[ NOTHING at all.... ]

NOTHING at all....

woke up today at 12pm.. like what Ben ben says.. i have wasted HALF a day of my time SLEEPING.. i felt so AFFECTED suddenly by his words.. HAIS! i also dont know why.. maybe he's RIGHT.. it's just like wasting my life away if i were to spend it on sleeping.. BUT, i cant help it.. my clock in my body doesnt seems to wake up.. hais.. maybe i just never TRY hard enough ba..

didi went out with his friends for movie.. leaving me alone at home.. showered, prayed and went to buy my brunch.. had mixed veggies rice.. then i came online.. staring at the screen.. i also dont know what i want to do.. so i just decided to edited all my entries in my blog.. because the time is set wrongly in the main format.. so i have to change all 290++ entries.. at the same time, watched tv and listen to songs.. see i clever i can be.. MULTI-TASKING..

still waiting patiently for SGH to call.. my patience seems to run out so i decided to sms Carolyn and asked her if there's any way i can find out the result of my blood test.. so, she gave me her ward no.. i called.. and her ward sister picked up the call.. and it's just so NICE of her to explain to me that only when the patient has low platelets, then they will ring the donors up.. cause if i dont remember wrongly, platelets shell life is not as long as whole blood..

so, it's another resting day for me lohz.. REST and ROT at home.. wanted to settle down and do the preparation for my discussion meeting.. but doesnt seems to have the mood.. this issue between Mr "F" and me has been in my mind for LONG.. and i really want to settle it.. like what Ben Ben said, this kind of issue, it's best not to drag too long.. i also want to settle.. BUT, he's just TOO STUBBORN to accept the fact.. accept the fact that we are impossible..

maybe Ben ben is right.. i should try waking up earlier.. maybe my mind will be fresher and my mood would be better.. i just lose my temper anytime, anywhere.. every little thing will just triggers me to lose my temper.. i'm just an UNREASONABLE freak this few days.. hais! just HATE the "ME" like that.. ate my "dinner" at about 9plus.. mom bought me shark fin soup and i ate a chicken burger to make sure my stomach dont grumble in the middle of the night..

was arguing to my parents regarding their "biased-ness".. it's so LATE liao.. didi still not home yet, mom didnt even call to ask where he is.. BUT, if it's ME, i think i will be receiving ENDLESS HORNING CALLS from her already! and definitely will pick up a quarrel because of that.. then will have COLD WARS for a few days.. and punishment of being LOCKED at home, then have to WASH my OWN clothes and stuff.. why is it so UNFAIR? like what my parents said - i'm a GIRL and didi is a BOY.. so there's BIG DIFFERENCE to them..

mom told me she read e newspaper on a NUS girl being raped when she walked past the small lane with construction site.. you know what's her purpose of telling me this? she's WARNING me that i should try not to stay out too late.. and dad says, girls acting strong from the outside will lose out.. what's WRONG with girls being STRONG? i dont believe a girl cant survive without a boyfriend.. although i longed for a boyfriend, but i know i can SURVIVE without one.. and will live BETTER i guess! hahaz!=]

got to go watch some show and enjoy myself! =] got song to intro..

O-Town : All or Nothing

I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realized
It's over, over
It's not the way I choose to live
And something, somewheres got to give
As sharing this relationship gets older, older
You know I'd fight for you
But how can I fight someone who isn't even there
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When youve reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with nothing at all

There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart
But I don't show it, show it
Then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe it's right
I know it, know it
Don't make me promises
Baby you never did know how to keep them well
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time to show and tell

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing...

Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've
Got no more room
No room inside for me in your life

Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
It's now or never

Is it all
Or nothing at all
There's nowhere left to fall
When you've reached the bottom
It's now or never

Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here
With nothing at all

All...


plans tomorrow - HOMEVISIT Wen Ting in the evening!=]