be good.. then at about 12, we went off for lunch at Tampines.. Xueyun had curry chicken noodles and soya milk.. and i had Pig stomach soup with rice.. actually i'm not hungry.. just eat for the sake of eating.. chatted with Xueyun about what happened the other day when i'm out with Lala.. just so FUNNY!! and some stuff that is troubling me.. Lala and Xueyun, you know what i mean right?=]
2 of them said different opinions to me.. but i know i cant fight for it though Lala say must fight for your own.. i know this time i cant.. I CANT... after makan, we went off to grab some stuff at TM mall.. and that my MOOD is already BAD enough after talking to Xueyun about that.. i saw Lala's sms.. why so COINCDENTALLY? how come i never knocked into them? LOLX! but i cant believe lala's memory so good, see once also can recognise.. hahaz! that's something we both have! very good photosensitive cells and photogenic memory! hahaz! xueyun, dont be envy! =P
hais.. after talking to lala on the phone.. i start to ponder whether lala's words are the truth to it not.. maybe Xueyun is right.. i should stay away and prevent anything worse than this to happen.. i'm seriously in a dilenma.. was very tired and a bit EMO on the mrt.. Xueyun can sense that.. and she thought i was crying.. no lahz.. just TIRED.. they (lala and Xueyun) just know me TOO WELL that i have no where to hide.. Xueyun alighted at Outram.. as she's heading to TBSC for NDP daimokukai cum rehearsal in the night.. and i headed to Lakeside.. went to meet Mom at 阿公's place.. i'm really TIRED.. once i reached 阿公's place, i was like a snake without bones.. lying FLAT on the sofa.. 小舅母 offered me Ice-cream, chocolate, jellies and watermelon.. Mom asked me eat pandan cakes.. i just turned them down.. NOT in the mood to eat.. just too TIRED.. then home at about 4plus.. took 180 to Bukit Panjang then 171 back to yishun..mom suggested to buy makan back since it's like 5plus.. so after my dinner and showered, i went to sleep! then woke up at about 7pm to watch "斗牛，要不要".. NICE NICE show!!! so TOUCHING!! some of the pic taken today! =]
i LOVE this pic!
me and Xueyun!
Us again!
we can be INNOCENT too!=P
STUPID FACES!~
plans tomorrow - meeting Cliff for lunch at 12pm - discussion meeting at 2pm- meeting Mom to take chickenpox vaccination at 7pm! *gosh*going to sleep.. TIRED!....to IRON LADIES: thanks for being there for ME! and letting me feel that there's always people who can be there to know how i feel! we gonna be GREAT SISTERS after this event!! dont forget that if you need a listening ear, dont forget i'll be there TOO! =] *muacks*
我要勇敢一点 i want to be more COURAGEOUS!woke up at 11am TODAY! sleep AN HOUR lesser! it's AN ACHIEVEMENT! cause i am trying to cut my sleep lesser day by day.. slept this morning at 2am and wake up at 11am.. actually 9hours of sleep is normal for young adults like us.. just that i sleep late and wake up late.. that's why it seems like i have wasted HALF a DAY sleeping.. actually NOT TRUE at all.. just that my day ends later, so also start later.. if you realised, the day time has been LONGER nowadays and the night time SHORTER.. it is due to thinning of our atmosphere.. that's why when we sleep, we always find that very fast our alarm clock will ring and we have to get out of our lala land..went to have brunch together with Mom and Didi.. we went to have mixed veggies rice at a nearby coffeeshop.. well, i LOSE my TEMPER again! cause the food i requested to eat, i didnt get to.. and Mom ordered all the food Didi wanted to.. so, i'm like so ANGRY! and at the same time, forcing myself to finish the rice.. after makan, we went to the bookshop to get the ink catridge for my printer.. then headed home.. reached home, i went to shower immediately.. the WEATHER is just simply TERRIBLE! then turn on my computer and printed some gakkai stuffs for meeting..yesterday night, i actually replied Mr "F" sms after many days.. i told him that we are impossible and ask him not to force me.. after which, he didnt reply my sms.. i guess this is a GOOD SIGN? just hope so.. i'm so AFRAID of going to the kaikan now and knocking into him! if i really see him, should i say hi or just walk away pretending that i dont know him? guess i have LOST a FRIEND.. hais! went out at about 5pm.. took bus851 to Tiong Bahru.. on the way there, BESTIE sms me and told me that he have to submit some stuff back to school by today.. i guess he felt the stress that there's lots to do at work and have been given LAST MINUTE notification about the submittion of hardcopy of the declaration form.. if it's ME, i think i will still do it despite being unhappy.. what to do? i guess after so much things have happened, the burning passion in ME has already DISAPPEARED.. it's SAD to hear this BUT at least i still put the intention of leaving to the LAST alternative..was early so i went to Popular to get some neccessities i need.. bought some organiser re-fill and a file.. then went to meet up with Huiqian before she call Wenting.. hmmm... dinner was chosen by Huiqian to have it at Beppu Menkan Japanese Noodle Restaurant.. FIRST thing that strikes the 3 of us when we got our seats is - how come the Japanese Restaurant plays Korean songs? lolx! but anyway, it didnt affect us much lahz.. just find it FUNNY! while ordering and waiting for our food, we really have a great CHAT.. chatting from her school work to her good fortunate of having a good lab mate and to her boyfriend.. of cause, i didnt forget sharing my experience.. just 2 hours + of dialogue.. i seriously get to know Wenting better.. and this dialogue itself awaken the SLEEPING MEMORY of me and ***! hais! what to do? have to encourage others by sharing real life experiences.. it easily to make others happy but there's always someone who need to sacrifice a bit! i'm really HAPPY for her.. though she not that active because of her hetic school work, i'm HAPPY that she filled with happiness because of a good boyfriend..see the reason why my SLEEPING MEMORY is awaken? because our age gap is very near.. and that girls at our age are always talking about boyfriends.. so, most of our subject in our dialogue is realationship.. i kept PUSHING on to my tears during the dialogue.. cause i dont wish to let my members see the weaker side of me.. you can say i'm acting strong, it's okie.. i just dont want her to see me crying.. after the dialogue, i tried calling BESTIE.. trying to see if i can still provide any help.. but BESTIE didnt pick my call.. and i was like SO WORRIED.. then, all i get is an sms from BESTIE that he will sms me tomorrow.. and that moment, i really BURST out in TEARS.. was so WORRIED for him since he told me the frustrating incident before my dialogue till my dialogue ends.. i kept looking at my hp and see how come he didnt reply my sms and stuff.. then, i was given this sms after calling him many times.. i guess i CRIED because of the awakening of the SLEEPING MEMORY and plus WORRYING for BESTIE.. i cant held my tears anymore.. like i told you before.. i dont believe in holding on to my tears.. cause i know CRYING is a way i relieve my feelings, my stress.. didnt feel any better after crying.. and MIAGRAINE attacked me.. hias! i had the WORSE round-up today.. reached home around 11plus.. and saw this 3 indian men sitting under my block.. i have been seeing them for the past 1 week.. always under the block drinking beer and playing cards.. i guess they spot me going back always at this hour too? *SCARY*to BESTIE: if you happened to read this entry.. you know who you are.. dont have to feel bad or anything.. worrying for you didnt totally triggers me to cry.. i guess it's more because i have been talking about the SLEEPING MEMORY of me and my ex.. that's why i cried.. as you already know when you first know me, i told you before. i'm a CRYBABY ar.. and i believe crying makes me relieve my feelings and stress.. so please dont feel BAD or anything.. i guess too many things happened this week.. that's why i'm like that.. i'll be okie! dont worry=]
plans tomorrow - meeting Stella and Xueyun at SK at 10am
NOTHING at all.... woke up today at 12pm.. like what Ben ben says.. i have wasted HALF a day of my time SLEEPING.. i felt so AFFECTED suddenly by his words.. HAIS! i also dont know why.. maybe he's RIGHT.. it's just like wasting my life away if i were to spend it on sleeping.. BUT, i cant help it.. my clock in my body doesnt seems to wake up.. hais.. maybe i just never TRY hard enough ba..didi went out with his friends for movie.. leaving me alone at home.. showered, prayed and went to buy my brunch.. had mixed veggies rice.. then i came online.. staring at the screen.. i also dont know what i want to do.. so i just decided to edited all my entries in my blog.. because the time is set wrongly in the main format.. so i have to change all 290++ entries.. at the same time, watched tv and listen to songs.. see i clever i can be.. MULTI-TASKING.. still waiting patiently for SGH to call.. my patience seems to run out so i decided to sms Carolyn and asked her if there's any way i can find out the result of my blood test.. so, she gave me her ward no.. i called.. and her ward sister picked up the call.. and it's just so NICE of her to explain to me that only when the patient has low platelets, then they will ring the donors up.. cause if i dont remember wrongly, platelets shell life is not as long as whole blood..so, it's another resting day for me lohz.. REST and ROT at home.. wanted to settle down and do the preparation for my discussion meeting.. but doesnt seems to have the mood.. this issue between Mr "F" and me has been in my mind for LONG.. and i really want to settle it.. like what Ben Ben said, this kind of issue, it's best not to drag too long.. i also want to settle.. BUT, he's just TOO STUBBORN to accept the fact.. accept the fact that we are impossible..maybe Ben ben is right.. i should try waking up earlier.. maybe my mind will be fresher and my mood would be better.. i just lose my temper anytime, anywhere.. every little thing will just triggers me to lose my temper.. i'm just an UNREASONABLE freak this few days.. hais! just HATE the "ME" like that.. ate my "dinner" at about 9plus.. mom bought me shark fin soup and i ate a chicken burger to make sure my stomach dont grumble in the middle of the night.. was arguing to my parents regarding their "biased-ness".. it's so LATE liao.. didi still not home yet, mom didnt even call to ask where he is.. BUT, if it's ME, i think i will be receiving ENDLESS HORNING CALLS from her already! and definitely will pick up a quarrel because of that.. then will have COLD WARS for a few days.. and punishment of being LOCKED at home, then have to WASH my OWN clothes and stuff.. why is it so UNFAIR? like what my parents said - i'm a GIRL and didi is a BOY.. so there's BIG DIFFERENCE to them.. mom told me she read e newspaper on a NUS girl being raped when she walked past the small lane with construction site.. you know what's her purpose of telling me this? she's WARNING me that i should try not to stay out too late.. and dad says, girls acting strong from the outside will lose out.. what's WRONG with girls being STRONG? i dont believe a girl cant survive without a boyfriend.. although i longed for a boyfriend, but i know i can SURVIVE without one.. and will live BETTER i guess! hahaz!=]got to go watch some show and enjoy myself! =] got song to intro.. O-Town : All or Nothing
I know when he's been on your mindThat distant look is in your eyesI thought with time you'd realizedIt's over, overIt's not the way I choose to liveAnd something, somewheres got to giveAs sharing this relationship gets older, olderYou know I'd fight for youBut how can I fight someone who isn't even thereI've had the rest of youNow I want the best of youI don't care if that's not fairCause I want it allOr nothing at allThere's nowhere left to fallWhen youve reached the bottomIt's now or neverIs it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it endsWith a simple telephone callYou leave me here with nothing at allThere are times it seems to meI'm sharing you in memoriesI feel it in my heartBut I don't show it, show itThen there's times you look at meAs though I'm all that you can seeThose times I don't believe it's rightI know it, know itDon't make me promisesBaby you never did know how to keep them wellI've had the rest of youNow I want the best of youIt's time to show and tellCause I want it allOr nothing at allThere's nowhere left to fallWhen you've reached the bottomIt's now or neverIs it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it endsWith a simple telephone callYou leave me hereWith nothing... Cause you and ICould lose it all if you'veGot no more roomNo room inside for me in your lifeCause I want it allOr nothing at allThere's nowhere left to fallIt's now or neverIs it allOr nothing at allThere's nowhere left to fallWhen you've reached the bottomIt's now or neverIs it allOr are we just friendsIs this how it endsWith a simple telephone callYou leave me hereWith nothing at allAll...plans tomorrow - HOMEVISIT Wen Ting in the evening!=]
