[ 我想从新认识你！从新了解你！从新体会你的处境！]
Well.. well.. It's been really quite long ago since I last blog.. hmmm.. I really feel like blogging everytime I get online.. BUT.. I'll just type e entry half way through and delete them.. I just dont know why.. MAYBE.. I just feel some things are just not meant to be shared to others.. some feelings are meant to be hidden..
Today.. It's e 14th of April.. yupz.. It's 2 more days before I start school.. Got quite some stuffs done already.. like.. my new bag for school.. paid the school fees already.. hmmm.. Just have to wait till school reopens before I can get my school uniform n textbooks.. oh well.. Iit's been 2 yrs since I graduated from secondary school le.. I actually tell mom that I'm trembling in my heart... I'm quite scared actually.. to actually go back school.. well.. cant blame me also.. I never study for 2 yrs le lehz.. I REPEAT!!!! TWO YEARS!!!!!
I'm a person who takes a very long time to adapt to new environment.. those who really know me deep inside should know.. lolx.. BUT.. as what Meng Har tell me yesterday night.. she said that I must chant a lot of daimoku to have to strong life-force to face any problem when I'm studying.. I know well enough that I will have a hard time struggling.. my studies, my gakkai activities which consists of SD, Byakuren, my own district and many of the SK Alumni activities.. BUT.. I HAVE NO REGRETS AT ALL!!!! 先苦后甜嘛！！！加油了！！罗苑文，你可以的！！lolx.. must be confident.. but NOT over confident!!
yupz.. It's been 1 month plus le.. ever since I got to know that incident.. It makes me think deeper into understanding someone.. How can I make sure I'm sensitive towards how others feel but only how I feel? How can I care for someone and make sure that person will not feel uneasy about it??
SOMETIMES I'll tell myself: " Jessica Loh, You dont have to bother so much. The lesser things u know, the lesser pain u will experience. " Especially when u know many things about someone, YET... you cant do anything that will help that person.. I really question myself.. WHY?? Why let me know so much about you?? and yet.. there's nothing I can do!! I really feel very bad.. 真的感觉无助！好无奈！MAYBE.. that's my WEAKNESS ba..
Whenever someone tells me his/her problems, I'll take it as my problem.. I'll find means and ways to help.. Is it because I'm too EMOTIONAL that's why I'm always easily AFFECTED?? “ 朋友的问题就是自己的问题。” 难道这是错的想法吗？难道要见死不救才是对的吗？可能Meng Har说得对。我必须学着去冷静。在遇到朋友或是自己的问题的时候，要学着去冷静，思考，这要一来，我能帮上的忙可能会比较大，对朋友或自己造成的伤害也可能会比较少！
To change a person, it might takes a lifetime.. just like Dad.. Mom tried changing him.. BUT.. I'm sure Dad isnt happy about about it.. SO does Mom.. 妈咪也一定像我一样觉得无奈，无助吧！she's right.. Dad really needs to change in some ways.. I recalled.. when I was young, Mom will always quarrelled with Dad and cry it front of me.. SO.. from young.. I have put myself in their problems.. and think from their point of view.. MAYBE.. that's the reason why I'm more matured as compared to many whose of the same age as me ba..
I can understand wanting to change someone u love is something u will do when u love a person.. We often would want our loved ones to be the way we want them to be.. to make them perfect.. BUT... in many case, we would actually forget to listen to what our loved ones would want to say.. This is not sparing a thought for them le.. Though we might think, we want to change that person it's because this shouldnt be e way.. If we do care, we would accept the way they are now BUT definitely not forcing them to be the way we think they should be.. very EMO huh....
I have already learnt to accept the way u are now.. and hoping to know u once again!! 我想从新认识你！从新了解你！从新体会你的处境！all thanks to Meng Har.. after having a dialogue with her, she really shared a lot and makes me think through deeply.. she's right.. though I never tell her about that incident (cos i CANT).. BUT somehow.. what she said has been put to use IMMEDIATELY!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH!!
“在每个人的生命里，除了爱情，还有恩情和责任。”I'm very thankful to my mom actually.. Dad n Mom really lots of problems even before me and my brother are born.. guess things has got worse after me and my brother are born.. BUT.. she didnt give up.. she didnt give up on us.. because of the word : 责任！it's no longer “爱情” but “责任”.. her 责任 as a mother.. that's what i'm thankful about..
“不要害怕爱人与被爱。虽然可能会碰钉子或受伤，但每段感情总会有让你开心的时候。” this para of words was published in the i-weekly. quite meaning huh.. Yupz.. I quite touched by it.. but... all u need is e word : FATE..
朋友们，学着珍惜眼前人！！
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Saturday, March 24, 2007
* 一個感人的愛情故事 *
* 一個感人的愛情故事 *
有一個年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩,
他每天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香煙,
漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,
當女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候,
年輕人就會出現,他會陪女孩說說話 ,
或是逗女孩開心.
女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,
可是自己已經有很要好的男友.有商店夾公仔機...
女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,
年輕人知道以後,
當天他終於對她表白,
希望女孩能接受他,
不知如何是好的女孩,
只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,
她和他是不可能的,
因為她已經有深愛的男友了,
年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,
他不死心的問女孩,
自己真的沒有機會了嗎?
善良的女孩不忍心....
於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,
除非你夾滿100個娃娃,
而且一天只能夾一個.
原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情,
她心想,一天夾1個娃娃,
最快也要三個多月之後才有100個,
而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧.
這三個月的時間,
她會盡量與男孩保持距離,
年輕人還是每天到商店來,
可是女孩開始變得冷淡,
他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,
不過女孩依然愛理不理.
因為她知道唯有這樣做,
才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.
年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,
於是他每天夾娃娃,
有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,
有時運氣差,
零用錢花光了也夾不到,
只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,
一直到夾中為止.
無論花多少錢花多少時間,
他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,
只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,
因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,
為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,
他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,
看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,
女孩都想要衝出去對他說,
我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,
就算你真的夾到100個娃娃,我跟你也是不可能的!
但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,
女孩就於心不忍,
她只能不斷猶豫.
就這樣1 天,2天,3天...
年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,
而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,
則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.
不知道是哪一天,
女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,
與男友吵了一架,
而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,
不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,
他對女孩說,
可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,
可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,
很生氣的當場拒絕了他.
就這樣,
年輕人走到娃娃機旁,
默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,
在年輕人離開的時後,
他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.隔天以後,
年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.
剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,
但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.
可是漸漸的,
她突然覺得不習慣,
因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,
好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,
這時女孩才發現到,
原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.
只是一切都...
女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.
哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,
似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.
所以女孩每天上班時,
總是不斷的抬頭張望,
那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?
可惜的是,
年輕人始終沒出現,
只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.
有一天,
女孩下班後,
在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,
她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,
可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,
他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,
當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,
映入女孩眼簾的是
一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,
以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.
原來年輕人的脊椎有病,
必須要開刀才能保住生命,
可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,
年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,
也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,
希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,
因為他已經累積有98個了,
然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,
隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,
年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩,
那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:
其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,
妳也不可能會喜歡我,
我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,
而是希望在我有限的時間裡,
證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,
這樣就足夠了,
如果妳看到了這封信,
那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,
對不起,
或許我的努力還不夠吧,
沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..
女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,
那是99顆無法承受的真心,
眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...
隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,
她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,
這時已經變成植物人的他,
眼睛流下了淚水...
It's very touching.. the guy felt so much that he wasnt able 2 win the girl's heart maybe bcos he didnt try hard enough.. so wat if we put our heart n soul in2 loving someone?? it takes 2 hands 2 clap.. jus like e girl.. she's so persistant tat they cant be 2gether.. be it how hard e guy tried, it gonna be e same ending.. wat is urs will be urs.. wat is not urs will nv be urs even if u try very hard.. this is fate..
有一個年輕人喜歡上了在便利商店打工的女孩,
他每天都會到女孩工作的店裡面買一包香煙,
漸漸的兩人開始互相熟悉,
當女孩工作感到無聊乏味的時候,
年輕人就會出現,他會陪女孩說說話 ,
或是逗女孩開心.
女孩也知道年輕人似乎喜歡上自己了,
可是自己已經有很要好的男友.有商店夾公仔機...
女孩很喜歡裡面的娃娃,
年輕人知道以後,
當天他終於對她表白,
希望女孩能接受他,
不知如何是好的女孩,
只能殘忍的告訴年輕人,
她和他是不可能的,
因為她已經有深愛的男友了,
年輕人聽了之後默然的點點頭,
他不死心的問女孩,
自己真的沒有機會了嗎?
善良的女孩不忍心....
於是她手指著娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃說,
除非你夾滿100個娃娃,
而且一天只能夾一個.
原來女孩希望用時間來沖淡年輕人對自己的感情,
她心想,一天夾1個娃娃,
最快也要三個多月之後才有100個,
而且年輕人應該不會真的有耐心夾滿100個娃娃吧.
這三個月的時間,
她會盡量與男孩保持距離,
年輕人還是每天到商店來,
可是女孩開始變得冷淡,
他總是試著聊一些女孩有興趣的話題,
不過女孩依然愛理不理.
因為她知道唯有這樣做,
才不會讓年輕人越陷越深.
年輕人或許是感覺到女孩的用意,
於是他每天夾娃娃,
有時運氣好夾一兩次就中了,
有時運氣差,
零用錢花光了也夾不到,
只好跟朋友借錢繼續夾,
一直到夾中為止.
無論花多少錢花多少時間,
他每天一定會夾一個娃娃,
只是他無法與女孩分享夾到娃娃的喜悅,
因為他知道女孩有意要避開他,
為了怕引響到女孩的情緒,
他只能在櫥窗外頭微笑的對女孩點點頭.好幾次,
看到年輕人因為夾到娃娃興高采烈的樣子,
女孩都想要衝出去對他說,
我是騙你的,你不要再夾了,
就算你真的夾到100個娃娃,我跟你也是不可能的!
但是一想到年輕人希望破滅的樣子,
女孩就於心不忍,
她只能不斷猶豫.
就這樣1 天,2天,3天...
年輕人的娃娃數量不斷的累積,
而女孩刻意與年輕人保持距離的結果,
則是讓自己在工作的時後更顯孤單.
不知道是哪一天,
女孩子因為在外地工作的男友無法回來陪她過18歲的生日,
與男友吵了一架,
而那天年輕人仍一如往常的來到便利商店,
不同的是那天年輕人竟走進了店裡,
他對女孩說,
可不可以破例讓他在今天夾兩個娃娃回去,
可是因為和男友吵架而心情不佳的女孩,
很生氣的當場拒絕了他.
就這樣,
年輕人走到娃娃機旁,
默默的夾了一個娃娃回去,
在年輕人離開的時後,
他對櫥窗裡的女孩看了一眼.隔天以後,
年輕人再也沒來夾娃娃了.
剛開始女孩雖然覺得奇怪,
但是仍然慶幸自己終於放下了心中的大石頭.
可是漸漸的,
她突然覺得不習慣,
因為那個每天都會為了她來夾娃娃的熟悉背影,
好像空氣一樣就消失不見了,
這時女孩才發現到,
原來她心中的失落感遠遠超過年輕人所帶給她的負擔.
只是一切都...
女孩開始想念以前年輕人來店裡陪她聊天的點點滴滴.
哪怕他只是站在櫥窗外頭沉默不語的夾娃娃,
似乎都會帶給她莫名的安全感.
所以女孩每天上班時,
總是不斷的抬頭張望,
那個熟悉的身影來了嗎?
可惜的是,
年輕人始終沒出現,
只剩下那台沒人使用的娃娃機.
有一天,
女孩下班後,
在店門口遇到了以前常和年輕人一起來的朋友,
她焦急的問他年輕人的下落,
可是年輕人的朋友則是一臉黯然,
他帶女孩來到年輕人的家,
當他開啟年輕人的房間的門時,
映入女孩眼簾的是
一群娃娃機裡面的絨毛娃娃,
以及躺在床上動也不動的年輕人.
原來年輕人的脊椎有病,
必須要開刀才能保住生命,
可是開刀有一半的機率會失敗而導致全身癱瘓,
年輕人在開刀的前一天晚上,
也就是女孩和男友大吵一架的那天,
希望女孩給他機會夾2個娃娃,
因為他已經累積有98個了,
然而卻遭到女孩的回絕,
隔天之後年輕人手術不幸失敗變成植物人,
年輕人的母親拿了一封信給女孩,
那是年輕人在手術之前寫好的:
其實我早就知道,就算夾到了100個娃娃,
妳也不可能會喜歡我,
我之所以這麼做並不是故意要造成妳的困擾,
而是希望在我有限的時間裡,
證明我曾經很用心的去愛一個人,
這樣就足夠了,
如果妳看到了這封信,
那表示我再也無法為你夾娃娃了,
對不起,
或許我的努力還不夠吧,
沒能夾到100個娃娃親手送給你..
女孩看著床邊的99個絨毛娃娃,
那是99顆無法承受的真心,
眼眶裡的淚水早已決堤而出...
隔天女孩來到年輕人的家,
她將第100個絨毛娃娃放到年輕人的手中,
這時已經變成植物人的他,
眼睛流下了淚水...
It's very touching.. the guy felt so much that he wasnt able 2 win the girl's heart maybe bcos he didnt try hard enough.. so wat if we put our heart n soul in2 loving someone?? it takes 2 hands 2 clap.. jus like e girl.. she's so persistant tat they cant be 2gether.. be it how hard e guy tried, it gonna be e same ending.. wat is urs will be urs.. wat is not urs will nv be urs even if u try very hard.. this is fate..
Saturday, March 17, 2007
i'm accepting wat i supposed & expected to accept..
*i'm accepting wat i supposed n expected 2 accept *
i jus realised tat i'm alread startin 2 accept wat i supposed n expected 2 accept.. it's been 6days since i noe e "truth".. i can sae tat it has been a big blow 2 mi at 1st.. it's nv been easy 4 mi 2 give up.. but after knowing the truth.. it's making mi feel worse.. it was a double blow 2 mi.. sae truely.. i cried myself 2 slp tat nitez.. i noe it's realli silly n foolish 2 do tat.. but i jus cant help being so silly n foolish.. by hearing sum1 telling mi tis.. it's realli so impossible tat tis has been e case.. but seeing it myself.. it's realli heartbrokening.. i hav nv imagine tat would be case.. i hav nv come across such a situation.. mayb tat's e reason i need more time than anybody 2 accept it.. or bcos i'm jus steorotype.. anyway.. i mus thk tat person who told mi tis.. it has nv contribute 2 helpin mi let go.. but.. at least i understand y things didnt work out.. i hav nv blame u (e person who told mi) nor him.. dun worry.. i'll be okie.. it's jus TIME tat i need.. no matter wat, i still treat him as a fren.. seriously..
for watever reason it can be.. i have to ACCEPT.. jus accept.. i cant talk to anyone abt tis.. all i can is 2 type my feelings out here.. n without reviewing wat i'm refering to as well.. it's a promise.. somethingy tat i mus bring along wif mi in2 my coffin.. it sound like someone has committed a crime n i mus help 2 hide yupz?? anyway.. is jus someone's privacy.. i reall hav no rights n say in anythingy.. be it whether can i accept it or not, whether i'm sad or crying over it.. it's jus my personal opinion n point of view.. yupz.. it's my blog.. so i tink it's alright 2 voice wat i wanna sae here yupz? hmmm... okie.. JESSICA LOH, STOP DWELLING IN THIS INCIDENT!!! WAKE UP!!!!
hmmm.. on thurs.. was feeling itchy all over my body..yester.. i didnt go work.. was developin some feng mo.. patches n patches of red spots all over my body.. i couldnt even on e fan when i slp!!!! oh man!! went back 2 clementi 2 c my family doc.. hmmm.. i simply cant trust doc at yishun.. lolx.. mayb jus not used 2 it ba.. went 4 medical check up yester as well.. 2 save e trouble of taking leave as well.. i took a chest x-ray, urine test n 2 blood tests.. so 2 tubes of blood are taken away.. my blood vessels are jus too difficult 2 be located.. they are too small 2 be seen.. so it's kind of painful 4 mi when taking blood..
hmm.. guess it's gonna be part of my job.. i'm jus getting used 2 it.. oh ya.. for those whom i didnt mentioned 2 personally.. i shall break e news here.. hopin u will c it?? lolx.. i goin back 2 sch in APRIL!!! yupz.. 16th april!!! HOORAY!!! getting in2 NURSING course.. my life-long career.. in either nyp or simei ite.. cos my maths.. many shld noe i'm weak in tis subject.. got a d7 during my o's.. ite alread accepted my application.. i'm glad.. though many thinks tat it isnt e place i shld be in.. but i feel it's alread 2 study in ite.. it's still a school wif teachers.. a place leading mi 2 my dream.. i read thru a book n came across tis paragraph of words ...
" Once u're accepted by a school - even if it is nt ur 1st choice n regardless of how society judges it - it's impt 4 u 2 decide tat e school u're goin 2 is e perfect place 4 u to learn all u want to learn. This attitude is far more constructive in e long run. And dont allow ur confidence to be undermined by e opinions of others. "
yupz.. i gonna bring tis paragraph wif mi all e time..
hmm.. er jie's grandma passed away.. attended e wake twice.. once on thurs n another yester.. went wif a bunch of NP peeps actuall on thurs.. n saw my MIA jie, Steph (goh).. guess she's doin pretty well in uni now.. tat's gd.. as 4 my jie fu, Jiafeng.. he graduated frm NP le.. now waiting 2 be enlisted.. Xueyun da jie didnt did tat well in her exams.. seeing her lookin tired realli makes mi feel heartbroken ne!! as 4 Jaymie.. i'm glad tat she's doin fine nw.. had a great talk wif her when we are on our way home.. yupz.. i hopin wat i sae can touches her heart.. as 4 Shanice.. yupz.. she's havin her holi too.. so gd ne!! jus feel like laughing when she's so reactive when i mentioned something.. cant sae it out here.. wahahaz.. yupz.. didnt expect she noe oso..
hmmm.. went wif Benny 2 e wake yester nitez.. actuall supposed 2 be wif him n teck kun de.. but teck kun got ymd mtg.. so went Benny instead.. he was late.. but at least he inform mi.. onli 15mins late.. not as terrible as Cat, Steph, Rachel or Xianyun.. this 4 frenz of mine.. they each break many records in my life.. can wait 2hrs 4 them de.. back 2 subject.. tat sotong Benny took mrt from somerset.. he's supposed 2 drop at cityhall or raffles place 2 change 2 east-west line.. but instead.. he took e mrt 2 marina bay.. n when he too back 2 cityhall/raffles place, e mrt door closed in front of him.. tat blur king.. alamak!~ hmm.. anw.. at least he inform mi.. okie.. 4given.. reall crack lots of jokes at e wake.. when we are nt supposed 2 be.. n get 2 noe a NP senior, "da" Weiliang.. yupz.. he reall can talk.. i tink William's ears hurts.. lolx.. he talks non-stop e whole nitez..
end up, mi, er jie n Benny kept whisperin 2 one another in front of him.. feel kinda of bad actuall.. mayb bcos he didnt c William 4 very long le.. so there's a lot he wanna find out ba.. let's hav a embracing heart 2 everyone ard us.. yupz.. simply cant stand Benny, er jie n William.. they are jus scary creatures on earth.. i alwaz gana shoot.. but alwaz nv fight back de.. mayb i'm jus wat Benny sae when William/er jie ask mi talk back.. i'm nt tat type who fight back.. lolx.. it reall mus depend on e situation.. mayb bcos i took medi yester.. so was kind of blur too... i feel tat i kind of emo yester.. kind of tired after takin medi n 2 tubes of blood.. i feel e weakness in mi..
had a talk wif Benny yester b4 we reach e place.. hmmm.. he didnt reall do tat well in poly.. n was kind of impossible 4 him 2 get in2 uni.. u can do it de!! dun limit urself!! jiayou!! so he's nw waiting 2 be enlisted.. hmmm... another NS man.. again.. he's a trainer in NDP again.. n he's afraid he will be enlisted b4 e NDP ends.. chant harder ba.. i'll send u daimoku too.. jus realised he's in gym core actuall.. n he's Kevin's senior in NP.. lolx.. i hope u can encourage him yupz.. he's realli kind of blur in e goal n direction he wants 2 b in.. n kind of immature.. i went hm alone.. but er jie n Benny sent mi 2 mrt station.. they are startin their manjong session.. n they actuall played till 7am tis morning.. pro.. i wanted 2 stay.. didnt reall wanna go hm since i'm nt workin 2dae.. but i cant.. mom will jus chop mi off.. but i oso dunoe how 2 play manjong.. so i stay oso cannot do anythingy much..
i'm havin a bad headache 2dae.. like i sae.. i'm emo-ing yester nitez.. i cried again.. i dunoe y oso.. mayb there's too many probz i'm facing now ba.. worrying.. worryin 4 my medical report.. want feeling well.. so didnt attend e wake 2dae.. so sorrie er jie..
jenny came 2 visit mi at hm 2dae.. yupz.. i'm fine.. i'm okie.. dun worry..
i jus realised tat i'm alread startin 2 accept wat i supposed n expected 2 accept.. it's been 6days since i noe e "truth".. i can sae tat it has been a big blow 2 mi at 1st.. it's nv been easy 4 mi 2 give up.. but after knowing the truth.. it's making mi feel worse.. it was a double blow 2 mi.. sae truely.. i cried myself 2 slp tat nitez.. i noe it's realli silly n foolish 2 do tat.. but i jus cant help being so silly n foolish.. by hearing sum1 telling mi tis.. it's realli so impossible tat tis has been e case.. but seeing it myself.. it's realli heartbrokening.. i hav nv imagine tat would be case.. i hav nv come across such a situation.. mayb tat's e reason i need more time than anybody 2 accept it.. or bcos i'm jus steorotype.. anyway.. i mus thk tat person who told mi tis.. it has nv contribute 2 helpin mi let go.. but.. at least i understand y things didnt work out.. i hav nv blame u (e person who told mi) nor him.. dun worry.. i'll be okie.. it's jus TIME tat i need.. no matter wat, i still treat him as a fren.. seriously..
for watever reason it can be.. i have to ACCEPT.. jus accept.. i cant talk to anyone abt tis.. all i can is 2 type my feelings out here.. n without reviewing wat i'm refering to as well.. it's a promise.. somethingy tat i mus bring along wif mi in2 my coffin.. it sound like someone has committed a crime n i mus help 2 hide yupz?? anyway.. is jus someone's privacy.. i reall hav no rights n say in anythingy.. be it whether can i accept it or not, whether i'm sad or crying over it.. it's jus my personal opinion n point of view.. yupz.. it's my blog.. so i tink it's alright 2 voice wat i wanna sae here yupz? hmmm... okie.. JESSICA LOH, STOP DWELLING IN THIS INCIDENT!!! WAKE UP!!!!
hmmm.. on thurs.. was feeling itchy all over my body..yester.. i didnt go work.. was developin some feng mo.. patches n patches of red spots all over my body.. i couldnt even on e fan when i slp!!!! oh man!! went back 2 clementi 2 c my family doc.. hmmm.. i simply cant trust doc at yishun.. lolx.. mayb jus not used 2 it ba.. went 4 medical check up yester as well.. 2 save e trouble of taking leave as well.. i took a chest x-ray, urine test n 2 blood tests.. so 2 tubes of blood are taken away.. my blood vessels are jus too difficult 2 be located.. they are too small 2 be seen.. so it's kind of painful 4 mi when taking blood..
hmm.. guess it's gonna be part of my job.. i'm jus getting used 2 it.. oh ya.. for those whom i didnt mentioned 2 personally.. i shall break e news here.. hopin u will c it?? lolx.. i goin back 2 sch in APRIL!!! yupz.. 16th april!!! HOORAY!!! getting in2 NURSING course.. my life-long career.. in either nyp or simei ite.. cos my maths.. many shld noe i'm weak in tis subject.. got a d7 during my o's.. ite alread accepted my application.. i'm glad.. though many thinks tat it isnt e place i shld be in.. but i feel it's alread 2 study in ite.. it's still a school wif teachers.. a place leading mi 2 my dream.. i read thru a book n came across tis paragraph of words ...
" Once u're accepted by a school - even if it is nt ur 1st choice n regardless of how society judges it - it's impt 4 u 2 decide tat e school u're goin 2 is e perfect place 4 u to learn all u want to learn. This attitude is far more constructive in e long run. And dont allow ur confidence to be undermined by e opinions of others. "
yupz.. i gonna bring tis paragraph wif mi all e time..
hmm.. er jie's grandma passed away.. attended e wake twice.. once on thurs n another yester.. went wif a bunch of NP peeps actuall on thurs.. n saw my MIA jie, Steph (goh).. guess she's doin pretty well in uni now.. tat's gd.. as 4 my jie fu, Jiafeng.. he graduated frm NP le.. now waiting 2 be enlisted.. Xueyun da jie didnt did tat well in her exams.. seeing her lookin tired realli makes mi feel heartbroken ne!! as 4 Jaymie.. i'm glad tat she's doin fine nw.. had a great talk wif her when we are on our way home.. yupz.. i hopin wat i sae can touches her heart.. as 4 Shanice.. yupz.. she's havin her holi too.. so gd ne!! jus feel like laughing when she's so reactive when i mentioned something.. cant sae it out here.. wahahaz.. yupz.. didnt expect she noe oso..
hmmm.. went wif Benny 2 e wake yester nitez.. actuall supposed 2 be wif him n teck kun de.. but teck kun got ymd mtg.. so went Benny instead.. he was late.. but at least he inform mi.. onli 15mins late.. not as terrible as Cat, Steph, Rachel or Xianyun.. this 4 frenz of mine.. they each break many records in my life.. can wait 2hrs 4 them de.. back 2 subject.. tat sotong Benny took mrt from somerset.. he's supposed 2 drop at cityhall or raffles place 2 change 2 east-west line.. but instead.. he took e mrt 2 marina bay.. n when he too back 2 cityhall/raffles place, e mrt door closed in front of him.. tat blur king.. alamak!~ hmm.. anw.. at least he inform mi.. okie.. 4given.. reall crack lots of jokes at e wake.. when we are nt supposed 2 be.. n get 2 noe a NP senior, "da" Weiliang.. yupz.. he reall can talk.. i tink William's ears hurts.. lolx.. he talks non-stop e whole nitez..
end up, mi, er jie n Benny kept whisperin 2 one another in front of him.. feel kinda of bad actuall.. mayb bcos he didnt c William 4 very long le.. so there's a lot he wanna find out ba.. let's hav a embracing heart 2 everyone ard us.. yupz.. simply cant stand Benny, er jie n William.. they are jus scary creatures on earth.. i alwaz gana shoot.. but alwaz nv fight back de.. mayb i'm jus wat Benny sae when William/er jie ask mi talk back.. i'm nt tat type who fight back.. lolx.. it reall mus depend on e situation.. mayb bcos i took medi yester.. so was kind of blur too... i feel tat i kind of emo yester.. kind of tired after takin medi n 2 tubes of blood.. i feel e weakness in mi..
had a talk wif Benny yester b4 we reach e place.. hmmm.. he didnt reall do tat well in poly.. n was kind of impossible 4 him 2 get in2 uni.. u can do it de!! dun limit urself!! jiayou!! so he's nw waiting 2 be enlisted.. hmmm... another NS man.. again.. he's a trainer in NDP again.. n he's afraid he will be enlisted b4 e NDP ends.. chant harder ba.. i'll send u daimoku too.. jus realised he's in gym core actuall.. n he's Kevin's senior in NP.. lolx.. i hope u can encourage him yupz.. he's realli kind of blur in e goal n direction he wants 2 b in.. n kind of immature.. i went hm alone.. but er jie n Benny sent mi 2 mrt station.. they are startin their manjong session.. n they actuall played till 7am tis morning.. pro.. i wanted 2 stay.. didnt reall wanna go hm since i'm nt workin 2dae.. but i cant.. mom will jus chop mi off.. but i oso dunoe how 2 play manjong.. so i stay oso cannot do anythingy much..
i'm havin a bad headache 2dae.. like i sae.. i'm emo-ing yester nitez.. i cried again.. i dunoe y oso.. mayb there's too many probz i'm facing now ba.. worrying.. worryin 4 my medical report.. want feeling well.. so didnt attend e wake 2dae.. so sorrie er jie..
jenny came 2 visit mi at hm 2dae.. yupz.. i'm fine.. i'm okie.. dun worry..
Sunday, January 14, 2007
i'm super tired last week wif lotsa of activities last week..
i'm super tired last week wif lotsa of activities last week..
tuesday - jus had our review cum post celebration for main com.. out of e 13pple (7guys,6gers), onli 11pple was present.. i'm gonna sae it ALOUD.. ALL E GERS ARE IN E MAIN COM ARE PRESENT!!! 2guys wasnt there.. they r kenji n weimin.. kenji has lessons till 7pm n weimin is working.. haiz~ wat a pity.. we had our dinner at tampines safra's sakura.. wahahaz!! it's BUFFET.. but guess our stomach arent realli tat big.. didnt realli store quite a lot then full liao.. i was jus grateful tat i didnt hav gastric pain after tryin 2 make tat meal worthwhile.. lolx~ it was oso our last dinner wif qisheng (qi ge), wei han (wei ge) n elvin (liang ge).. our QWE are enlisting on thurs n sat 2 BMT le.. sobx~ qisheng n weihan.. mi n stella gonna mizz e conference lots ne.. BUT OF COS.. we'll mizz u guys too!!
wednesday - wed's trainers' training was at gk.. we met for dinner at aljunied mrt at 6.15pm.. as usual.. there's pple who will alwaz be late.. we nv had a time where all e trainers, cheorographers n item i/cs gather 2gether 4 dinner.. reach gk promptly at 7.30pm.. saw qisheng n elvin over there.. WAO!~ super hardworking lehz.. goin 4 enlistment on thurs still so gd go gk help.. they went hm after doin a vigourous daimoku n evening gongyo wif us.. going back hm 2 eat wif their parents... we had a great time testing our costume 4 chingay.. but.. it's realli difficult 2 wear on ur own..
haiz~ jus imagine on e rehearsal, e preview n e actual dae.. 104 participants + 12 trainers.. OMG~ we even tried dancing in e costumes.. oh man!! it jus make us super tired.. we are supposed 2 take 30mins time 2 change n dance after which we will be having debrief 4 new formation n encouragement n all these.. end up.. we dragged till 10.15 then go hm.. e briefing 4 e formation was then postpone 2 thurs.. oh man! jih yang kor kor super gd.. he drove may n stella back 2 hm at toa poyah, mi n dixon at yishun n stephanie at woodlands.. then he sae he speeded hm.. aiyoz!~ so dangerous sia!! took a super quick bath n started our conference again.. mom saw mi closing my room's door n came in n scream at mi.. it was 12am plus then.. sobx!~ cant tok 2 them 4 long..
thursday - a significant dae 4 elvin n qisheng.. they book in2 ns bmt le.. sobx.. we'll mizz u guys lots de.. call qisheng during my lunch.. cos i didnt reall get 2 tok 2 him last nitez.. jus worried 4 him.. not bcos he's too young 2 take care of himself but tat he hasnt recovered frm cough n flu yet.. *worried* oh ya.. in e evening.. we had our briefing at syc.. b4 tat.. we actuall meet up at harbourfront 4 dinner.. tis was pouring every single dae.. makes everyone's mood so moody.. saw roy on e bus heading 2 syc too..was actuall telling him i going back 2 full-time studies soon.. jus feel veri excited n waiting patiently 4 e enrollment period 2 cum.. hmm.. syc.. a place filled wif lotsa wonderful memories.. it used 2 b my kindergarten.. n a place mi n xianyun go veri often 2 study.. i still rmb teaching daryl mathematics there.. we went in2 e mtg room on e 4th floor n join in e sd committee 4 gongyo.. guess who was sitting beside mi?? it was serena.. my tpjc asd ic.. lolx..
she was e one who used 2 contact mi when they tot i'm in tpjc.. anw.. thks 4 help serena.. she was e one who transfer mi frm asd 2 nrpsd too.. guess next time i'll end up in nypsd? lolx.. who so special can keep changing institution ar?? lolx.. did e briefing of our formation n learnt sum new steps as well.. learnt hw 2 do buddha hands n wave.. not kallang waves worz.. lolx.. is another type de.. quite a relaxing mtg 2dae.. each n everyone of us was given a chance 2 speak.. be it our work/studies or my participants etc.. qisheng called.. but i didnt get 2 pick up his phone call. sobx~ i off my hp 2 silent.. haiz!~ but sms him n noe he's doin fine.. gd!~ fang xin liao.. was a tiring dae actuall.. n it's raining.. so mani pple actuall fall sick.. our dearest eunice jie jie too.. gina jie jie oso hav yet 2 recovered too.. alamak!~ guys mus take great care of urself ne..
friday - it was home sweet home.. cos i hav 2 settle so billing stuff wif mom.. after which, mi n mom went 2 da bao our packed dinner.. she was too tired 2 cook plus dad wont b back 4 dinner.. was quite relaxing dae actuall... jus get 2 noe a interesting n nice guy at gk when i went there 2 help in e making of e chingay props.. he's darren.. lolx.. he's quite funny n cute actuall.. but sometimes i simply cant understand his alien language..
saturday - it's chingay training again!! as usual.. mi, willie n stephanie meet 4 lunch.. i was jus so blur tat i ask stephanie if she can make it 4 dinner when it supposed 2 b lunch.. kekez.. trainers' prep started at 2.30pm.. but at 2.30pm, onli mi, stephanie, willie, trey n dixon was there outside e studio.. oh man! where's e rest? haiz!~ was quite worried actuall.. cos i jus hate n dislike 2 face e mirror.. e weather was quite gd actuall.. we started our training at 6pm after having our dinner.. darren came 2 help at e log grp.. keep saying it's trial onli.. diaoz.. my grp screw up sat's training.. haiz!~ i'm disappointed actuall.. cos i'm alwaz screaming at e top of e my voice.. haiz~ i jus feel so bad.. i'm alwaz e bad person.. reall veri worried 4 willie.. he's alwaz so distracted by other aspects.. willie, plz come back!!! went 2 hav soyabean milk n sandwiches as supper after e training.. e coffeeshop are jus packed wif pple who are there 4 soccer matches.. alamak!~ was asking darren where he's staying.. he told mi bukit purmei.. so i ask him which block.. in mind i was tinking 106.. then he sae.. block 106.. oh man!! tat instinct.. i almost fainted.. then he sae .. cos we *xin lian xin, bei kao bei* .. *vomited* lolx..
sunday - mornin.. wakey quite early.. cos need 2 go do my hair.. lolx.. finall.. i got my hair rebonded.. actuall wanna ask xianyun pei mi go.. but guess she's busy wif her church service n out wif her frenz 4 meals.. haiz!~ i oso feel quite guilty.. cos i realli nelgected xianyun alot.. everytime got festive celebration she ask mi go countdown i alwaz nv turn up.. sorrie ne!! realli veri busy.. after which.. went 2 vivo 2 meet stella, darren n chin peng.. went shop shop at daiso.. then went e-zone 2 play.. realli sound so kiddy all a sudden.. diaoz.. after which.. we went over 2 harbourfront n makan.. i had yoshi beef bowl.. n saw my tongshi, tian ming there.. lolx.. luckily he's wif his guy fren but ger fren.. muhahahaz.. otherwise i'll sure tease him.. kekez.. after which is hm sweet hm .. chin peng took mrt.. stella went 2 her ah ma hse.. then it's left wif darren n mi taking 855 hm.. he dropped few stops after harbourfront.. as 4 mi.. i'm left alone 2 travel back 2 yishun... n guess wat i saw.. a man sitting in front of mi zai xi qiang li jiao.. oh man!! tat's illegal ne!!! tat's ILLEGAL!! it's scary tat singaporeans do tis so openly.. haiz.. wat 2 do??
after all, i'm jus tired!!!~
tuesday - jus had our review cum post celebration for main com.. out of e 13pple (7guys,6gers), onli 11pple was present.. i'm gonna sae it ALOUD.. ALL E GERS ARE IN E MAIN COM ARE PRESENT!!! 2guys wasnt there.. they r kenji n weimin.. kenji has lessons till 7pm n weimin is working.. haiz~ wat a pity.. we had our dinner at tampines safra's sakura.. wahahaz!! it's BUFFET.. but guess our stomach arent realli tat big.. didnt realli store quite a lot then full liao.. i was jus grateful tat i didnt hav gastric pain after tryin 2 make tat meal worthwhile.. lolx~ it was oso our last dinner wif qisheng (qi ge), wei han (wei ge) n elvin (liang ge).. our QWE are enlisting on thurs n sat 2 BMT le.. sobx~ qisheng n weihan.. mi n stella gonna mizz e conference lots ne.. BUT OF COS.. we'll mizz u guys too!!
wednesday - wed's trainers' training was at gk.. we met for dinner at aljunied mrt at 6.15pm.. as usual.. there's pple who will alwaz be late.. we nv had a time where all e trainers, cheorographers n item i/cs gather 2gether 4 dinner.. reach gk promptly at 7.30pm.. saw qisheng n elvin over there.. WAO!~ super hardworking lehz.. goin 4 enlistment on thurs still so gd go gk help.. they went hm after doin a vigourous daimoku n evening gongyo wif us.. going back hm 2 eat wif their parents... we had a great time testing our costume 4 chingay.. but.. it's realli difficult 2 wear on ur own..
haiz~ jus imagine on e rehearsal, e preview n e actual dae.. 104 participants + 12 trainers.. OMG~ we even tried dancing in e costumes.. oh man!! it jus make us super tired.. we are supposed 2 take 30mins time 2 change n dance after which we will be having debrief 4 new formation n encouragement n all these.. end up.. we dragged till 10.15 then go hm.. e briefing 4 e formation was then postpone 2 thurs.. oh man! jih yang kor kor super gd.. he drove may n stella back 2 hm at toa poyah, mi n dixon at yishun n stephanie at woodlands.. then he sae he speeded hm.. aiyoz!~ so dangerous sia!! took a super quick bath n started our conference again.. mom saw mi closing my room's door n came in n scream at mi.. it was 12am plus then.. sobx!~ cant tok 2 them 4 long..
thursday - a significant dae 4 elvin n qisheng.. they book in2 ns bmt le.. sobx.. we'll mizz u guys lots de.. call qisheng during my lunch.. cos i didnt reall get 2 tok 2 him last nitez.. jus worried 4 him.. not bcos he's too young 2 take care of himself but tat he hasnt recovered frm cough n flu yet.. *worried* oh ya.. in e evening.. we had our briefing at syc.. b4 tat.. we actuall meet up at harbourfront 4 dinner.. tis was pouring every single dae.. makes everyone's mood so moody.. saw roy on e bus heading 2 syc too..was actuall telling him i going back 2 full-time studies soon.. jus feel veri excited n waiting patiently 4 e enrollment period 2 cum.. hmm.. syc.. a place filled wif lotsa wonderful memories.. it used 2 b my kindergarten.. n a place mi n xianyun go veri often 2 study.. i still rmb teaching daryl mathematics there.. we went in2 e mtg room on e 4th floor n join in e sd committee 4 gongyo.. guess who was sitting beside mi?? it was serena.. my tpjc asd ic.. lolx..
she was e one who used 2 contact mi when they tot i'm in tpjc.. anw.. thks 4 help serena.. she was e one who transfer mi frm asd 2 nrpsd too.. guess next time i'll end up in nypsd? lolx.. who so special can keep changing institution ar?? lolx.. did e briefing of our formation n learnt sum new steps as well.. learnt hw 2 do buddha hands n wave.. not kallang waves worz.. lolx.. is another type de.. quite a relaxing mtg 2dae.. each n everyone of us was given a chance 2 speak.. be it our work/studies or my participants etc.. qisheng called.. but i didnt get 2 pick up his phone call. sobx~ i off my hp 2 silent.. haiz!~ but sms him n noe he's doin fine.. gd!~ fang xin liao.. was a tiring dae actuall.. n it's raining.. so mani pple actuall fall sick.. our dearest eunice jie jie too.. gina jie jie oso hav yet 2 recovered too.. alamak!~ guys mus take great care of urself ne..
friday - it was home sweet home.. cos i hav 2 settle so billing stuff wif mom.. after which, mi n mom went 2 da bao our packed dinner.. she was too tired 2 cook plus dad wont b back 4 dinner.. was quite relaxing dae actuall... jus get 2 noe a interesting n nice guy at gk when i went there 2 help in e making of e chingay props.. he's darren.. lolx.. he's quite funny n cute actuall.. but sometimes i simply cant understand his alien language..
saturday - it's chingay training again!! as usual.. mi, willie n stephanie meet 4 lunch.. i was jus so blur tat i ask stephanie if she can make it 4 dinner when it supposed 2 b lunch.. kekez.. trainers' prep started at 2.30pm.. but at 2.30pm, onli mi, stephanie, willie, trey n dixon was there outside e studio.. oh man! where's e rest? haiz!~ was quite worried actuall.. cos i jus hate n dislike 2 face e mirror.. e weather was quite gd actuall.. we started our training at 6pm after having our dinner.. darren came 2 help at e log grp.. keep saying it's trial onli.. diaoz.. my grp screw up sat's training.. haiz!~ i'm disappointed actuall.. cos i'm alwaz screaming at e top of e my voice.. haiz~ i jus feel so bad.. i'm alwaz e bad person.. reall veri worried 4 willie.. he's alwaz so distracted by other aspects.. willie, plz come back!!! went 2 hav soyabean milk n sandwiches as supper after e training.. e coffeeshop are jus packed wif pple who are there 4 soccer matches.. alamak!~ was asking darren where he's staying.. he told mi bukit purmei.. so i ask him which block.. in mind i was tinking 106.. then he sae.. block 106.. oh man!! tat instinct.. i almost fainted.. then he sae .. cos we *xin lian xin, bei kao bei* .. *vomited* lolx..
sunday - mornin.. wakey quite early.. cos need 2 go do my hair.. lolx.. finall.. i got my hair rebonded.. actuall wanna ask xianyun pei mi go.. but guess she's busy wif her church service n out wif her frenz 4 meals.. haiz!~ i oso feel quite guilty.. cos i realli nelgected xianyun alot.. everytime got festive celebration she ask mi go countdown i alwaz nv turn up.. sorrie ne!! realli veri busy.. after which.. went 2 vivo 2 meet stella, darren n chin peng.. went shop shop at daiso.. then went e-zone 2 play.. realli sound so kiddy all a sudden.. diaoz.. after which.. we went over 2 harbourfront n makan.. i had yoshi beef bowl.. n saw my tongshi, tian ming there.. lolx.. luckily he's wif his guy fren but ger fren.. muhahahaz.. otherwise i'll sure tease him.. kekez.. after which is hm sweet hm .. chin peng took mrt.. stella went 2 her ah ma hse.. then it's left wif darren n mi taking 855 hm.. he dropped few stops after harbourfront.. as 4 mi.. i'm left alone 2 travel back 2 yishun... n guess wat i saw.. a man sitting in front of mi zai xi qiang li jiao.. oh man!! tat's illegal ne!!! tat's ILLEGAL!! it's scary tat singaporeans do tis so openly.. haiz.. wat 2 do??
after all, i'm jus tired!!!~
Thursday, January 11, 2007
1st post of e year 2007!!!
1st post of e year 2007!!!
Guy Facts:
When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few minutes, he means it
When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
When a guy calls you everyday, He is in love
When a (good) guy say he loves you , he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
When a girl lay on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that.
how true can it be?? i realised i envy pple who are having bf.. how wonderful it can be?? i realized nowadays when i chant, i'll nv put having a kosen-rufu partner in my prayers le.. am i jus too tired? i used 2 long 4 one a lot.. izzit e lack of courage tat stops mi frm everythingy? jessica loh!!! u're no e old "you"..
Guy Facts:
When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing, He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a few minutes, he means it
When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing in the world
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest, he has the world
When a guy calls you everyday, He is in love
When a (good) guy say he loves you , he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet, millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full ofquestions, she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds, she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you, she is wondering why you are so wonderful.
When a girl lay on your chest, she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday, she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday, she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you, she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you,"no one in this world can miss you more than that.
how true can it be?? i realised i envy pple who are having bf.. how wonderful it can be?? i realized nowadays when i chant, i'll nv put having a kosen-rufu partner in my prayers le.. am i jus too tired? i used 2 long 4 one a lot.. izzit e lack of courage tat stops mi frm everythingy? jessica loh!!! u're no e old "you"..
Tuesday, November 14, 2006
good news/bad news!!!~
good news/bad news!!!!~
As usual, it's another working dae lohz.. HAIZ~ ... WHY?? WHY mus i go 2 work ne?!? i wanna go back 2 sch.. i misses sch so much.. HAIZ!!!~ It's Tuesdae!! Mondae blues is finally over!! uncle Jonathan isn't back yet.. lolx.. Dun get e whole idea who is he... he's my superior.. lolx(>O<).. he's away 2 thailand 4 a business trip wif one of my sales executive, jeremy.. quite gd 2 b workin under him actuall.. cos he's alwaz not ard.. mayb bcos he's e director of e company ba.. bad thingy is he's so poor in admin stuff like approving leave.. tis remind mi of mi takin leave durin my youth camp.. i submitted e leave form 1mth b4 e camp.. but it's onli approved e dae b4 e camp.. alamak.. it's sansho shima yeah??
*yawn*.. it's so boring.. it's getting more n more boring ne.. n i'm losing my interest in my work dae by dae.. sianz diao.. tis few daes.. i'm so used 2 writing my blog at my office.. this is e thingy tat keeps mi awake ne.. if not, guess i'll realli doze of.. muahahaz!!!~ jus pray hard tat i dun get caught red-handed.. having headache tis few daes ne.. hav been takin panadols everydae... i tink i'll soon get addicted 2 it ne.. somemore i feel tat e panadols dun seems 2 work on mi anymore.. it jus dun cure my headache at all ne.. WHY?? do u tink i shld consult a doc?? haiya.. WHY am i so weak ar??
i hav yet 2 turn 18 lehz.. n i'm like tat alread.. what can be done?? what shld b done?? knock off at 6pm 2dae.. headin 2 JP 2 meet Shirley Poh n attend out I/C mtg (holland chap).. onli ate old chang kee 4 dinner.. so pathetic rite?? many changes in RHQ4.. now, Janice , my ex-chap chief is noe west coast zone chief.. as 4 my ex zone chief, Meisi.. she's now clementi zone chief.. n Yvonne Chua, e ex clementi zone chief is now jurong zone chief.. as 4 e ex jurong zone chief, shirley.. she's now RHQ4 asst chief.. i'm kinda of shocked 2 e changes made..
okie.. back 2 track.. drag too far liao.. my Ymd zone chief, Yew Soon has been promoted 2 MD.. now our newly appointed Ymd zone chief is Xiao Feng.. My chap zone, uncle Ron n asst chap chief, mr xia.. oso got a swap in position.. uncle Ron is e asst chap chief.. n mr xia is e chap chief nw.. alamak!!~ joining us in e meeting is study depart chief?? i tink so.. he's mr Lam.. Stephanie Lam's dad.. kind of funny tat i'm actuall e 1st among e main com pple 2 noe tat mr Lam is Stephanie's dad.. Muahahaz.. as 4 my district... my ywd, Fook Keong is now promoted 2 md.. n will be e md asst district.. now, another ymd came in.. he's Alan.. another uncle uncle type de liao.. cos all of them are wif family n hav kids.. lolx.. kind of weird if u call ur ymd uncle?? alamak!!!~ senior citizens......
my district got lotsa elderly.. but oso got lotsa of super young kids.. e youngest is auntie Sherley's son, Ryan.. he's onli 3 yrs old!! super CUTE de ne !!!! mom rushed down 2 jurong kaikan by cab frm work.. 1st time ar.. she will alwaz use work as an excuse nt 2 go 4 mtg de.. guess she gonna strive lottery again le.. hahaz(>O<).. saw Cheng Mun n Sek Mun 2dae.. in life..lots of stuff are fated.. realli mus base on e word "YUAN FEN".. like Sek Mun, i noe her thru e Byakuren Proj..
Another incident is Shanice n her elder sista, Winnie..i noe Shanice thru a SD Milkrun event n Winnie thry e youth camp.. another similar ones is e 2 cousins.. Qisheng n Benny.. i noe Benny 4 abt 1yr plus ba.. n Qisheng is my kinder sch mate n part of main com 4 e alumni concert.. if mi n Qisheng were classmates, we shld alread noe each other 4 13yrs.. muahahaz.. It's a small world after all.. it's a small world after all.. it's a small world after all.. it's a small small world!!!~
just like alvin lee.. i mean guang ming.. sound more qing que.. he's in e same grp as mi during e 2001 youth ndp.. muahahaz.. n he's my kinder classmate.. shocking.. okie.. back 2 track.. my mtg ends ard 9.45pm.. there after.. my parents n i took 172 2 cck.. passed by Kenji n Xue Yun's place.. actuall tot of asking him 4 dinner when i was in JP de.. end up didnt.. now u noe y i onli old chang kee as dinner le ma?? muahahaz..
e bus passed by mani quiet areas.. like tengah air base.. n passed by granny's old teck wai flat.. n e place where uncle You committed suicide.. it was a tragic 2 e Loh's family.. the most filial son die young.. took a train from cck back 2 yishun.. n dad n mum had their dinner at e S11 coffeeshop.. reached hm ard 11.15pm.. n by 12.15am.. i was in bed.. another dae of late nitez slp.. *yawn*
As usual, it's another working dae lohz.. HAIZ~ ... WHY?? WHY mus i go 2 work ne?!? i wanna go back 2 sch.. i misses sch so much.. HAIZ!!!~ It's Tuesdae!! Mondae blues is finally over!! uncle Jonathan isn't back yet.. lolx.. Dun get e whole idea who is he... he's my superior.. lolx(>O<).. he's away 2 thailand 4 a business trip wif one of my sales executive, jeremy.. quite gd 2 b workin under him actuall.. cos he's alwaz not ard.. mayb bcos he's e director of e company ba.. bad thingy is he's so poor in admin stuff like approving leave.. tis remind mi of mi takin leave durin my youth camp.. i submitted e leave form 1mth b4 e camp.. but it's onli approved e dae b4 e camp.. alamak.. it's sansho shima yeah??
*yawn*.. it's so boring.. it's getting more n more boring ne.. n i'm losing my interest in my work dae by dae.. sianz diao.. tis few daes.. i'm so used 2 writing my blog at my office.. this is e thingy tat keeps mi awake ne.. if not, guess i'll realli doze of.. muahahaz!!!~ jus pray hard tat i dun get caught red-handed.. having headache tis few daes ne.. hav been takin panadols everydae... i tink i'll soon get addicted 2 it ne.. somemore i feel tat e panadols dun seems 2 work on mi anymore.. it jus dun cure my headache at all ne.. WHY?? do u tink i shld consult a doc?? haiya.. WHY am i so weak ar??
i hav yet 2 turn 18 lehz.. n i'm like tat alread.. what can be done?? what shld b done?? knock off at 6pm 2dae.. headin 2 JP 2 meet Shirley Poh n attend out I/C mtg (holland chap).. onli ate old chang kee 4 dinner.. so pathetic rite?? many changes in RHQ4.. now, Janice , my ex-chap chief is noe west coast zone chief.. as 4 my ex zone chief, Meisi.. she's now clementi zone chief.. n Yvonne Chua, e ex clementi zone chief is now jurong zone chief.. as 4 e ex jurong zone chief, shirley.. she's now RHQ4 asst chief.. i'm kinda of shocked 2 e changes made..
okie.. back 2 track.. drag too far liao.. my Ymd zone chief, Yew Soon has been promoted 2 MD.. now our newly appointed Ymd zone chief is Xiao Feng.. My chap zone, uncle Ron n asst chap chief, mr xia.. oso got a swap in position.. uncle Ron is e asst chap chief.. n mr xia is e chap chief nw.. alamak!!~ joining us in e meeting is study depart chief?? i tink so.. he's mr Lam.. Stephanie Lam's dad.. kind of funny tat i'm actuall e 1st among e main com pple 2 noe tat mr Lam is Stephanie's dad.. Muahahaz.. as 4 my district... my ywd, Fook Keong is now promoted 2 md.. n will be e md asst district.. now, another ymd came in.. he's Alan.. another uncle uncle type de liao.. cos all of them are wif family n hav kids.. lolx.. kind of weird if u call ur ymd uncle?? alamak!!!~ senior citizens......
my district got lotsa elderly.. but oso got lotsa of super young kids.. e youngest is auntie Sherley's son, Ryan.. he's onli 3 yrs old!! super CUTE de ne !!!! mom rushed down 2 jurong kaikan by cab frm work.. 1st time ar.. she will alwaz use work as an excuse nt 2 go 4 mtg de.. guess she gonna strive lottery again le.. hahaz(>O<).. saw Cheng Mun n Sek Mun 2dae.. in life..lots of stuff are fated.. realli mus base on e word "YUAN FEN".. like Sek Mun, i noe her thru e Byakuren Proj..
Another incident is Shanice n her elder sista, Winnie..i noe Shanice thru a SD Milkrun event n Winnie thry e youth camp.. another similar ones is e 2 cousins.. Qisheng n Benny.. i noe Benny 4 abt 1yr plus ba.. n Qisheng is my kinder sch mate n part of main com 4 e alumni concert.. if mi n Qisheng were classmates, we shld alread noe each other 4 13yrs.. muahahaz.. It's a small world after all.. it's a small world after all.. it's a small world after all.. it's a small small world!!!~
just like alvin lee.. i mean guang ming.. sound more qing que.. he's in e same grp as mi during e 2001 youth ndp.. muahahaz.. n he's my kinder classmate.. shocking.. okie.. back 2 track.. my mtg ends ard 9.45pm.. there after.. my parents n i took 172 2 cck.. passed by Kenji n Xue Yun's place.. actuall tot of asking him 4 dinner when i was in JP de.. end up didnt.. now u noe y i onli old chang kee as dinner le ma?? muahahaz..
e bus passed by mani quiet areas.. like tengah air base.. n passed by granny's old teck wai flat.. n e place where uncle You committed suicide.. it was a tragic 2 e Loh's family.. the most filial son die young.. took a train from cck back 2 yishun.. n dad n mum had their dinner at e S11 coffeeshop.. reached hm ard 11.15pm.. n by 12.15am.. i was in bed.. another dae of late nitez slp.. *yawn*
Saturday, November 11, 2006
a fruitful dae~
a fruitful dae~
Oh it's SUNDAY!! guess it will be a super busy dae.. cos i gonna hope ard from places 2 places.. i'm out so early.. wakey at 7am.. n i'm out at 7.30.. HAIZ~.. sianz 1/2 (@.@).. mom jus forced 2 eat pandan cake b4 i go out.. OH NO!!~.. i jus hate takin breakfast so early.. it's a bad thingy tat u hav a mama shop under ur block.. lolx.. cos i hav one opp my block.. so as usual.. i got a crave 4 chocolate milk.. so went 2 buy a packet of it 2 drink.. n guess wat.. i so bad luck.. e straw has a hole sum where.. n i got no choice but 2 drink it from e hole.. alamak!!~
I took 855 frm yishun 2 harbourfront.. supposed 2 meet Penny at harbourfront at 8.45am.. but i was late.. slightly a little.. so sorrie ne, Penny.. i came out early.. but tat stupid bus stops practically every bus-stop.. actuall both of us got e same kind of tinking.. we jus cant stand pple who r late.. then summore can wear till nice nice.. gel their head till nice nice de.. lolx.. like 4 example, ur fren over-slept.. then late liao.. still can wear nice nice, gel their hair till neat neat.. tis means tat tat person alread tink, since late 5 mins oso late, late 1 hr oso late.. tat's kind of tinking is wrong sia..
We were late 4 e chingay briefing.. slightly a little.. bcos of mi.. sobx(T.T).. we spent abt 1/2 hr's time doin our morning gongyo n daimoku.. there after, we had encouragement by our SD YWD Chief, Jing Hao.. at e same time, we met up wif our item ICs, Jih Yang n Eunice.. n our chorographers, Trey, Melvin, Gina n Li Yan.. out of e 6 pple.. i onli noe 2 of them.. 1 is Melvin.. noe him abt 1yr plus le.. another is Li Yan cos she's Xue Yun's sista.. not much was shared actuall.. as many stuffs r still pending 4 confirmation.. but somehow rather e costumes are confirmed.. n tis comin sundae, they will take measurement 4 e participants le.. lolx(>O<).. i shall not shared so much.. let's keep everything in secret nw.. but.. i can ASSURE.. it's gonna b FUN!! YEAH!!!~
We played a no of interaction games.. n shared a lot of stuffs.. like we actuall take up e role as a trainer.. OH YA!!~.. almost 4gotten abt e trainers list.. 4 e girls side, they r Penny, Stella, Stephanie, Xue Yun n mi.. as 4 guys, they are Darrell, Dixon, Bryant, Yong Sheng, Kevin n Willie.. majority of e girls r from batch 1 expect Penny is frm batch 2.. as 4 guys.. is e opp.. onli 1 pathetic guy is from batch 1, e rest frm batch 2.. HAIZ~.. kind of sad.. Pin Wen isnt in 4 e trainers' team.. Alvin n Kenji oso.. SOBX SOBX(T.T).. i'm most DISAPPOINTED tat Kenji isnt joining our trainers' team.. cos i noe.. if he isnt in e trainers' team, he most likely wont b takin part as a participant either.. SAD rite?? (x.X) my childhood close fren isnt in e team 2 fight n challenge 2gether.. HAIZ~
After our briefing, a bunch of us actuall went 4 lunch 2gether at harbourfront food court.. it's onli 8 out of 11 of us went 4 lunch 2gether.. they are.. Xueyun. Dixon, Bryant, Willie, Stephanie, Stella, Penny n mi... mi n Penny jus feel tat Yong Sheng n Kevin wont realli clink along wif e rest of us.. Yong Sheng has been in e main com 4 quite sum time.. but.. seriously, i hardly talk 2 him.. Kevin.. hmmm.. he's in e exhibition sub com.. he's a weird person.. a super weird one.. *cold sweat* (=.=!!) ..
After our lunch, mi, Penny, Stephanie, Stella, Willie, Dixon n Bryant headed e same way.. Xue Yun took a bus hm .. Bryant went 2 e bus interchange.. as 4 e rest, we all boarded e mrt.. Steph n Stella goin 2 study at Toa Poyah.. n Dixon goin hm.. mi, Penny n Willie r heading 2 Carys's hse 4 their ASD Dance practice.. it was quite fun seeing them practice.. i finall saw who's Xiao Ying... n we jus realised Kevin is in e same class as Xiao Ying n Carys.. lolx.. Carys jus got super bad impression of him.. she sae he's a veri "act" guy from young.. muahahaz.. imagine he's alread like tat durin his childhood daes.. hmmm~ IMPRESSED(=.=!!).. n he jus look stupid weird in his big specs when he's young.. OOPS~.. i noe Penny gonna sae i veri bad sae him like tat.. RITE, Penny??
i left e place at 6pm sharp n took 153 2 Toa Poyah 2 meet May b4 goin 2 meet Xue Yun at Ngee Ann main gate.. OH NO~.. May's late... n we will sure b late.. we dropped near Bukit Timah plaza n walked 2 bus stops.. oh no!!.. tat's TIRING!!!!~ but it's okie.. we are late.. late 4 abt 15mins.. Sorrie, XueYun.. i dun mean it ne.. kekez(>O<).. waiting wif her was Shu Min n Jaymie.. Sorrie 2 u 2 too!!.. i jus ran over n hugz Jaymie.. so long nv c her ne.. Mayb i'm too busy??? kekez.. goin 2 support Er jie.. she's performin in e NRA Danzation.. n tat's e reason y i bought e ticket which cost mi 15bucks.. Was super excited 4 her.. i seriously dun reall noe how 2 dance.. n i seriously has no talent in it.. lolx~ ..
steppin in2 e convention centre.. we saw e Superband, Soul at e entrance.. when i step in2 e hall... i saw Junior.. he's my senior when i was in sec sch.. n my senior in NPCC.. but i didnt greet him.. jus afraid of being embarrassing if he cant recognise mi.. lolx.. n saw Chris n Deck Kun too.. Chris is oso a yr my senior in my sec sch.. so we're actuall sch mates.. actuall when i was in FD.. i alread noe tat he's from soka de.. lolx~ clever mi ne?? no lahz.. jus saw him at kaikan b4..
E danzation started at ard 8plus.. e dance was indeed COOL!!.. i realli n seriously nv regret buyin e ticket.. muahahaz... all sorts of dance.. n songs singing too.. of cos got tat singapore idol, Daphne Khoo.. she slim down so much.. n seriously tink tat it's too skinny liao.. n saw Joycelyn 's sista too.. she's one of e NRA's Alumni.. wah.. she's so damn pro lohz.. almost every item oso c her.. hmm.. n of cos not 4gottenin my dearest er jie!!!! she was in e freshmen item, FOC.. saw Jefferson too.. he's so attractive when he 1st appear.. lolx.. cos he's in a bright green jacket.. muahahaz.. n got a freshmen guy, Kenneth.. i hope i didnt get his name wrong.. he's realli talented ne.. as a freshmen whom onli been goin thru 3 to 4 mths of trainings.. no bad sia!!
I saw banana there oso.. oops~ i mean Justina.. she's my ex bf's classmate.. still look e same.. but no longer e same bf liao.. "yuan fen zhen ai zuo neng ren...." i was so tired.. super tired.. was out e whole dae.. everythingy ends at 11.30pm like tat.. n mi n Jaymie hav 2 rush 2 catch e late bus hm.. thanks Jaymie.. she pei mi take bus 2 Yishun.. then frm there.. she took a cab hm.. when i reach hm, it's alread 12.45am in e mornin.. *yawn*.. so tired.. jus took a quick shower n by 1.15am.. i'm in bed!!! Was really tired.. but.. it's really a FRUITFUL dae!!!~
entry posted: (12/11/06)
Oh it's SUNDAY!! guess it will be a super busy dae.. cos i gonna hope ard from places 2 places.. i'm out so early.. wakey at 7am.. n i'm out at 7.30.. HAIZ~.. sianz 1/2 (@.@).. mom jus forced 2 eat pandan cake b4 i go out.. OH NO!!~.. i jus hate takin breakfast so early.. it's a bad thingy tat u hav a mama shop under ur block.. lolx.. cos i hav one opp my block.. so as usual.. i got a crave 4 chocolate milk.. so went 2 buy a packet of it 2 drink.. n guess wat.. i so bad luck.. e straw has a hole sum where.. n i got no choice but 2 drink it from e hole.. alamak!!~
I took 855 frm yishun 2 harbourfront.. supposed 2 meet Penny at harbourfront at 8.45am.. but i was late.. slightly a little.. so sorrie ne, Penny.. i came out early.. but tat stupid bus stops practically every bus-stop.. actuall both of us got e same kind of tinking.. we jus cant stand pple who r late.. then summore can wear till nice nice.. gel their head till nice nice de.. lolx.. like 4 example, ur fren over-slept.. then late liao.. still can wear nice nice, gel their hair till neat neat.. tis means tat tat person alread tink, since late 5 mins oso late, late 1 hr oso late.. tat's kind of tinking is wrong sia..
We were late 4 e chingay briefing.. slightly a little.. bcos of mi.. sobx(T.T).. we spent abt 1/2 hr's time doin our morning gongyo n daimoku.. there after, we had encouragement by our SD YWD Chief, Jing Hao.. at e same time, we met up wif our item ICs, Jih Yang n Eunice.. n our chorographers, Trey, Melvin, Gina n Li Yan.. out of e 6 pple.. i onli noe 2 of them.. 1 is Melvin.. noe him abt 1yr plus le.. another is Li Yan cos she's Xue Yun's sista.. not much was shared actuall.. as many stuffs r still pending 4 confirmation.. but somehow rather e costumes are confirmed.. n tis comin sundae, they will take measurement 4 e participants le.. lolx(>O<).. i shall not shared so much.. let's keep everything in secret nw.. but.. i can ASSURE.. it's gonna b FUN!! YEAH!!!~
We played a no of interaction games.. n shared a lot of stuffs.. like we actuall take up e role as a trainer.. OH YA!!~.. almost 4gotten abt e trainers list.. 4 e girls side, they r Penny, Stella, Stephanie, Xue Yun n mi.. as 4 guys, they are Darrell, Dixon, Bryant, Yong Sheng, Kevin n Willie.. majority of e girls r from batch 1 expect Penny is frm batch 2.. as 4 guys.. is e opp.. onli 1 pathetic guy is from batch 1, e rest frm batch 2.. HAIZ~.. kind of sad.. Pin Wen isnt in 4 e trainers' team.. Alvin n Kenji oso.. SOBX SOBX(T.T).. i'm most DISAPPOINTED tat Kenji isnt joining our trainers' team.. cos i noe.. if he isnt in e trainers' team, he most likely wont b takin part as a participant either.. SAD rite?? (x.X) my childhood close fren isnt in e team 2 fight n challenge 2gether.. HAIZ~
After our briefing, a bunch of us actuall went 4 lunch 2gether at harbourfront food court.. it's onli 8 out of 11 of us went 4 lunch 2gether.. they are.. Xueyun. Dixon, Bryant, Willie, Stephanie, Stella, Penny n mi... mi n Penny jus feel tat Yong Sheng n Kevin wont realli clink along wif e rest of us.. Yong Sheng has been in e main com 4 quite sum time.. but.. seriously, i hardly talk 2 him.. Kevin.. hmmm.. he's in e exhibition sub com.. he's a weird person.. a super weird one.. *cold sweat* (=.=!!) ..
After our lunch, mi, Penny, Stephanie, Stella, Willie, Dixon n Bryant headed e same way.. Xue Yun took a bus hm .. Bryant went 2 e bus interchange.. as 4 e rest, we all boarded e mrt.. Steph n Stella goin 2 study at Toa Poyah.. n Dixon goin hm.. mi, Penny n Willie r heading 2 Carys's hse 4 their ASD Dance practice.. it was quite fun seeing them practice.. i finall saw who's Xiao Ying... n we jus realised Kevin is in e same class as Xiao Ying n Carys.. lolx.. Carys jus got super bad impression of him.. she sae he's a veri "act" guy from young.. muahahaz.. imagine he's alread like tat durin his childhood daes.. hmmm~ IMPRESSED(=.=!!).. n he jus look stupid weird in his big specs when he's young.. OOPS~.. i noe Penny gonna sae i veri bad sae him like tat.. RITE, Penny??
i left e place at 6pm sharp n took 153 2 Toa Poyah 2 meet May b4 goin 2 meet Xue Yun at Ngee Ann main gate.. OH NO~.. May's late... n we will sure b late.. we dropped near Bukit Timah plaza n walked 2 bus stops.. oh no!!.. tat's TIRING!!!!~ but it's okie.. we are late.. late 4 abt 15mins.. Sorrie, XueYun.. i dun mean it ne.. kekez(>O<).. waiting wif her was Shu Min n Jaymie.. Sorrie 2 u 2 too!!.. i jus ran over n hugz Jaymie.. so long nv c her ne.. Mayb i'm too busy??? kekez.. goin 2 support Er jie.. she's performin in e NRA Danzation.. n tat's e reason y i bought e ticket which cost mi 15bucks.. Was super excited 4 her.. i seriously dun reall noe how 2 dance.. n i seriously has no talent in it.. lolx~ ..
steppin in2 e convention centre.. we saw e Superband, Soul at e entrance.. when i step in2 e hall... i saw Junior.. he's my senior when i was in sec sch.. n my senior in NPCC.. but i didnt greet him.. jus afraid of being embarrassing if he cant recognise mi.. lolx.. n saw Chris n Deck Kun too.. Chris is oso a yr my senior in my sec sch.. so we're actuall sch mates.. actuall when i was in FD.. i alread noe tat he's from soka de.. lolx~ clever mi ne?? no lahz.. jus saw him at kaikan b4..
E danzation started at ard 8plus.. e dance was indeed COOL!!.. i realli n seriously nv regret buyin e ticket.. muahahaz... all sorts of dance.. n songs singing too.. of cos got tat singapore idol, Daphne Khoo.. she slim down so much.. n seriously tink tat it's too skinny liao.. n saw Joycelyn 's sista too.. she's one of e NRA's Alumni.. wah.. she's so damn pro lohz.. almost every item oso c her.. hmm.. n of cos not 4gottenin my dearest er jie!!!! she was in e freshmen item, FOC.. saw Jefferson too.. he's so attractive when he 1st appear.. lolx.. cos he's in a bright green jacket.. muahahaz.. n got a freshmen guy, Kenneth.. i hope i didnt get his name wrong.. he's realli talented ne.. as a freshmen whom onli been goin thru 3 to 4 mths of trainings.. no bad sia!!
I saw banana there oso.. oops~ i mean Justina.. she's my ex bf's classmate.. still look e same.. but no longer e same bf liao.. "yuan fen zhen ai zuo neng ren...." i was so tired.. super tired.. was out e whole dae.. everythingy ends at 11.30pm like tat.. n mi n Jaymie hav 2 rush 2 catch e late bus hm.. thanks Jaymie.. she pei mi take bus 2 Yishun.. then frm there.. she took a cab hm.. when i reach hm, it's alread 12.45am in e mornin.. *yawn*.. so tired.. jus took a quick shower n by 1.15am.. i'm in bed!!! Was really tired.. but.. it's really a FRUITFUL dae!!!~
entry posted: (12/11/06)
raindrops keep falling on my head~
raindrops keep falling on my head~
As usual.. my wkends are filled wif gakkai stuffs.. it was pouring so heavily 2dae ne.. aiyoz.. poor mi!! it's been a long time since i work overtime on sat liao.. kind of gettin more n more lazy in my work.. n seems 2 be losing all e interest i shld hav.. kind of sick of waking up early in e mornin, tinking tat i gonna work again.. haiz~ .. how i wish.. i can work at SSA HQ or work at SK.. muahahaz(>O<).. it's gonna super fun i guess..
It has bcame a routine tat every sat afternoon, i'm gonna make myself free n attend Pin Wen's liveband practice at wee lee's music studio located at aljunied.. muahahaz(>O<).. is kind of near 2 my workin place.. i can take a direct bus n alight 3 bus stops later.. but 2dae is so much diff.. it's raining heavily ne.. i didnt bring umbrella summore.. sobx(T.T).. so got no choice but 2 take company's big umbrella.. see carefully.. it's big umbrella worz.. those giodano kind de.. yet.. my jeans was half way 2 my knee-cap area.. poor mi~.. summore i'm sick actuall.. n didnt take my breakfast tat morning.. jus ate 2 small mars chocolate bars.. luckily my collegue gave mi tat.. if no, i tink b4 i even see Pin Wen they all i'll faint alread..
When i reached e music studio, it's onli ard 1.50pm onli.. we're meeting each other at 2pm actuall.. Pin Wen reached promptly at 2pm.. Ming Liang was slightly a bit late.. luckily he's clever enough 2 call Pin Wen when he reached aljunied mrt n ask if he can bring umbrella 2 him.. otherwise he will bcum luo tang ji.. lolx(n.n).. Di Yong was late too.. unexpectedly.. cos he's alwaz e early bird in their band.. summore he's sick.. guess e weather is reall bad.. Gilbert was a little late too.. Raymond even worse.. go ton over-night.. so he's sick n look super tired.. everything has been progressing smoothly 4 them.. jus tat both e lead singer, Raymond n e back-up singer, Di Yong are sick.. both having cough n sore throat.. chan le lahz.. guys ar~ .. plz take gd care of ur own health ar.. dun fall sick at tis point of time.. not onli 4 e concert's sake but 4 ur own sake oso ar.. Xue Yun was late too.. she was stuck in e mrt.. OMG~..
As usual lohz.. after e practice ends at 4pm, we went 2 e coffeeshop nearby n makan.. lolx(>o<).. every1 seems 2 b so unite tat dae.. all of us drank green tea.. but it was kind ok *yuck* (x.x).. i jus dun like yeo's or heaven n earth's green tea.. pokka is e best ne.. muahahaz(>O<).. i ate laska again.. i'm jus super hungry lohz.. almost whole dae nv eat.. n tat stupid Pin Wen.. sae y i copy him eat e same food... lolx.. who wanna copy u ar? humphx!! Pin Wen n Ming Liang.. cant stand them.. at dining table still can tok abt shit, urine n even describe e balachan chili as menses.. *yuck*.. wanna vomit.. disgusted~ .. Then tat Raymond sit beside mi kept laughing at mi.. cos i show tat kind of disgusted looks.. Alamak!~ .. They are reall a bunch of funny n friendly guys..with them ard, u will nv feel bored.. muahahaz.. even when i'm sick, n feels so weak, e moment they crack jokes.. i seems 2 hav recovered.. kekez.. not bad.. got healing effects.. wahahaz!!
After which, mi/xueyun n them went seperate ways.. e guys r heading 2 fullerton hotel 4 their dinner wif their Chief who's graduating.. now.. Guo Yao is e Chief.. n guess wat.. Pin Wen n Ming Liang bcame e Vice-Chief of Golden Lion.. OMG~ Xue Yun was kind of shocked.. she even tot tat they r joking.. lolx.. tat's a serious matter.. i doubt they will.. I'm happi 4 Pin Wen.. but kind of sad oso.. i'm happi he's nw taking up such a great role.. i'm sure tis will makes him more committed 2 SSA... but.. tis oso mean tat he got a more impt role 2 play in Golden Lion.. n i doubt he will hav e time 2 b part of Chingay'07 Trainers' team le.. haiz.. wat a pity.. In e boys' team, onli 1guy is from Batch 1.. summore is not my class de.. guys from my class, where's e perseverce n enthusiasm u shld hav ar?? summore tat onli guy from batch 1 is not tat kinda of veri enthu de.. Ke bu ke bei ar?? HAIZ~.. All those veri enthu de.. all gonna hong tan liao.. goin 2 b army boi in jan.. HAIZ~..
Mi n Xue Yun headed 2wards JE.. then we went JE Entertainment Centre.. we went 2 Prima Deli buy wafer eat then went 2 e food court n sat down.. then.. we started chit chatting lohz... from SK stuff to concert to Chingay n even 2 our personal stuffs.. Xue Yun is kind of weird 2dae.. she kept askin super weird questions tat i nv tot tat she will ask.. lolx.. kinda of funny lahz.. hmmm~ .. we left at ard 7pm.. then i headed hm.. after pom pom n took my dinner.. i called Penny.. we chatted like hrs on e phone.. lolx(>O<)..
sharing so mani stories of us.. kind of funny tat i told her.. i got tot of ways 2 commit suicide n e consquences i hav 2 bear if i dun succeed dying.. stupid rite?? frenz of mine.. guess u will nv tot tat i hav tot of committing suicide b4.. in many pple's mind, guess i e cheerful kind who alwaz look on e positive side of life?? lolx.. i'm not realli actuall.. anw.. 2dae is a fulfilling dae 2 mi.. jus tat e heavy pour came at e wrong time.. muahahaz.. gtg le.. tml still mus b in tbsc at 9am in e morning.. *yawn* .. nitez~
As usual.. my wkends are filled wif gakkai stuffs.. it was pouring so heavily 2dae ne.. aiyoz.. poor mi!! it's been a long time since i work overtime on sat liao.. kind of gettin more n more lazy in my work.. n seems 2 be losing all e interest i shld hav.. kind of sick of waking up early in e mornin, tinking tat i gonna work again.. haiz~ .. how i wish.. i can work at SSA HQ or work at SK.. muahahaz(>O<).. it's gonna super fun i guess..
It has bcame a routine tat every sat afternoon, i'm gonna make myself free n attend Pin Wen's liveband practice at wee lee's music studio located at aljunied.. muahahaz(>O<).. is kind of near 2 my workin place.. i can take a direct bus n alight 3 bus stops later.. but 2dae is so much diff.. it's raining heavily ne.. i didnt bring umbrella summore.. sobx(T.T).. so got no choice but 2 take company's big umbrella.. see carefully.. it's big umbrella worz.. those giodano kind de.. yet.. my jeans was half way 2 my knee-cap area.. poor mi~.. summore i'm sick actuall.. n didnt take my breakfast tat morning.. jus ate 2 small mars chocolate bars.. luckily my collegue gave mi tat.. if no, i tink b4 i even see Pin Wen they all i'll faint alread..
When i reached e music studio, it's onli ard 1.50pm onli.. we're meeting each other at 2pm actuall.. Pin Wen reached promptly at 2pm.. Ming Liang was slightly a bit late.. luckily he's clever enough 2 call Pin Wen when he reached aljunied mrt n ask if he can bring umbrella 2 him.. otherwise he will bcum luo tang ji.. lolx(n.n).. Di Yong was late too.. unexpectedly.. cos he's alwaz e early bird in their band.. summore he's sick.. guess e weather is reall bad.. Gilbert was a little late too.. Raymond even worse.. go ton over-night.. so he's sick n look super tired.. everything has been progressing smoothly 4 them.. jus tat both e lead singer, Raymond n e back-up singer, Di Yong are sick.. both having cough n sore throat.. chan le lahz.. guys ar~ .. plz take gd care of ur own health ar.. dun fall sick at tis point of time.. not onli 4 e concert's sake but 4 ur own sake oso ar.. Xue Yun was late too.. she was stuck in e mrt.. OMG~..
As usual lohz.. after e practice ends at 4pm, we went 2 e coffeeshop nearby n makan.. lolx(>o<).. every1 seems 2 b so unite tat dae.. all of us drank green tea.. but it was kind ok *yuck* (x.x).. i jus dun like yeo's or heaven n earth's green tea.. pokka is e best ne.. muahahaz(>O<).. i ate laska again.. i'm jus super hungry lohz.. almost whole dae nv eat.. n tat stupid Pin Wen.. sae y i copy him eat e same food... lolx.. who wanna copy u ar? humphx!! Pin Wen n Ming Liang.. cant stand them.. at dining table still can tok abt shit, urine n even describe e balachan chili as menses.. *yuck*.. wanna vomit.. disgusted~ .. Then tat Raymond sit beside mi kept laughing at mi.. cos i show tat kind of disgusted looks.. Alamak!~ .. They are reall a bunch of funny n friendly guys..with them ard, u will nv feel bored.. muahahaz.. even when i'm sick, n feels so weak, e moment they crack jokes.. i seems 2 hav recovered.. kekez.. not bad.. got healing effects.. wahahaz!!
After which, mi/xueyun n them went seperate ways.. e guys r heading 2 fullerton hotel 4 their dinner wif their Chief who's graduating.. now.. Guo Yao is e Chief.. n guess wat.. Pin Wen n Ming Liang bcame e Vice-Chief of Golden Lion.. OMG~ Xue Yun was kind of shocked.. she even tot tat they r joking.. lolx.. tat's a serious matter.. i doubt they will.. I'm happi 4 Pin Wen.. but kind of sad oso.. i'm happi he's nw taking up such a great role.. i'm sure tis will makes him more committed 2 SSA... but.. tis oso mean tat he got a more impt role 2 play in Golden Lion.. n i doubt he will hav e time 2 b part of Chingay'07 Trainers' team le.. haiz.. wat a pity.. In e boys' team, onli 1guy is from Batch 1.. summore is not my class de.. guys from my class, where's e perseverce n enthusiasm u shld hav ar?? summore tat onli guy from batch 1 is not tat kinda of veri enthu de.. Ke bu ke bei ar?? HAIZ~.. All those veri enthu de.. all gonna hong tan liao.. goin 2 b army boi in jan.. HAIZ~..
Mi n Xue Yun headed 2wards JE.. then we went JE Entertainment Centre.. we went 2 Prima Deli buy wafer eat then went 2 e food court n sat down.. then.. we started chit chatting lohz... from SK stuff to concert to Chingay n even 2 our personal stuffs.. Xue Yun is kind of weird 2dae.. she kept askin super weird questions tat i nv tot tat she will ask.. lolx.. kinda of funny lahz.. hmmm~ .. we left at ard 7pm.. then i headed hm.. after pom pom n took my dinner.. i called Penny.. we chatted like hrs on e phone.. lolx(>O<)..
sharing so mani stories of us.. kind of funny tat i told her.. i got tot of ways 2 commit suicide n e consquences i hav 2 bear if i dun succeed dying.. stupid rite?? frenz of mine.. guess u will nv tot tat i hav tot of committing suicide b4.. in many pple's mind, guess i e cheerful kind who alwaz look on e positive side of life?? lolx.. i'm not realli actuall.. anw.. 2dae is a fulfilling dae 2 mi.. jus tat e heavy pour came at e wrong time.. muahahaz.. gtg le.. tml still mus b in tbsc at 9am in e morning.. *yawn* .. nitez~
Friday, November 10, 2006
GAMBATTE ne!!!~
GAMBATTE ne!!!! ~
Everydae my routine is jus e same.. i goes 2 work early in e morning.. then after work mus rush down 4 gakkai activities lohz.. i seems 2 missed a lot of my district stuff.. i feel tat i neglected my new mbers so much.. *guilty* .. HAIZ.. next wk, e invitation cards 4 e concert will b coming in le.. OH NO~.. guess e main com pple will b super busy.. Stephanie, Wei Han, Stella, Qi Sheng n Elvin... u guys faster finish ur exams ar.. Misses u guys so much ne!!
Knocked off at 6pm.. n it was raining.. till not realli big.. but it makes mi feel super unwell.. cos i'm sick.. raining makes mi feel cold ne.. *ah choo*.. supposed 2 go 2 meet Vivien n Penny 2 go 2 Darrell's hse 4 their performance practice.. tis is e 2nd time they gonna meet up wif each other.. cos we alread went 2 his place b4 n noe e way there.. so i decided 2 call him 2 jus ask 4 his unit no.. i was then on e way there.. end up.. guess wat he told mi?? (=.=!!) he sae he got family dinner but he 4gotten 2 tell us.. OMG~ .. my dear 2 girls r alread on e way there.. end up.. i hav 2 call them n tell them 2 head back 2 J8..
We then meet up at J8 Mos Burger.. lolx.. e nitez was spent chit chatting lohz.. lolx(>o<).. as usual lohz.. mi n Penny were e ones doin e talkin.. n Vivien is like a audience, lending her listening ear 2 us.. she's really super quiet.. quiet till i dunoe how 2 discribe.. muahahaz.. y is she so diff from Elvin?? lolx.. OOPS!! then e stupid waitress over at e Mos chase us away.. end up.. guess where we went instead?? muahahaz.. is 2 e library.. lolx.. we hide at one corner near e window n chit-chat lohz.. till about 8.30pm then we left e place..
All of us are so crazy over Goong.. especiall mi n Vivien.. guess tis will b e onli time u can see Vivien being crazy.. all of us went seperate ways.. Vivien went 2 take bus hm.. Vivien goin 2 her granny's hse at Telok Blangah so she took e mrt headin 2 marina bay.. as 4 mi.. i'm goin back hm.. so i took e way 2wards JE.. i boarded e bus n saw 3 Korean guys.. they super cute lohz.. i mean cute not handsome.. muahahaz.. e way they tok super cute.. heez.. makes mi feel like i'm e scene of a korean drama.. heez(>O<).. Penny was like sayin i fa hua chi.. lolx.. mus b watch too much Goong liao..
I jus wanna ask a quest... Which girl dun long 4 a simple love?? i asked Penny tis quest too.. then she sae relationship is like.. errrr.. i cant rmb.. but is sumthingy like tuo lei?? correct if i'm wrong, Penny.. so guess wat i sae?? i told her.. is bcos we didnt find e right person in our life.. agree?? MMMM~ .. all a sudden it reminds mi of a song by zhou hui - ai qing wu guan shi fei.. "ni shi dui de ren, que zai cuo de shi jian, cuo de di dian chu xian, dai zhe cuo wu de gan jue, cai hui zhao bu dao dui de jiao dian.. ta shi cuo de ren, que yong dian de yu yan, dian de jiao se chu xian, dui de rang wo wu fa ju jue, cai rang wo shen shen xian zai cuo wu li mian ........"
Mani pple tink tat time is a crucial thing.. but actuall e most impt thingy is e rite person.. i jus rmb wat Pin Wen once told mi.. mayb both of us jus arent suitable 2 b in a relationship at tis point in time.. then guess wat i actuall sae?? i sae.. is not suitable or not suitable.. but bcos we didnt meet e rite person.. agree?? MMMM~... hahaz.. tot of another song.. "ai qing rang ren kao de tai jing, wan le liu dian yi di...." lolx.. y all a sudden bcum so bei guan.. hmmm~ .. mus be positive at all times.. Gambatte!!
Everydae my routine is jus e same.. i goes 2 work early in e morning.. then after work mus rush down 4 gakkai activities lohz.. i seems 2 missed a lot of my district stuff.. i feel tat i neglected my new mbers so much.. *guilty* .. HAIZ.. next wk, e invitation cards 4 e concert will b coming in le.. OH NO~.. guess e main com pple will b super busy.. Stephanie, Wei Han, Stella, Qi Sheng n Elvin... u guys faster finish ur exams ar.. Misses u guys so much ne!!
Knocked off at 6pm.. n it was raining.. till not realli big.. but it makes mi feel super unwell.. cos i'm sick.. raining makes mi feel cold ne.. *ah choo*.. supposed 2 go 2 meet Vivien n Penny 2 go 2 Darrell's hse 4 their performance practice.. tis is e 2nd time they gonna meet up wif each other.. cos we alread went 2 his place b4 n noe e way there.. so i decided 2 call him 2 jus ask 4 his unit no.. i was then on e way there.. end up.. guess wat he told mi?? (=.=!!) he sae he got family dinner but he 4gotten 2 tell us.. OMG~ .. my dear 2 girls r alread on e way there.. end up.. i hav 2 call them n tell them 2 head back 2 J8..
We then meet up at J8 Mos Burger.. lolx.. e nitez was spent chit chatting lohz.. lolx(>o<).. as usual lohz.. mi n Penny were e ones doin e talkin.. n Vivien is like a audience, lending her listening ear 2 us.. she's really super quiet.. quiet till i dunoe how 2 discribe.. muahahaz.. y is she so diff from Elvin?? lolx.. OOPS!! then e stupid waitress over at e Mos chase us away.. end up.. guess where we went instead?? muahahaz.. is 2 e library.. lolx.. we hide at one corner near e window n chit-chat lohz.. till about 8.30pm then we left e place..
All of us are so crazy over Goong.. especiall mi n Vivien.. guess tis will b e onli time u can see Vivien being crazy.. all of us went seperate ways.. Vivien went 2 take bus hm.. Vivien goin 2 her granny's hse at Telok Blangah so she took e mrt headin 2 marina bay.. as 4 mi.. i'm goin back hm.. so i took e way 2wards JE.. i boarded e bus n saw 3 Korean guys.. they super cute lohz.. i mean cute not handsome.. muahahaz.. e way they tok super cute.. heez.. makes mi feel like i'm e scene of a korean drama.. heez(>O<).. Penny was like sayin i fa hua chi.. lolx.. mus b watch too much Goong liao..
I jus wanna ask a quest... Which girl dun long 4 a simple love?? i asked Penny tis quest too.. then she sae relationship is like.. errrr.. i cant rmb.. but is sumthingy like tuo lei?? correct if i'm wrong, Penny.. so guess wat i sae?? i told her.. is bcos we didnt find e right person in our life.. agree?? MMMM~ .. all a sudden it reminds mi of a song by zhou hui - ai qing wu guan shi fei.. "ni shi dui de ren, que zai cuo de shi jian, cuo de di dian chu xian, dai zhe cuo wu de gan jue, cai hui zhao bu dao dui de jiao dian.. ta shi cuo de ren, que yong dian de yu yan, dian de jiao se chu xian, dui de rang wo wu fa ju jue, cai rang wo shen shen xian zai cuo wu li mian ........"
Mani pple tink tat time is a crucial thing.. but actuall e most impt thingy is e rite person.. i jus rmb wat Pin Wen once told mi.. mayb both of us jus arent suitable 2 b in a relationship at tis point in time.. then guess wat i actuall sae?? i sae.. is not suitable or not suitable.. but bcos we didnt meet e rite person.. agree?? MMMM~... hahaz.. tot of another song.. "ai qing rang ren kao de tai jing, wan le liu dian yi di...." lolx.. y all a sudden bcum so bei guan.. hmmm~ .. mus be positive at all times.. Gambatte!!
Thursday, November 09, 2006
ah choo~
ah choo~
guess wat.. tis weak princess is sick again.. oh sobx sobx (T.T).. actuall didnt realli rest well tis few days.. been veri busy as i hav mentioned mani times..plus..last whole week, i shi mian.. dunoe wat happened oso.. therefore all these led 2 lack of rest lohz.. actuall alread feelin tat i gonna gana sore throat liao.. but i veri stubborn.. yester lunch still eat laksa.. summore buy chocolate pocky n finished up myself.. lack of water oso.. so nw.. havin sore throat.. n sneezing my way spreadin my gems..
2dae is e 9th of nov.. exactly one more mth 2 our alumni concert.. OH NO~ time waits 4 no man ne!!! we still got our invitation cards still printing in process.. n out contacting committee hasnt start 2 work yet.. oh no.. hmmm.. all e a'levels students r away 4 their exams.. n so r those taking their o's.. instrumental ensemble side has stopped their practice at e moment.. vanessa is away 4 exams..but they shouldnt hav a probz i guess.. it isnt their 1st time performing instruments.. tml gonna b e 2nd time vivien n darrell r meetin up..i'm quite worried 4 e 2 of them.. cos one is more western n another more eastern..n e guy is friendly n e girl shy..
most imptly, e songs has yet 2 b decide.. OMG~ ... liveband side.. been progressing smoothly.. but e songs arent confirmed yet too ne.. everytime they practice.. i can see e improvement in them.. most imptly, they realli poured in their heart n soul n make lotsa efforts.. cos 4 out of e 5 pple r soka mbers but non-alumni.. tis is e only item i feel e most guilty wif.. cos everytime they practice.. they mus book e music studio.. n mus fork out their own pocket money 2 pay 4 it.. sobx sobx(T.T).. sometimes they still hav go 4 their practice empty stomach ne.. aiyoz.. as 4 wushu.. jus had a meet-up last sundae wif his vice-chief, Guo Yao n his instructor..they kinda of helpful.. so i kinda relieved..
exhibition side really got lotsa stuffs 2 do.. e sub-committee started working on e research alread.. n tml is their deadline 4 editing.. as 4 e design grp, been progressing quite well.. is jus tat e manpower arent really enough.. n their ah heads are away 4 exams.. Stephanie, Qi Sheng n Wei Han are away 4 their a'levels.. misses u guys ne!!! as 4 Wei Min.. still missing in action.. HAIZ~..
luckily, i still got May, Penny n Kenji 2 help mi.. if not, really will suffocate cos of e workload i hav.. BUT.. Kenji oso sick now.. 2nitez got exhibition committee mtg he oso wont b joinin us.. HAIZ~.. i'm so SICK ne.. now having a high fever!! many pple didnt turn up 4 e mtg too.. many were sick.. guess nowadays e weather is pretty bad.. n many jus finishes their exams.. exhibition sub-com progressing quite smoothly.. jus tat we are afraid tat they dun hav enough time 2 do up the exhibiton stuffs..
Was quite relieved tat i jus heard from lao shi tat e contacting committee had started workin le.. YEAH!! at e same time, they r encouraging those who will be sec1 n above next yr 2 join e chingay'07.. hey~ Soka Frenz out there.. if u see this entry of mine n noe of any ex Soka Kindergarten students.. do encourage them 2 join e chingay.. as.. next yr chingay r meant 2 b 4 SK Alumni students de.. Muahahaz~ Guess it will b a veri happy n grand event..
Jus heard from lao shi 2dae tat GD Ong is inviting those Soka school system ex students who are in spore rite nw 2 join us in e alumni concert.. n heard tat they hav alread set up a committee bcos of us ne.. Good news rite?? they are actually putting up a performance.. n working on a song 4 us.. n e teachers of SK are oso performin 4 us ne.. really looking 4ward 2 tis dae ne.. cos i noe it will b a dae of relief 4 those in e main com.. n will b a dae of excitment though i can foresee tat i'll b super busy tat dae..
just called Guo Yao jus nw 2 tell him tat mi n Xue Yun cant make it 4 e wushu practice this comin sundae morning.. n accidentally told him tat Pin Wen is oso a chingay trainer.. OMG~ .. lao shi havent talk 2 him yet.. OH NO~ .. n i didnt noe.. and when i told him.. he was kinda shocked.. n it was negative comments thru out.. he told mi Pin Wen is in special grp so he is actuall nt allowed 2 join.. i'm oso in special grp ar.. But my chief allowed.. is onli 3 mths.. n in jan n feb.. due 2 e chinese new yr.. soka dun hav much activities de..
sometimes i jus dun understand y chiefs are alwaz sticking 2 rules so strictly.. As leaders of a big organisation.. following instructions n rules is impt.. but mus hav a limit oso.. we mus b flexible at times ar.. worry tis worry tat.. Sensei alwaz sae : "Youth cannot grow without struggles"... yet... our chiefs alwaz stop us from doing tis, stop us from doing tat.. tis is stoppin us from goin thru e neccessary struggles we mus go thru.. it's stoppin us progressing.. lao shi goin 2 call him tml.. n it seems Guo Yao offended lao shi in some way.. n lao shi arent realli happi over it.. OMG~.. from jus now e expression lao shi when i told her wat Guo Yao said.. i can smell lava flowing from e volcano.. n it seems tat it's gonna erupt soon.. *scary*
i jus hopin n prayin earnestly tat Pin Wen can be in e Trainers' team.. he's in e main com.. but has been MIA 4 quite sometimes due 2 his busy schedules.. As wat May they all hav sae.. " Pin Wen, those in e main com misses u ne.." kekez(>O<).. as 4 Xue Yun.. HAIZ~.. was quite disappointed actuall.. she went 2 work ne.. Da jie, u seems 2 4got wat u sae ne.. i tink work really affect her gakkai activities.. but wat i sae is how i feel onli.. n once again.. i down wif lotsa burdens on mi.. luckily.. nw still got May n Penny 2 help mi.. at least.. i can feel more relieved now..
i'm somehow tired.. tired of all e empty promises made.. after so much hav happened.. Guess i'm alread used 2 working alone.. alread used 2 endure-ing alone.. alread used 2 cracking my brain 2 solve probz alone.. rmb e theme of e youth camp i mentioned b4?? "friends 4 life, comrades 4 eternity".. if i were 2 hav comrades who cant b firm n flexible at times, i tink i'll rather b alone.. heard of e chopsticks story?? 1 chopstick can b easily broken, but if u put 10 chopsticks 2gether.. e strength of e chopsticks increases making it difficult 2 b broken.. i truely n deeply understand tat i cant work alone.. wif my strength alone, i cant do much actuall.. but.. it seems like i'm forced.. FORCED 2 work alone..
ever since i returned from e youth camp.. i feel tat i got a stronger belonging 2 tis association.. a stronger belonging 2 SK.. Guess i'll nv leave tis association i grown up wif from young.. Xue Yun is back 2 e trainers' team.. But.. bcos of tis, i felt so guilty of wat i hav done 2 May.. imagine i alread persuade her 2 join e trainers' team, n she is convinced of tat alread.. now.. everything changes again.. tis kind of feeling is like giving a dying person a feeling of hope, n now, u jus tell tat person, u r dyin soon..i realli hate tat kinda of feeling myself.. though May didnt sae anything, i still feel bad 4 her.. xi wang yue da, shi wang yue da.. when u shi yang a long time, u will bcum jue wang.. I'm sorrie.. so sorrie 4 everything~
guess wat.. tis weak princess is sick again.. oh sobx sobx (T.T).. actuall didnt realli rest well tis few days.. been veri busy as i hav mentioned mani times..plus..last whole week, i shi mian.. dunoe wat happened oso.. therefore all these led 2 lack of rest lohz.. actuall alread feelin tat i gonna gana sore throat liao.. but i veri stubborn.. yester lunch still eat laksa.. summore buy chocolate pocky n finished up myself.. lack of water oso.. so nw.. havin sore throat.. n sneezing my way spreadin my gems..
2dae is e 9th of nov.. exactly one more mth 2 our alumni concert.. OH NO~ time waits 4 no man ne!!! we still got our invitation cards still printing in process.. n out contacting committee hasnt start 2 work yet.. oh no.. hmmm.. all e a'levels students r away 4 their exams.. n so r those taking their o's.. instrumental ensemble side has stopped their practice at e moment.. vanessa is away 4 exams..but they shouldnt hav a probz i guess.. it isnt their 1st time performing instruments.. tml gonna b e 2nd time vivien n darrell r meetin up..i'm quite worried 4 e 2 of them.. cos one is more western n another more eastern..n e guy is friendly n e girl shy..
most imptly, e songs has yet 2 b decide.. OMG~ ... liveband side.. been progressing smoothly.. but e songs arent confirmed yet too ne.. everytime they practice.. i can see e improvement in them.. most imptly, they realli poured in their heart n soul n make lotsa efforts.. cos 4 out of e 5 pple r soka mbers but non-alumni.. tis is e only item i feel e most guilty wif.. cos everytime they practice.. they mus book e music studio.. n mus fork out their own pocket money 2 pay 4 it.. sobx sobx(T.T).. sometimes they still hav go 4 their practice empty stomach ne.. aiyoz.. as 4 wushu.. jus had a meet-up last sundae wif his vice-chief, Guo Yao n his instructor..they kinda of helpful.. so i kinda relieved..
exhibition side really got lotsa stuffs 2 do.. e sub-committee started working on e research alread.. n tml is their deadline 4 editing.. as 4 e design grp, been progressing quite well.. is jus tat e manpower arent really enough.. n their ah heads are away 4 exams.. Stephanie, Qi Sheng n Wei Han are away 4 their a'levels.. misses u guys ne!!! as 4 Wei Min.. still missing in action.. HAIZ~..
luckily, i still got May, Penny n Kenji 2 help mi.. if not, really will suffocate cos of e workload i hav.. BUT.. Kenji oso sick now.. 2nitez got exhibition committee mtg he oso wont b joinin us.. HAIZ~.. i'm so SICK ne.. now having a high fever!! many pple didnt turn up 4 e mtg too.. many were sick.. guess nowadays e weather is pretty bad.. n many jus finishes their exams.. exhibition sub-com progressing quite smoothly.. jus tat we are afraid tat they dun hav enough time 2 do up the exhibiton stuffs..
Was quite relieved tat i jus heard from lao shi tat e contacting committee had started workin le.. YEAH!! at e same time, they r encouraging those who will be sec1 n above next yr 2 join e chingay'07.. hey~ Soka Frenz out there.. if u see this entry of mine n noe of any ex Soka Kindergarten students.. do encourage them 2 join e chingay.. as.. next yr chingay r meant 2 b 4 SK Alumni students de.. Muahahaz~ Guess it will b a veri happy n grand event..
Jus heard from lao shi 2dae tat GD Ong is inviting those Soka school system ex students who are in spore rite nw 2 join us in e alumni concert.. n heard tat they hav alread set up a committee bcos of us ne.. Good news rite?? they are actually putting up a performance.. n working on a song 4 us.. n e teachers of SK are oso performin 4 us ne.. really looking 4ward 2 tis dae ne.. cos i noe it will b a dae of relief 4 those in e main com.. n will b a dae of excitment though i can foresee tat i'll b super busy tat dae..
just called Guo Yao jus nw 2 tell him tat mi n Xue Yun cant make it 4 e wushu practice this comin sundae morning.. n accidentally told him tat Pin Wen is oso a chingay trainer.. OMG~ .. lao shi havent talk 2 him yet.. OH NO~ .. n i didnt noe.. and when i told him.. he was kinda shocked.. n it was negative comments thru out.. he told mi Pin Wen is in special grp so he is actuall nt allowed 2 join.. i'm oso in special grp ar.. But my chief allowed.. is onli 3 mths.. n in jan n feb.. due 2 e chinese new yr.. soka dun hav much activities de..
sometimes i jus dun understand y chiefs are alwaz sticking 2 rules so strictly.. As leaders of a big organisation.. following instructions n rules is impt.. but mus hav a limit oso.. we mus b flexible at times ar.. worry tis worry tat.. Sensei alwaz sae : "Youth cannot grow without struggles"... yet... our chiefs alwaz stop us from doing tis, stop us from doing tat.. tis is stoppin us from goin thru e neccessary struggles we mus go thru.. it's stoppin us progressing.. lao shi goin 2 call him tml.. n it seems Guo Yao offended lao shi in some way.. n lao shi arent realli happi over it.. OMG~.. from jus now e expression lao shi when i told her wat Guo Yao said.. i can smell lava flowing from e volcano.. n it seems tat it's gonna erupt soon.. *scary*
i jus hopin n prayin earnestly tat Pin Wen can be in e Trainers' team.. he's in e main com.. but has been MIA 4 quite sometimes due 2 his busy schedules.. As wat May they all hav sae.. " Pin Wen, those in e main com misses u ne.." kekez(>O<).. as 4 Xue Yun.. HAIZ~.. was quite disappointed actuall.. she went 2 work ne.. Da jie, u seems 2 4got wat u sae ne.. i tink work really affect her gakkai activities.. but wat i sae is how i feel onli.. n once again.. i down wif lotsa burdens on mi.. luckily.. nw still got May n Penny 2 help mi.. at least.. i can feel more relieved now..
i'm somehow tired.. tired of all e empty promises made.. after so much hav happened.. Guess i'm alread used 2 working alone.. alread used 2 endure-ing alone.. alread used 2 cracking my brain 2 solve probz alone.. rmb e theme of e youth camp i mentioned b4?? "friends 4 life, comrades 4 eternity".. if i were 2 hav comrades who cant b firm n flexible at times, i tink i'll rather b alone.. heard of e chopsticks story?? 1 chopstick can b easily broken, but if u put 10 chopsticks 2gether.. e strength of e chopsticks increases making it difficult 2 b broken.. i truely n deeply understand tat i cant work alone.. wif my strength alone, i cant do much actuall.. but.. it seems like i'm forced.. FORCED 2 work alone..
ever since i returned from e youth camp.. i feel tat i got a stronger belonging 2 tis association.. a stronger belonging 2 SK.. Guess i'll nv leave tis association i grown up wif from young.. Xue Yun is back 2 e trainers' team.. But.. bcos of tis, i felt so guilty of wat i hav done 2 May.. imagine i alread persuade her 2 join e trainers' team, n she is convinced of tat alread.. now.. everything changes again.. tis kind of feeling is like giving a dying person a feeling of hope, n now, u jus tell tat person, u r dyin soon..i realli hate tat kinda of feeling myself.. though May didnt sae anything, i still feel bad 4 her.. xi wang yue da, shi wang yue da.. when u shi yang a long time, u will bcum jue wang.. I'm sorrie.. so sorrie 4 everything~
Sunday, November 05, 2006
contented~
contented~
hmmm... tat incident which i mentioned abt my fren gettin in a triangle love seems 2 hav cum 2 an end le.. *cold sweat* .. luckily.. luckily it ended.. how izzit be like 2 b in a triangle love?? is creating bad karma, will hav retribution de.. she felt e stress.. tat guy 1st told her tat he got feelings 2wards her.. at 1st my fren tot he onli kiddin de.. end up.. he kept askin her.. wat if he's single, will my fren accept him?? now.. here e stress is comin.. tat guy seems 2 askin for confirmation b4 his next step.. so my fren start 2 give him cold shoulder.. then e guy feel tat something is amiss.. so ask my fren.. luckily my fren is clever enough 2 grab hold of e opp.. she told him tat they shld remain as frenz.. luckily tat guy understand.. wat is urs is urs, wat fated not 2 will not b..muahahaz.. i feel tat i'm teachin how 2 handle tis kinda of situtation thru tellin u guys my fren's experience.. anyway.. it has cum 2 an end abt tat..
i'm super busy recently.. busy with my alumni concert tis yr end.. n comin up.. is chingay.. gonna b a chingay trainer.. will b busi till after new yr is over.. STRESS~ got so much involvement in my religion.. till i dun hav time even 4 my family n myself.. i need a break badly.. jus 2 slp but nth else.. cos slpin time is now so precious 2 mi.. tat's e onli time my machine stops workin..
jus had a hair-cut yester.. omg.. my hair seems short.. sobx..
"I am weaker than I realized.. Foolish-er than I know. What had happened in e present will b my destiny in e future..."
hmmm... tat incident which i mentioned abt my fren gettin in a triangle love seems 2 hav cum 2 an end le.. *cold sweat* .. luckily.. luckily it ended.. how izzit be like 2 b in a triangle love?? is creating bad karma, will hav retribution de.. she felt e stress.. tat guy 1st told her tat he got feelings 2wards her.. at 1st my fren tot he onli kiddin de.. end up.. he kept askin her.. wat if he's single, will my fren accept him?? now.. here e stress is comin.. tat guy seems 2 askin for confirmation b4 his next step.. so my fren start 2 give him cold shoulder.. then e guy feel tat something is amiss.. so ask my fren.. luckily my fren is clever enough 2 grab hold of e opp.. she told him tat they shld remain as frenz.. luckily tat guy understand.. wat is urs is urs, wat fated not 2 will not b..muahahaz.. i feel tat i'm teachin how 2 handle tis kinda of situtation thru tellin u guys my fren's experience.. anyway.. it has cum 2 an end abt tat..
i'm super busy recently.. busy with my alumni concert tis yr end.. n comin up.. is chingay.. gonna b a chingay trainer.. will b busi till after new yr is over.. STRESS~ got so much involvement in my religion.. till i dun hav time even 4 my family n myself.. i need a break badly.. jus 2 slp but nth else.. cos slpin time is now so precious 2 mi.. tat's e onli time my machine stops workin..
jus had a hair-cut yester.. omg.. my hair seems short.. sobx..
"I am weaker than I realized.. Foolish-er than I know. What had happened in e present will b my destiny in e future..."
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
MIXTURE OF FEELINGS??
mixture of feelings??
hmmm...guess wat?? i blogging at vanessa's place.. 4 those in my sec sch.. is not siew jia.. it's my kindergarden's junior.. hmmm.. kinda tired nowadays.. mayb bcos i'm troubled.. troubled wif my frenz' probz.. not my probz.. hahaz..kinda of stupid ne?? hmmm.. i guess so ne.. my bro's relationship probz, my frenz' relationship probz.. guess their probz makes mi put aside mine?? n thanks 2 xueyun.. she's alwaz e one who is alwaz sharing my probz.. especiall my relation's probz.. thanks da jie!!kekez.. kinda sad seeing him.. now especially durin mtgs.. HEART-BREAKING is e word.. i'm tired.. i need a break..
was pretti unhappi at work oso.. n cause big probz at work oso.. i got e design of e cutters wrong.. n guess wat.. e cutters were sent out 2 e customer in thailand.. oh no.. if tis proj fails, my company mus hav 2 pei chang.. i'm tired ne.. sumbodi.. jus save mi from e world of hell.. i jus wonder how izzit like 2 b in a triangle love?? it mus b veri xin ku.. i'm nv been in tat.. so luckily of tat.. but one of my fren was in2 it.. n she told mi her probz.. how?? *worried* 4 her.. haiz..
i'm jus back from camp 4 abt 1 wk.. n my camp mates r still n high spirit abt e camp.. though is jus a 3days2nights camp.. guess everyone present enjoyed it?? though i nv realli interact wif all e grp mates but guess they r influenced e "baby" in their grp?? kekez.. i'm e youngest in e grp.. so they jus treat mi like a baby.. actuall i realli struggle a lot during e camp.. but i tink everythingy is worthwhile ne.. i have grown and matured a lot during tis camp ne.. hahaz.. n i'm back 2 e bubbly n cheerful mi.. yeah~ i hav noe how 2 let go 2 thingys tat dun belongs 2 mi.. i wanna b e own mi back.. yeah~
tink bcos of my tiredness.. i'm slacking a lot.. mus buck up!!!! cannot slack.. especially in faith.. if not sansho shima(3 obstacles,4devils) will attack mi.. hahaz.. our Soka Kindergarden Alumni Concert is drawing nearer.. Everyone in e committee r gettin busier.. n e a'lvl students n o'lvl students r havin their exams soon.. so.. xueyun n mi r preparing 2 mutli-task.. takin care all aspects of e concert.. oh no.. guess i mus double my daimoku daily.. mus set daimoku marathon 4 myself.. n yr end drawin near.. n so it's my bdae ne!!! hahaz.. i'm truning 18 soon.. lookin 4ward ne.. mus start 2 tink our resolutions 4 yr2007..
n i'm tinkin veri simple nw.. jus chanting n prayin hard 4 my 2 new frenz 2 enshrine e Gohonzon by dec 2006.. tat's my goal 2wards yr end.. n wan my family n frenz 2 hav eternal happiness.. i felt tat i'm easily contented ever since i came back frm e camp.. as long those ard mi r trouble-free n living everydae 2 their fullest, i'll b happi alread..
hmmm...guess wat?? i blogging at vanessa's place.. 4 those in my sec sch.. is not siew jia.. it's my kindergarden's junior.. hmmm.. kinda tired nowadays.. mayb bcos i'm troubled.. troubled wif my frenz' probz.. not my probz.. hahaz..kinda of stupid ne?? hmmm.. i guess so ne.. my bro's relationship probz, my frenz' relationship probz.. guess their probz makes mi put aside mine?? n thanks 2 xueyun.. she's alwaz e one who is alwaz sharing my probz.. especiall my relation's probz.. thanks da jie!!kekez.. kinda sad seeing him.. now especially durin mtgs.. HEART-BREAKING is e word.. i'm tired.. i need a break..
was pretti unhappi at work oso.. n cause big probz at work oso.. i got e design of e cutters wrong.. n guess wat.. e cutters were sent out 2 e customer in thailand.. oh no.. if tis proj fails, my company mus hav 2 pei chang.. i'm tired ne.. sumbodi.. jus save mi from e world of hell.. i jus wonder how izzit like 2 b in a triangle love?? it mus b veri xin ku.. i'm nv been in tat.. so luckily of tat.. but one of my fren was in2 it.. n she told mi her probz.. how?? *worried* 4 her.. haiz..
i'm jus back from camp 4 abt 1 wk.. n my camp mates r still n high spirit abt e camp.. though is jus a 3days2nights camp.. guess everyone present enjoyed it?? though i nv realli interact wif all e grp mates but guess they r influenced e "baby" in their grp?? kekez.. i'm e youngest in e grp.. so they jus treat mi like a baby.. actuall i realli struggle a lot during e camp.. but i tink everythingy is worthwhile ne.. i have grown and matured a lot during tis camp ne.. hahaz.. n i'm back 2 e bubbly n cheerful mi.. yeah~ i hav noe how 2 let go 2 thingys tat dun belongs 2 mi.. i wanna b e own mi back.. yeah~
tink bcos of my tiredness.. i'm slacking a lot.. mus buck up!!!! cannot slack.. especially in faith.. if not sansho shima(3 obstacles,4devils) will attack mi.. hahaz.. our Soka Kindergarden Alumni Concert is drawing nearer.. Everyone in e committee r gettin busier.. n e a'lvl students n o'lvl students r havin their exams soon.. so.. xueyun n mi r preparing 2 mutli-task.. takin care all aspects of e concert.. oh no.. guess i mus double my daimoku daily.. mus set daimoku marathon 4 myself.. n yr end drawin near.. n so it's my bdae ne!!! hahaz.. i'm truning 18 soon.. lookin 4ward ne.. mus start 2 tink our resolutions 4 yr2007..
n i'm tinkin veri simple nw.. jus chanting n prayin hard 4 my 2 new frenz 2 enshrine e Gohonzon by dec 2006.. tat's my goal 2wards yr end.. n wan my family n frenz 2 hav eternal happiness.. i felt tat i'm easily contented ever since i came back frm e camp.. as long those ard mi r trouble-free n living everydae 2 their fullest, i'll b happi alread..
Sunday, September 03, 2006
Life is like Bonbon au chocolat, a box full of chocolate
Life is like Bonbon au chocolat, a box full of chocolate
i jus finished watching the episodes of e korean drama "My Name is Kim Sam Soon".. super nice.. super touching n super funny.. it realli gave courage 2 those girls who lacks looks n appearance.. lolx.. didnt mean tat u dun look pretti u can hav eternal happiness.. hahaz.. actuall Kim Sam Soon b4 she gain weight bcos of this show, she realli a chio bu.. And Jin Hun (Sam Shik).. oh my god.. he realli veri dashing lohz.. *faint*..
Summore got jiu wo.. oh my god.. jus like kim sam soon in e show.. i jus wan a peaceful life with a simple love.. with someone i can depend on n someone who trust mi no matter wat happened.. after i seen tis show, i noe i wont give up on u so easily.. So anyone who has someone in mind.. bear in mind.. perserverce on.. nv give up!! nv give up worz.. happiness is in ur own hands.. so hold it tight.. though a bit bad, zhen xian give up xi zhen.. his gf 4 8yrs.. but.. afterall kim sam soon is e rite person..
i noe.. i noe i wont give up on u so easily.. jiayou!
i jus finished watching the episodes of e korean drama "My Name is Kim Sam Soon".. super nice.. super touching n super funny.. it realli gave courage 2 those girls who lacks looks n appearance.. lolx.. didnt mean tat u dun look pretti u can hav eternal happiness.. hahaz.. actuall Kim Sam Soon b4 she gain weight bcos of this show, she realli a chio bu.. And Jin Hun (Sam Shik).. oh my god.. he realli veri dashing lohz.. *faint*..
Summore got jiu wo.. oh my god.. jus like kim sam soon in e show.. i jus wan a peaceful life with a simple love.. with someone i can depend on n someone who trust mi no matter wat happened.. after i seen tis show, i noe i wont give up on u so easily.. So anyone who has someone in mind.. bear in mind.. perserverce on.. nv give up!! nv give up worz.. happiness is in ur own hands.. so hold it tight.. though a bit bad, zhen xian give up xi zhen.. his gf 4 8yrs.. but.. afterall kim sam soon is e rite person..
i noe.. i noe i wont give up on u so easily.. jiayou!
Saturday, August 26, 2006
[ tired.. i need a break ]
tired.. i need a break ..
haiz.. 2dae got sd cic mtg.. n i attended though i not a cic in sd.. hmmm.. quite tired 2dae.. shld sae quite tired tis past few daes.. as my work r piling up.. n was super busi wif my gakkai activities oso.. jus finished wif my ssa district family dae.. n guess wat.. we hit e target we set.. yeah.. super happi.. n thankie 4 all e leaders who came 2 support mi.. after e mtg itself on 20th which is last sundae.. went 2 soka rites.. in other words went 2 attend a funeral wake.. it's a WD mber in my district.. she jus passed away at e age of 90.. wow.. old rite?? actuall my mood was badly tat da.. i onli noe of e news on e sundae mornin itself.. n.. on e other hand, i mus make sure i'm happily facing my new frenz in e ssa family dae in e afternoon.. haiz.. tis is e 1st funeral wake i attended as e status of a leader.. realli upset..
now.. my concentration is on e musical byakuren mbers supposed 2 put up durin our sept byakuren mtg in sept.. onli left wif abt 2 weeks b4 e actual performance.. n then at e same time.. yr end soka kindergarten alumni concert oso goin in2 e preparation period le.. oh no.. will b super busi.. actuall was sick 4 abt 2 weeks le.. i veri stubborn.. noe i sore throat badly yet it took mi 1 wk later 2 then consult e doc.. by then, i alread lost my voice.. jus managed 2 recover my voice onli..but still havin flu n sore throat..
though i'm sick, i still continue 2 attend my gakkai activities as per normal.. till mondae, was pretti bad.. mayb i shld sae is gd fortune ba.. boss ask mi go hm rest n gave mi half dae leave.. n tuesdae itself, i was on mc.. went 2 consult doc e 2nd time.. actuall i shld b still on medication de.. i didnt take actuall.. cos takin e medi makes mi drowzy.. so i insist not 2 take.. tat's y i arent recovering fast.. e road of kosen-rufu has no resting.. so i mus jiayou.. n then my work.. quite a lot.. cos my director on mc cos he terribly sick..
2dae attended e sd cic mtg.. actuall i not cic lahz.. but attended it wif xueyun.. was hopin 2 c him.. but once again.. i dropped 2 world of hell.. *misery* .. haiz.. it's okie.. every sat n sun.. one dae at least mus chiong 3 sessions.. hopin from mtg 2 another mtg 2 concert events 2 homevisit.. veri tired ar.. i need a break badly.. jus hope i can slp 1 wk dun wakey.. lolx.. tink i'll b paralysis after tat.. lolx..
haiz.. 2dae got sd cic mtg.. n i attended though i not a cic in sd.. hmmm.. quite tired 2dae.. shld sae quite tired tis past few daes.. as my work r piling up.. n was super busi wif my gakkai activities oso.. jus finished wif my ssa district family dae.. n guess wat.. we hit e target we set.. yeah.. super happi.. n thankie 4 all e leaders who came 2 support mi.. after e mtg itself on 20th which is last sundae.. went 2 soka rites.. in other words went 2 attend a funeral wake.. it's a WD mber in my district.. she jus passed away at e age of 90.. wow.. old rite?? actuall my mood was badly tat da.. i onli noe of e news on e sundae mornin itself.. n.. on e other hand, i mus make sure i'm happily facing my new frenz in e ssa family dae in e afternoon.. haiz.. tis is e 1st funeral wake i attended as e status of a leader.. realli upset..
now.. my concentration is on e musical byakuren mbers supposed 2 put up durin our sept byakuren mtg in sept.. onli left wif abt 2 weeks b4 e actual performance.. n then at e same time.. yr end soka kindergarten alumni concert oso goin in2 e preparation period le.. oh no.. will b super busi.. actuall was sick 4 abt 2 weeks le.. i veri stubborn.. noe i sore throat badly yet it took mi 1 wk later 2 then consult e doc.. by then, i alread lost my voice.. jus managed 2 recover my voice onli..but still havin flu n sore throat..
though i'm sick, i still continue 2 attend my gakkai activities as per normal.. till mondae, was pretti bad.. mayb i shld sae is gd fortune ba.. boss ask mi go hm rest n gave mi half dae leave.. n tuesdae itself, i was on mc.. went 2 consult doc e 2nd time.. actuall i shld b still on medication de.. i didnt take actuall.. cos takin e medi makes mi drowzy.. so i insist not 2 take.. tat's y i arent recovering fast.. e road of kosen-rufu has no resting.. so i mus jiayou.. n then my work.. quite a lot.. cos my director on mc cos he terribly sick..
2dae attended e sd cic mtg.. actuall i not cic lahz.. but attended it wif xueyun.. was hopin 2 c him.. but once again.. i dropped 2 world of hell.. *misery* .. haiz.. it's okie.. every sat n sun.. one dae at least mus chiong 3 sessions.. hopin from mtg 2 another mtg 2 concert events 2 homevisit.. veri tired ar.. i need a break badly.. jus hope i can slp 1 wk dun wakey.. lolx.. tink i'll b paralysis after tat.. lolx..
Sunday, August 13, 2006
i'm working on others' happiness n let mine b found eventually
[i'm working on others' happiness n let mine be found eventually]
tis few daes been veri busi.. every dae is chiong-ing 4 my work.. my work is piling up.. n it jus gets taller n taller on my desk.. jus like fridae.. i got planning mtg at 8pm at bukit batok.. guess wat.. i onli managed 2 leave my work place at paya lebar at 7pm.. oh no.. luckily tat dae my admin manager cum sales personel goin hm early.. if not, i tink i 8pm oso dun need 2 go back.. haiz.. jus like yester.. i planned 2 work till 2pm n chiong 2 tbsc 4 e sd nationwide mtg de.. but office pple goin back early.. i left my work place ard 1.15plus ba.. oh no.. got lotsa work haven finish yet.. die lahz tis time round.. mondae sure got lotsa stuff 2 finish..
was pretti fun yester during e mtg actuall.. got lotsa sd seniors shared their testimony.. got mani cic n iic graduated oso.. got sum newly appointed ones oso.. was quite happi 4 them oso.. though i dun realli hav any institue.. but attending nrpsd de wif xueyun.. but xueyun has 2 leave early.. sobx.. luckily still lay leng ard.. was hopin 2 c him.. till e end of e mtg.. i tot it will b a disappointing dae 2 mi.. wanna sae gd bye 2 yvonne, caifeng n soo shan they all.. then when i turn round facing e exit door of e main hall.. i catch a glimpse of a person's back who realli look like him.. end up they sae take grp photos.. once again.. tat person disappear in front of mi.. after e photo taking, i left tbsc wif soo shan.. at e lobby area.. saw one of my close sista.. i dun realli feel e close-ness wif her anymore..
tat's wat how mi after she was attached.. tat's wat i hate 2 c oso.. i noe having a bf 2 mani gers is e most impt thingy in life.. but dun u need frenz n close frenz ard too?? last time.. when i was deeply in life in my sec sch life.. i oso tink e same way.. tink back.. i realli feel tat tat's a veri stupid way of thinking.. oops.. shld sae foolish.. i'm realli naive last time.. love is not everythingy.. jus like i once quote from sensei's guidance : " love is not 2 pple gazing at each other but 2 pple lookin ahead in e same direction ".. i can live out a bf's love.. but i noe there's lotsa frenz loving n caring 4 mi.. tat's enough le..
at e bus stop outside shell petrol kisok.. i saw him.. was quite happi actuall.. n my bus came.. i boarded e bus.. yet he didnt notice mi.. so sad.. n didnt hav e courage 2 call him oso.. was even more upset when i saw him not realli happi n feelin a bit down.. heartbroken.. but i'm praying 4 his absolute happiness everydae.. " You must be happy worz.. I'm praying earnestly for you.. "
thankie for waking mi up 2 my senses.. after seeing u yester.. i realised tat i should not be hopin 2 find my happiness so selflessly.. buy workin hard on others' happiness n let mine be found eventually.. jus like when we practice.. we mus practice 4 oneself n 4 others..
took a small test on chinese fortune thingy de.. n tat's how i'm being described..
[ Your life is represented by the garden full of rich soil with a devoted spirit, so you like to help people without asking for anything in return. You keep your word and you like kind and determined people. You look like an easy-going person but you are actually quite determined. It's hard to tell what's on your mind and you tend to keep a low profile.]
jus feel tat it's realli describe mi well.. i help pple n wont ask anythingy in return.. i do keep my words.. hahaz.. n as 4 relationship.. tat's wat they sae abt mi..
[ In your relationship, you are mutually loving and respectful of each other. Your love is full of romance and happiness. In romance, according to our analysis, you are easily attracted to someone you admire in your heart, but you often end up empty-handed because you are too shy to go after him. Generally speaking, men do not have deep first impression of you, so they need time to discover your inner beauty. You, however, tend to like a person at the first sight, but not after a period of time. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to show your inner beauty by doing more activities, establishing better habits, and socializing with more people. This way you can express your inner beauty naturally all the time, which makes your romance go more smoothly. In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner might be introduced by relatives and friends, or through matchmaking. You tend to be inexperienced in love, unable to express yourself, and do not know how to actively pursue someone without being too sticky or giving up easily. You have opportunities but are afraid to get hurt, so eventually it is not easy for you to have the spark of love. If you are still seeking your love partner don't rush because someone nearby likes you, so as long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.]
i'm tat kinda of timid person 2wards love.. n tat's true.. n i alwaz believe in 1st sight love a lot.. mayb bcos of my horoscope - sagittarius ba.. hahaz.. n i'm alwaz afraid 2 get hurt.. and n as 4 wealth.. they sae i noe how 2 make money but not gd in saving.. yup.. tat's true.. i not stingy type of person.. i'll spend wat i hav 2 spend even when i finacially tight.. lolx.. 1st one mus improve.. so i'm savin money now.. kekez..
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask from u..
tis few daes been veri busi.. every dae is chiong-ing 4 my work.. my work is piling up.. n it jus gets taller n taller on my desk.. jus like fridae.. i got planning mtg at 8pm at bukit batok.. guess wat.. i onli managed 2 leave my work place at paya lebar at 7pm.. oh no.. luckily tat dae my admin manager cum sales personel goin hm early.. if not, i tink i 8pm oso dun need 2 go back.. haiz.. jus like yester.. i planned 2 work till 2pm n chiong 2 tbsc 4 e sd nationwide mtg de.. but office pple goin back early.. i left my work place ard 1.15plus ba.. oh no.. got lotsa work haven finish yet.. die lahz tis time round.. mondae sure got lotsa stuff 2 finish..
was pretti fun yester during e mtg actuall.. got lotsa sd seniors shared their testimony.. got mani cic n iic graduated oso.. got sum newly appointed ones oso.. was quite happi 4 them oso.. though i dun realli hav any institue.. but attending nrpsd de wif xueyun.. but xueyun has 2 leave early.. sobx.. luckily still lay leng ard.. was hopin 2 c him.. till e end of e mtg.. i tot it will b a disappointing dae 2 mi.. wanna sae gd bye 2 yvonne, caifeng n soo shan they all.. then when i turn round facing e exit door of e main hall.. i catch a glimpse of a person's back who realli look like him.. end up they sae take grp photos.. once again.. tat person disappear in front of mi.. after e photo taking, i left tbsc wif soo shan.. at e lobby area.. saw one of my close sista.. i dun realli feel e close-ness wif her anymore..
tat's wat how mi after she was attached.. tat's wat i hate 2 c oso.. i noe having a bf 2 mani gers is e most impt thingy in life.. but dun u need frenz n close frenz ard too?? last time.. when i was deeply in life in my sec sch life.. i oso tink e same way.. tink back.. i realli feel tat tat's a veri stupid way of thinking.. oops.. shld sae foolish.. i'm realli naive last time.. love is not everythingy.. jus like i once quote from sensei's guidance : " love is not 2 pple gazing at each other but 2 pple lookin ahead in e same direction ".. i can live out a bf's love.. but i noe there's lotsa frenz loving n caring 4 mi.. tat's enough le..
at e bus stop outside shell petrol kisok.. i saw him.. was quite happi actuall.. n my bus came.. i boarded e bus.. yet he didnt notice mi.. so sad.. n didnt hav e courage 2 call him oso.. was even more upset when i saw him not realli happi n feelin a bit down.. heartbroken.. but i'm praying 4 his absolute happiness everydae.. " You must be happy worz.. I'm praying earnestly for you.. "
thankie for waking mi up 2 my senses.. after seeing u yester.. i realised tat i should not be hopin 2 find my happiness so selflessly.. buy workin hard on others' happiness n let mine be found eventually.. jus like when we practice.. we mus practice 4 oneself n 4 others..
took a small test on chinese fortune thingy de.. n tat's how i'm being described..
[ Your life is represented by the garden full of rich soil with a devoted spirit, so you like to help people without asking for anything in return. You keep your word and you like kind and determined people. You look like an easy-going person but you are actually quite determined. It's hard to tell what's on your mind and you tend to keep a low profile.]
jus feel tat it's realli describe mi well.. i help pple n wont ask anythingy in return.. i do keep my words.. hahaz.. n as 4 relationship.. tat's wat they sae abt mi..
[ In your relationship, you are mutually loving and respectful of each other. Your love is full of romance and happiness. In romance, according to our analysis, you are easily attracted to someone you admire in your heart, but you often end up empty-handed because you are too shy to go after him. Generally speaking, men do not have deep first impression of you, so they need time to discover your inner beauty. You, however, tend to like a person at the first sight, but not after a period of time. Therefore, if you are still waiting for a good romance, try to show your inner beauty by doing more activities, establishing better habits, and socializing with more people. This way you can express your inner beauty naturally all the time, which makes your romance go more smoothly. In the journey of life, your romantic or marriage partner might be introduced by relatives and friends, or through matchmaking. You tend to be inexperienced in love, unable to express yourself, and do not know how to actively pursue someone without being too sticky or giving up easily. You have opportunities but are afraid to get hurt, so eventually it is not easy for you to have the spark of love. If you are still seeking your love partner don't rush because someone nearby likes you, so as long as you sincerely give a little hint, the happiness is right beside you.]
i'm tat kinda of timid person 2wards love.. n tat's true.. n i alwaz believe in 1st sight love a lot.. mayb bcos of my horoscope - sagittarius ba.. hahaz.. n i'm alwaz afraid 2 get hurt.. and n as 4 wealth.. they sae i noe how 2 make money but not gd in saving.. yup.. tat's true.. i not stingy type of person.. i'll spend wat i hav 2 spend even when i finacially tight.. lolx.. 1st one mus improve.. so i'm savin money now.. kekez..
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask from u..
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
勇敢的幸福
勇敢的幸福
yester.. was a bad dae 4 mi.. i was havin a bad flu n gastric pain.. yet i was forced 2 work till 8plus.. customer last min fax their sketch of e cutters they wanna order over.. so i was forced by my sales personel 2 stay back 2 draw.. then they oso sae wan straight fluting or spiral de.. end up.. from e customer's sketch, i feel is straight fluting de, so i draw straight de.. end up.. finished liao e sales personel sae is spiral fluting de.. i'm like so tired le lohz.. cant i b granted a break??
but hearin lotsa bad feed back abt mi from my senior.. pple tink tat i'm e one who stole 2 ricebowl of my senior, n make boss transfer him 2 another department.. i dunoe any inner news oso.. i'm innocent.. yet.. pple love 2 back stab n gossip behind my back.. it's okie.. i can endure all these.. but i jus wanna cry out when i ever tot of tat.. mani a times, it isnt my falut, but i'm alwaz e one who get all those stupid scoldings n 2 bear all e mistakes n responsiblity i dun hav 2..
mayb i'm young ba.. nian qing jiu shi ben qian.. pple envy.. no choice.. but i'm tired.. how i wish i can fulfill my dream of goin back 2 school.. i wanna fulfill my ambition.. i alwaz believe in tryin.. cos i noe if i try, there's a glimpse of chance of succeedin.. so i try.. try 2 make engineering design as my ambition.. i try 2 make tis my dream.. i need tat courage.. 2 b xin fu..
i alwaz tink u r e one i can turn 2.. is u who came in2 my mind when i almost burst out in2 tears yester while workin.. is u who makes mi hold back my tears.. 2 at least struggle on wif a glimpse of courage tat i hav.. but whenever i feel like calling u or sms-ing u.. my hands trembled wif fear.. i'm jus afraid of rejection from u.. i noe.. wo xin zi du ming tat i'll nv b e one who comes across ur mind be it when u r upset or filled wif joy.. i noe.. u dun hav 2 explain.. but.. i jus cant stop tinking of u.. i jus cant tellin myself not 2 love u or care 4 u.. u're e one who pick mi up when i fall badly.. u're e one who opens e door 2 happiness 4 mi.. if not of u, i'll nv b able e door of happiness is open 4 u.. plz brin mi along.. plz wait 4 mi at e finishing line.. dun worry.. though i'm far behind.. i'll catch up wif u................................
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask from u..
yester.. was a bad dae 4 mi.. i was havin a bad flu n gastric pain.. yet i was forced 2 work till 8plus.. customer last min fax their sketch of e cutters they wanna order over.. so i was forced by my sales personel 2 stay back 2 draw.. then they oso sae wan straight fluting or spiral de.. end up.. from e customer's sketch, i feel is straight fluting de, so i draw straight de.. end up.. finished liao e sales personel sae is spiral fluting de.. i'm like so tired le lohz.. cant i b granted a break??
but hearin lotsa bad feed back abt mi from my senior.. pple tink tat i'm e one who stole 2 ricebowl of my senior, n make boss transfer him 2 another department.. i dunoe any inner news oso.. i'm innocent.. yet.. pple love 2 back stab n gossip behind my back.. it's okie.. i can endure all these.. but i jus wanna cry out when i ever tot of tat.. mani a times, it isnt my falut, but i'm alwaz e one who get all those stupid scoldings n 2 bear all e mistakes n responsiblity i dun hav 2..
mayb i'm young ba.. nian qing jiu shi ben qian.. pple envy.. no choice.. but i'm tired.. how i wish i can fulfill my dream of goin back 2 school.. i wanna fulfill my ambition.. i alwaz believe in tryin.. cos i noe if i try, there's a glimpse of chance of succeedin.. so i try.. try 2 make engineering design as my ambition.. i try 2 make tis my dream.. i need tat courage.. 2 b xin fu..
i alwaz tink u r e one i can turn 2.. is u who came in2 my mind when i almost burst out in2 tears yester while workin.. is u who makes mi hold back my tears.. 2 at least struggle on wif a glimpse of courage tat i hav.. but whenever i feel like calling u or sms-ing u.. my hands trembled wif fear.. i'm jus afraid of rejection from u.. i noe.. wo xin zi du ming tat i'll nv b e one who comes across ur mind be it when u r upset or filled wif joy.. i noe.. u dun hav 2 explain.. but.. i jus cant stop tinking of u.. i jus cant tellin myself not 2 love u or care 4 u.. u're e one who pick mi up when i fall badly.. u're e one who opens e door 2 happiness 4 mi.. if not of u, i'll nv b able e door of happiness is open 4 u.. plz brin mi along.. plz wait 4 mi at e finishing line.. dun worry.. though i'm far behind.. i'll catch up wif u................................
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask from u..
Monday, August 07, 2006
[[ my heart is bleeding - guess i NEVER be e one in ur heart]]
[[ my heart is bleeding - guess i NEVER be e one in ur heart]]
My heart bleeds when i tot of u.. mom sae sumthingy 2 mi tat dae.. she sae " bei ai shi xin fu de".. but i simply dun agree.. if e person who loves u deeply yet u dun hav any special feeling 2wards tis person, then u will b equally nan shou.. n i alwaz faced in such a situation.. e person who loves mi wang wang is not e person i love.. e person whom i love deeply simply dun ever bother 2 look at mi.. ai shi bu shi hen tong ku nen??
i start 2 feel tat pple ard mi arent appreciating my efforts.. i done so much.. yet.. i tink they dun feel grateful but presurrized ba.. pin wen.. guess u r realli my lucky star, my best listener.. he is my soka ex school mate.. he is as old as mi.. so lucky of mi though we arent from e same class, we'll able 2 meet one another after we graduated 13yrs from soka kinder.. bcos of his words, he realli makes mi feel tat i'm a person pple can give great respect 2..but cannot alwaz ba zhan u later she complain.. kekez..
realli veri stressful tis few weeks, my slp everydae gets lesser n lesser.. n i'm alwaz woken up by nightmares.. sumtimes.. i'm jus terrified.. n my religion stuff.. in aug.. i actuall did my 1st byakuren duty on a super impt event.. n tat's e ltg.. n i'm in charge 2 help out in e award presentation.. while i was holdin on 2 e cetificate 4 GD Ong give out.. he smiles at mi.. heart simple melted.. seems like how tough n busi tat dae can b.. everthingy is enlightened.. n one of e in charge, melvin.. mani gakkai pple shld noe him ba.. he's e chorographer 4 yr 2001 youth ndp.. actuall got tok 2 him b4 last time.. but guess he cannot rmb..he oso thankie mi 4 my efforts.. sobx.. almost gan dong till drop teard..
jus bein appointed as a district leader on e 4th of aug.. busi preparing my ssa family dae discussion meetin as well as workin on hard 4 e yr end concert..guess i realli tat chiong type.. every week end is gakkai activities.. on sat.. usuall after work will atend meetin in e afternoon then hop 2 another place 4 another meetin.. jus like last sundae.. after work, i went 2 e plannin 2 at sk.. n hop 2 clementi 4 homevisit.. then sundae oso.. usually i'll attend mornin gongyo session at e kaikan then go 4 another meetin in e afternoon n another in e nitez.. so sorrie xianyun tat i'm pretti busi tis period tat i hav no time 2 shop wif u.. sorrie!!
my work.. is givin mi probz..i jus dunoe how 2 de-stress now.. n those gossipers in my company makes mi feel tat i'm workin meaninglessly.. how i wish dun need 2 work but onli strive 4 kosen rufu.. n i'm tinkin of goin back 2 studies.. jus like all my frenz.. realli envy them studyin in poly 2 accomplish their ambition.. but i'm afraid tis will actuall increase e burden of my finanical needs at hm.. i dun mind suffering jus 2 let my younger bro complete his education n gets in a gd uni..
of cos.. xueyun.. u oso done a great part encouragin mi.. u 2 will alwaz be one listening 2 my grumble, sharin my sorrows n happiness.. if not 4 u 2.. i'll hav given up durin tis period le.. realli thankie a lot.. down wif a bad flu n hav been continously havin gastric pain 4 e past few days.. mayb i jus too stress up.. but i realli accomplish sumthingy gd yester.. i managed 2 invite 2 of my new frenz 4 e public lecture yester.. guess they realli hav a deeper faith in out religion.. great yeah!!! hor hor hor.. at least tat's sumthingy gd i can share wif now..
as 4 him.. haiz..wat u promise.. u nv do.. i'm realli disappointed when i saw sumthingy on other pple's blog.. i noe.. i'm nv important 2 u.. ya rite.. u r jus a fren.. a pu tong peng you.. wat rights do i hav 2 ba zhan u?? wat rights do i hav 2 obstruct u attaining eternal happiness?? hav been listening veri deeply in S.H.E. "bu zhou ni de peng you".. tat's how i feel.. can i not b ur fren?? can i?? i nv love envyin pple bein so loving n happi.. i nv love tis kinda of feelin.. when will it b my turn?? i do hav lotsa frenz.. i hav been workin hard 4 pple ard mi 2 b happi n 2 attain eternal happiness.. gohonzon.. will mine be comin??
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask 4 from u..
My heart bleeds when i tot of u.. mom sae sumthingy 2 mi tat dae.. she sae " bei ai shi xin fu de".. but i simply dun agree.. if e person who loves u deeply yet u dun hav any special feeling 2wards tis person, then u will b equally nan shou.. n i alwaz faced in such a situation.. e person who loves mi wang wang is not e person i love.. e person whom i love deeply simply dun ever bother 2 look at mi.. ai shi bu shi hen tong ku nen??
i start 2 feel tat pple ard mi arent appreciating my efforts.. i done so much.. yet.. i tink they dun feel grateful but presurrized ba.. pin wen.. guess u r realli my lucky star, my best listener.. he is my soka ex school mate.. he is as old as mi.. so lucky of mi though we arent from e same class, we'll able 2 meet one another after we graduated 13yrs from soka kinder.. bcos of his words, he realli makes mi feel tat i'm a person pple can give great respect 2..but cannot alwaz ba zhan u later she complain.. kekez..
realli veri stressful tis few weeks, my slp everydae gets lesser n lesser.. n i'm alwaz woken up by nightmares.. sumtimes.. i'm jus terrified.. n my religion stuff.. in aug.. i actuall did my 1st byakuren duty on a super impt event.. n tat's e ltg.. n i'm in charge 2 help out in e award presentation.. while i was holdin on 2 e cetificate 4 GD Ong give out.. he smiles at mi.. heart simple melted.. seems like how tough n busi tat dae can b.. everthingy is enlightened.. n one of e in charge, melvin.. mani gakkai pple shld noe him ba.. he's e chorographer 4 yr 2001 youth ndp.. actuall got tok 2 him b4 last time.. but guess he cannot rmb..he oso thankie mi 4 my efforts.. sobx.. almost gan dong till drop teard..
jus bein appointed as a district leader on e 4th of aug.. busi preparing my ssa family dae discussion meetin as well as workin on hard 4 e yr end concert..guess i realli tat chiong type.. every week end is gakkai activities.. on sat.. usuall after work will atend meetin in e afternoon then hop 2 another place 4 another meetin.. jus like last sundae.. after work, i went 2 e plannin 2 at sk.. n hop 2 clementi 4 homevisit.. then sundae oso.. usually i'll attend mornin gongyo session at e kaikan then go 4 another meetin in e afternoon n another in e nitez.. so sorrie xianyun tat i'm pretti busi tis period tat i hav no time 2 shop wif u.. sorrie!!
my work.. is givin mi probz..i jus dunoe how 2 de-stress now.. n those gossipers in my company makes mi feel tat i'm workin meaninglessly.. how i wish dun need 2 work but onli strive 4 kosen rufu.. n i'm tinkin of goin back 2 studies.. jus like all my frenz.. realli envy them studyin in poly 2 accomplish their ambition.. but i'm afraid tis will actuall increase e burden of my finanical needs at hm.. i dun mind suffering jus 2 let my younger bro complete his education n gets in a gd uni..
of cos.. xueyun.. u oso done a great part encouragin mi.. u 2 will alwaz be one listening 2 my grumble, sharin my sorrows n happiness.. if not 4 u 2.. i'll hav given up durin tis period le.. realli thankie a lot.. down wif a bad flu n hav been continously havin gastric pain 4 e past few days.. mayb i jus too stress up.. but i realli accomplish sumthingy gd yester.. i managed 2 invite 2 of my new frenz 4 e public lecture yester.. guess they realli hav a deeper faith in out religion.. great yeah!!! hor hor hor.. at least tat's sumthingy gd i can share wif now..
as 4 him.. haiz..wat u promise.. u nv do.. i'm realli disappointed when i saw sumthingy on other pple's blog.. i noe.. i'm nv important 2 u.. ya rite.. u r jus a fren.. a pu tong peng you.. wat rights do i hav 2 ba zhan u?? wat rights do i hav 2 obstruct u attaining eternal happiness?? hav been listening veri deeply in S.H.E. "bu zhou ni de peng you".. tat's how i feel.. can i not b ur fren?? can i?? i nv love envyin pple bein so loving n happi.. i nv love tis kinda of feelin.. when will it b my turn?? i do hav lotsa frenz.. i hav been workin hard 4 pple ard mi 2 b happi n 2 attain eternal happiness.. gohonzon.. will mine be comin??
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask 4 from u..
Saturday, July 29, 2006
[ a dae of excitement n misery ]
[ a dae of excitement n misery ]
yester.. i took leave 2 rest n 4 a veri impt reason.. n tat's 2 attend e nrpsd graduation at e botanic garden.. it's been super long since i last step foot in2 botanic garden.. now.. e botanic garden veri nice.. after all e renovation.. 2 seniors graduating yester.. they r sharon n elaine.. pretti happi durin e events yester.. but.. as wat xueyun sae.. i mus b veri upset he's not there.. anw.. no worries.. i nv give myself hope tat he's gonna b there actuall lahz.. i noe though he veri active in gakkai activities, he hardly attend sd stuffs.. summore yester is e ndp preview.. so is expected he wun b there lahz.. quite fun yester.. n we were given 5 questions 2 reflect yester..
yester.. i took leave 2 rest n 4 a veri impt reason.. n tat's 2 attend e nrpsd graduation at e botanic garden.. it's been super long since i last step foot in2 botanic garden.. now.. e botanic garden veri nice.. after all e renovation.. 2 seniors graduating yester.. they r sharon n elaine.. pretti happi durin e events yester.. but.. as wat xueyun sae.. i mus b veri upset he's not there.. anw.. no worries.. i nv give myself hope tat he's gonna b there actuall lahz.. i noe though he veri active in gakkai activities, he hardly attend sd stuffs.. summore yester is e ndp preview.. so is expected he wun b there lahz.. quite fun yester.. n we were given 5 questions 2 reflect yester..
=> 7mths has passes, wat's ur greatest achievement?
=> wat's e greatest regrets u hav?
=> wat's ur happiest moments ?
=>wat's ur saddest moments?
=> n e last question, wat's ur goals 2wards e end of yr 2006?
i wrote quite a lot but didnt manage 2 finish all e questions actuall.. tis yr has been a veri challengin yr wif lotsa suprises.. in jan.. i took up basic german language course as i will b goin 2 germany 4 training..n tis started e dispute n unhappiness of my manager 2wards mi.. he kept findin faults wif mi when i didnt even do anythingy wrong..2 him, wat i do is wrong, onli he's rite.. bull-shit!! n struggled thru e 2 n a half mths time 2 cope wif my work n my part time studies.. startin work everydae 2 mi is like goin back 2 hell.. n tat veri moment, i was selected 2 b in e byakuren renaissance course.. in my heart, i noe i gonna face lotsa sansho shima.. anna left my district tis yr oso.. leavin mi wif no ywd district leader 2 take care mi..
then in may.. i moved hse.. moved back 2 our own flat in yishun.. n tis started e dispute of mi n my paternal relatives.. includin my blood-related uncles n aunts, as well as my grandparents.. after one week stayin in yishun, one fine fridae afternoon, boss talked 2 mi wif e presence of my director.. he asked mi if i wan 2 transfer 2 e design department n b a designer.. without even givin a second tot, i agreed.. oh no.. hahaz.. but.. in my new workin environment, everythingy seems 2 b veri gd.. but.. in e hidden part.. is another hell.. mani pple dun recognise my capability.. cos i'm young n e youngest in e whole company.. n they feel tat i'm given favourism from my boss cos he's my dad's best fren.. my dad is oso one of e manager in e company n boss trusted him e most.. but tat's not true.. pple jus love comparin mi wif my dad.. haiz.. so.. sumtimes.. it isnt too gd workin in e same company wif ur own parents or relatives..
workin under my director.. he's quite nice.. but i nv seems 2 learn lotsa thingy from him.. cos in my company, there's a trend.. seniors r afraid tat their status will b replaced.. so cumin 2 teachin juniors.. they teach half then keep half 4 themselves so as 2 protect their ricebowl.. wat e hell rite?? pple wif capability n qualities dun hav 2 worry their ricebowl.. dong jia bu da, da xi jia lohz.. wat 2 worry.. haiz.. i oso faced sum dispute in my district.. n it realli makes mi learn lotsa experiences.. i'll b appointed as district leader tis cumin fri.. those pple who r fang bian should alwaz try 2 give in 2 those not veri fang bian de.. rite?? isnt tat b e way 2 work well wif no politics??
now.. i'm became one of e main commitee in e yr-end-skalumni-concert.. my job is a co-ordinator.. but there seems 2 b no unity in e grp mbers..without unity, there wont b strength and joy.. n sumtimes pple jus dun tink b4 2 sae.. sorrie 2 sae tat.. but we mus b realistic when we works.. n musnt b selfish.. quite disappointed when i heard my frenz sayin tat we should not give in 2 guys so much when i tried 2 persuade them 2 accomodate wif one of e grp mate.. when cumin 2 kosen-rufu spirit, it's no matter of gender.. we shld accomodate wif those who r not so fang bian de.. practicin nichiren daishonin's buddhism as his disciple, we shld noe how 2 practice not onli 4 oneself but 4 others.. if u're so selfish in ur tinkin, then all i can sae tat ur ichinen is wrong n u're on e wrong track of ur life.. i jus hopin tat everyone can work n bearing in mind e spirit of "many in body, one in mind".... tink is gonna b a great challenge 2 fight 4 e unity of all our commitee mbers.. *upset*
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask 4 from u..
Sunday, July 23, 2006
[ gua mu xiang kan.......... ]
gua mu xiang kan....
it's been a super long time since i last blogged ba.. actuall i jus too lazy n too busi ba.. in july.. all a sudden.. i jus got involved in mani mani stuff.. n july was a pretti busi month actuall.. cos.. we celebrate our 55th ywd formation dae.. n so it's e ywd.. yeah~
guess i'll b gettin more busi in august as well ba.. sorrie xianyun.. i noe i neglected ur feelings.. i'm jus tired.. i dun even hav time 4 myself.. sobx(T.T).. jus attended my BTC on e 16th.. was pretti gd.. quite interestin actuall.. n got 2 noe a few gers from byakuren as well.. i hav been in e byakuren 4 more than half yrs time le.. yet.. i dun realli mani pple there.. except e same few old frenz.. but my relation wif e byakuren chief quite gd.. kekez.. tat's suprising yeah??
as a co-ordinator in my soka kinder yr end concert, i was realised tat i got mani thingys 2 do.. haiz.. jus feel super stressed lohz.. haiz.. n.. i'll b appointed as my district's leader in my district in august.. but.. i'll hav alread been involved in e plannin.. 2dae was my discussion meetin.. i performed quite well actuall.. hahaz.. sound i'm like praisin myself.. but was given too little time 2 prepare.. jus had our plannin on mondae.. n had my homevisit on wed.. n went 2 e lders' study meetin on thurs.. n attend my dad's han's discussion meetin.. so realli no time..
actuall wanna slp a bit longer 2dae b4 attendin my discussion meetin at 2pm de.. end up.. was awaken by didi's noise n xueyun's sms.. n rush down 2 tsc 2 c e golden lion's training.. wanna invite them 2 perform durin our alumni yr end concert..
oh no.. i'm sick.. havin bad flu.. n tml.. goin back 2 work again... haiz.. sianz.. i jus wanna go back 2 sch.. n pursue my interest.. haiz.. e dream seems so far..
it's been a super long time since i last blogged ba.. actuall i jus too lazy n too busi ba.. in july.. all a sudden.. i jus got involved in mani mani stuff.. n july was a pretti busi month actuall.. cos.. we celebrate our 55th ywd formation dae.. n so it's e ywd.. yeah~
guess i'll b gettin more busi in august as well ba.. sorrie xianyun.. i noe i neglected ur feelings.. i'm jus tired.. i dun even hav time 4 myself.. sobx(T.T).. jus attended my BTC on e 16th.. was pretti gd.. quite interestin actuall.. n got 2 noe a few gers from byakuren as well.. i hav been in e byakuren 4 more than half yrs time le.. yet.. i dun realli mani pple there.. except e same few old frenz.. but my relation wif e byakuren chief quite gd.. kekez.. tat's suprising yeah??
as a co-ordinator in my soka kinder yr end concert, i was realised tat i got mani thingys 2 do.. haiz.. jus feel super stressed lohz.. haiz.. n.. i'll b appointed as my district's leader in my district in august.. but.. i'll hav alread been involved in e plannin.. 2dae was my discussion meetin.. i performed quite well actuall.. hahaz.. sound i'm like praisin myself.. but was given too little time 2 prepare.. jus had our plannin on mondae.. n had my homevisit on wed.. n went 2 e lders' study meetin on thurs.. n attend my dad's han's discussion meetin.. so realli no time..
actuall wanna slp a bit longer 2dae b4 attendin my discussion meetin at 2pm de.. end up.. was awaken by didi's noise n xueyun's sms.. n rush down 2 tsc 2 c e golden lion's training.. wanna invite them 2 perform durin our alumni yr end concert..
oh no.. i'm sick.. havin bad flu.. n tml.. goin back 2 work again... haiz.. sianz.. i jus wanna go back 2 sch.. n pursue my interest.. haiz.. e dream seems so far..
Saturday, July 08, 2006
[ another dae of hope..... ]
[ another dae of hope..... ]
jus like all other daes.. 2dae is a fresh new dae.. n another dae of hope.. been veri busi spendin every single weekend havin soka activities.. last sat.. jus hav a meet up wif my soka kinder chinese teacher who is alread e vice-pricinple of e sch.. she's e teacher-in-charge 4 our yr end alumni concert.. wif her alone, she cant do much.. so she jus great helper like mi.. lolx.. kiddin.. great ex-students as helpers lahz.. e main commitee members r xueyun,mi,may,pinwen n elvin.. 2 more nv cum.. they r stella n penny.. xueyun is e veri head person.. she's e program director 4 tis event.. as 4 mi.. big task as well.. co-ordinator.. haiz.. lotsa thingy 2 do.. n then rush down 2 hq 2 meet benn.. 2 get sum stuff from him.. lolx.. seems so long i last c him le.. haiz.. last sun.. went down 4 e milkrun event.. representin soka there 4 a dance event.. realli hav a great time though e weather is pretti warm.. n i'm havin flu..
tis week has almost cum 2 an end.. 2dae seems 2 b my onli free dae.. yet.. i didnt cum hm early 2 slp.. i went shop shop wif yun at orchard.. thouhgh there's quite a lot of work 2 do.. i still left early.. oops.. feel bad.. dunoe if my director will b angry not.. hack care lahz.. weekend cum.. i mus rest.. haiz.. tired.. my legs r aching from cramps.. had our lunch at sakura cuisine.. ate a claypot tom yam guitao,oats prawns n hotplate beancurd.. oh no.. tat's a pretti big share of lunch.. luckily i didnt take breakfast.. haiz.. i hav made up my mind le.. i wanna jian fei.. cos i realised i dun look as cute as i was when i'm young.. hahaz.. let's take a look at my baby fotos..
jus like all other daes.. 2dae is a fresh new dae.. n another dae of hope.. been veri busi spendin every single weekend havin soka activities.. last sat.. jus hav a meet up wif my soka kinder chinese teacher who is alread e vice-pricinple of e sch.. she's e teacher-in-charge 4 our yr end alumni concert.. wif her alone, she cant do much.. so she jus great helper like mi.. lolx.. kiddin.. great ex-students as helpers lahz.. e main commitee members r xueyun,mi,may,pinwen n elvin.. 2 more nv cum.. they r stella n penny.. xueyun is e veri head person.. she's e program director 4 tis event.. as 4 mi.. big task as well.. co-ordinator.. haiz.. lotsa thingy 2 do.. n then rush down 2 hq 2 meet benn.. 2 get sum stuff from him.. lolx.. seems so long i last c him le.. haiz.. last sun.. went down 4 e milkrun event.. representin soka there 4 a dance event.. realli hav a great time though e weather is pretti warm.. n i'm havin flu..
tis week has almost cum 2 an end.. 2dae seems 2 b my onli free dae.. yet.. i didnt cum hm early 2 slp.. i went shop shop wif yun at orchard.. thouhgh there's quite a lot of work 2 do.. i still left early.. oops.. feel bad.. dunoe if my director will b angry not.. hack care lahz.. weekend cum.. i mus rest.. haiz.. tired.. my legs r aching from cramps.. had our lunch at sakura cuisine.. ate a claypot tom yam guitao,oats prawns n hotplate beancurd.. oh no.. tat's a pretti big share of lunch.. luckily i didnt take breakfast.. haiz.. i hav made up my mind le.. i wanna jian fei.. cos i realised i dun look as cute as i was when i'm young.. hahaz.. let's take a look at my baby fotos..
e 1st pic was mi when i was a yr old.. n e 2nd pic is when i'm 3 yrs old..cute rite?? lolx.. now.. i dun find myself cute anymore.. i jus change a lot.. guess e onli way 2 look prettier,healthy n cutier is 2 slim down ba.. hahaz.. my resolution.. 2 slim down.. yes.. tis time i'm serious.. got 2 noe quite a no. of new frenz thru e milkrun event.. realli happi 2 noe all of them.. n i'm transferring from asd 2 nrpsd le.. cos now.. i got frenz at nrpsd.. i'm not alone.. actuall i'm workin le.. but i jus dunoe y.. my name was in asd list.. now.. i dun realli hav frenz in asd.. so i decided 2 transfer 2 nrpsd so at least i can still attend sd meetings regularly wif xueyun..
went 2 pei xianyun take her contact lens 2dae.. n got a 5days acuvue define free lens from uncle alan.. it's sample 4 us 2 test lahz.. hahaz.. it's transparent de.. guess i'll hav a hard time wearing it.. still prefer coloured lens.. a bit tired.. stomach having cramp.. tml havin mbers kenshu at jurong kaikan.. almost went 2 e wrong place.. cos i tot is senja kaikan.. lolx.. luckily steph sms mi.. goin 2 attend btc next cumin sun.. n will b appointed as leaders in aug.. it's a veri special yr tis yr.. cos we r celebratin e 55th ywd n ymd formation dae tis yr.. keez.. n i'm markin on a new journey.. jus i wun b alone..
my district leader left my district in jan tis yr.. she nv even notify mi.. i'm her mber n veri close fren.. i'm jus so upset n angry over tat.. bcos of tat.. as a person who gone thru tat.. i tell myself: i'm not gonna abandon my mbers no matter wat happened.. i grow up mature wif my mbers 2gether.. i'll bring them wif mi n not neglect them.. it's veri painful lostin a pillar of support.. i wun let history repeat.. work been goin quite okie 4 mi.. jus sumtimes, i'm can b quite careless at work... not bcos i'm not xi xin enough.. it's jus over careful tat i'll make small n veri careless mistake.. but those stupid mistakes made mite lead mi 2 bearin a veri big responsiblity.. guess i shld chant harder 2 make sure my work goes smoothly n get my increment tis yr end.. haiz.. i jus wanna go back 2 sch n study like all my other frenz..
my ambition is 2 b a teacher.. i love kids.. truely love kids.. so i wanna start off wif teachin kinder n nursey kids.. then 2 pri n sec... i love doin volunteer works.. i dunoe i realli love helpin pple.. until when i was in sec 3, i'm hav 2 serve at e special sch.. when i'm takin care of e special kids.. i noe n realised i love volunteer works.. when i was in sec4, i took a quiz 2 find jobs tat suits my character.. jobs like nurse, social work, teacher n mani volunteer works n government jobs came out.. even teachers in sch sae i look like a social worker.. none of them seems 2 believe i'm in engineering line now.. 2 mani of e teachers.. i'm a decent n obedient ger wif kind heart i believe?? hahaz.. so when after teachin mi n my bro.. they dun believe we r blood related.. cos we jus possess diff character.. kekez.. my didi veri noti.. mani of e teachers dun believe he's my blood related bro.. kekez.. funny rite??
so i hope.. 1 dae.. i can pursue my studies.. n get a job of my interest.. n.. i oso hope 2 go 2 soka university in japan 2 study.. but guess tis dream seems veri far from mi.. n i noe it's gettin further away from mi ba.. a sense of hope is all i need..
P.S. A little of LOVE n COURAGE is all i ask 4 from u..
Saturday, July 01, 2006
[ havin a tough time ]
[ havin a tough time.... ]
been havin a tough time few weeks.. been so involved in soka activities every week end tat i hav realli hav no spare time 4 myself n my best bud ah yun.. so sorrie abt tat.. seems 2 neglected u.. will be havin my appointment tis month as district leader le.. guess i gonna b more busi.. as 4 him.. my heart seems 2 fly there alread.. now.. mayb i'm jus tired..i'm alwaz so restless at work.. even my boss oso noticed liao... die.. mus do sum reflection liao le.. i jus wanna shop badly but i jus dun hav time 2 do.. i wanna shop 4 my office clothes oso.. haiz..
gonna c u 2dae.. though had realli got beta btw e 2 of us.. but i jus dunoe wat 2 tok 2 u abt when i c u face 2 face.. guess i'll b tongue twist?? definitely will ba.. thankie 4 bein so sweet 2 mi.. n thankie 4 bein more concern abt mi.. it will realli motivate mi 2 move on.. though mani a times u arent wif mi.. but i noe u will give mi moral support jus like i will rite?? r we realli possible.. xue yun sae we will wif e help of gohonzon rite?? i'll chant double hard 4 u... n thankie xue yun 4 comfortin mi.. u r realli sum1 i can share my gakkai n personal stuff wif.. heez..
hmmm.. gonna start work soon le.. jus hope tat everythingy will go smoothly.. n pray tat e dance performance at zouk will b a great success.. cheers~
been havin a tough time few weeks.. been so involved in soka activities every week end tat i hav realli hav no spare time 4 myself n my best bud ah yun.. so sorrie abt tat.. seems 2 neglected u.. will be havin my appointment tis month as district leader le.. guess i gonna b more busi.. as 4 him.. my heart seems 2 fly there alread.. now.. mayb i'm jus tired..i'm alwaz so restless at work.. even my boss oso noticed liao... die.. mus do sum reflection liao le.. i jus wanna shop badly but i jus dun hav time 2 do.. i wanna shop 4 my office clothes oso.. haiz..
gonna c u 2dae.. though had realli got beta btw e 2 of us.. but i jus dunoe wat 2 tok 2 u abt when i c u face 2 face.. guess i'll b tongue twist?? definitely will ba.. thankie 4 bein so sweet 2 mi.. n thankie 4 bein more concern abt mi.. it will realli motivate mi 2 move on.. though mani a times u arent wif mi.. but i noe u will give mi moral support jus like i will rite?? r we realli possible.. xue yun sae we will wif e help of gohonzon rite?? i'll chant double hard 4 u... n thankie xue yun 4 comfortin mi.. u r realli sum1 i can share my gakkai n personal stuff wif.. heez..
hmmm.. gonna start work soon le.. jus hope tat everythingy will go smoothly.. n pray tat e dance performance at zouk will b a great success.. cheers~
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