my importance...

unappreciative....

woke up specially early just to meet mom for lunch.. but who knows.. she damn unappreciative.. refused to pick up my call and make me walk here and there.. and found out.. dad cheat on mom again.. yes.. AGAIN! hais.. dont know what to say also..

went ntuc after having lunch with her.. hais.. financially very tight now.. want to get something i like also difficult.. hais.. hubby make me really upset this afternoon.. ask me dont watch show using his desktop.. last time also he say... buy a bigger screen monitor so we can use it like a tv.. now dont let me use.. F**K! 气死我了！hais.. dont know is he scare his desktop get virus or got secret cannot let me know.. hais..

tomorrow mom going genting with dad.. YES! finally some peace for my ears.. hope it will be better day by day!=D

有点郁闷

自从搬出来之后，我的心情一直无法平息下来。不知道为什么，我心焦一直疼痛，夜夜无法入眠。是因为我撒谎吗？还是因为我心中依然有根刺？当我有一天无意间看到老公跟那女人的照片，我真的很不开心。除了一直追问我在哪看到的自外，老公一句关心的话语也没说。其中有一张照片是在2010年1月27日拍的..那时候的我们还在一起的。这张照片证明了一点－他的的确确做了对不起我的事。或许我跟他在她出现之前就有了问题，可是如果没有她的接入，或许我跟老公当时是还有挽回的余地的。

就因为她，我受了很多苦。就因为她，我跟老公现在需要这样偷偷摸摸过日子。将来的事，大家都不知道。可是，对我而言，前面的路，很黑很暗。我不知道是不是我放假，太过闲，所以一天到晚，胡思乱想。我真的不知道，是工作加上上课让老公觉得疲累不堪，还是他的借口，我觉得在他心目中，我像个佣人多过老婆。

我真的很希望－他多点关心我。就算累，这也不是借口。我每天都要面对我妈打电话来问我几时要搬回家的压力自外，家里，有家务等着我做。为了不让老公担心回到家之后还要洗衣什么的，我在他回家之前，一定把它做好。我也没要求他说，既然我洗衣，你要负责收衣什么的。他可以为了上网，少睡点都没见到关心一下我。虽然他工作上课时间都会发简讯给我，但是追问行踪不等于关心啊!

在这样下去，我可能会发疯.......你能否做些事，让我知道你是爱我的呢？

我的心太乱

for the past one month.. many things have happened.. i really dont know how to handle it.. i dont want things to be like that.. but.... i know.. i want to be with you.. i also hope this love can just be between us.. but.. it's impossible..

and your words really sadden me.. how could you said i changed? did i really changed? or is it you? the jessica you want is the one who listen to you obediently and dont even fight back? is this the jessica you want? i'm sorry, compared to 2years back and now, there is a difference.. i have more things to worry.. i have more things that needs my presence.. i have more things to be responsible for.. if you really love me, you would know..

why must be the one always giving in? you said gave in alot.. from the past till now, you know how much i suffered ma? if there's a choice, i would not choose you and would not choose my mom.. then it will be fair for both parties.. as for me, i will leave both of you.. please do not be sad...

PAIN!

got awaken by my brother's sms today! then i went back to sleep till 10plus before being awaken because of my tooth pain. then went wash my mouth. KAO! pain like SIAO lohz! then took medicine, rested for awhile then went to shower and headed to KTPH to visit didi again... on my way there, saw peiyi and we went up together..

didi seems better than yesterday le.. but still complaining stomach still pain.. i really hope the doctor will have the wisdom to 对症下药！i am so tired since my operation day.. all the medicine makes me drowsy but i cant sleep cause need to travel through and flow to hospital..

mom also didnt rest well these few days. dad only know how to KB.. and nag and scold brother. useless what! now he also in hospital liao! i'm sure he himself also dont want to stay there. Grandma and aunty ling went to visit didi today too.

hope he can be discharged tomorrow!=D

a new start...

i guess i was too bored till i decided to do something to give my blog a new change. hmm.. dont know why.. just still love blogger.. have account with wordpress and livejournal but i just cant get used to its simplicity. i still love something i can edit and change on my own. but stupid me.. forget to save the previous template now and everything cute inside is gone! sians!

anyway.. many things happened recently.. i went for wisdom tooth extraction under GA on thurs.. and immediately after i get home, send bro to KTPH.. he was having diarrhea plus vomiting.. then suddenly got fever then suddenly become acute kidney failure..

everyone got a shock of our lives! except dad i guess.. i just dont bother lahz. i also care less now.. i really have no energy to bother about him anymore. he's old enough to decide what is right for him to do..

i'm just too too tired recently. but i think it is time for me to start writing blog or maybe keep a personal diary to jot down about my daily livings. if not, as years grows by, i would probably forgotten what i have gone through..

anyway, thanks for those who shown concern to me and my family in one way or another.. THANK YOU!

REVITALISED! =D

REVITALIZED!❤❤

谁在最需要的时候轻轻拍着我肩膀
谁在最快乐的时候愿意和我分享
日子那么长
我在你身旁
见证你成长让我感到充满力量
谁能忘记过去一路走来
陪你受的伤
谁能预料未来茫茫漫长
你在何方
笑容在脸上
和你一样
大声唱
为自己鼓掌
我和你一样
一样的坚强
一样的全力以赴追逐我的梦想
哪怕会受伤
哪怕有风浪
风雨之后才会有迷人芬芳
我和你一样
一样的善良
一样为需要的人打造一个天堂
歌声是翅膀
唱出了希望
所有的付出只因爱的力量
和你一样

我们都一样
一样的坚强
一样的青春焕发金黄色的光芒
哪怕会受伤
哪怕有风浪
风雨之后才会有彩色阳光
我们都一样
一样的善良
一样为需要的人打造一个天堂
歌声是翅膀
唱出了希望
所有的付出只因爱的力量
和你一样
我们都一样

谁在最需要的时候轻轻拍着我肩膀
谁在最快乐的时候愿意和我分享
日子那么长
我在你身旁
见证你成长
永远为你鼓掌

it's been really great being posted to a pediatric ward.. LOTS of BABIES and KIDS.. though i guess it's isn't a great place to meet them.. so poor thing to see them sick, crying and feeling irritable.. but they really brighten my days and enlightened me in many ways..

like the lyrics of this song - 和你一样.. this patient of mine love this song a lot.. he can play it the whole day.. everytime i see him singing this, i really want to cry.. just don't know this sadness will arise in me.. was pretty down this semester after this BIG INCIDENT affected me so badly this year.. BUT thanks to this song, and thanks to the 2 little very ill patient i had, i found back the BURNING PASSION in me again.. i'm really GRATEFUL about this!

there are really times when i needed a shoulder to lean on.. but who was there? you used to be.. but now, within split seconds, everything changed. and i found another.. i thought he was the one, but seems like he isn't.. he wasn't there when i needed someone.. he didn't help resolve my problems but created more problems for me.. hais.. i don't know.. i am in a mess now..

i don't want to think so much.. shall focus on my studies now! jiayou jessica!

这回东窗事发了！

这回东窗事发了！

我真的不知道我今天怎么了....竟然会忘了把戒指摘下，让妈咪看见了！还大发雷霆！就有如我意料之中，妈咪是不可能接受的....第一，我跟李卓文才刚分开不久。第二，妈咪知道我一爱上一个人，我就会无法自拔，就好像她说的，我会一头栽下去。

妈咪因为李卓文的事，现在要她接受伟埒，真的比登天还难！咳！我真的好烦！我真的不知道应不应该让他知道。我知道他有权知道，可我又怕他会想这件事而做事不专心。咳！真不知道该怎么办才好！gohonzon，can you give me some wisdom and teach me what to do？

would you be there?

would you be there?

If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's ok.
Would you stand by me, let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.

If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender loving care,
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
And never look back..

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there..

If I am away, would you still think of me,
And wished that you could hold me now.
Would you die for me, would you run with me,
All the way ...

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there to love, to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you'll always be the one,
to take my breath away?

Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true,
Would you say that you always be there,
To kiss my pain away,

Would you be there ..... for me ...

this is a song by Redwan Ali - Would you be there....

不知道怎么了..今天的我很想用中文把这篇博客日记写出来！心情最近很沉重..平时开开心心的我真的笑不出来！为了不让你担心，我也只好面带微笑。我还记得我们刚认识的时候，我总是笑得很开心，但是最近发生的事太多了，要笑也笑不出来。我知道你心情也不好，但也尽力装出一幅很开心的样子。我看了真的很难过！

最难过的事，我帮不了你什么！还总是说些让你更难过的话！真的很对不起！:( 我也只是关心你！不想你受伤害！希望你明白我的苦心！我真的很怕自己会爱你比你爱我更深。因为怕你有一天会像他一样伤害我！而那时我可能已经爱你爱得无法自拔！所以我选择把深爱的心锁在我这，对你而言可能不公平，但这是我保护自己的方式。我不能再受伤害，不能再承受任何打击了！

我很怕！怕因为你得到我的爱不费工夫，你不会珍惜我！虽然我知道你会说不会但是有时候话真的不能将在前头。当初的他也那么的爱我，也常说不会伤害我，不会让我流泪。到头来，这都成了废话，谎言，空头支票！我真的怕了！因为这些经历，我不得已要像刺猬一样，像仙人掌一样，身上长满了刺来保护自己！给我点时间，让我多了解你！给我多点时间，让我身上的伤疤淡去！放心！你没错！问题出在我身上！

谢谢你！谢谢你让我有机会磨平这道伤疤！谢谢你那么爱我！❤❤

还有“他”-谢谢伤得我那么深！真的上了一堂宝贵的课！无论如何，祝福你！

你！带走我的心跳！❤❤

你！带走我的心跳！❤❤

I know i have walked out of the past already.. THANKS to those who helped me along the way.. Ben Ben, Stella, Xueyun dajie, Medy, Ah cao, Yaya, Peishan and many many more.. without you guys.. Jess wont survive till now!❤ especially to Ben Ben! bestie, i love❤you! ha! really miss you sia! come back FASTER yeah!=D

Recently, something really GREAT happened to me!!❤ BUT i shall not review much here.. haha! cause i am also afraid 老天爷 will get jealous about me and take it away AGAIN! so i shall not saying much till time is ripe!=D

now having holidays... BUT.. to be frank.. never really enjoy that much.. been not well on and off.. i guess i didn't have a good rest ba.. Always running here and there... hais! i seriously need to sleep early and have a balanced diet.. Always eating irregularly.. and don't know what's wrong with me today... GIDDY WHOLE DAY le! aiyo! Saturday, and i am STUCK AT HOME? what SHIT is that?

well, this past 1 week, there's TWO HAPPIEST THINGS i did.. one is ALEX's BIRTHDAY!❤ i hope you like the SURPRISE me and Apple gave you! and hope you really like the gift i got for you!=D and another thing is - i got a NEW LOOK!! haha! new HAIRSTYLE!=D hee! although still not very used to it, but i really ❤love it! haha!

didn't expect you would comment on the photos on facebook that i posted.. BUT well, your COMMENT, your CONCERN DOESN'T MATTER AT ALL!!!!!! so, say what you want to say yup! IT WONT AFFECT ME AT ALL! and thanks to Xueyun dajie and Stella for retaliating on his words! GOOD ONE SISTERS! ha! 不愧是iron ladies gang的好姐妹！LOVE❤ you girls!=D

my NEW hairstyle!^^

其实我并不快乐.....

其实我并不快乐.....

this few weeks.. hasn't been studying much.. realized i have been playing a lot.. every weekend also go out shop.. then last weekend even went IPOH! haha! FUN FUN FUN!!!

many things happened for the past 4months.. many happened at the speed that i couldn't even react in time.. i have been doing so much to get over it.. coming out with friends, shopping, sing k, bowling.. even travel.. but i realized.. actually... i am not happy.. not truly happy.. i am just telling to put a strong stand that i am to prove to him that without him, i still can live happily.. kind of stupid rite? cause he also won't bother..

so... i sense the urgency that i need to move on.. and start studying for my common test.. results is now what i need to concentrate on.. and career is what i want.... JIAYOU le JESSICA LOH! =D

i knew it!!

i knew it!!!

went out with 秀娟姐 yesterday.. mood wasn't so good since yesterday... TERRIBLE.. really TERRIBLE.. cant describe it in words.. hais.. went to walk around to get this terrible feelings off me.. till i was on the way home, i cant take it anymore.. i text him and VENT all MY ANGER on him.. he really deserve it... cause he was the one who brought me to this state...

he DENIED!! as expected.... i just don't understand why am i still believing that he will not lie, he will not hurt me when the fact already lies there.. YES, from this moment, i would only want to believe what i see, not what i hear from you ANYMORE!!!

and medy... thanks for comforting me.. really.. without you just now.. i probably will do something to myself.. and to Ben... thanks for trying your best to comfort me.. and always trying to be there for me.. THANK YOU to all!!!=D

你让我真的很失望........

你让我真的很失望........

I always feel that one day we will be back together.. and even though that you're not going back to Hong Kong now, I know and believe that it's because your mom wish that you can try your luck to get a job here in Singapore and that they wouldn't need to pay back the money to the government.. I remembered you once said that you believe that when you go back, I will gradually forgotten about you.. and I remembered I told you that I am confident that before you go back to Hong Kong, you will find someone else already..

It was just a casual remark and I am praying hard that it wont come true.. and it came true.. You know the girl way before we broke up.. I have no idea if you have feelings for her before we ended.. But I believe this is the case.. Just like what happened between you and Pooi San... before you broke up with her, you already have feelings for me.. It's just that I aren't aware of it.. and without knowing, i became a third party.. I guess this is what happen between you and her now? whether she know or don't know, you have made her the third party between us..

How can you do this to me? so what if you all started after we break up? i am sure feelings don't develop over the night right? i guess it started during the period we are still together? don't deny it anymore.. I won't believe what you said anymore.. You betrayed the trust I had in you... How can you do this to me? What have I done wrong? why do you have to do this? I saw pictures of you going to Malaysia with her and hug her... and that time, we just broke up for only last than 2months.. you can just forget about what happened between us for the past 1 year ma? this 1 year is just a game ma?

Please be assure.. YOU WONT HAVE MY BLESSINGS!!!!!!... and not from those around us as well.. Don't even think of denying.. cause God knows what you are doing.. because of you, i don't know how to face friends from NUS RCHN.. because of you, i lost a couple of friends.. and i shall make you lose all the friends in Red cross.. go ahead and date with her.. and be prepared to face the effects you have caused.. you will have retribution for doing this to me! till now, 3months plus le... i am still trying to walk over it.. cause i know i wont be able to walk out.. what i can do is walk over it.. and i am prepared to dwell in it each time i walk over it.. but i didn't expect things will be like that...

those pictures really disgusted me.. it really.. I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

昨天会被今天明天来取代......

昨天会被今天明天来取代....

言承旭:累了不要见外
把我挖起来
吐个痛快
看不惯朋友有难
谁还冷冷的围观
我的手心为你握起来
朱孝天:烦了不要见外
把我找出来
陪你负担
吴建豪:续杯咖啡的温暖
一直暖到你想开
你心情的坑洞让我来填满
朱孝天:昨天会被今天明天来取代
动心的感情不会淘汰
关心常在
全体:就算你我再热闹喧哗中走散
友情会在第一时间赶来
让跳乱的心情平躺下来
重新的呼吸简单
深深的满满的
朋友只要你被孤单压的叫不出来
我第一时间送出关怀
热热的眼神陪你看开
找回那片大自然
为着你抱紧你相信你
朱孝天:我确定
周渝民:累了不要见外
把我挖起来
吐个痛快
看不惯朋友有难
谁还冷冷的围观
我的手心为你握起来
珠孝天:烦了不要见外
把我找出来
陪你负担
续杯咖啡的温暖
一直暖到你想开
你心情的坑洞让我来填满
吴建豪:昨天会被今天明天来取代
动心的感情不会淘汰
关心常在
全体:就算你我再热闹喧哗中走散
友情会在第一时间赶来
让跳乱的心情平躺下来
重新的呼吸简单
深深的满满的
朋友只要你被孤单压的叫不出来
我第一时间送出关怀
热热的眼神陪你看开
找回那片大自然
为着你抱紧你相信你

this few days.. beside having school.. have been busy with school assignments and also attending gakkai activities.. tired but really occupied myself to the fullest.. like today, attended this ywd meeting and heard this song which i used to listen 8years back! really re-flashing my memories! heez!

had a great time doing duty with xueyun! helped to take attendance for the meeting and sell the book!=D we sold a total of 135 books!!! super 有满足感! yes, there's a lot more things i can do with my own ability and capability.. so, dont even dare to look down on me.. i shall let you 跌破眼镜！be prepared ba! haha! just came back with the meet up with one of a very long never see friend cum ex bf of mine, let's call him mr "L"... well, i guess we just cant click well that's why last time will break up.. haha! i need to sleep le.. tomorrow need to wake up at 7am for the training course!=D

心里突然觉得很不舒服！我快爆炸了！

心里突然觉得很不舒服！我快爆炸了！

started class 4 days already.. and every friday is a break! NO CLASS!! like i mentioned in my previous entry, i thought 19th april would be a terrible day for me.. but i gone through it safely...

but today.. i don't know why.. suddenly i just feel so upset.. hais.. and cried badly.. i really want to be STRONG.. i really want to..

BELIEVE in YOURSELF!=D

BELIEVE in YOURSELF!=D

didn't know where this courage came from.. i guess probably it's my IPOD TOUCH!=D yes, it's been months since i sync my ipod touch liao.. cause it has always been not my job.. i don't know much things about computer and devices.. but yesterday, i tried.. download all the songs that are used to be in my ipod one by one till this morning about 5am then i sleep.. and when i got up at 1pm this afternoon.. i continue to mingle with my ipod till i get it sync with the songs i want inside!

i didn't know how i did it.. but it's definitely, purely just TRIAL and ERROR.. i always thought, without you, there's many things i cant do.. without you, i cant stand on my own.. BUT..... the fact is that, I CAN! it's just that i didn't try hard enough to do so.. i didn't try hard enough to STAND ON MY OWN.. i got all your photos kept away from my wallet, and i removed the ring that i have been wearing for the past 1 year off my finger..

from now, i will accept that you won't be here anymore.. and we are just pure friends.. pure normal friends.. although i don't know things will be like in future, but for now.. this is what we will be.. i am trying my best not to keep in touch with you that often... and that i will NEVER and NOT let you know how terrible i am living.. i will ONLY let you know that without you, i can STAND ON MY OWN... without you, i am living just like how i was before you came into my life and made a mess of it..

i don't blame you, i won't hate you.. i do cherish and treasure those happy moments you gave me.. whether or not you cherish it or not, i am okie... but for me, i do cherish it.. and thanks for giving me a chance to learn and i will treat this relationship as a learning experience for me.. thanks.. thanks for everything.. make sure you will be HAPPY.. make sure you show me that you made a right decision by dumping me.. make sure you do....

早知今日，何必当初？

早知今日，何必当初？

well.. today got up and saw 卓文's sms.. he seems super polite till i feel like i am a stranger to him.. he asked me if i am free today for a meet up.. cause he want to get his things back from me.. just happened that i am going to Clementi for a meeting.. i suggested to him to meet at Clementi.. instead of meeting me early, he requested to meet me after my meeting..

well it's for his own convenience.. not for my sake.. met up at MOS burger then sat down and chit-chatted for an hour plus.. before we headed home in a train.. well, just pure catching up.. talking about school work and his application for job etc.. and his plans.. he seems much much happier than before.. maybe it's a good thing he let me go.. probably he feels that i won't be happy with him ba.. and he don't feel happy with me too.. well, i don't know if he's really happy.. but i would hope he is.. cause no matter what, he still holds an important place in my heart.. i want the best to be his..

i don't know what will happened to me and him in years to come.. but for now.. just pure friends.. like we were before.. and i want to walk out of this mess, and enjoy the happy moments i have now.. i don't know who is the next person who will come and make a mess of my life, but for now, i just want to concentrate of what i have now.. and cherish and treasure it, before it leaves me AGAIN..

Ben going to be away for an exchange program from May- July.. and he's preparing his exams now.. even if i am not okie, i know i wont want him to worry.. so..... i will try my best to get over it.. and not do things that will hurt myself.. and school reopening on monday.. i guess i'll be probably very affected that day.. cause it's supposed to be our anniversary.. SUPPOSED TO BE... so ya.. just hope things go well.. well, i shall stay positive about it=D

真心希望你真的快乐！=D

你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

你是因为害怕才把我推开吗？

meet up with yong ming yesterday.. it's been almost 9months plus since we last met each other.. well, it was great catching up with him.. met him at DG and from DG, we walked to Suntec.. along the way, we shared some of our nursing encounters with each other..

headed to Suntec cause there's a wider variety of food for us to choose from.. and we had Pepper Lunch!=] had my favourite Beef Pepper Rice.. then.. we continued to chat with each other.. after finishing our meals, we headed to Coffee Bean.. had a drink there.. and chit-chatted.. then, we met one of his friends.. nothing much.. just pure catching up.. and really thankful to him..

did talked some sense to me regarding me and 卓文.. cause he seen 卓文 before during last year's Vibrant blood drive.. well, many thought we are still together and will be ever lasting.. BUT.. the fact is that.. many don't know that we did have many disputes and unhappiness for the almost one year of time together.. maybe letting each other go is a relieve from all these ba.. maybe, only through this, can we be truly happy..

i don't know about him.. but to me.. it seems that he's been doing well.. and i am the ONLY ONE being AFFECTED BADLY.. i know it's not worth dwelling in it for so long but somehow rather, i just can't help it.. i really don't know what should i do to get myself out of these mess..

slept at 3am this morning.. and i couldn't wake up at 630am for the morning gongyo session at Senja.. have to A380 peishan because i can't get up.. and was struggling with my STUPID gastric pain.. so, i went back to sleep.. for the whole day.. just stayed at home and watch videos, play games etc.. and i finished watching 下一站，幸福 and 海派甜心! actually both shows also watched half way and stop a bit here and there.. it did enlightened me in some ways but it did sadden me a lot as well..

like what Ben tells me.. there's no turning back between us liao.. and i don't want to HOPE for anything.. cause i know once i HOPE, DEVASTATION will come and knock HOPE down again.. so, let's just let nature takes its course.. and most importantly now is my education and my work in future.. and i think it applies to him as well?:D 加油，李卓文！要让我的牺牲更有意义，就好好的把自己的生活打点好，努力完成你的梦想！

找不到命中注定在一起的那个人........

找不到命中注定在一起的那个人.............

找不到人说 心里的寂寞
找不到人懂 怕黑的折磨
找不到命中注定 在一起的那个人
很多人都像我 一个人过生活

爱 只有简单笔画 却比想象复杂
恨安定爱变化
我爱过几个人 也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下
爱 是不可数的吗 为何我还相信
它不是独行侠
我在等一个人 在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕
用不完身边 泛滥的自由
开始怕孤单 是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人 为何在天黑以后
还是 宁愿回到 爱情那个枷锁
告诉我爱不单行相信它

a song from the show - 海派甜心 by 罗志祥，爱不单行.. it's been days since i last updated.. got myself a laptop today!!!:D thanks for your help.. thanks for helping me look at the specs.. it took me quite some time to decide if i should buy this laptop.. cause i know it clearly in my heart that once i get this laptop, i wont have anything to do with you anymore.. i don't want this to come.. but i know i should..

i have been disappointing those who really cares for me.. especially Benjamin.. I'm really sorry.. really.. 1 more week to school reopen.. i must do something.. to help myself get over it.. but in my heart, i know it well.. i really love you.. i really don't know how to get on.. meet up with Xueyun da jie few days back.. had a great time catching up with her.. and met Cliff also.. thanks for analyzing all the problems for me.. thank you so much..

i need a break badly.. don't know why.. these 2 days i aren't feeling that well.. keep having fainting spells.. i think i need a rest badly.. hasn't been sleeping well... according to my mom, i had nightmares! well well well, i just need to rest!=D

不管我愿不愿意改变，一切都已经改变了.....

不管我愿不愿意改变，一切都已经改变了.....

it's been days since i updated.. well, my friend still trying to get over that guy.. cause he already starting to avoid her.. and there's nothing she can do.. from replying her a few times to disappearing completely now.. really PITY her! jiayou! faster get over it yup!! he's not worth your energy!

had days of fun this few days.. went to bowl with 秀娟姐 and gang on Good Friday.. and watched Clash of the Titans too! NICE SHOW=D then went to 扫墓 yesterday.. wake up super early and went to 3places.. CCK columbarium, CCK chinese cemetery and 咖啡山 at thomson there.. then went to eat at JE Zai Shun Seafood.. then headed hom..

very very tired these 2 days.. and now, i am at home resting.. keep on sneezing.. and these 2 days, my nose starts to bleed.. the wound still hurts badly.. argh! i am so BORED! 2 more weeks of holidays! going to chiong for drama shows!=]

a song by 林俊杰, 背对背拥抱

话总说不清楚 该怎么明了
一字一句像圈套
旧帐总翻不完 谁无理取闹
你的双手甩开刚好的微妙
然后战火再燃烧

我们背对背拥抱
滥用沉默在咆哮
爱情来不及变老
葬送在烽火的玩笑

我们背对背拥抱
真话兜着圈子乱乱绕
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道 这警告
只是想让我知道
只是想让你知道 爱的警告
只是想让你知道 爱的警告

我不要一直到 形同陌路变成自找
既然可以拥抱 就不要轻易放掉