Saturday, March 21, 2009

[ 太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头.... ]

太想爱你是我压抑不了的念头......

i cried myself to sleep last night.. was kind of pissed off with my dad.. just cant stop thinking what he has done to the family.. suddenly, i just like finishing my education faster and move out with this house and start my own family.. have a good husband and have many adorable kids.. hahaz.. with that, i fallen asleep..

slept at 1plus this morning.. woke up 10plus with my eyes really PAINFUL.. i think because i cried? had a dream last night too.. slept that i got pregnant.. hmmm, it's after marriage huh.. then it's a baby girl.. then my husband accompany me to ultrasound and stuff.. then suddenly, i was awaken because of a great pain at my abdomen area.. LOLX! sound like is baby kicking.. woke up, showered and waited for Peiyi to come then go for lunch.. was kind of pissed off with my brother.. really very childish really very naive.. dont know what should i do to knock some sense into him...

had long john silver for brunch today.. then headed to work then.. finished work at 4pm.. work was kind of IRRITATED, PISSED OFF and ANNOYED.. there's this china woman giving flyers beside me.. my flyer is A5 size.. hers A4 size.. then she keep standing nearer to me.. then the tip of her paper keep poking me lohz..2 hours she poke me more than 20times! OH MY TIAN!!! aiyoz.. end up, we changed place.. then okie liao..

finished work at 4pm.. then went for acupuncture and ba guan with Peiyi.. cause my neck and shoulder really ache till i cant take it liao le.. was a bit painful but bearable.. cause what is most important is the outcome.. now still aching but not as bad liao.. headed home.. cant shower for 2hours.. Physician say maybe because i always look downwards or because sit in front of the computer for too long.. i think also because i didnt sleep well..

had dried hor fan for dinner.. suddenly feel so cold.. amd wrapping myself in the blanket.. so cold so cold.. going to eat panadol and sleep later.. and if i'm well, will be going to the training course tomorrow.. watched the show Gigi hosting.. the 女儿国's women can be quite poor thing.. they 走婚 and give birth without any law registered marriage.. the man can just break up with them and YET, they cannot do anything.. oh my tian! how can be like that? thank god i am not born there.. hahaz!:)

Lies are truly frightening, because they not only deceive others but also destroy one's own humanity.
-Daisaku Ikeda-

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