我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记....
slept till quite LATE today.. i'm just too TIRED after yesterday.. though i didnt drink, i was still having HEADACHE.. i think maybe because the weather recently very WEIRD.. one minute rain, one minute sunny.. and that now that i am having attachment.. with alternate shift, i think i am collapsing soon!! stayed home the whole afternoon and was trying my BEST to finish my case-study..
guess Mdm Yeo will be back with us for IMH posting next week, therefore.. she will be asking for our log books and case study to mark.. supposed to meet Stella at 6pm at AMK.. and i totally FORGETTEN.. too CONCENTRATED on my case-study.. it's been some time since i last do case-study.. a bit BLUR now.. but i still managed to finish it in time.. and thank godness Stella smsed me to change venue, if not, i will totally forgetten that i am supposed to meet her at 6 for dinner instead of 7pm..
met her at Toa Poyah instead of AMK.. and pei her go back her house to put her lappy and we went for dinner.. Stella recommended a fish bee hoon at a coffeeshop, so we went there to makan.. and i saw one of my ex, Benjamin (Liao).. and i pretended that i didnt see him.. cause he is with another girl.. Stella kept staring at him.. so FUNNY lohz! =P took bus 88 from Toa Poyah to Hougang.. and drop at Monsfort.. some where near Li Hua jie jie.. suddenly, all my memories came back.. hais..
anyway, we walked from Hougang ave 8 to ave 10 then back to ave 8.. just couldnt find the block.. i also dont know why.. i think me and Stella got at least walked 3km for about an hour.. managed to find it after calling Mrs Tay for SOS.. then reached there, almost 9pm liao.. we have the HEART to go but 老天爷 make fun of us.. we walked from raining to no rain then rain again.. *gosh* me and Stella's legs almost broke! i told Stella.. it was like "前往西天取经的路！" hahaz! am i right?
saw Huixian (qisheng's sister) at the wake too.. and we sat down and have a short catch up.. then at about 10pm, me and Stella left for Hougang interchange.. had Bubble tea despite the super COLD weather and the bus we took, really FREEZE our body and mind.. but me and Stella still enjoyed talking to ourselves.. hahaz.. reached Toa Poyah at about 11pm.. then talked till almost 12am before i left home..
it was a day that me and Stella got to know each other BETTER and understand each other's feelings and things that are happening in our life.. well, thanks girl! thanks for sharing so much with me and listening to my stories too! please JIAYOU in every aspects of your life!! and dont forget you can always turn to me!:)
IRON LADIES rocks!:) MISSES my school clinque too!=]
tomorrow - YWD Formation Day at 11am, YMD Formation Day at 4pm..
Song: 伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到我发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
失去了爱情
拥有了寂寞和无法拒绝伤痛的心
漫漫的长夜感情的缺口
如何去承受
不是没想过
要长久厮守
那一夜却吻别了你
直到发现就从此分手
才狠狠地哭泣
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记
就能忘记为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
我们的过去都太过清晰不是说忘记就能忘记
为什麽我们的爱情那麽多阴影
和彼此不断猜疑的心
所有的记忆让长夜更长
伤心的人更伤心
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Friday, July 18, 2008
[ i knew i love you before i met you.... ]
i knew i love you before i met you....
home today in the morning.. took approved leave for today as it's Uncle Peter's wedding.. Mom and Dad supposed to go to mama's house for the tea ceremony de.. end up, only Dad went alone.. Mom's knee cap aching like mad, plus she's still unhappy over the issue of notifying us so late about his wedding.. therefore, Mom purposely slept in late and ignored Dad when he tried waking her up..
me and Mom woke up at about 9plus after Dad left home.. then i did my prayers and went downstairs to get some food to eat.. after which, i was watching tv, but my eyes are like CLOSING anytime.. so i decided to go back and nap awhile.. if not, i sure cant tahan till the wedding dinner at night.. slept till about 2.30pm before i wake up to wash up and get ready.. Mom was watching tv on a programme showing Japan.. then it's on the Sanrio Land! oh my GOD! HELLO KITTY!! i really want to save up and go Japan for a tour! GAMABATTE ne!! :)
went to shower and did my evening prayers.. then slack around awhile.. and i went to the salon near my place and give my hair a big change! lolx! i know i look more matured lahz.. but just for few hours.. i just dont want to lose out to "THEM".. dont have to guess who are they.. they are my aunt's children - my cousins.. i'm still with Jian Long.. Jian Ye and Feng Ling, i really cannot communicate much.. especially Feng Ling.. anyway, i just dislike their " HAO LIAN" attitude.. what is it so PROUD to have GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS? it became LOH's FAMILY BIG ISSUE when Aunty Jing said that their children bringing their GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS along to Uncle Peter's Wedding..
well, it's OVER le.. as the wedding has arrived today.. took cab with Mom and met Didi at Park Mall.. and from there, we walked over to Fort Canning " The Legends".. quite NICE the place.. BUT, Uncle Peter's Wedding is in the open space.. therefore a bit WARM! reached there, just NICE - Cocktail session.. had some drinks.. and saw many of my malaysia's relatives!! =] dinner only started at about 9pm.. and Uncle Peter actually hired a band to perform for the dinner.. one of the vocal's voice not bad.. heard many GREAT songs! =] the food itself isnt that nice.. i dont really like it.. even shark's fin also not up to standard.. Zen , my second cousin, performed today with Jian Long's girlfriend.. performance by them quite okie.. helps to lighten the ambience a little..
dinner finished at about 11plus.. really really TIRED.. i didnt even have chance to talk to the bride and groom.. and didnt even take any pictures with them.. so SAD.. anyway, 希望他们早生贵子！:)
me at home getting ready for the dinner=]
see my hair? i love it!:)
at the washroom at Fort Canning Park! *zi lian*
all my pictures of the day! LOVE it! =]
tomorrow - meeting Stella to attend Ms Tay's mom's funeral wake...
home today in the morning.. took approved leave for today as it's Uncle Peter's wedding.. Mom and Dad supposed to go to mama's house for the tea ceremony de.. end up, only Dad went alone.. Mom's knee cap aching like mad, plus she's still unhappy over the issue of notifying us so late about his wedding.. therefore, Mom purposely slept in late and ignored Dad when he tried waking her up..
me and Mom woke up at about 9plus after Dad left home.. then i did my prayers and went downstairs to get some food to eat.. after which, i was watching tv, but my eyes are like CLOSING anytime.. so i decided to go back and nap awhile.. if not, i sure cant tahan till the wedding dinner at night.. slept till about 2.30pm before i wake up to wash up and get ready.. Mom was watching tv on a programme showing Japan.. then it's on the Sanrio Land! oh my GOD! HELLO KITTY!! i really want to save up and go Japan for a tour! GAMABATTE ne!! :)
went to shower and did my evening prayers.. then slack around awhile.. and i went to the salon near my place and give my hair a big change! lolx! i know i look more matured lahz.. but just for few hours.. i just dont want to lose out to "THEM".. dont have to guess who are they.. they are my aunt's children - my cousins.. i'm still with Jian Long.. Jian Ye and Feng Ling, i really cannot communicate much.. especially Feng Ling.. anyway, i just dislike their " HAO LIAN" attitude.. what is it so PROUD to have GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS? it became LOH's FAMILY BIG ISSUE when Aunty Jing said that their children bringing their GIRLFRIENDS and BOYFRIENDS along to Uncle Peter's Wedding..
well, it's OVER le.. as the wedding has arrived today.. took cab with Mom and met Didi at Park Mall.. and from there, we walked over to Fort Canning " The Legends".. quite NICE the place.. BUT, Uncle Peter's Wedding is in the open space.. therefore a bit WARM! reached there, just NICE - Cocktail session.. had some drinks.. and saw many of my malaysia's relatives!! =] dinner only started at about 9pm.. and Uncle Peter actually hired a band to perform for the dinner.. one of the vocal's voice not bad.. heard many GREAT songs! =] the food itself isnt that nice.. i dont really like it.. even shark's fin also not up to standard.. Zen , my second cousin, performed today with Jian Long's girlfriend.. performance by them quite okie.. helps to lighten the ambience a little..
dinner finished at about 11plus.. really really TIRED.. i didnt even have chance to talk to the bride and groom.. and didnt even take any pictures with them.. so SAD.. anyway, 希望他们早生贵子！:)
me at home getting ready for the dinner=]
see my hair? i love it!:)
at the washroom at Fort Canning Park! *zi lian*
all my pictures of the day! LOVE it! =]
tomorrow - meeting Stella to attend Ms Tay's mom's funeral wake...
Thursday, July 17, 2008
[ *** came for a REASON! ]
*** came for a REASON!
People comes into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
People comes into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime.
When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person..
When someone is in your life for a REASON,
it is usually to meet a need you have expressed.
They have come to assist you through a difficulty,
to provide you with guidance and support,
to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually.
They may seem like a godsend and they are.
They are there for the reason you need them to be.
Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time,
this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.
Sometimes they die.
Sometimes they walk away.
Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand.
What we must realize is that our need has been met,
our desire fulfilled, their work is done.
The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON,
because your turn has come to share, grow or learn.
They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh.
They may teach you something you have never done.
They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy.
Believe it, it is real.
But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons,
things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.
Your job is to accept the lesson,
love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships
and areas of your life.
It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant.
on afternoon shift today.. woke up at about 9.30am this morning.. showered, prayered and went to buy breakfast for myself, mom and didi.. then left for work at about 12.05.. hmmm.. think of the words above, these words strike me after the dialogue with Eunice yesterday night.. i think Eunice has really make me understand that *** had came into my life for a reason and made me learnt an important lesson in my life.. guess, i'll be able to MOVE ON now! :)
1-3pm was the briefing by Mdm Chia on our coming IMH posting.. and she did ask us about the feedback regarding working in the ward.. well, i did learnt quite a lot but it isnt a good place to work in.. we shared lots of funny experiences and incidents we encountered with Mdm Chia.. i guess if Mdm Yeo is around, she will laugh till her baby will kick her in the stomach.. lolx..
then back into the ward.. brought my AH MAs out to watch tv.. hahaz.. and i spent about 1 and a half hours with them watching tv! shiok right? who will have such good rights to watch tv with patients during working hours? only students have! and during special posting.. hahaz! cause you will be slacking around and lazying around..
went for first break with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. was FUN and really TIRED.. then after which, we lazy around.. bring few patients to toilet and we did hypocount for each other! lolx! and my hypocount is only 5.8! after dinner somemore.. hais.. the range for fasting glucose is 4-6.. means before meal.. then after meal should increase about 2.2 to 4 like that.. gosh manz! mine quite low.. would means if i never eat, should be below 4 i guess.. means i got hypoglycaemia.. hais.. and i think my HB still low now.. i'm just afraid that if i continue to be like that, i will have disorders of the blood like anaemia or something.. hais!!
mom's telling me again that i should not be donating blood anymore.. and i was still thinking of donating platelets next week.. oh manz! think i have to do it secretly AGAIN! today is my last day in the ward.. i must declare that i am NOT WORKING tomorrow!! YES! cause my paternal uncle is getting married tomorrow!! and i'll be attending:)
TOMORROW - MORNING: going mama's house for the tea ceremony. NIGHT: Uncle Peter's Wedding at Fort Canning Park , The Legends!=]
i guess *** have came into my life for a REASON.. i know your job is DONE and that it's TIME for me to MOVE ON! thanks making me LEARN so MUCH and grow into a STRONGER person.. i hope *** will be HAPPY too! :)
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
[ 你那么好却只能做朋友! ]
你那么好却只能做朋友!
i didnt know why i have chosen this as my title of the day.. well.. i just feel this was something i feel.. Xueyun, Stella, you should know what i mean right? hahaz! AM shift today.. showered many patients today.. and got myself really DRENCHED! everyone is rushing to take shower before eating breakfast in my cubicle.. i really got a bit "DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" at first.. cause dont know should bring who first.. anyway, still managed to finish bathing them.. and did help Sook Mun as well!:)
wanted to visit the Physio department and take a look.. BUT, that NC (Nurse Clinician) just so PARTICULAR.. till i also give up liao.. if Teacher can be there, it will be GOOD! went for 2nd break with Sook Mun and Puteri.. bought Mee Goreng and a pau.. and bought a packet of fish crackers from the mama shop also.. shared with Sook Mun the fish crackers.. Sister Bee Hoon saw us eating the tibits.. i thought she will scold us say we eat junk food or something.. but luckily she didnt.. LOLX!
had lots of FUN today at work.. with many JOKES by my DEAREST AH MAs! especially one Ah Ma of mine.. had a hard time waking up to have her lunch.. at first the maid so SCARED.. thought she no breath liao.. then i faster feel her carotid pulse.. lolx! still have.. then we tried shaking her.. tickle her.. open her eyes.. then she woke up after we tried for 15minutes.. then she fall asleep while eating AGAIN!! lolx!! FUNNY lohz.. i think she's just TOO TIRED cause she always very ACTIVE in the night.. till she has to sleep at the corridor.. if no nurse is looking after her, she might even fall off from the bed..
finished work at 3pm today.. and went off to TTSH.. and thanks Sook Mun for the ice-cream treat:) took 851 to TTSH.. and mom called to say she paid the bill le.. YES! can start doing my case study le.. went up to the HR department to submit my results plus amanda's.. then call Huiwen.. thank god i got her in time.. if i never call her.. maybe she will leave TTSH le.. we met up outside kopitium and headed to Novena Square.. went to Andersen's Ice-cream.. and we had FONDUE!!!
the COUPLE FONDUE for 2!
(consists of 5 scoops of ice-cream, 2 ice-cream cones, cookies, mashmallow, fruits - kiwi, banana, honeydew and strawberry!)
it's was really NICE.. although my teeth ACHES like MAD because of my wisdom tooth.. shall find time to go and see a dentist le.. think it's getting WORSE.. really serve me right lahz.. is i too LAZY and too SCARED to visit a dentist liao.. the SHORT catch up was GREAT!! really HAPPY to meet up with HUIWEN! and thanks for the FONDUE treat!!! :) we shall meet up SOON again OKIE? =] headed home after that.. reached home at about 5.30pm like that... then showered and went to meet Eunice at Northpoint..
supposed to be visiting a believer.. but she's sick.. so Eunice and me meet up for dialogue and dinner.. had our really fulfilling dinner at Delifrance! and i ate steak with salad, baked potato (my FAVOURITE) and ice lemon tea! Eunice ate seafood baked rice!! :) the catch up was GREAT! and thanks Eunice for the dinner treat and the gifts from Japan!! nice nice! thanks for that again.. if i didnt meet up with Eunice, i wouldnt know that i have grown into a much more COURAGEOUS girl and that i have matured quite a lot as compared to the me during Chingay'07..
i used to be very very very EMOTIONAL.. friends who know for very long will know that i am a WELL-KNOWN CRYBABY! lolx.. i still CRY quite EASILY now.. be it sad or angry or happy.. BUT, i guess i have become STRONGER!! and choose to put my past failures and happiness down and MOVE ON!!! MOVE ON MOVE ON!!!! :)
i will try my BEST to stay HAPPY everyday! =] shall start to challenge myself for the 1 million daimoku!! and finish reading the book!! =] GAMBATTE ne!! :)
the book i am reading NOW! =]
the HAPPINESS book!! it's a 1million daimoku record book that looks like a bank book!! =]
a notepad with the word "Dream and hope"!
tomorrow - AFTERNOON SHIFT! :(
title: 朋友变情人再变朋友
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格
你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的
朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!
i didnt know why i have chosen this as my title of the day.. well.. i just feel this was something i feel.. Xueyun, Stella, you should know what i mean right? hahaz! AM shift today.. showered many patients today.. and got myself really DRENCHED! everyone is rushing to take shower before eating breakfast in my cubicle.. i really got a bit "DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO" at first.. cause dont know should bring who first.. anyway, still managed to finish bathing them.. and did help Sook Mun as well!:)
wanted to visit the Physio department and take a look.. BUT, that NC (Nurse Clinician) just so PARTICULAR.. till i also give up liao.. if Teacher can be there, it will be GOOD! went for 2nd break with Sook Mun and Puteri.. bought Mee Goreng and a pau.. and bought a packet of fish crackers from the mama shop also.. shared with Sook Mun the fish crackers.. Sister Bee Hoon saw us eating the tibits.. i thought she will scold us say we eat junk food or something.. but luckily she didnt.. LOLX!
had lots of FUN today at work.. with many JOKES by my DEAREST AH MAs! especially one Ah Ma of mine.. had a hard time waking up to have her lunch.. at first the maid so SCARED.. thought she no breath liao.. then i faster feel her carotid pulse.. lolx! still have.. then we tried shaking her.. tickle her.. open her eyes.. then she woke up after we tried for 15minutes.. then she fall asleep while eating AGAIN!! lolx!! FUNNY lohz.. i think she's just TOO TIRED cause she always very ACTIVE in the night.. till she has to sleep at the corridor.. if no nurse is looking after her, she might even fall off from the bed..
finished work at 3pm today.. and went off to TTSH.. and thanks Sook Mun for the ice-cream treat:) took 851 to TTSH.. and mom called to say she paid the bill le.. YES! can start doing my case study le.. went up to the HR department to submit my results plus amanda's.. then call Huiwen.. thank god i got her in time.. if i never call her.. maybe she will leave TTSH le.. we met up outside kopitium and headed to Novena Square.. went to Andersen's Ice-cream.. and we had FONDUE!!!
the COUPLE FONDUE for 2!
(consists of 5 scoops of ice-cream, 2 ice-cream cones, cookies, mashmallow, fruits - kiwi, banana, honeydew and strawberry!)
it's was really NICE.. although my teeth ACHES like MAD because of my wisdom tooth.. shall find time to go and see a dentist le.. think it's getting WORSE.. really serve me right lahz.. is i too LAZY and too SCARED to visit a dentist liao.. the SHORT catch up was GREAT!! really HAPPY to meet up with HUIWEN! and thanks for the FONDUE treat!!! :) we shall meet up SOON again OKIE? =] headed home after that.. reached home at about 5.30pm like that... then showered and went to meet Eunice at Northpoint..
supposed to be visiting a believer.. but she's sick.. so Eunice and me meet up for dialogue and dinner.. had our really fulfilling dinner at Delifrance! and i ate steak with salad, baked potato (my FAVOURITE) and ice lemon tea! Eunice ate seafood baked rice!! :) the catch up was GREAT! and thanks Eunice for the dinner treat and the gifts from Japan!! nice nice! thanks for that again.. if i didnt meet up with Eunice, i wouldnt know that i have grown into a much more COURAGEOUS girl and that i have matured quite a lot as compared to the me during Chingay'07..
i used to be very very very EMOTIONAL.. friends who know for very long will know that i am a WELL-KNOWN CRYBABY! lolx.. i still CRY quite EASILY now.. be it sad or angry or happy.. BUT, i guess i have become STRONGER!! and choose to put my past failures and happiness down and MOVE ON!!! MOVE ON MOVE ON!!!! :)
i will try my BEST to stay HAPPY everyday! =] shall start to challenge myself for the 1 million daimoku!! and finish reading the book!! =] GAMBATTE ne!! :)
the book i am reading NOW! =]
the HAPPINESS book!! it's a 1million daimoku record book that looks like a bank book!! =]
a notepad with the word "Dream and hope"!
tomorrow - AFTERNOON SHIFT! :(
title: 朋友变情人再变朋友
安静的房间还有你的温柔
躺在棉被上看着多的枕头
为何分手后回忆就被偷走
爱情走到尽头是否可以做朋友
你和我以前是朋友心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
爱上你以后愉悦很轻松
现实太残酷梦中你会拥抱我
当爱上以后如今我们分手
我变成情歌手
是唱太多太多bala歌
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能显真格
你和我以前是朋友
心情不错
就想约你走走
你要电影我听你唱歌
我们总是无话不说
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
谁懂这坎坷
你和我现在是朋友
你那么好却只能做朋友
你撞了我我装无所谓
我们如何要求更多
还能做朋友
或许这是最好的结果
朋友变情人再变朋友
只能写真的
朋友变情人再变朋友
祝我们快乐!!!
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
[ 你把我的孤单都消灭，全都消灭！]
你把我的孤单都消灭，全都消灭!
am shift today.. FORCED myself to wake up.. cause yesterday on afternoon shift.. and today morning.. quite BUSY today... parameters, shower patients, serve diet etc.. today.. went for 2nd break.. with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. 1st time go eat with Carol and on the same shift as her.. she's kind of FUNNY.. think i get to know her better today:) kind of STONE today.. cause not enough sleep yesterday i guess.. what to do? hais..
have yet to do anything for my case study.. *GOSH* manz.. plus mom can only go pay the bill tomorrow when she's working half a day.. cause she couldnt find the bill.. finished work at 3pm.. then headed home.. and on my work out, bought chocolate chip ice-cream.. think my MOOD is not too good today also.. TTSH called today and ask for my results slip.. so headed home and went to scan my results.. have to go down to TTSH HR tomorrow to submit my results slip.. SGH called today also.. and asked if i can go down to donate my platelets.. think will be going down next week..
then suddenly, i gana FLU and my eyes turned really RED and ITCHY.. supposed to homevisit a SD member with Eunice.. BUT, end up have to fly her aeroplane halfway! i'm SORRY!.. need to makan my dinner and i want to go sleep le!
FLU please go away FASTER!!!!!
Tomorrow - MORNING shift! :)
Title: 哄我入睡
那年深深爱过
也深深痛过
爱完了然后她走了
时间哗啦啦过
泪也刷啦啦流
她忘了把心还我
把心细细上锁
也密密封过
为什么眼泪还在流
爱是笑呵呵的风
然后哎呀呀的痛
直到你出现拯救我
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着我哄我入睡
我的世界每天笑
笑到累累得很满足才甘愿
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着哄我入睡
你的笑容我一定很宝贝
从今天到永远
永远不会疲倦
那天我眼泪偷偷滴在碗中
你做了刀削面给了我
刀削面就像你的深刻温柔
越削薄就越甜越感动
P.S. VICTORY = DETERMINATION x PRAYER x ACTION
am shift today.. FORCED myself to wake up.. cause yesterday on afternoon shift.. and today morning.. quite BUSY today... parameters, shower patients, serve diet etc.. today.. went for 2nd break.. with Puteri, Carol and Huda.. 1st time go eat with Carol and on the same shift as her.. she's kind of FUNNY.. think i get to know her better today:) kind of STONE today.. cause not enough sleep yesterday i guess.. what to do? hais..
have yet to do anything for my case study.. *GOSH* manz.. plus mom can only go pay the bill tomorrow when she's working half a day.. cause she couldnt find the bill.. finished work at 3pm.. then headed home.. and on my work out, bought chocolate chip ice-cream.. think my MOOD is not too good today also.. TTSH called today and ask for my results slip.. so headed home and went to scan my results.. have to go down to TTSH HR tomorrow to submit my results slip.. SGH called today also.. and asked if i can go down to donate my platelets.. think will be going down next week..
then suddenly, i gana FLU and my eyes turned really RED and ITCHY.. supposed to homevisit a SD member with Eunice.. BUT, end up have to fly her aeroplane halfway! i'm SORRY!.. need to makan my dinner and i want to go sleep le!
FLU please go away FASTER!!!!!
Tomorrow - MORNING shift! :)
Title: 哄我入睡
那年深深爱过
也深深痛过
爱完了然后她走了
时间哗啦啦过
泪也刷啦啦流
她忘了把心还我
把心细细上锁
也密密封过
为什么眼泪还在流
爱是笑呵呵的风
然后哎呀呀的痛
直到你出现拯救我
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着我哄我入睡
我的世界每天笑
笑到累累得很满足才甘愿
你把孤单消灭
都消灭全都消灭
给我安慰抱着哄我入睡
你的笑容我一定很宝贝
从今天到永远
永远不会疲倦
那天我眼泪偷偷滴在碗中
你做了刀削面给了我
刀削面就像你的深刻温柔
越削薄就越甜越感动
P.S. VICTORY = DETERMINATION x PRAYER x ACTION
Monday, July 14, 2008
[ 面包或爱情？ ]
面包或爱情？
on afternoon shift today.. was HAPPY that i can sleep in a bit later and turn in a bit late yesterday.. BUT, it was NOT really that good to be on afternoon shift on a MONDAY.. cause it's kind of boring.. what is needed to be done will be done on the morning.. like showering and stuff.. and i really HATE afternoon shift in this hospital.. cause of the breaktime i guess..
woke up really early today despite sleeping like about 11plus yesterday.. cause i forgetten that i havent iron my uniform.. so i woke up like 8.45am i guess.. iron my clothes.. showered, prayed and went down to buy my makan.. got home and realised my internet and cable tv is down.. cause Dad was away in Cambodia few days back and didnt pay the bill before setting off.. *diaoz*.. it's common.. Mdm Yeo on hospitalisation leave this week.. i believe we will have a hard time doing the skills.. and everyone will turn a bit out of control.. cause we are really like orphans now..
it's NORMAL that students tends to slack around when the powerful pair of eyes isnt around to stare and look! hahaz.. this is STUDENTS! as usual, we just talked to patients, bring them to toilet and help to serve dinner and stuff.. went for 1st break today.. and when i came back from the break.. took parameters for 2 cubicles.. happy! and think soon my manual BP will be very PPO!:)
an UNHAPPY day today i should say.. hais! i just dont understand why must be do things to make people happy and yet i myself is not happy? i'm really TIRED to be so ANGEL.. i also wish sometimes i can throw tantrum and give people an unhappy face that actually i know how to be angry.. it's not everything i must give in to you.. cause you hold the same status as me as well! GET IT STRAIGHT INTO YOUR BRAIN! ARGH!
hais.. one week only.. and i am TIRED le.. TIRED of being nice..
Title: 疼你的责任
每次你任性时说的一些话
你知道那有多伤人吗
但我顶多只气个三分钟吧
最后依然体贴的送你回家
有时想如果我不是一直让
你也许会懂得学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠
做得让你有一点难过失望
总觉得有疼你的责任
要你是最快乐最单纯的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛
原来不奢望的变成可能
总觉得有疼你的责任
让你做最轻松最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一种信任
爱得了解包容
才算爱得完整
tomorrow - Morning shift! :(
answer: 我终究选择了面包..... 或许是我已觉悟了吧！
on afternoon shift today.. was HAPPY that i can sleep in a bit later and turn in a bit late yesterday.. BUT, it was NOT really that good to be on afternoon shift on a MONDAY.. cause it's kind of boring.. what is needed to be done will be done on the morning.. like showering and stuff.. and i really HATE afternoon shift in this hospital.. cause of the breaktime i guess..
woke up really early today despite sleeping like about 11plus yesterday.. cause i forgetten that i havent iron my uniform.. so i woke up like 8.45am i guess.. iron my clothes.. showered, prayed and went down to buy my makan.. got home and realised my internet and cable tv is down.. cause Dad was away in Cambodia few days back and didnt pay the bill before setting off.. *diaoz*.. it's common.. Mdm Yeo on hospitalisation leave this week.. i believe we will have a hard time doing the skills.. and everyone will turn a bit out of control.. cause we are really like orphans now..
it's NORMAL that students tends to slack around when the powerful pair of eyes isnt around to stare and look! hahaz.. this is STUDENTS! as usual, we just talked to patients, bring them to toilet and help to serve dinner and stuff.. went for 1st break today.. and when i came back from the break.. took parameters for 2 cubicles.. happy! and think soon my manual BP will be very PPO!:)
an UNHAPPY day today i should say.. hais! i just dont understand why must be do things to make people happy and yet i myself is not happy? i'm really TIRED to be so ANGEL.. i also wish sometimes i can throw tantrum and give people an unhappy face that actually i know how to be angry.. it's not everything i must give in to you.. cause you hold the same status as me as well! GET IT STRAIGHT INTO YOUR BRAIN! ARGH!
hais.. one week only.. and i am TIRED le.. TIRED of being nice..
Title: 疼你的责任
每次你任性时说的一些话
你知道那有多伤人吗
但我顶多只气个三分钟吧
最后依然体贴的送你回家
有时想如果我不是一直让
你也许会懂得学着体谅
但是我完全无法硬着心肠
做得让你有一点难过失望
总觉得有疼你的责任
要你是最快乐最单纯的人
因为你让我的心变得丰盛
原来不奢望的变成可能
总觉得有疼你的责任
让你做最轻松最自然的人
我想不遮掩也是一种信任
爱得了解包容
才算爱得完整
tomorrow - Morning shift! :(
answer: 我终究选择了面包..... 或许是我已觉悟了吧！
Sunday, July 13, 2008
[ happy birthday HARRY LOH!!!:) ]
happy birthday HARRY LOH!!!:)
didnt post yesterday.. cause nothing interesting really happen.. except that i actually stayed home with mom! i also dont know why.. too LAZY.. if mom's not home, maybe i would have went with didi to eat sakura buffet together with his girlfriend.. well, just want to be FILIAL once in a blue moon.. and went Khatib's pasa malam with mom together.. that's all! :)
it's a really SIGNIFICANT day! hahaz! it's my brother's birthday lahz.. nothing BIG DEAL! but it's a time when we can eat out together! =] Dad's back from Cambodia only tonight.. so ya.. he will miss out the FUN! =] dont be JEALOUS! woke up quite early today.. cause have to be at Senja kaikan at 9am although the meeting is at 10am.. supposed to meet one member but in the end, she couldnt make it.. didnt arrange to Ann Nee but still met her at Yishun bus interchange.. took bus 171 to Senja kaikan.. and waited for Wei Zhong to come before we go through one round for the HR sharing..
the sharing was quite interesting.. i felt so HAPPY sharing with them the HR.. it also helps to motivate me to read more!! :) and really learnt a lot today.. after the meeting, rushed home.. Didi was throwing tantrum.. me and mom wanted to bring him to eat Indonesian food but he dont want.. he insisted on eating others.. he said he has sore throat, yet he wants to eat either steamboat or Fish N Co.. RIDICULOUS.. pay money treat him eat still must tolerant his NONSENSE! end up, we decided to eat 鼎太丰 at Tampines Mall..
ate many thing.. fried rice, chicken soup and xiao long bao!!!!! =] love love!! really LOVE it.. then we went to shop around.. and didi saw Pinwen.. i didnt even notice him.. it was Didi who saw him.. lolx.. went to shop around at BHG and Isetan.. and didi wanted to buy a new pair of ear piece.. so went to Best.. and end up, mom got us MP4 players!! actually wanted to buy the Creative Zen 2GB one at $128 de.. cause i intend to buy external memory card.. if buy the 4GB de, the file types they can view only one type.. but end up, i didnt get the Creative one.. and bought the Samsung 2GB mp4 the salesperson recommended..
this is the mp4! model no: YP-S3JAB!! :)
actually got 5 colours - pink, blue, green, white and black.. both didi and me chosen the same colour - BLACK! cause the pink, green and black look so fake.. the salesperson also recommended another model - YP-T10 de.. got Bluetooth function i think.. but, i think i wont need it.. so this one is good enough! *CONTENTED* can play games somemore!!
headed home after that.. cause rushing to watch " 这里发现爱"!! *NICE* as usual.. and make me CRY again lohz! as usual lahz.. i CRYBABY.. and gets EMO easily.. lolx!! then watched one of a show where i saw 品冠's singing.. and recall many songs i have heard before.. *NICE* heard the lyrics of the songs.. really 感同身受 suddenly.. i also dont know.. a song to recommend!=]
title: 无可救药
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传
随到买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah BOY!:)
P.S It is not things that are difficult the we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that things are difficult.
didnt post yesterday.. cause nothing interesting really happen.. except that i actually stayed home with mom! i also dont know why.. too LAZY.. if mom's not home, maybe i would have went with didi to eat sakura buffet together with his girlfriend.. well, just want to be FILIAL once in a blue moon.. and went Khatib's pasa malam with mom together.. that's all! :)
it's a really SIGNIFICANT day! hahaz! it's my brother's birthday lahz.. nothing BIG DEAL! but it's a time when we can eat out together! =] Dad's back from Cambodia only tonight.. so ya.. he will miss out the FUN! =] dont be JEALOUS! woke up quite early today.. cause have to be at Senja kaikan at 9am although the meeting is at 10am.. supposed to meet one member but in the end, she couldnt make it.. didnt arrange to Ann Nee but still met her at Yishun bus interchange.. took bus 171 to Senja kaikan.. and waited for Wei Zhong to come before we go through one round for the HR sharing..
the sharing was quite interesting.. i felt so HAPPY sharing with them the HR.. it also helps to motivate me to read more!! :) and really learnt a lot today.. after the meeting, rushed home.. Didi was throwing tantrum.. me and mom wanted to bring him to eat Indonesian food but he dont want.. he insisted on eating others.. he said he has sore throat, yet he wants to eat either steamboat or Fish N Co.. RIDICULOUS.. pay money treat him eat still must tolerant his NONSENSE! end up, we decided to eat 鼎太丰 at Tampines Mall..
ate many thing.. fried rice, chicken soup and xiao long bao!!!!! =] love love!! really LOVE it.. then we went to shop around.. and didi saw Pinwen.. i didnt even notice him.. it was Didi who saw him.. lolx.. went to shop around at BHG and Isetan.. and didi wanted to buy a new pair of ear piece.. so went to Best.. and end up, mom got us MP4 players!! actually wanted to buy the Creative Zen 2GB one at $128 de.. cause i intend to buy external memory card.. if buy the 4GB de, the file types they can view only one type.. but end up, i didnt get the Creative one.. and bought the Samsung 2GB mp4 the salesperson recommended..
this is the mp4! model no: YP-S3JAB!! :)actually got 5 colours - pink, blue, green, white and black.. both didi and me chosen the same colour - BLACK! cause the pink, green and black look so fake.. the salesperson also recommended another model - YP-T10 de.. got Bluetooth function i think.. but, i think i wont need it.. so this one is good enough! *CONTENTED* can play games somemore!!
headed home after that.. cause rushing to watch " 这里发现爱"!! *NICE* as usual.. and make me CRY again lohz! as usual lahz.. i CRYBABY.. and gets EMO easily.. lolx!! then watched one of a show where i saw 品冠's singing.. and recall many songs i have heard before.. *NICE* heard the lyrics of the songs.. really 感同身受 suddenly.. i also dont know.. a song to recommend!=]
title: 无可救药
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传
随到买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药
HAPPY BIRTHDAY Ah BOY!:)
P.S It is not things that are difficult the we do not dare, it is because we do not dare that things are difficult.
Friday, July 11, 2008
[ 想你是临睡的习惯! ]
想你是临睡的习惯!
was busy on the phone yesterday.. one after another.. first was Ben Ben.. then was Ms Chow.. then was Sakinah.. then Ben Ben again.. really felt so FRUSTRATED over the roster assigned for the NDP First Aid.. well, anyway, it's over liao.. so i shall not talk about it anymore.. slept at 12am this morning and wake up at 9am.. to prepare my dinner.. lolx.. cause will be working afternoon shift today.. and the food selling the canteen really is EXPENSIVE and not nice! if i dont eat well, i wont have the mood to work..
asked mom to cook more rice for me last night.. and i reheated the rice..then steamed some luncheon meat and use the oven to heat the popcorn chicken... that will be my SIMPLE dinner.. BUT, i know i will be happy eating it.. then, i went to shower and prayed.. actually, wanted to go down to buy my breakfast.. BUT, i am just LAZY after waking up so early.. so decided to cook maggi noodles to eat.. and put some mushroom and luncheon meat in!! =P
left work at 12pm.. the SUN is HOT! and i just feel like my skin is BURNING.. Mdm Yeo left early today.. and we are left with no teacher to take care.. must depend on experienced staffs to help us with our skills.. work is quite occupied today.. not really busy but just occupied.. chatting with patients, doing parameters, bringing patients to toilet, changing and turning.. and i did dressings today for one patient! =]
the AH MAs in my cubicle are just CUTE! and two of them are discharging tomorrow! so happy for them!! and today, i discovered a diagnosis that i never thought it will exist.. it's CA appendix, means appendix cancer.. gosh manz! appendix has not use to the body and yet such diagnosis exists.. really SUFFER for nothing.. guess this is call KARMA ba!=X
dinner break was at 6-7pm today.. there is some unhappiness for the breaktime.. everyone is hungry and are rushing to go for first break.. well, people just tends to be selfish at times.. dinner was with Puteri, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. we had a good time gossiping and laughing!! lolx!!! =P was looking through my CP log bok and was trying to write 11/07/08 and i wrote it as 11/09/08.. sept 11 is a day i hate.. cause it reminds me of ***... but i dont know why i will write this also.. had a great with Sook Mun today.. didnt know we got so much things in common!! =P
finished work only 9.20pm.. as Brother called us to his office for some teaching.. and my back just aches like mad! and i'm having a terrible flu.. stupid ben ben was saying me that how can i be a nurse when i am so weak.. thanks lohz.. this kind of BESTIE also have.. hais! misfortunate ar!=P kidding only!!=]
very tired.. got to go and sleep liao!! no plans tomorrow yet!! =P
a old song which i like NOW!
title: 想你是临睡的习惯
寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人守着
冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单
想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风
故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样
不懂我的爱在你生命
中占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚
i will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样
让爱情不由自主
陷入一场
两败俱伤的战
i will never try to break your heart
我真的不想
再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单
was busy on the phone yesterday.. one after another.. first was Ben Ben.. then was Ms Chow.. then was Sakinah.. then Ben Ben again.. really felt so FRUSTRATED over the roster assigned for the NDP First Aid.. well, anyway, it's over liao.. so i shall not talk about it anymore.. slept at 12am this morning and wake up at 9am.. to prepare my dinner.. lolx.. cause will be working afternoon shift today.. and the food selling the canteen really is EXPENSIVE and not nice! if i dont eat well, i wont have the mood to work..
asked mom to cook more rice for me last night.. and i reheated the rice..then steamed some luncheon meat and use the oven to heat the popcorn chicken... that will be my SIMPLE dinner.. BUT, i know i will be happy eating it.. then, i went to shower and prayed.. actually, wanted to go down to buy my breakfast.. BUT, i am just LAZY after waking up so early.. so decided to cook maggi noodles to eat.. and put some mushroom and luncheon meat in!! =P
left work at 12pm.. the SUN is HOT! and i just feel like my skin is BURNING.. Mdm Yeo left early today.. and we are left with no teacher to take care.. must depend on experienced staffs to help us with our skills.. work is quite occupied today.. not really busy but just occupied.. chatting with patients, doing parameters, bringing patients to toilet, changing and turning.. and i did dressings today for one patient! =]
the AH MAs in my cubicle are just CUTE! and two of them are discharging tomorrow! so happy for them!! and today, i discovered a diagnosis that i never thought it will exist.. it's CA appendix, means appendix cancer.. gosh manz! appendix has not use to the body and yet such diagnosis exists.. really SUFFER for nothing.. guess this is call KARMA ba!=X
dinner break was at 6-7pm today.. there is some unhappiness for the breaktime.. everyone is hungry and are rushing to go for first break.. well, people just tends to be selfish at times.. dinner was with Puteri, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. we had a good time gossiping and laughing!! lolx!!! =P was looking through my CP log bok and was trying to write 11/07/08 and i wrote it as 11/09/08.. sept 11 is a day i hate.. cause it reminds me of ***... but i dont know why i will write this also.. had a great with Sook Mun today.. didnt know we got so much things in common!! =P
finished work only 9.20pm.. as Brother called us to his office for some teaching.. and my back just aches like mad! and i'm having a terrible flu.. stupid ben ben was saying me that how can i be a nurse when i am so weak.. thanks lohz.. this kind of BESTIE also have.. hais! misfortunate ar!=P kidding only!!=]
very tired.. got to go and sleep liao!! no plans tomorrow yet!! =P
a old song which i like NOW!
title: 想你是临睡的习惯
寂寞是临睡的习惯
习惯是一个人守着
冰冷的床和烟灰缸
没有你的孤单
想你在这样的夜晚
打开窗吹着冷风
故意把灯关上
试着想像你笑的模样
不懂我的爱在你生命
中占据多少份量
让你哭泣却是我心深处最痛的伤
最残酷的惩罚
i will never try to break your heart
我不愿这样
让爱情不由自主
陷入一场
两败俱伤的战
i will never try to break your heart
我真的不想
再面对没有你的寂寞夜晚
烟雾迷茫的孤单
Thursday, July 10, 2008
[ 因为讨厌你所以必须离开你！]
因为讨厌你所以必须离开你！
as usual.. i couldnt wake up today despite sleeping at 10pm last night.. took quite some time to fall asleep.. think i'm still used to sleeping late and waking up late.. woke up at 5.15am this morning and showered.. had bread spread with kaya today for breakfast.. i know i cant leave without eating breakfast.. if not i sure will HYPO later.. headache is getting better today.. BUT still will feel giddy sometimes..
showered a few patients today.. and as usual.. chit chat with patients and change them and bring them to toilet.. and had a great chat with SN Kevin too! =] My patients were really CUTE!! when they see me, they will say: " 小妹来了！" kekez.. they are so CUTE.. and seeing them makes me SMILE from my HEART!! =P but when i see them cry, my HEART feel like crying also.. sobx(T.T)
had my lunch at 11am this morning.. the food at the canteen in the hospital really cannot make it.. it's so EXPENSIVE and yet NOT NICE at all!! hais! got to bring home food tomorrow for afternoon shift.. got to do a few skills today.. although Mdm Yeo is not around to supervise us.. and did blood transfusion too! =] but i am SAD cause patient has to be on blood transfusion.. hais.. and it's so KIND of SSN Devi to allow us to have the opportunity to learn.. thanks so much!=P
felt a bit giddy today.. bend down to take my bag from my locker and i almost FAINTED!!!!! *Gosh* i think my Hb level quite LOW that's why i will feel giddy ba.. finished work at 3pm as usual.. and had yakult and ice-cream again!! hahaz!!!! *NICE NICE*.. took bus home with Puteri and Sook Mun.. had a great time chatting with them.. today my hp like so quiet.. no sms today at all.. Sky (loo) is working as SGH now.. have no idea what job he is working.. but wish him all the best for his work! jiayou!=]
will be going out soon for preparation meeting with Eunice and Wei Zhong!! =P
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift! :)
tot of *** suddenly today.. just felt so angry when i thought of what *** said and what *** did.. it reminds me what i have gone through.. get it erase PLEASE! i just HATE ***!
as usual.. i couldnt wake up today despite sleeping at 10pm last night.. took quite some time to fall asleep.. think i'm still used to sleeping late and waking up late.. woke up at 5.15am this morning and showered.. had bread spread with kaya today for breakfast.. i know i cant leave without eating breakfast.. if not i sure will HYPO later.. headache is getting better today.. BUT still will feel giddy sometimes..
showered a few patients today.. and as usual.. chit chat with patients and change them and bring them to toilet.. and had a great chat with SN Kevin too! =] My patients were really CUTE!! when they see me, they will say: " 小妹来了！" kekez.. they are so CUTE.. and seeing them makes me SMILE from my HEART!! =P but when i see them cry, my HEART feel like crying also.. sobx(T.T)
had my lunch at 11am this morning.. the food at the canteen in the hospital really cannot make it.. it's so EXPENSIVE and yet NOT NICE at all!! hais! got to bring home food tomorrow for afternoon shift.. got to do a few skills today.. although Mdm Yeo is not around to supervise us.. and did blood transfusion too! =] but i am SAD cause patient has to be on blood transfusion.. hais.. and it's so KIND of SSN Devi to allow us to have the opportunity to learn.. thanks so much!=P
felt a bit giddy today.. bend down to take my bag from my locker and i almost FAINTED!!!!! *Gosh* i think my Hb level quite LOW that's why i will feel giddy ba.. finished work at 3pm as usual.. and had yakult and ice-cream again!! hahaz!!!! *NICE NICE*.. took bus home with Puteri and Sook Mun.. had a great time chatting with them.. today my hp like so quiet.. no sms today at all.. Sky (loo) is working as SGH now.. have no idea what job he is working.. but wish him all the best for his work! jiayou!=]
will be going out soon for preparation meeting with Eunice and Wei Zhong!! =P
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift! :)
tot of *** suddenly today.. just felt so angry when i thought of what *** said and what *** did.. it reminds me what i have gone through.. get it erase PLEASE! i just HATE ***!
Wednesday, July 09, 2008
[ 不要去在意你生命里那不完美的一面... ]
不要去在意你生命里那不完美的一面...
was on morning shift today.. supposed to wake up at 5am.. but i couldnt wake up.. managed to climb out of the bed at about 5.15am.. my head just ACHES till today.. took 852 from Yishun.. the stupid bus.. the 门铃 wasnt working.. and the stupid driver didnt even know.. i was supposed to stop at the condominium bus stop.. but end up.. i have to stop at YCK mrt bus stop.. just HATE the feeling of walking a distance into the hospital and sweat like MAD!! and i just HATE sweating cause it SMELLS! *yuck*
work started at 7am.. everyone just looked so TIRED.. bathed two patients today.. and got myself TOTALLY wet! lolx.. but i love the feeling of seeing them clean and smelling NICE!! kekez!! and got a new patient in my cubicle.. had a great chat with the patient's daughter.. and all my AH ma's keep saying i have a GREAT SMILE!! =] kekez! smile more jessica lohz!! MUAHAHAZ!!! ^-^
they just simply brighten my days.. did nothing much.. change patients, bring patients to the toilet etc.. and finally.. i did ONE SKILL today! it's topical application.. i'm so HAPPY cause i at least started to do something for this posting liao.. so STRESSED! i think that's one of the reason why i have terrible headache ba.. i think i will be more stress when i go back to ttsh ba.. and another thing i am stress is over the sk independence camp and the 15th anniversary.. sometimes i just feel like backing out from the iron ladies team.. hais! too many things on hands liao.. please please, my fellow comrades, please continue to encourage me.. cause i want to do my best and exert to the fullest to fulfill my responsibilties..
ben ben smsed me this morning.. he was so NAGGY!! lolx.. just ask me to take good care of myself.. cause i no feeling that well recently.. hahaz! thanks for your concern BESTIE!! =P back home at about 3.30pm.. finally finished the HR script after dragging it for 3days! i am very TIRED!! going to eat dinner now!!
tomorrow - morning shift, meeting Eunice, Bingyuan and Wei Zhong at 7pm at city hall=]
was on morning shift today.. supposed to wake up at 5am.. but i couldnt wake up.. managed to climb out of the bed at about 5.15am.. my head just ACHES till today.. took 852 from Yishun.. the stupid bus.. the 门铃 wasnt working.. and the stupid driver didnt even know.. i was supposed to stop at the condominium bus stop.. but end up.. i have to stop at YCK mrt bus stop.. just HATE the feeling of walking a distance into the hospital and sweat like MAD!! and i just HATE sweating cause it SMELLS! *yuck*
work started at 7am.. everyone just looked so TIRED.. bathed two patients today.. and got myself TOTALLY wet! lolx.. but i love the feeling of seeing them clean and smelling NICE!! kekez!! and got a new patient in my cubicle.. had a great chat with the patient's daughter.. and all my AH ma's keep saying i have a GREAT SMILE!! =] kekez! smile more jessica lohz!! MUAHAHAZ!!! ^-^
they just simply brighten my days.. did nothing much.. change patients, bring patients to the toilet etc.. and finally.. i did ONE SKILL today! it's topical application.. i'm so HAPPY cause i at least started to do something for this posting liao.. so STRESSED! i think that's one of the reason why i have terrible headache ba.. i think i will be more stress when i go back to ttsh ba.. and another thing i am stress is over the sk independence camp and the 15th anniversary.. sometimes i just feel like backing out from the iron ladies team.. hais! too many things on hands liao.. please please, my fellow comrades, please continue to encourage me.. cause i want to do my best and exert to the fullest to fulfill my responsibilties..
ben ben smsed me this morning.. he was so NAGGY!! lolx.. just ask me to take good care of myself.. cause i no feeling that well recently.. hahaz! thanks for your concern BESTIE!! =P back home at about 3.30pm.. finally finished the HR script after dragging it for 3days! i am very TIRED!! going to eat dinner now!!
tomorrow - morning shift, meeting Eunice, Bingyuan and Wei Zhong at 7pm at city hall=]
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
[ it was plain BOREDOM!! ]
it was plain BOREDOM!!
second day at work! and i am on AFTERNOON SHIFT!! woke up at 10am.. actually i wake up at 11am de.. cause AMK hospital is quite NEAR my place.. BUT, i woke up earlier to prepare myself and to have a FULFILLING breakfast so that i wont be hungry!! had zhu chang fen and nasi lemak for breakfast!! hahaz! i just eat like a PIG! =P cant blame me.. cause for afternoon shift, our break time at AMK hospital will be either 6-7pm or 7-8pm.. it is like so LATE lahz.. our afternoon shift itself is from 1-9pm.. 9pm we are knocking off yet our 2nd break finish at 8pm!!
started work at1pm.. was so SCARED.. cause everything to me seems so ALIEN! and worried even if it's bringing the patient to the toilet.. cause a lot of them come from rehab after a orthopadetic surgery.. most of them is neck of femur fracture or knee surgery.. am AFRAID that i will cause them to fall again if i dont know them well enough.. *CHOI* lahz! did nothing much.. except for talking to the patient and bringing them to the toilet.. headache just didnt stop attacking me during my shift.. was Ben Ben was so NICE to send me sms to ask whether i am okie or not.. thanks a lot! thanks for your concern!! it did helps me to feel better!!=]
then at 5.30pm.. i helped to serve diet to the patient then took their parameters after their dinner.. then slack around and talk to my cp group mates and went to break at 7pm.. went to the mama shop.. bought yakult, a bottle drink and some tibits.. then ate my cup noodles.. how i wish mom's home to prepare dinner for me for my afternoon shift.. but so SAD! she cant!! cause she's working..
back to ward to work at 8pm.. then finished work at about 9.05pm and left home.. was really tired.. my HEADACHE just didnt cure at all despite all the panadols and lots of water taken in.. hais.. it's KILLING me manz!!!!!!!! =X going to sleep.. *yawn*
tomorrow - morning shift tml!! *sianx*
second day at work! and i am on AFTERNOON SHIFT!! woke up at 10am.. actually i wake up at 11am de.. cause AMK hospital is quite NEAR my place.. BUT, i woke up earlier to prepare myself and to have a FULFILLING breakfast so that i wont be hungry!! had zhu chang fen and nasi lemak for breakfast!! hahaz! i just eat like a PIG! =P cant blame me.. cause for afternoon shift, our break time at AMK hospital will be either 6-7pm or 7-8pm.. it is like so LATE lahz.. our afternoon shift itself is from 1-9pm.. 9pm we are knocking off yet our 2nd break finish at 8pm!!
started work at1pm.. was so SCARED.. cause everything to me seems so ALIEN! and worried even if it's bringing the patient to the toilet.. cause a lot of them come from rehab after a orthopadetic surgery.. most of them is neck of femur fracture or knee surgery.. am AFRAID that i will cause them to fall again if i dont know them well enough.. *CHOI* lahz! did nothing much.. except for talking to the patient and bringing them to the toilet.. headache just didnt stop attacking me during my shift.. was Ben Ben was so NICE to send me sms to ask whether i am okie or not.. thanks a lot! thanks for your concern!! it did helps me to feel better!!=]
then at 5.30pm.. i helped to serve diet to the patient then took their parameters after their dinner.. then slack around and talk to my cp group mates and went to break at 7pm.. went to the mama shop.. bought yakult, a bottle drink and some tibits.. then ate my cup noodles.. how i wish mom's home to prepare dinner for me for my afternoon shift.. but so SAD! she cant!! cause she's working..
back to ward to work at 8pm.. then finished work at about 9.05pm and left home.. was really tired.. my HEADACHE just didnt cure at all despite all the panadols and lots of water taken in.. hais.. it's KILLING me manz!!!!!!!! =X going to sleep.. *yawn*
tomorrow - morning shift tml!! *sianx*
Monday, July 07, 2008
[ my FIRST day at AMK hospital! ]
my FIRST day at AMK hospital!
it was our FIRST day at AMK hospital today!! Work started only at 8am.. so i dont really have to wake up so early.. woke up at 6am this morning.. had a HARD TIME falling asleep last night.. therefore, i really had no enough sleep today.. arranged to meet up with Harvinder and Sheila at YCK mrt this morning at 7.30am and walked to AMK Hospital from there.. lolx! was so FUNNY.. didnt only bring the two of them there, brought a big bunch of students from NUH there too! lolx..
first was orientation by the Asst Director of Nursing, Sister Ah Chee.. the sharings was quite boring but was some important things we need to know.. then Sister Ah Chee showed us around the hospital and brought us to our respective wards.. our group was pretty lucky to have gotten Ward3.. that ward itself have A,B2,B2+ class beds.. therefore beside the B2(6bedded) ones are non air-con.. the rest of the area are air-conditioned.. so, the ward my group is in is not as warm! =] then we were introduced to ward's nurse clinician, Mr Rohaizad.. we were allowed to go for break and was asked to be back by 12pm..
the whole group of us actually went to the coffeeshop nearby to have our lunch.. i had 油鸡饭and 饺子汤.. the vegeatables in the 饺子汤 tasted so WEIRD! got super strong 药水's taste.. lunch was Amanda, Huda, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. after lunch, we walked back to AMK hospital after eating under the BIG HOT SUN! if i continued to walk like that everyone, i will sure become 小黑again! hahaz!=] bought Yakult from the mama shop in the hospital..
going back to the hospital, we were shown around by the Brother and went into the library for a briefing by him.. suddenly, my MIAGRAINE just attacked me! my head just aches like MAD!! and after eating so FULL, i kept feeling like i want to sleep.. after the one hour plus briefing, we went to take the afternoon report.. then at 3pm, we were given another briefing by Mdm Mayvin.. briefing are briefing.. my brain just cant stop working at all.. my headache just got from BAD to WORSE!!
after the breifing ended at 4pm, i took bus home.. and saw didi with the girlfriend at home.. had a shower and did my evening gongyo and took 855 to Harbourfront.. on my way there.. i was feeling COLD and FEVERISH.. my forehead and neck area was really WARM and my hands were really COLD.. just feel like VOMITING on the bus.. reached Harbourfront and went to Subway to get a sandwich meal.. had Subway club today with chips and snapple.. had to FORCE myself to eat.. cause i know i will feel weaker if i dont eat.. then took 145 to Aunty Helen's place.. did daimoku while waiting for Cliff to come.. then we started our planning meeting.. meeting finished at about 9.30pm..
took 855 home and saw Rui Xin and his mom!! was HAPPY to see him being so ACTIVE in gakkai activities.. and he said this to me: " Please dont be sad if you need any help for SK side!" *GOSH* it really SHOCKED me!! but i am HAPPY for him.. just hope one day Harry can be like that too!!=] ben ben smsed me.. he was still at work when i was on my work home.. my head just aches like MAD.. and i just dont know what's wrong with me!! hais(X.x)
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift!! =P
it was our FIRST day at AMK hospital today!! Work started only at 8am.. so i dont really have to wake up so early.. woke up at 6am this morning.. had a HARD TIME falling asleep last night.. therefore, i really had no enough sleep today.. arranged to meet up with Harvinder and Sheila at YCK mrt this morning at 7.30am and walked to AMK Hospital from there.. lolx! was so FUNNY.. didnt only bring the two of them there, brought a big bunch of students from NUH there too! lolx..
first was orientation by the Asst Director of Nursing, Sister Ah Chee.. the sharings was quite boring but was some important things we need to know.. then Sister Ah Chee showed us around the hospital and brought us to our respective wards.. our group was pretty lucky to have gotten Ward3.. that ward itself have A,B2,B2+ class beds.. therefore beside the B2(6bedded) ones are non air-con.. the rest of the area are air-conditioned.. so, the ward my group is in is not as warm! =] then we were introduced to ward's nurse clinician, Mr Rohaizad.. we were allowed to go for break and was asked to be back by 12pm..
the whole group of us actually went to the coffeeshop nearby to have our lunch.. i had 油鸡饭and 饺子汤.. the vegeatables in the 饺子汤 tasted so WEIRD! got super strong 药水's taste.. lunch was Amanda, Huda, Harvinder and Sook Mun.. after lunch, we walked back to AMK hospital after eating under the BIG HOT SUN! if i continued to walk like that everyone, i will sure become 小黑again! hahaz!=] bought Yakult from the mama shop in the hospital..
going back to the hospital, we were shown around by the Brother and went into the library for a briefing by him.. suddenly, my MIAGRAINE just attacked me! my head just aches like MAD!! and after eating so FULL, i kept feeling like i want to sleep.. after the one hour plus briefing, we went to take the afternoon report.. then at 3pm, we were given another briefing by Mdm Mayvin.. briefing are briefing.. my brain just cant stop working at all.. my headache just got from BAD to WORSE!!
after the breifing ended at 4pm, i took bus home.. and saw didi with the girlfriend at home.. had a shower and did my evening gongyo and took 855 to Harbourfront.. on my way there.. i was feeling COLD and FEVERISH.. my forehead and neck area was really WARM and my hands were really COLD.. just feel like VOMITING on the bus.. reached Harbourfront and went to Subway to get a sandwich meal.. had Subway club today with chips and snapple.. had to FORCE myself to eat.. cause i know i will feel weaker if i dont eat.. then took 145 to Aunty Helen's place.. did daimoku while waiting for Cliff to come.. then we started our planning meeting.. meeting finished at about 9.30pm..
took 855 home and saw Rui Xin and his mom!! was HAPPY to see him being so ACTIVE in gakkai activities.. and he said this to me: " Please dont be sad if you need any help for SK side!" *GOSH* it really SHOCKED me!! but i am HAPPY for him.. just hope one day Harry can be like that too!!=] ben ben smsed me.. he was still at work when i was on my work home.. my head just aches like MAD.. and i just dont know what's wrong with me!! hais(X.x)
tomorrow - will be on afternoon shift!! =P
Sunday, July 06, 2008
[ dancing dancing dancing.... ]
dancing dancing dancing....
was talking to Weihan yesterday online.. been a long time never chat up with him.. and must thank him for encouraging and advising me!! thanks thanks!! woke up at 8am this morning.. was really TIRED.. but have no choice.. woke up, showered and prayed.. and went out.. took MRT from Yishun to Bukit Batok.. and took 106 from BB interchange to Aunty Mun Kin's place.. the estate she stayed in was so CONFUSING.. got 3units with No.13 plate.. only managed to find her place at about 10minutes later..
waited for the rest to come and we started to practice the dance.. was SO FUNNY seeing my WD leaders dancing.. lolx! we had a great time learning the line-dance.. spent about 2hours dancing.. hahaz! =P good time shagging off my fats.. then Aunty Mun Kin was so KIND to ask her maid to fry some bee hoon for us.. and we ate cakes, drank tea and ate longans! =P and we had a great time catching up and understand each other.. talked till 2pm and we left home..
took 852 from BB interchange back home.. the weather is so WARM and the bus like never on air-con.. was TIRED and i fell asleep.. came home and wanted to continue to type the HR script.. but somehow, i just always get STUCK while typing.. well well well.. i just CANT concentrate.. thinking about starting attachment tomorrow, i just feel SIANX!! i dont seems to have REST enough this holiday.. attachment havent start and i am hoping that the next holiday can come faster!! lolx!=]
will have to pack my stuff for my attachment tomorrow! have to re-adapt to a new group and going to AMK hospital.. somewhere i am unfamiliar well except that Ah ma stayed there for one month before.. just hope i can do well this attachment and score DISTINCTION again! =] was talking to Xueyun just now.. thanks girl! thanks for being there for me! l♥ve you lots!! ♥muacks!
got to go off! want to pack my stuff!! =]
tomorrow
- starting CP at AMK hospital from 8-4pm
- planning at Aunty Helen's place @ 7.30pm
to Close FRIEND: sorry for being so bad-tempered recently.. and thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. i will chant hard and get this issue solved.. if not, i think i will continue to be like that forever.. hais! i just hate the me now! but anyway, thanks! love you lots!♥
was talking to Weihan yesterday online.. been a long time never chat up with him.. and must thank him for encouraging and advising me!! thanks thanks!! woke up at 8am this morning.. was really TIRED.. but have no choice.. woke up, showered and prayed.. and went out.. took MRT from Yishun to Bukit Batok.. and took 106 from BB interchange to Aunty Mun Kin's place.. the estate she stayed in was so CONFUSING.. got 3units with No.13 plate.. only managed to find her place at about 10minutes later..
waited for the rest to come and we started to practice the dance.. was SO FUNNY seeing my WD leaders dancing.. lolx! we had a great time learning the line-dance.. spent about 2hours dancing.. hahaz! =P good time shagging off my fats.. then Aunty Mun Kin was so KIND to ask her maid to fry some bee hoon for us.. and we ate cakes, drank tea and ate longans! =P and we had a great time catching up and understand each other.. talked till 2pm and we left home..
took 852 from BB interchange back home.. the weather is so WARM and the bus like never on air-con.. was TIRED and i fell asleep.. came home and wanted to continue to type the HR script.. but somehow, i just always get STUCK while typing.. well well well.. i just CANT concentrate.. thinking about starting attachment tomorrow, i just feel SIANX!! i dont seems to have REST enough this holiday.. attachment havent start and i am hoping that the next holiday can come faster!! lolx!=]
will have to pack my stuff for my attachment tomorrow! have to re-adapt to a new group and going to AMK hospital.. somewhere i am unfamiliar well except that Ah ma stayed there for one month before.. just hope i can do well this attachment and score DISTINCTION again! =] was talking to Xueyun just now.. thanks girl! thanks for being there for me! l♥ve you lots!! ♥muacks!
got to go off! want to pack my stuff!! =]
tomorrow
- starting CP at AMK hospital from 8-4pm
- planning at Aunty Helen's place @ 7.30pm
to Close FRIEND: sorry for being so bad-tempered recently.. and thanks for tolerating my nonsense.. i will chant hard and get this issue solved.. if not, i think i will continue to be like that forever.. hais! i just hate the me now! but anyway, thanks! love you lots!♥
Saturday, July 05, 2008
[ 往往有缘没有份.. ]
往往有缘没有份....
dragged myself out of bed today.. BLAME MYSELF.. cause i chatted with Chong till 1am plus this morning.. was talking about relationship stuff.. and thanks for your advice Chong! i know it's NO LONGER POSSIBLE.. so, i shall not think too much.. if not, it will sadden me FURTHER! set my alarm clock to 10am.. BUT, i dont seems to sleep enough! and thinking of waking up at 6 on monday makes me even more SIANZ! thank god my first 2weeks at AMK hospital, still quite near to my place.. and plus first day at work is at 8am for orientation.. so ya.. wont be that tough i guess..
woke up, showered and prayed.. then sat down at the sofa and watched tv before it was time for me to set off to SYC.. and i just feel like SLEEPING when i sat at the sofa.. left home at about 11am.. took 855 to Harbourfront.. then went to Vivo.. got myself a sausage to eat and went into Giant.. hoping to get my pen torch.. didnt get to see it selling there.. so i went off to SYC.. when i was about to alight from the bus.. it RAINS! gosh manz! i didnt had an umbrella with me.. luckily the rain isnt that heavy..
sms Eunice and ask her where is she.. as usual..LATE.. cause they havent have lunch yet.. so i went up to the meeting room.. and realised that it's not open yet.. so i went down again to get the staff on duty to open the door for me.. and i went in alone to chant.. and more and more YWDs came in.. even YWD Chief was there.. i was suddenly made the DOSHI.. and have to maintain kneeling on the knees.. and my ankle hurts.. cause of my old wound... stop chanting at about 2pm and went downstairs to continue to read the HR.. actually i finished reading it le.. just want to read it AGAIN hoping to learn new things..
left SYC with Eunice and Sin Bei (Adeline).. and we headed to Harbourfront MRT.. we saw the MRT at the platform.. and when we are about to go in, the door CLOSES on us.. only Sin Bei managed to get in.. Eunice almost become ROTI PRATA! luckily, i pull her out! SCARE me! we went to Outram and headed to City Hall to meet WeiZhong.. and he was EARLY.. didnt know where should we settle ourselves at.. and so we headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre..
and finally.. after searching.. we decided to settle at the Streets Cafe Restaurant.. it's a bit like Wang Jiao Cha Can Ting like that.. a bit Hongkong style.. and before we start our discussion, we ordered our food.. i had Ham and Cheese Toasted Sandwich with a cup of iced milk tea.. Eunice had Thick Toast with pork floss and butter, and a cup of iced milk tea.. Wei Zhong had a cup of Ju Hua cha and a thick toast with honey and butter.. and Wei Zhong is the FIRST guy i know will take picture of the food like GIRLS do before tasting the food.. LOLX! so FUNNY!=P
The THICK TOAST! really THICK right? like BEANCURD! *dots*
the ICED MILK TEA! i love the CUP!
my HAM and CHEESE TOASTED SANDWICH!
the prices are quite REASONABLE too! and thanks EUNICE and WEI ZHONG for the treat.. after the food came, we continue with our discussion.. well, this HR sharing is really giving me a HEADACHE! cause i really want to do it to the BEST! and that's why i am so AFRAID i dont have enough time to prepare cause attachment is starting on MONDAY! and not knowing my work schedule makes me UNABLE to plan my gakkai activities! *ARGH* we left Raffles at about 5.40pm.. and passed by Swiss Hotel and saw the label "Equinox".. and it reminds me eating there during one of my birthday celebration.. cant remember how old was i then.. but it also reminds me of what Ben Ben told me.. $317 hor! Eunice took the same train to me as she's heading to Toa Poyah.. and on the train, she ask me about my ex boyfriend..
hmmm.. and she asked how come we will break up and stuff.. she said the same thing Stella and Xueyun told me.. maybe it's Gohonzon's arrangement that things happened like that.. and i told her i always meet with this kind of guys or very possessive kind ones.. and she said out what i feel.. it's my KARMA in relationship.. i guess i need to chant really MORE! i decided to drop off at AMK after Eunice dropped off at Toa Poyah.. decided to go to AMK Hub's Fairprice Xtra to try my luck and see if i can get my pen torch.. and indeed, i got IT! i guess my daimoku today POWER! hahaz! got the wisdom!=]
this is the pen torch that got me CRAZY!
i really SEARCH up and down for this BLOODY thing! oops! sound vulgar! hahaz! and i took out my handphone.. and saw Ben Ben's missed call to me.. was just thinking dont know whether he finish his camp or not then he called liao.. tried calling him but he never pick up.. then when i was on my way home from AMK he called.. talked to him awhile and told about the pen torch searching incident.. and he say i STUPID.. why never thought of asking him to get for me from AH.. hais! how i know ar?! just never thought of you..
he's at Suntec.. and just now i was at City Hall.. hmmm.. NO fate.. never knock into each other.. just a short 10minutes chat.. and he hang up my phone TWICE! you GOOD lohz! do this to me! =P headed home.. on the computer.. actually, i should be typing the HR script.. not updating my blog.. BUT, i just feel SIANZ lahz! can my HOLIDAYS extend ONE more MONTH!? DREAM ON! hais! face the FACT that attachment is starting on MONDAY! saw Rosaline jie's blog entry.. CONGRATS on promoting to NURSE MANAGER! i'm so HAPPY for you!!=] 3meals are all BREADS and SANDWICHES today! i just feel that i dont have a PROPER meal today! stomach PROTESTING!
got to go type the script liao!! =]
tomorrow - going to Aunty Mun Kin's place to teach dance! =]
an OLD song to INTRO..
title: 忘忧草
让软弱的我们懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次寒冷
依依不舍的爱过的人
往往有缘没有份
谁把谁真的当真
谁为谁心疼
谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有什么神
美丽的人生
善良的人
心痛心酸心事太微不足道
来来往往的你我遇到
相识不如相望淡淡一笑
忘忧草忘了就好
梦里知多
少某天涯海角
某个小岛
某年某月某日某一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草
静静等天荒地老
just take it as 有缘无份吧！i can only blame myself! hais! :(
dragged myself out of bed today.. BLAME MYSELF.. cause i chatted with Chong till 1am plus this morning.. was talking about relationship stuff.. and thanks for your advice Chong! i know it's NO LONGER POSSIBLE.. so, i shall not think too much.. if not, it will sadden me FURTHER! set my alarm clock to 10am.. BUT, i dont seems to sleep enough! and thinking of waking up at 6 on monday makes me even more SIANZ! thank god my first 2weeks at AMK hospital, still quite near to my place.. and plus first day at work is at 8am for orientation.. so ya.. wont be that tough i guess..
woke up, showered and prayed.. then sat down at the sofa and watched tv before it was time for me to set off to SYC.. and i just feel like SLEEPING when i sat at the sofa.. left home at about 11am.. took 855 to Harbourfront.. then went to Vivo.. got myself a sausage to eat and went into Giant.. hoping to get my pen torch.. didnt get to see it selling there.. so i went off to SYC.. when i was about to alight from the bus.. it RAINS! gosh manz! i didnt had an umbrella with me.. luckily the rain isnt that heavy..
sms Eunice and ask her where is she.. as usual..LATE.. cause they havent have lunch yet.. so i went up to the meeting room.. and realised that it's not open yet.. so i went down again to get the staff on duty to open the door for me.. and i went in alone to chant.. and more and more YWDs came in.. even YWD Chief was there.. i was suddenly made the DOSHI.. and have to maintain kneeling on the knees.. and my ankle hurts.. cause of my old wound... stop chanting at about 2pm and went downstairs to continue to read the HR.. actually i finished reading it le.. just want to read it AGAIN hoping to learn new things..
left SYC with Eunice and Sin Bei (Adeline).. and we headed to Harbourfront MRT.. we saw the MRT at the platform.. and when we are about to go in, the door CLOSES on us.. only Sin Bei managed to get in.. Eunice almost become ROTI PRATA! luckily, i pull her out! SCARE me! we went to Outram and headed to City Hall to meet WeiZhong.. and he was EARLY.. didnt know where should we settle ourselves at.. and so we headed to Raffles City Shopping Centre..
and finally.. after searching.. we decided to settle at the Streets Cafe Restaurant.. it's a bit like Wang Jiao Cha Can Ting like that.. a bit Hongkong style.. and before we start our discussion, we ordered our food.. i had Ham and Cheese Toasted Sandwich with a cup of iced milk tea.. Eunice had Thick Toast with pork floss and butter, and a cup of iced milk tea.. Wei Zhong had a cup of Ju Hua cha and a thick toast with honey and butter.. and Wei Zhong is the FIRST guy i know will take picture of the food like GIRLS do before tasting the food.. LOLX! so FUNNY!=P
The THICK TOAST! really THICK right? like BEANCURD! *dots*
the ICED MILK TEA! i love the CUP!
my HAM and CHEESE TOASTED SANDWICH!
the prices are quite REASONABLE too! and thanks EUNICE and WEI ZHONG for the treat.. after the food came, we continue with our discussion.. well, this HR sharing is really giving me a HEADACHE! cause i really want to do it to the BEST! and that's why i am so AFRAID i dont have enough time to prepare cause attachment is starting on MONDAY! and not knowing my work schedule makes me UNABLE to plan my gakkai activities! *ARGH* we left Raffles at about 5.40pm.. and passed by Swiss Hotel and saw the label "Equinox".. and it reminds me eating there during one of my birthday celebration.. cant remember how old was i then.. but it also reminds me of what Ben Ben told me.. $317 hor! Eunice took the same train to me as she's heading to Toa Poyah.. and on the train, she ask me about my ex boyfriend..
hmmm.. and she asked how come we will break up and stuff.. she said the same thing Stella and Xueyun told me.. maybe it's Gohonzon's arrangement that things happened like that.. and i told her i always meet with this kind of guys or very possessive kind ones.. and she said out what i feel.. it's my KARMA in relationship.. i guess i need to chant really MORE! i decided to drop off at AMK after Eunice dropped off at Toa Poyah.. decided to go to AMK Hub's Fairprice Xtra to try my luck and see if i can get my pen torch.. and indeed, i got IT! i guess my daimoku today POWER! hahaz! got the wisdom!=]
this is the pen torch that got me CRAZY!
i really SEARCH up and down for this BLOODY thing! oops! sound vulgar! hahaz! and i took out my handphone.. and saw Ben Ben's missed call to me.. was just thinking dont know whether he finish his camp or not then he called liao.. tried calling him but he never pick up.. then when i was on my way home from AMK he called.. talked to him awhile and told about the pen torch searching incident.. and he say i STUPID.. why never thought of asking him to get for me from AH.. hais! how i know ar?! just never thought of you..
he's at Suntec.. and just now i was at City Hall.. hmmm.. NO fate.. never knock into each other.. just a short 10minutes chat.. and he hang up my phone TWICE! you GOOD lohz! do this to me! =P headed home.. on the computer.. actually, i should be typing the HR script.. not updating my blog.. BUT, i just feel SIANZ lahz! can my HOLIDAYS extend ONE more MONTH!? DREAM ON! hais! face the FACT that attachment is starting on MONDAY! saw Rosaline jie's blog entry.. CONGRATS on promoting to NURSE MANAGER! i'm so HAPPY for you!!=] 3meals are all BREADS and SANDWICHES today! i just feel that i dont have a PROPER meal today! stomach PROTESTING!
got to go type the script liao!! =]
tomorrow - going to Aunty Mun Kin's place to teach dance! =]
an OLD song to INTRO..
title: 忘忧草
让软弱的我们懂得残忍
狠狠面对人生每次寒冷
依依不舍的爱过的人
往往有缘没有份
谁把谁真的当真
谁为谁心疼
谁是唯一谁的人
伤痕累累的天真的灵魂
早已不承认还有什么神
美丽的人生
善良的人
心痛心酸心事太微不足道
来来往往的你我遇到
相识不如相望淡淡一笑
忘忧草忘了就好
梦里知多
少某天涯海角
某个小岛
某年某月某日某一次拥抱
轻轻河畔草
静静等天荒地老
just take it as 有缘无份吧！i can only blame myself! hais! :(
Friday, July 04, 2008
[ HAPPY moments are always SHORT... ]
HAPPY moments are always SHORT...
woke up at about 10plus this morning.. i must say that i am really TIRED.. slept almost at 1am this morning cause i was trying to finish reading the HR (Human Revolution) chapter - "Emerging from the Earth" for my sharing with Wei Zhong on the coming institution meeting.. managed to finish HALF yesterday.. and think i'll be able to finish yesterday it today.. Mom dont really like the Bonia bag she bought and hopes to change it.. so, i prayed and went with Mom to Northpoint..
went to change the bag and still got some spare money.. so Mom bought another wallet.. then i saw a shoes stall.. so went to take a look.. and bought a pair of shoes.. i LOVE it!! show casing the shoes!! =]
it cost me $23.90!
then me and Mom went to the foodcourt to have our brunch.. had Chicken chop with mom.. then after which, mom wanted to buy some bread from Fourleaves de.. but we knows.. that area of shops are closed for renovation.. then i told Mom i would want to go to NTUC to search for the pen torch that i NEED to get it no matter what for my attachment.. search all the shops from Yishun central all the way to my house.. BUT, i didnt get it! SH**! but still managed to get the small calculator i need.. thinking of the calculator, it reminds me that i need to revise for my attachment.. HAIS!
i'm still in a holiday MOOD! HOW? went home, showered and was taking a super LONG time to see what i should wear.. then decided to wear my black jeans at a white top i got during chinese new year and match it with my shoes and my new Bonia bag! =] loves loves!! ♥
supposed to go to Ngee Ann to meet Xueyun.. but, end up, her project meet up with her friends was cancelled.. so went to JE to meet her instead.. and then we went to the NTUC to continue my search for my pen torch.. hais! dont have!! *sad sad* :( then we headed to IMM.. went to walk around.. and Xueyun went to look for her friend, Eileen as well.. my legs HURTS! regretted wearing a new pair of shoes out when i have to walk around throughout the whole day! hais!
then at about 5plus, we left for Orchard.. went to meet Stella first and went tot Wisma and Taka to look for Willie's birthday cake.. he didnt know that we are celebrating his birthday in advance for him.. actually his birthday is on the 15th.. but, we wont be meeting that soon again so i propose the idea to celebrate his birthday for him earlier.. hahaz!
was at Orchard MRT waiting for them.. many were LATE.. as usual.. and seriously, i dont like people who dont have a sense of time management.. BUT, i guess my MOOD is just BAD recently.. therefore, everything seems to be going WRONG.. i know you guys are late NOT on purpose.. so yup.. headed to Far East after everyone reached except Gina who will be extremely late because of her work.. understandable.. we went for the Indo restuarant i brought Woanlan to the other day.. and we tried new dishes this time.. beside eating the MUST EAT - Ayam Penyet.. we tried the egg plant and kangkong TOO! NICE NICE ! ♥LOVE it manz!
then Gina came.. we had lots of jokes through out the dinner! and one of this was the sms Sky (loo) send me yesterday night before i sleep..
人生起起落落，有时难，有时差，有时好，有时痛。
当你跌倒时，要勇敢的站起来，然后转身问：“哇牢！谁推我？”
i just CANT stop laughing when i saw this sms.. so was the people i shared this sms with!! hahaz! another FUNNY thing was.. Gina and May was quite late.. and they havent write the card we are giving to Willie.. so, i have to ask them to go toilet and write it in the toilet.. LOLX! funny lohz!! after dinner.. we headed to look for an ideal place to chill.. and we end up at Taka Coffeebean.. was hoping to go to Starbucks.. cause i have the voucher that i want to use.. and i prefer drinks from Starbucks too..
then.. we got them to settle Willie down.. and me and Xueyun went off to buy for the cake.. was a CORRECT choice made.. the CAKE was NICE! and we really SURPRISE Willie.. he was totally SHOCKED and had a LOSS of WORDS! hahaz! Willie, be GRATEFUL that you have GREAT FRIENDS like US! heez!=]
The BIRTHDAY BOY - WILLIE! with the 2pieces of chocolate.. *dots*
his FIRST 19th year old BIRTHDAY CAKE!
the CHINGAY PEEPS!
(( Willie, May, Stephanie(lam), Gina, Kevin, me, Xueyun and Stella!))
it is SAD to say.. we cant always have the FULL STRENGTH around.. MISSING IN ACTION are Dixon, Darrell, Bryant, Yong Sheng, Penny, Liyan, Melvin(tang), Trey, Eunice and Jih Yang.. if Penny comes, we'll have FULL STRENGTH for female trainers.. and as for Cheoro.. only Gina representing this time.. and our Chingay I/Cs, Eunice and Jih Yang.. beside Chinese New Year gathering.. they are always not there for other gatherings.. *SAD SAD* while eating the cake, I was making Willie guess our birthday.. and i must DECLARE! he cant remember MINE! Ooi! what kind of comrade are you sia!?! i want to PROTEST! lolx! and Stella.. CONFIDENTly say WRONGLY! lolx! you are FORGIVEN cause you are part of IRON LADIES!!
on our way HOME.. not forgetting to ZI LIAN a bit! hahaz! YEP family are at Far East for gathering too! thank god didnt knock into ***.. i dont know whether i am happy or sad not knocking into *** but.. this just prove one thing.. we DONT hav FATE.. shall not think about it too much! i just want to stay HAPPY!=]
Stella and me!! ((iron ladies missing one!))
us AGAIN!
happy moments are REALLY SHORT! a short few hours meet up make me MISS THEM even MORE! meet up SOON again OKIE! i am starting attachment! i am DYING to see my schedule so that i can start planning for my gakkai activities and meet up with friends!! MISSES WOANLAN, MEDY, BEN BEN and HOOI YING.. MISSES ROSALINE and HUIWEN too! and MISSES XIANYUN too! didnt get to meet up with her during this holiday of mine.. think she's BUSY and i am VERY BUSY..
TOMORROW
- Daimoku chanting @ 1pm at SYC!
- meeting Eunice and Weizhong at Cityhall @ 3.30pm
my life is kind of like a plain piece of paper now..
am i still hoping for the RIGHT one to come?
woke up at about 10plus this morning.. i must say that i am really TIRED.. slept almost at 1am this morning cause i was trying to finish reading the HR (Human Revolution) chapter - "Emerging from the Earth" for my sharing with Wei Zhong on the coming institution meeting.. managed to finish HALF yesterday.. and think i'll be able to finish yesterday it today.. Mom dont really like the Bonia bag she bought and hopes to change it.. so, i prayed and went with Mom to Northpoint..
went to change the bag and still got some spare money.. so Mom bought another wallet.. then i saw a shoes stall.. so went to take a look.. and bought a pair of shoes.. i LOVE it!! show casing the shoes!! =]
it cost me $23.90!
then me and Mom went to the foodcourt to have our brunch.. had Chicken chop with mom.. then after which, mom wanted to buy some bread from Fourleaves de.. but we knows.. that area of shops are closed for renovation.. then i told Mom i would want to go to NTUC to search for the pen torch that i NEED to get it no matter what for my attachment.. search all the shops from Yishun central all the way to my house.. BUT, i didnt get it! SH**! but still managed to get the small calculator i need.. thinking of the calculator, it reminds me that i need to revise for my attachment.. HAIS!
i'm still in a holiday MOOD! HOW? went home, showered and was taking a super LONG time to see what i should wear.. then decided to wear my black jeans at a white top i got during chinese new year and match it with my shoes and my new Bonia bag! =] loves loves!! ♥
supposed to go to Ngee Ann to meet Xueyun.. but, end up, her project meet up with her friends was cancelled.. so went to JE to meet her instead.. and then we went to the NTUC to continue my search for my pen torch.. hais! dont have!! *sad sad* :( then we headed to IMM.. went to walk around.. and Xueyun went to look for her friend, Eileen as well.. my legs HURTS! regretted wearing a new pair of shoes out when i have to walk around throughout the whole day! hais!
then at about 5plus, we left for Orchard.. went to meet Stella first and went tot Wisma and Taka to look for Willie's birthday cake.. he didnt know that we are celebrating his birthday in advance for him.. actually his birthday is on the 15th.. but, we wont be meeting that soon again so i propose the idea to celebrate his birthday for him earlier.. hahaz!
was at Orchard MRT waiting for them.. many were LATE.. as usual.. and seriously, i dont like people who dont have a sense of time management.. BUT, i guess my MOOD is just BAD recently.. therefore, everything seems to be going WRONG.. i know you guys are late NOT on purpose.. so yup.. headed to Far East after everyone reached except Gina who will be extremely late because of her work.. understandable.. we went for the Indo restuarant i brought Woanlan to the other day.. and we tried new dishes this time.. beside eating the MUST EAT - Ayam Penyet.. we tried the egg plant and kangkong TOO! NICE NICE ! ♥LOVE it manz!
then Gina came.. we had lots of jokes through out the dinner! and one of this was the sms Sky (loo) send me yesterday night before i sleep..
人生起起落落，有时难，有时差，有时好，有时痛。
当你跌倒时，要勇敢的站起来，然后转身问：“哇牢！谁推我？”
i just CANT stop laughing when i saw this sms.. so was the people i shared this sms with!! hahaz! another FUNNY thing was.. Gina and May was quite late.. and they havent write the card we are giving to Willie.. so, i have to ask them to go toilet and write it in the toilet.. LOLX! funny lohz!! after dinner.. we headed to look for an ideal place to chill.. and we end up at Taka Coffeebean.. was hoping to go to Starbucks.. cause i have the voucher that i want to use.. and i prefer drinks from Starbucks too..
then.. we got them to settle Willie down.. and me and Xueyun went off to buy for the cake.. was a CORRECT choice made.. the CAKE was NICE! and we really SURPRISE Willie.. he was totally SHOCKED and had a LOSS of WORDS! hahaz! Willie, be GRATEFUL that you have GREAT FRIENDS like US! heez!=]
The BIRTHDAY BOY - WILLIE! with the 2pieces of chocolate.. *dots*
his FIRST 19th year old BIRTHDAY CAKE!
the CHINGAY PEEPS!
(( Willie, May, Stephanie(lam), Gina, Kevin, me, Xueyun and Stella!))
it is SAD to say.. we cant always have the FULL STRENGTH around.. MISSING IN ACTION are Dixon, Darrell, Bryant, Yong Sheng, Penny, Liyan, Melvin(tang), Trey, Eunice and Jih Yang.. if Penny comes, we'll have FULL STRENGTH for female trainers.. and as for Cheoro.. only Gina representing this time.. and our Chingay I/Cs, Eunice and Jih Yang.. beside Chinese New Year gathering.. they are always not there for other gatherings.. *SAD SAD* while eating the cake, I was making Willie guess our birthday.. and i must DECLARE! he cant remember MINE! Ooi! what kind of comrade are you sia!?! i want to PROTEST! lolx! and Stella.. CONFIDENTly say WRONGLY! lolx! you are FORGIVEN cause you are part of IRON LADIES!!
on our way HOME.. not forgetting to ZI LIAN a bit! hahaz! YEP family are at Far East for gathering too! thank god didnt knock into ***.. i dont know whether i am happy or sad not knocking into *** but.. this just prove one thing.. we DONT hav FATE.. shall not think about it too much! i just want to stay HAPPY!=]
Stella and me!! ((iron ladies missing one!))
us AGAIN!
happy moments are REALLY SHORT! a short few hours meet up make me MISS THEM even MORE! meet up SOON again OKIE! i am starting attachment! i am DYING to see my schedule so that i can start planning for my gakkai activities and meet up with friends!! MISSES WOANLAN, MEDY, BEN BEN and HOOI YING.. MISSES ROSALINE and HUIWEN too! and MISSES XIANYUN too! didnt get to meet up with her during this holiday of mine.. think she's BUSY and i am VERY BUSY..
TOMORROW
- Daimoku chanting @ 1pm at SYC!
- meeting Eunice and Weizhong at Cityhall @ 3.30pm
my life is kind of like a plain piece of paper now..
am i still hoping for the RIGHT one to come?
Thursday, July 03, 2008
[ maybe i am just being selfish.. ]
maybe i am just being selfish..
woke up today at 10am.. think my body's clock has been fixed to sleep at 12am and wake up at 10am.. cant sleep any further when the clock reaches 10am.. as usual.. was awaken by many friends's sms.. then i went to showered, prayed and cook my breakfast again.. then didi told me that Peiyi dropping by to meet him for school.. kind of feel so ENVY.. they are so SWEET! and it reminds me of ***.. i know i shouldnt be thinking about ***.. cause i know many people will feel like scolding me if they know about it..
well, i just cant help it either.. we used to have sweet moments too.. though he really make me cry like crazy and i curse him like mad.. but i cant simply forget those moments.. unless i lost my memory.. but what i can say is.. i dont wish to be in a relationship at the moment now.. cause, it has made me really TIRED and EXHAUSTED.. i want to rest and dont wish to have any commitment.. and at the same time, i can be selfish to hope that my close friends can stay single as well.. cause whenever they are attached or when they have someone in mind, they TOTALLY FORGETTEN about me.. this thing DONT happen one time.. but REPEATEDLY! last time was Stephanie(goh), then Catherine.. then Rachel.. then now comes to Gakkai close friends.. some are attached, some have someone they like.. and i have TOTALLY been FORGETTEN.. and even BESTIE also like that.. hais!
and when you guys pick a quarrel with your girlfriend/ boyfriend, i was REMEMBERED SUDDENLY.. do you guys know this makes me feel so MISERABLE? this is what chinese saying always says: "无事不登三宝殿".. and i guess it shows clearly ba.. i am HAPPY that i was the one you turned to when you are down.. BUT, why must i be forgetten when you are HAPPY? see the reason why i say i am selfish? i cant help it myself either.. if my friends dont do this to me, i wont be that selfish ba.. BUT, what to do? i still have to live with it.. i guess what Seeleng jie and Yonghwee are correct.. FRIENDS are MORE IMPORTANT than your so called girlfriends and boyfriends now... and i always say this..
hais.. i was just being random.. my MOOD is in a MESS now after talking to someone just now.. i dont wish to mention who is it and what is the content.. i was just being JEALOUS.. hais..
the above post in red was actually posted at about 12pm before i go out.. went to meet Xueyun at CCK Lot1.. then sat down with her and her friend at Long John.. chit-chat before heading back to Xueyun's house to let her get herself change.. chill at her place for awhile before heading to JP for dinner.. was supposed to meet Liyan after she finish work but end up she said she's meeting Simon.. so me and Xueyun heading to Mos Burger to have our dinner.. then we took MRT all the way to Tampines.. was just now ON TIME for the gongyo before the meeting starts..
today is a SIGNIFICANT day for SGI.. as it's the Mentor-and-disciple day.. after the gongyo was some sharings and updating of the upcoming activities.. then was the performance by the FD milkrun.. i'm so TOUCHED when i see so many of our chingay kids performing up there.. like what i told Stella and Xueyun.. be PROUD that Chingay'07 has arise the potential and passion in dance of the chingay kids.. see them dancing almost got my tears flowing.. then was the milkrun STOMP item by SD.. felt equally proud too! cause Jia Hao is the chief trainer!! kekez=] jiayou for the Milkrun performance on this coming sunday!! =]
headed home after the meeting.. very TIRED and had a MIXTURE of FEELINGS today! my MOOD is just BAD today!! although i tried putting on a smile.. got to know that one of my close friend is attached recently.. i should be feeling happy.. BUT, so coincidental.. i just talk about my friends being attached and neglected me..
to close friend: i hope that you keep to what you said.. and hope you wont turn out to be another one who will neglect me.. 我真心希望你会幸福！anything, can always come to me.. i'll be the MOST WILLING to lend a listening ear to you! ♥
TOMORROW: meeting up with CHINGAY PEEPS!! =]
woke up today at 10am.. think my body's clock has been fixed to sleep at 12am and wake up at 10am.. cant sleep any further when the clock reaches 10am.. as usual.. was awaken by many friends's sms.. then i went to showered, prayed and cook my breakfast again.. then didi told me that Peiyi dropping by to meet him for school.. kind of feel so ENVY.. they are so SWEET! and it reminds me of ***.. i know i shouldnt be thinking about ***.. cause i know many people will feel like scolding me if they know about it..
well, i just cant help it either.. we used to have sweet moments too.. though he really make me cry like crazy and i curse him like mad.. but i cant simply forget those moments.. unless i lost my memory.. but what i can say is.. i dont wish to be in a relationship at the moment now.. cause, it has made me really TIRED and EXHAUSTED.. i want to rest and dont wish to have any commitment.. and at the same time, i can be selfish to hope that my close friends can stay single as well.. cause whenever they are attached or when they have someone in mind, they TOTALLY FORGETTEN about me.. this thing DONT happen one time.. but REPEATEDLY! last time was Stephanie(goh), then Catherine.. then Rachel.. then now comes to Gakkai close friends.. some are attached, some have someone they like.. and i have TOTALLY been FORGETTEN.. and even BESTIE also like that.. hais!
and when you guys pick a quarrel with your girlfriend/ boyfriend, i was REMEMBERED SUDDENLY.. do you guys know this makes me feel so MISERABLE? this is what chinese saying always says: "无事不登三宝殿".. and i guess it shows clearly ba.. i am HAPPY that i was the one you turned to when you are down.. BUT, why must i be forgetten when you are HAPPY? see the reason why i say i am selfish? i cant help it myself either.. if my friends dont do this to me, i wont be that selfish ba.. BUT, what to do? i still have to live with it.. i guess what Seeleng jie and Yonghwee are correct.. FRIENDS are MORE IMPORTANT than your so called girlfriends and boyfriends now... and i always say this..
hais.. i was just being random.. my MOOD is in a MESS now after talking to someone just now.. i dont wish to mention who is it and what is the content.. i was just being JEALOUS.. hais..
the above post in red was actually posted at about 12pm before i go out.. went to meet Xueyun at CCK Lot1.. then sat down with her and her friend at Long John.. chit-chat before heading back to Xueyun's house to let her get herself change.. chill at her place for awhile before heading to JP for dinner.. was supposed to meet Liyan after she finish work but end up she said she's meeting Simon.. so me and Xueyun heading to Mos Burger to have our dinner.. then we took MRT all the way to Tampines.. was just now ON TIME for the gongyo before the meeting starts..
today is a SIGNIFICANT day for SGI.. as it's the Mentor-and-disciple day.. after the gongyo was some sharings and updating of the upcoming activities.. then was the performance by the FD milkrun.. i'm so TOUCHED when i see so many of our chingay kids performing up there.. like what i told Stella and Xueyun.. be PROUD that Chingay'07 has arise the potential and passion in dance of the chingay kids.. see them dancing almost got my tears flowing.. then was the milkrun STOMP item by SD.. felt equally proud too! cause Jia Hao is the chief trainer!! kekez=] jiayou for the Milkrun performance on this coming sunday!! =]
headed home after the meeting.. very TIRED and had a MIXTURE of FEELINGS today! my MOOD is just BAD today!! although i tried putting on a smile.. got to know that one of my close friend is attached recently.. i should be feeling happy.. BUT, so coincidental.. i just talk about my friends being attached and neglected me..
to close friend: i hope that you keep to what you said.. and hope you wont turn out to be another one who will neglect me.. 我真心希望你会幸福！anything, can always come to me.. i'll be the MOST WILLING to lend a listening ear to you! ♥
TOMORROW: meeting up with CHINGAY PEEPS!! =]
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
[ the road ahead is unpredictable... ]
the road ahead is unpredictable...
slept quite late yesterday.. at about 12am this morning.. was on the phone with Ben Ben for awhile.. and he was saying that he seems to be so long never talk to me.. like got months that long.. lolx! you cant blame me totally!! DONT complain say i heartless never sms you.. BUT, it's because i always look for you at the wrong time.. when i think you should be free and i sms you, you're with your girlfriend.. so, STOP BLAMING me HEARTLESS hor! you are the HEARTLESS one!! =P
woke up quite EARLY today!! i also dont know why.. for the next few days, i am going to try to sleep EARLIER and wake up EARLIER.. have to turn my alarm clock to fit my attachment time.. i going to wake up like 4.45am if i am on morning shift! *sianz* cook noodles myself today again.. too LAZY to buy breakfast.. and want to SAVE MONEY!! hahaz! i got so many things i want to buy!! *gosh!* so i must SAVE SAVE SAVE!!
waited for mom to finish work.. have to buy the necessarites for my attachment.. the torch for eye check, a new pair of sissors, a new calculator, a small notebook.. BUT, i have yet to get any of them yet! SH**! waited for mom till i almost fall asleep at the sofa.. so i decided to go do my evening gongyo first.. then.. mom called when i was doing daimoku.. went to Yishun Northpoint to meet her.. and we had nasi briyani together.. then.. we went to Gurdian.. hoping that i can the sissor i want.. well, didnt manage to get anything i need in the list..
Mom dragged me into Bonia shop.. cause she wants to buy a bag for her work purpose.. not only she bought herself a bag and a coin pouch.. i bought ONE too! *gosh* i have been spending like mad this few days! DIE! but i am still HAPPY! cause i wanted this bag for quite some time liao!! everywhere you can see people carrying this bag.. but not from Bonia lahz.. those cheap cheap ones from Bugis.. LOLX! almost forgetten.. original price was $210, and after 20% discount is $168!! =]
my NEW bag!
then i came home, had a shower and went off for my meeting.. meeting Mrs Tay to take some contact list for the Alumni stuff.. then waited for Eunice and Wei Zhong to come.. who knows.. they are LATE! saw Freddie er zi, so sat down and talked to him.. was encouraging him to strive to do well for his studies so that he can go to poly next time.. seriously, i really dislike people who are late for meetings.. hais! but Eunice was sick.. so can understand.. saw Eugena too! it was so SWEET of her to give me a BIG HUG!! kekez!=]
Eunice brought a believer for the stomp practice too.. and at the first glimpse, i find that she look so familiar.. she also feel that i look familiar to her.. then i realised.. she used to be one of our classmates, Adeline!!!! *gosh* i never expect that i will see her again.. it's FATE ba that her cousin introduce her to this religion and we met again.. was HAPPY to hear that she's back to study again! though not in nursing course..
we started our discussion for the HR sharing.. this time round, i am tasked to partner Wei Zhong for the HR sharing during our next saturday's institution meeting.. we are going to share on " Emerging from the Earth" this chapter on how Sensei actually met Toda Sensei.. well, i guess i will really learn a lot and hope to be able to inspire the ITESD members to read the HR as well=]
discussion finished at about 10plus.. and i headed home with one of a new YMD member, Daniel.. just coincidentally that we stayed near each other so we took bus home together.. had a good dialogue with him.. reached home about 11pm.. and didi is still not home yet.. i hope you know your limits didi.. dont let mom worry for you!=]
got to go sleep! tired! X.x
tomorrow - meeting Xueyun at 5pm at JP, attending Nationwide Youth Leaders meeting at HQ (7.30pm)
slept quite late yesterday.. at about 12am this morning.. was on the phone with Ben Ben for awhile.. and he was saying that he seems to be so long never talk to me.. like got months that long.. lolx! you cant blame me totally!! DONT complain say i heartless never sms you.. BUT, it's because i always look for you at the wrong time.. when i think you should be free and i sms you, you're with your girlfriend.. so, STOP BLAMING me HEARTLESS hor! you are the HEARTLESS one!! =P
woke up quite EARLY today!! i also dont know why.. for the next few days, i am going to try to sleep EARLIER and wake up EARLIER.. have to turn my alarm clock to fit my attachment time.. i going to wake up like 4.45am if i am on morning shift! *sianz* cook noodles myself today again.. too LAZY to buy breakfast.. and want to SAVE MONEY!! hahaz! i got so many things i want to buy!! *gosh!* so i must SAVE SAVE SAVE!!
waited for mom to finish work.. have to buy the necessarites for my attachment.. the torch for eye check, a new pair of sissors, a new calculator, a small notebook.. BUT, i have yet to get any of them yet! SH**! waited for mom till i almost fall asleep at the sofa.. so i decided to go do my evening gongyo first.. then.. mom called when i was doing daimoku.. went to Yishun Northpoint to meet her.. and we had nasi briyani together.. then.. we went to Gurdian.. hoping that i can the sissor i want.. well, didnt manage to get anything i need in the list..
Mom dragged me into Bonia shop.. cause she wants to buy a bag for her work purpose.. not only she bought herself a bag and a coin pouch.. i bought ONE too! *gosh* i have been spending like mad this few days! DIE! but i am still HAPPY! cause i wanted this bag for quite some time liao!! everywhere you can see people carrying this bag.. but not from Bonia lahz.. those cheap cheap ones from Bugis.. LOLX! almost forgetten.. original price was $210, and after 20% discount is $168!! =]
my NEW bag!then i came home, had a shower and went off for my meeting.. meeting Mrs Tay to take some contact list for the Alumni stuff.. then waited for Eunice and Wei Zhong to come.. who knows.. they are LATE! saw Freddie er zi, so sat down and talked to him.. was encouraging him to strive to do well for his studies so that he can go to poly next time.. seriously, i really dislike people who are late for meetings.. hais! but Eunice was sick.. so can understand.. saw Eugena too! it was so SWEET of her to give me a BIG HUG!! kekez!=]
Eunice brought a believer for the stomp practice too.. and at the first glimpse, i find that she look so familiar.. she also feel that i look familiar to her.. then i realised.. she used to be one of our classmates, Adeline!!!! *gosh* i never expect that i will see her again.. it's FATE ba that her cousin introduce her to this religion and we met again.. was HAPPY to hear that she's back to study again! though not in nursing course..
we started our discussion for the HR sharing.. this time round, i am tasked to partner Wei Zhong for the HR sharing during our next saturday's institution meeting.. we are going to share on " Emerging from the Earth" this chapter on how Sensei actually met Toda Sensei.. well, i guess i will really learn a lot and hope to be able to inspire the ITESD members to read the HR as well=]
discussion finished at about 10plus.. and i headed home with one of a new YMD member, Daniel.. just coincidentally that we stayed near each other so we took bus home together.. had a good dialogue with him.. reached home about 11pm.. and didi is still not home yet.. i hope you know your limits didi.. dont let mom worry for you!=]
got to go sleep! tired! X.x
tomorrow - meeting Xueyun at 5pm at JP, attending Nationwide Youth Leaders meeting at HQ (7.30pm)
Tuesday, July 01, 2008
[ the DEADLINE is here...]
the DEADLINE is here...
slept till almost 12pm today.. was so TIRED to wake up.. early morning.. and my hp has been beeping non-stop.. few of my friends sms me.. and i got up just to reply their sms and went back to sleep.. had a GOOD sleep from morning onwards.. after everyone left home and i was alone at home..
woke up.. showered, prayed and went to cook some noodles to eat.. and feel like eating luncheon meat.. i also dont know why.. have a crave suddenly.. so went to open one can secretly.. and i SCALDED my hand accidentally while cooking.. and that Ben Ben.. as usual.. he laughed at me! thanks huh! i wont forget laughing at you if it happens to you! =P
i have chosen to stay home today.. to REST.. came online and Nad came to ask me if i have studied and revise for my CP.. lolx.. what a GOOD question!! and the answer is i HAVENT!! lolx.. really got NO TIME.. busy with SK alumni stuff.. Red Cross stuff.. SD stuff.. Yongsha's stuff.. and holidays are ending and i have yet to receive the softcopy of the proposal from Candy to do my proposal for the blood drive.. hais! and Sk stuff also not done yet.. i really feel so FRUSTRATED!
didi brought her girlfriend, Peiyi to our place today.. Wah! she's really TALL! thank god didi is tall.. i must say i feel HAPPY that didi has found someone he loves.. it's never easy to meet with someone you like and be together with him/her.. so both of you better CHERISH one another!! =]
stayed at home and did some household chores for mom.. it was a DAY i am hoping for it to come.. and it CAME.. today was a day i set for myself as a DEADLINE to walk out of his SHADOW.. and i guess i did make it before the deadline came.. it was NEVER easy.. cause i always thought beside Daryl, he was my 2nd MIRCALE..! but it was more like a DREAM.. a LIE.. now that the deadline is up, i dont wish to think about it anymore.. i want to LIVE HAPPIER from this MOMENT onwards!! =]
tomorrow - ITESD preparation meeting, 7.30pm @ SK
slept till almost 12pm today.. was so TIRED to wake up.. early morning.. and my hp has been beeping non-stop.. few of my friends sms me.. and i got up just to reply their sms and went back to sleep.. had a GOOD sleep from morning onwards.. after everyone left home and i was alone at home..
woke up.. showered, prayed and went to cook some noodles to eat.. and feel like eating luncheon meat.. i also dont know why.. have a crave suddenly.. so went to open one can secretly.. and i SCALDED my hand accidentally while cooking.. and that Ben Ben.. as usual.. he laughed at me! thanks huh! i wont forget laughing at you if it happens to you! =P
i have chosen to stay home today.. to REST.. came online and Nad came to ask me if i have studied and revise for my CP.. lolx.. what a GOOD question!! and the answer is i HAVENT!! lolx.. really got NO TIME.. busy with SK alumni stuff.. Red Cross stuff.. SD stuff.. Yongsha's stuff.. and holidays are ending and i have yet to receive the softcopy of the proposal from Candy to do my proposal for the blood drive.. hais! and Sk stuff also not done yet.. i really feel so FRUSTRATED!
didi brought her girlfriend, Peiyi to our place today.. Wah! she's really TALL! thank god didi is tall.. i must say i feel HAPPY that didi has found someone he loves.. it's never easy to meet with someone you like and be together with him/her.. so both of you better CHERISH one another!! =]
stayed at home and did some household chores for mom.. it was a DAY i am hoping for it to come.. and it CAME.. today was a day i set for myself as a DEADLINE to walk out of his SHADOW.. and i guess i did make it before the deadline came.. it was NEVER easy.. cause i always thought beside Daryl, he was my 2nd MIRCALE..! but it was more like a DREAM.. a LIE.. now that the deadline is up, i dont wish to think about it anymore.. i want to LIVE HAPPIER from this MOMENT onwards!! =]
tomorrow - ITESD preparation meeting, 7.30pm @ SK
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