时间把你我变成了回 忆，还是把我变成了你的回忆？

时间把你我变成了回 忆，还是把我变成了你的回忆？

I don't know what can I say now or do now.. cause no matter how hard I try, no matter what I do.. everything is not going to be the same anymore.. Maybe I should be GRATEFUL, at least you bother to crack your brain and think of lies to make up.. probably you still bother how I will feel.. probably you still don't wish to see me get hurt.. that's why you have chosen not to tell me the truth... BUT..... if you know me well enough, you would know I would want to know the truth.. How am i going to face it is my CHOICE.. you shouldn't be the one making decision for me..

You might not want to get hurt that's why you have chosen to lie.. BUT now, do you think I would feel any better when I know you lied? what I think is it what you are thinking? or am I just being sensitive? Can I still believe that you didn't make up lies? Can i still believe what you say? Can I?? I'm SORRY BEN.. SORRY that i have let you worried the whole night.. I didn't meant to break down.. I am trying my best to control my emotions, my thinking, my tears... BUT, it's really getting out of control and beyond my control...

I really don't wish to see my friends, my parents worried about me.. I am trying my best.. I thought I have did it already.. BUT, now... I am back to square again.. I don't wish to see my friends hating him.. cause till now... i still really LOVE him.. he did hurt me a lot, be it is now or during our relationship.. BUT, he had given me lots of joy, lots of happy moments, lots of memories... because of him, I have become stronger.. because of him, I have tried to do things i have never tried.. because of him, I got many dreams fulfilled..

I really feel it's a PITY.. that we didn't make it till the end.. we won't get married and have babies like what we've been saying.. that Hong Kong trip is the FIRST time we are traveling together and the ONLY time we would fly again.. I am grateful that we have made it for the trip, if not, it would be like what you said.. we wont have chance to travel together anymore... this relationship would be a REGRET in my life.. no matter what I do, there will be a scar FOREVER in my life.. even if I have let go of this, I think I wont have the courage to love again.. cause I really don't wish to get hurt anymore..

I always thought that if I have put in my heart and soul to love someone, he will do the same.. if I don't do anything to hurt him, he won't hurt me too.. BUT.. what had happened proved my belief WRONG.. teach me how to carry on please.. till now, I am still trying my best to help you in what ever ways I can.. why am I still doing so? cause I want you to know, i really care.. Be it as a boyfriend or as a friend.. you really STANDS an IMPORTANT place in my heart.. and because of you, I cant place anyone in anymore.. do you know how terrible i am going through now? it's WORSE than DYING..............

sooner or later, you would remove the link of the photos of yours with me right? maybe you're right.. memories are all in my mind, in my heart.. i don't need all these material stuffs just to remember what had happened.. BUT what you did would made me think that you don't cherish them at all.. do you know that? I won't blame you.. I cherish those moments doesn't mean you have to do so too.. I cant force you.. i really feel very terrible now.. i am lost.......