why it turns out like this?
*guess i jus been thru so mani thru out tis mth.. those "illnesses" tat r botherin mi.. they r yet 2 b known.. i jus wanna wk harder 2 support myself.. my medical fees.. my mom currently nt wkin ar.. is diff 4 e family.. yet dad.. jus got e " lost of words" feelin when i mention dad.. was asked out by yun.. at 1st i didnt noe wat's goin on..was told or shld sae booked by her onli.. until tat dae itself..which is todae..i knew tat we r goin 4 bowlin n steamboat.. i told him abt it.. he sound disappointed 2 mi.. i realli wk too hard tat i got no time 4 him..
was quite a miserable dae early mornin.. was feelin nt realli happi over wk yester.. guess i feel beta after i met them.. was late 4 bowlin.. cos onli manage 2 clear sum wk stuff onli at 3pm.. guess my nco warriors 03/04 will simply understand mi well.. lolx (>.<).. i didnt bowl actuall.. guess my abdominal pain r realli givin mi headache.. so i choose nt 2 make it worse.. though i realli feel lyk bowlin [ i dun realli noe how 2 ].. jus feel tat i'm filled wif all those big n small probz tat i hav yet 2 solve.. i noe by draggin it will make thingys worse.. but i'm realli exhausted.. he jus dun understand mi at all.. i hav changed.. so do u.. if u realli lurve mi.. plz.. accept e mi nw.. steamboat.. was realli upset when yun ask mi wat had gone wrong btw us.. mths again..we actuall faced e same thingys alread.. we had lost of words when we cum smsin or tokin on fone.. i knew sum how sumthingy will happened btw us..
guess 2005 was a bad yr 4 mi.. haiz.. we walked towards marina south.. instead of takin 400 bus.. thru out.. we had been discussin wat had happened btw mi n him.. at tat point of time.. i held on 2 my tears.. i noe sumthing bad is cumin my way.. haiz.. go there.. eat zheng fa steamboat.. actuall okie lahz.. jus tat i realli nt in e mood 2 eat ar.. but still force myself 2 b strong in front of my frenz..eat n eat.. they ate prawns oso.. live ones summore.. can c them jumpin.. haiz.. i'm stupid.. go ask him whether he still lurve mi nt.. in e end.. he finall voice out le.. all a sudden.. my tears jus flow out.. i tink i mus hav scare all of them.. mayb we r fated 2 end tis way ba.. wat 2 do.. haiz.. we broke up le.. you yuan neng zai xiang yu.. almost 11 mths le.. 3 more daes onli.. chang tong bu ru duan tong.. end le oso gd.. he sound so calm 2 mi.. isnt he sad lyk mi do?? i cried n cried non-stop.. till nw i still cryin.. anw.. u r in my heart 4ever..
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Sunday, May 15, 2005
* i wan e peace i longed 4 nw *
[ i wan e peace i longed 4 nw ]
* i jus need peace.. tat's all.. i dun wan anythingy else.. jus feel dae after dae of misery.. haiz.. i oso dunoe y.. mayb i'm jus worried.. guess as wat wei dong sae.. dun worry too much.. dun mouth sae nt worry but heart worries.. but is hard.. but was wat my uncle sae abt mi.. wo shi gan si dui.. i'm nt afraid 2 die.. but i'm afraid tat my families n frenz would suffer bcoz of mi ar.. if die wifout illnesses.. at least ur families n frenz didnt suffer wif u.. even if die, oso can die peaceful.. haiz.. mayb i shld do wat i wanna die b4 is too late.. hahaz.. i still can laugh.. dun worry.. i'm nt tat worried actuall..
lyk my studies.. pri 4 streamin i heng heng pass.. sec 2 streamin oso.. sec 4 o'level i tot i oso will heng heng get thru.. but i didnt.. when i was pri 4.. 4 almost 1 mth, i got difficulty walkin.. whenever i stands down, i will hav probz getting up.. tat time doc tot i got bone cancer.. but luckily i didnt.. in jan.. i got appendix op.. my appendix almost took away my life.. i oso heng heng go thru e hell gate n make a u-turn back.. tis 3rd time.. will it b jus lyk my o'level xams?? i believe i cant b so lucky all e time..
its been a wk plus le.. though i under control nw wif medication.. but i realli wanna noe wat realli happenes 2 mi.. bleedin in motion n urination.. tat serious frm wat i noe.. actuall i didnt wanna let my parents noe.. coz it happened on e 7th.. n on e 8th is mothers dae.. but e 2nd ae which is on e 8th, e situation got worse.. it started frm motion.. then urination oso hav.. haiz.. tat time i force myself 2 tell my mom.. she was so worried.. though she kept scoldin mi 4 nt takin care of my bodi.. i noe she is worried.. she jus scold mi 2 hide away all her fear.. u r my mom.. i'm ur daughter.. hu noes u beta then mi?? frm young, mom alwaz tell mi abt her probz.. therefore, it develops a telepathy btw e both of us.. mani a times, when i wanna eat sumthingy, i was hav 2 tink, mom would seems 2 noe wat i wan 4 my meals.. i'm sure 4 so mani times, it isnt coincidence rite??
keep takin antibiote.. pple sae take too much antibiode will drop hair de.. my hairs r droppin too.. haiz.. on e 31st may.. i'm goin 4 ultrasound scan 2 check on my kidneys at sgh.. is 1415hr.. e doc afraid got kidney stones or tuberculosis.. which is TB.. dun keep pesterin abt e report.. it needs time 2 b out.. n on e 8th of june.. i supposed 2 go 4 colonoscopy.. is a specalised examination tat allows e doc 2 look inside my large intestine usin a tube wif a video cam..e colonoscopy can b quite dangerous.. if doc nv do properly.. mite even tear my intestine wall.. summore.. on e 7th.. i support 2 eat fish ball noodles or fish porriage onli.. on e 8th itself.. i'm supposed 2 wakey at 6am.. eat onli 2 slices of plain white breads n tea-o or kipo-o onli.. cannot drink milk..even milo oso cannot.. frm 7am to 9am.. i suppose 2 fill 2 litres of plain water n pour e oral colonic lavage powder given by e doc.. then drop finished within e 2hrs.. after which will start 2 go toilet.. mus clear all e motion.. otherwise scope will onli c motion.. lolx.. e appointment is 1445hr on 8th june.. got sedation.. make mi slp.. otherwise sure pain lyk hell..
after which.. hav 2 wait 4 report cum out.. then will go back c Dr Lee.. e colorectal surgery specialist.. on e 14th june.. hav 2 c endocrinology specialist.. haiz.. so mani specialist thingy n tat.. realli b sick in n out of hospital.. luckily dun need hospitalised yet.. otherwise even worse.. mom will b even more busi.. didi still seein his hand at nuh.. n mi at sgh.. haiz.. jus hope n c ba.. gtg le.. need 2 eat medi again.. n is slpin time !!!!!!!!!! ~
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# Everythingy that happenes to us has a meaning.
Even if you're sad and filled with pain and feel
like you can't go on, as long as you keep going
and pressing forward bravely, living your life
without being defeated, you will come to see the
meaning of that suffering and pain.
This is the power of FAITH.
It is also the essence of life.
The word KARMA is Sanskrit for ACTION.
All of our actions - what we think, what we say,
and wat we actually do - are engraved in our life.
When our actions are good, we will receive positive
effects that will make us happy. When our actions
are bad, we will receive negative effects that make
us unhappy.
It all eventually comes back to us. #
Daisaku Ikeda ( President of Soka Gakkai International SGI )
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* i jus need peace.. tat's all.. i dun wan anythingy else.. jus feel dae after dae of misery.. haiz.. i oso dunoe y.. mayb i'm jus worried.. guess as wat wei dong sae.. dun worry too much.. dun mouth sae nt worry but heart worries.. but is hard.. but was wat my uncle sae abt mi.. wo shi gan si dui.. i'm nt afraid 2 die.. but i'm afraid tat my families n frenz would suffer bcoz of mi ar.. if die wifout illnesses.. at least ur families n frenz didnt suffer wif u.. even if die, oso can die peaceful.. haiz.. mayb i shld do wat i wanna die b4 is too late.. hahaz.. i still can laugh.. dun worry.. i'm nt tat worried actuall..
lyk my studies.. pri 4 streamin i heng heng pass.. sec 2 streamin oso.. sec 4 o'level i tot i oso will heng heng get thru.. but i didnt.. when i was pri 4.. 4 almost 1 mth, i got difficulty walkin.. whenever i stands down, i will hav probz getting up.. tat time doc tot i got bone cancer.. but luckily i didnt.. in jan.. i got appendix op.. my appendix almost took away my life.. i oso heng heng go thru e hell gate n make a u-turn back.. tis 3rd time.. will it b jus lyk my o'level xams?? i believe i cant b so lucky all e time..
its been a wk plus le.. though i under control nw wif medication.. but i realli wanna noe wat realli happenes 2 mi.. bleedin in motion n urination.. tat serious frm wat i noe.. actuall i didnt wanna let my parents noe.. coz it happened on e 7th.. n on e 8th is mothers dae.. but e 2nd ae which is on e 8th, e situation got worse.. it started frm motion.. then urination oso hav.. haiz.. tat time i force myself 2 tell my mom.. she was so worried.. though she kept scoldin mi 4 nt takin care of my bodi.. i noe she is worried.. she jus scold mi 2 hide away all her fear.. u r my mom.. i'm ur daughter.. hu noes u beta then mi?? frm young, mom alwaz tell mi abt her probz.. therefore, it develops a telepathy btw e both of us.. mani a times, when i wanna eat sumthingy, i was hav 2 tink, mom would seems 2 noe wat i wan 4 my meals.. i'm sure 4 so mani times, it isnt coincidence rite??
keep takin antibiote.. pple sae take too much antibiode will drop hair de.. my hairs r droppin too.. haiz.. on e 31st may.. i'm goin 4 ultrasound scan 2 check on my kidneys at sgh.. is 1415hr.. e doc afraid got kidney stones or tuberculosis.. which is TB.. dun keep pesterin abt e report.. it needs time 2 b out.. n on e 8th of june.. i supposed 2 go 4 colonoscopy.. is a specalised examination tat allows e doc 2 look inside my large intestine usin a tube wif a video cam..e colonoscopy can b quite dangerous.. if doc nv do properly.. mite even tear my intestine wall.. summore.. on e 7th.. i support 2 eat fish ball noodles or fish porriage onli.. on e 8th itself.. i'm supposed 2 wakey at 6am.. eat onli 2 slices of plain white breads n tea-o or kipo-o onli.. cannot drink milk..even milo oso cannot.. frm 7am to 9am.. i suppose 2 fill 2 litres of plain water n pour e oral colonic lavage powder given by e doc.. then drop finished within e 2hrs.. after which will start 2 go toilet.. mus clear all e motion.. otherwise scope will onli c motion.. lolx.. e appointment is 1445hr on 8th june.. got sedation.. make mi slp.. otherwise sure pain lyk hell..
after which.. hav 2 wait 4 report cum out.. then will go back c Dr Lee.. e colorectal surgery specialist.. on e 14th june.. hav 2 c endocrinology specialist.. haiz.. so mani specialist thingy n tat.. realli b sick in n out of hospital.. luckily dun need hospitalised yet.. otherwise even worse.. mom will b even more busi.. didi still seein his hand at nuh.. n mi at sgh.. haiz.. jus hope n c ba.. gtg le.. need 2 eat medi again.. n is slpin time !!!!!!!!!! ~
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# Everythingy that happenes to us has a meaning.
Even if you're sad and filled with pain and feel
like you can't go on, as long as you keep going
and pressing forward bravely, living your life
without being defeated, you will come to see the
meaning of that suffering and pain.
This is the power of FAITH.
It is also the essence of life.
The word KARMA is Sanskrit for ACTION.
All of our actions - what we think, what we say,
and wat we actually do - are engraved in our life.
When our actions are good, we will receive positive
effects that will make us happy. When our actions
are bad, we will receive negative effects that make
us unhappy.
It all eventually comes back to us. #
Daisaku Ikeda ( President of Soka Gakkai International SGI )
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Saturday, May 14, 2005
* feelin blank nw *
[ feelin blank nw ]
*i jus dunoe wat happened.. i'm down wif all these stupid thingy yet no bodi understands mi.. even my bf..he isnt by my side 2 comfort mi.. y?? haiz.. i jus dunoe oso lahz.. haiz.. he dun understands mi yet he blames mi 4 nt goin out wif him.. i'm sick.. i'm sick yet i hav 2 wk so hard 4 my medical fees.. mom nt wkin nw.. so i hav 2 pay my own fees.. u pple shld noe c specialist veri expensive de.. onli c one dae.. i spent almost 200 over le.. still goin 4 e colonoscopy which mite cause mi almost 400 bucks.. n e ultrasound scan.. is 55.. it isnt cheap over.. i still lookin 4 nitez classes or tuition 4 my o'level.. yet.. i dare nt go 4 enrolement.. i dunoe whether i'm able 2 take exam not.. n dunoe whether i can make it till e end..i'm mentally n physically weak 2 even tink..haiz.. my hand.. feelin numb.. shivers .. my bodi oso.. i feel giddy..
frenz.. i need ur courage.. give mi sum plz..
*i jus dunoe wat happened.. i'm down wif all these stupid thingy yet no bodi understands mi.. even my bf..he isnt by my side 2 comfort mi.. y?? haiz.. i jus dunoe oso lahz.. haiz.. he dun understands mi yet he blames mi 4 nt goin out wif him.. i'm sick.. i'm sick yet i hav 2 wk so hard 4 my medical fees.. mom nt wkin nw.. so i hav 2 pay my own fees.. u pple shld noe c specialist veri expensive de.. onli c one dae.. i spent almost 200 over le.. still goin 4 e colonoscopy which mite cause mi almost 400 bucks.. n e ultrasound scan.. is 55.. it isnt cheap over.. i still lookin 4 nitez classes or tuition 4 my o'level.. yet.. i dare nt go 4 enrolement.. i dunoe whether i'm able 2 take exam not.. n dunoe whether i can make it till e end..i'm mentally n physically weak 2 even tink..haiz.. my hand.. feelin numb.. shivers .. my bodi oso.. i feel giddy..
frenz.. i need ur courage.. give mi sum plz..
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# True happiness is not the absence of suffering:
You cannot have day after day of clear skies.
True happiness lies in building a self that stands
dignified and indomitable. Happiness doesn't
having a life free from all difficulties but that
whatever difficulties arise, without being shaken
in the least, you can summon up the unflinching
courage and conviction to fight and overcome them. #
Daisaku Ikeda ( President of Soka Gakkai International )
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Friday, May 13, 2005
* good bye my frenz !!!!! *
[ good bye my frenz !!!!! ]
*guess i'm gettin tired le.. in n out of hospital.. seein so mani specialists.. will i b so lucky as last time?? i almost die bcoz of my appendix.. it almost burst in my stomach.. is been almost a wk..y?? y lyk tat?? is it my karma?? is tat my fate tat i wun live till 21 yrs old?? realli startin 2 resign 2 my own fate.. e dae b4 went in2 A&E..yester seen urology specialist..n colorectal surgery specialist..was arranged 2 do a ultrasound scan on e 31st of may n colonoscopy on e 8th may.. after e report cums out..i'm goin back 2 e colorectal surgery specialist dr lee..on e 14th june, i'm seeing endocrinology specialist.. been takin blood tests.. realli scared by those needle-like thingy tat r pockin on2 my hands..tat scope i'm doin..still mus fast n do lotsa thingys..
nw i'm currently on medication..guess i realli gave mom a bad mothers' dae tis yr..haiz..y my motion n urination will hav blood..y?? i'm afraid tat's internal bleedin..haiz.. wat shld i do??
i prayed!!!!!!
*guess i'm gettin tired le.. in n out of hospital.. seein so mani specialists.. will i b so lucky as last time?? i almost die bcoz of my appendix.. it almost burst in my stomach.. is been almost a wk..y?? y lyk tat?? is it my karma?? is tat my fate tat i wun live till 21 yrs old?? realli startin 2 resign 2 my own fate.. e dae b4 went in2 A&E..yester seen urology specialist..n colorectal surgery specialist..was arranged 2 do a ultrasound scan on e 31st of may n colonoscopy on e 8th may.. after e report cums out..i'm goin back 2 e colorectal surgery specialist dr lee..on e 14th june, i'm seeing endocrinology specialist.. been takin blood tests.. realli scared by those needle-like thingy tat r pockin on2 my hands..tat scope i'm doin..still mus fast n do lotsa thingys..
nw i'm currently on medication..guess i realli gave mom a bad mothers' dae tis yr..haiz..y my motion n urination will hav blood..y?? i'm afraid tat's internal bleedin..haiz.. wat shld i do??
i prayed!!!!!!
Friday, February 11, 2005
* happi chinese new yr *
[ happi chinese new yr ]
*hmmm..new yr..is another festive season where families gather 2gether..as pernormal..chu yi..which is on e 09th..early mornin..oso nt early lahz..i wakey at ard 10++..lolx..then bath liao changed n went 2 my po po hse..my pateral grandparents stay above my flat onli..so went there 1st b4 my family n i set off 2 anywhere..then..eat mian xian..every yr oso mus eat de..pple eat mian xian wif chicken n hard boiled egg..but due 2 my operation..my granny make sum other soup wif pig stomach 4 mi..lolx..although cannot even eat it wif chilli..i still feel satified tat i can eat mian xian..
then at ard 1++..went 2 uncle roger's hse..at sembawang..we took a taxi there..mi n dad pay half half 4 e taxi fare..l0lx(>.<)..tat stupid dad of mine..drop off at e wrong point then hai us walk quite a distance..haiz..e weather is so hot..aiyo..cant stand it..went uncle roger hse..nv eat anythingy..cos quite full le..plus those food he called all got chilli..i cannot eat..sobx(*_*;)..no choice lohz..at ard 3++..mi,mom n didi went 2 hail a cab n set off 2 my ah ma hse..guess hu i c there..hahaz..my cousin lohz..v long nv c him le..got at least 5 yrs?? mayb ba..kekez(^O^)..he changed quite a lot..dyed his hair..grow tall le..slim down liao oso..n 1 more thingy..he smokes..haiyoz..my mom so angry..then scolded him lohz..haiz..noti boi worz..then nite time..my uncle send mi hm..then went back my po po hse..take hong bao frm uncle n aunts..
chu er..early mornin..gana wakey by my grandparents..ask mi go bai nian..v tired lehz..bad ache sia..kekez..end up go lohz..abt 2++ then cum hm..4++ go out again..went 2 telok blangah kaikan..go pray awhile..then went imm..ate long john silver..onli can eat fish sia..sianz diao..then go hang ten buy pants..rubber type de..lyk sports pants lyk tat..cos got a period of time wun b able 2 wear jeans cos of e wound..haiz..go shop shop..go best dekki c thingys..saw tat creative zen sell 400+++..almost 500 le..diaoz..so ex sia..but liao oso nt sae v gd kinda de..i still lurve my discman..saw sum hp oso..will buy a beta one when i realli cum out 4 wk..nw tempoary use tis lohz..oso nt sae cannot call or sms..saw sum laptop too..will invent 1 when i'm in poly..then make it wireless connection 4 internet..then wun hav 2 fight over e pc wif my i d i o t brother le..lolx..went 2 giant..intend 2 but sushi..end up..all those cucumber ones onli..cos e rest 1 cannot eat..haiz..so sad ar..had a big fight wif my bro oso..so angry..argh~
2dae chu san..stay hm lohz..lolx..cos v tired..haiz..back bone achin..but 2dae oso wakey quite late..11++ then wakey..had my breakfast cum lunch at 12..lolx..then went supermarket buy vege..wah..so mani pple sia..lyk no need money de..kekez(>.<)..hmmm..tml will b a beta dae~
*hmmm..new yr..is another festive season where families gather 2gether..as pernormal..chu yi..which is on e 09th..early mornin..oso nt early lahz..i wakey at ard 10++..lolx..then bath liao changed n went 2 my po po hse..my pateral grandparents stay above my flat onli..so went there 1st b4 my family n i set off 2 anywhere..then..eat mian xian..every yr oso mus eat de..pple eat mian xian wif chicken n hard boiled egg..but due 2 my operation..my granny make sum other soup wif pig stomach 4 mi..lolx..although cannot even eat it wif chilli..i still feel satified tat i can eat mian xian..
then at ard 1++..went 2 uncle roger's hse..at sembawang..we took a taxi there..mi n dad pay half half 4 e taxi fare..l0lx(>.<)..tat stupid dad of mine..drop off at e wrong point then hai us walk quite a distance..haiz..e weather is so hot..aiyo..cant stand it..went uncle roger hse..nv eat anythingy..cos quite full le..plus those food he called all got chilli..i cannot eat..sobx(*_*;)..no choice lohz..at ard 3++..mi,mom n didi went 2 hail a cab n set off 2 my ah ma hse..guess hu i c there..hahaz..my cousin lohz..v long nv c him le..got at least 5 yrs?? mayb ba..kekez(^O^)..he changed quite a lot..dyed his hair..grow tall le..slim down liao oso..n 1 more thingy..he smokes..haiyoz..my mom so angry..then scolded him lohz..haiz..noti boi worz..then nite time..my uncle send mi hm..then went back my po po hse..take hong bao frm uncle n aunts..
chu er..early mornin..gana wakey by my grandparents..ask mi go bai nian..v tired lehz..bad ache sia..kekez..end up go lohz..abt 2++ then cum hm..4++ go out again..went 2 telok blangah kaikan..go pray awhile..then went imm..ate long john silver..onli can eat fish sia..sianz diao..then go hang ten buy pants..rubber type de..lyk sports pants lyk tat..cos got a period of time wun b able 2 wear jeans cos of e wound..haiz..go shop shop..go best dekki c thingys..saw tat creative zen sell 400+++..almost 500 le..diaoz..so ex sia..but liao oso nt sae v gd kinda de..i still lurve my discman..saw sum hp oso..will buy a beta one when i realli cum out 4 wk..nw tempoary use tis lohz..oso nt sae cannot call or sms..saw sum laptop too..will invent 1 when i'm in poly..then make it wireless connection 4 internet..then wun hav 2 fight over e pc wif my i d i o t brother le..lolx..went 2 giant..intend 2 but sushi..end up..all those cucumber ones onli..cos e rest 1 cannot eat..haiz..so sad ar..had a big fight wif my bro oso..so angry..argh~
2dae chu san..stay hm lohz..lolx..cos v tired..haiz..back bone achin..but 2dae oso wakey quite late..11++ then wakey..had my breakfast cum lunch at 12..lolx..then went supermarket buy vege..wah..so mani pple sia..lyk no need money de..kekez(>.<)..hmmm..tml will b a beta dae~
Saturday, February 05, 2005
* my sunrise n sunset is in ur hands ------ cherish it *
[ my sunrise n sunset is in ur hands ------ cherish it ]
*haiz..new yr is round e corner le..actuall tot 2dae can go back wk..but my boss ask mi rest more..so slack at hm till after new yr lohz..haiz..cannot even go back n c my kor b4 he goes back malaysia 4 his new yr holidae..so saddddddddddd sia..sobx..doin nth at hm..eat play com slp onli..nth much sia..wah kaoz a..wanna go out..but tat stupid monkey..his mom at hm..i hintin him by askin whether his mom at hm..he oso no reaction de..onli tink of slp..nw i can pei u go out..u slpin at hm..when u wanna ask mi out..then i'll b slpin at hm let u dulan..humphx..
sianz ar..i'm goin 2 bore 2 death le..sianz..sianz..sianz..wanna go mustafa centre..go look at e hp..c whether cheap or nt..my didi..tat stubborn idiot wanna buy..haiz..but tat stupid monkey slpin at hm..no 1 pei mi go..serangoon tat area so dangerous..i dare nt go alone..lolx..dear..study harder..n wk harder 4 my sake..if nt 4 my sake..4 ur own sake too...plz..i realli dun hav e energy 2 alwaz scold n nag at u..frm nw on..i will onli sae thingys once..if u dun listen..then tat's ur probz..lyk wat ah ma sae..u hav 2 wk hard..u cant request mi 2 suffer wif u..
i'm willin..my parents r nt..it isnt fair even 4 ur children..if i'm nt e ger in ur life..u cant expect ur future wife 2 suffer wif u too..u sae u will wk hard..is thru action..nt thru mouth dear..by sayin..no use de..haiz..dun make mi worry too much 4 u..b more matured in ur tinkin..dun alwaz act so childish..haiz..tink 4 urself..wat r ur goals in life..wat u wanna b in future..wat type of life u wan..everythingys in ur hands..even my sunrise..my sunset..plz cherish it..if u dun wish 2 lose it..show sum action..
i dun wan u alwaz engrossed urself in computer games..they r of no contribution 2 u de..haiz..plz listen..4 once plz..i dun wanna quarrel wif u abt those stupid thingy..i'm gettin sick of it..plz..listen 2 my advice..since u waitin 4 ur postin..go wk..dun slack at hm n ask money frm ur parents..they will b unhappi de..
anw..gtg le..tired..wanna rest~*
*haiz..new yr is round e corner le..actuall tot 2dae can go back wk..but my boss ask mi rest more..so slack at hm till after new yr lohz..haiz..cannot even go back n c my kor b4 he goes back malaysia 4 his new yr holidae..so saddddddddddd sia..sobx..doin nth at hm..eat play com slp onli..nth much sia..wah kaoz a..wanna go out..but tat stupid monkey..his mom at hm..i hintin him by askin whether his mom at hm..he oso no reaction de..onli tink of slp..nw i can pei u go out..u slpin at hm..when u wanna ask mi out..then i'll b slpin at hm let u dulan..humphx..
sianz ar..i'm goin 2 bore 2 death le..sianz..sianz..sianz..wanna go mustafa centre..go look at e hp..c whether cheap or nt..my didi..tat stubborn idiot wanna buy..haiz..but tat stupid monkey slpin at hm..no 1 pei mi go..serangoon tat area so dangerous..i dare nt go alone..lolx..dear..study harder..n wk harder 4 my sake..if nt 4 my sake..4 ur own sake too...plz..i realli dun hav e energy 2 alwaz scold n nag at u..frm nw on..i will onli sae thingys once..if u dun listen..then tat's ur probz..lyk wat ah ma sae..u hav 2 wk hard..u cant request mi 2 suffer wif u..
i'm willin..my parents r nt..it isnt fair even 4 ur children..if i'm nt e ger in ur life..u cant expect ur future wife 2 suffer wif u too..u sae u will wk hard..is thru action..nt thru mouth dear..by sayin..no use de..haiz..dun make mi worry too much 4 u..b more matured in ur tinkin..dun alwaz act so childish..haiz..tink 4 urself..wat r ur goals in life..wat u wanna b in future..wat type of life u wan..everythingys in ur hands..even my sunrise..my sunset..plz cherish it..if u dun wish 2 lose it..show sum action..
i dun wan u alwaz engrossed urself in computer games..they r of no contribution 2 u de..haiz..plz listen..4 once plz..i dun wanna quarrel wif u abt those stupid thingy..i'm gettin sick of it..plz..listen 2 my advice..since u waitin 4 ur postin..go wk..dun slack at hm n ask money frm ur parents..they will b unhappi de..
anw..gtg le..tired..wanna rest~*
Monday, January 31, 2005
* BORED . BORED . BORED *
[ BORED . BORED . BORED ]
*is jus bored bored bored..borin!!!!!!! aiyo..v borin at hm sia..doc give mi mc until 11th feb..nw is jus a few daes n i cant stand it le..aiyoz..cannot go out..cannot eat wat i lyk..cannot tis cannot tat..lolx..i cannot eat seafood..oh no..no seoul garden..i cannot eat tonkichi..e steam egg got prawn de..i realli misses e potato salad at tonkichi..wanna eat!!!! i wanna eat chicken rice.. i wan spring chicken wif lotsa fries..i wan fish n chip..i wan kfc..i wan macdonald..i wan mac spicy double..i wan i wan i wan..i wan laksa..mayb i shld list out ltr..lolx..
sobx..but cannot..operation operation operation..y durin sumwhere it is near new yr..cannot wear high heels..no jeans..aiyo..then wear wat??..next time even figure gd..no bikini..cos operation got scar..sobx sobx..so ke lian of mi..sobx sobx..stuck at hm..hm..hm..1st is hospital..hopin 4 hm..nw is hm..hopin 4 food..ltr is wk..then hopin 4 rest..y pple simply cant get grateful abt thingys god had given n arranged?? aiyoz..is jus lyk men can nv understand women n women can nv noe men well..mars v.s. venus..
after e operation..i hav learnt 2 b more gratefull..i cherish wat i had nw..realli thkful 4 frenz relatives n family hu r ard 4 mi when i realli need tat..if nt 4 my mom hu called hm durin wk 2 check on mi..i'll b dead le..tat's how serious it can b..dun tink appendix operation onli a minor operation..is realli depeneds on e condition wif ur illnesses..my appendix is filled wif paste..if it boom!!! tat's e end..jus in time..my appendix n all those intestines r alread swollen when i had my xray..cant realli imagine wat will happened..wat will it b lyk when i realli cannot b cured n hav 2 rise 2 heaven?? aiyoz..choi!! touchwood sia..
i tink i'll b lost..so is my family..my relatives..my frenz..my dear of cos.."da nan bu si bi you hou fu" ..lolx..pple..cherish wat u hav..dun take it 4 granted..dun alwaz tink tat thingy cum as u wish..no..it dun..dun alwaz tink tat thingy happened 2 make u suffer..it came 4 a reason..it came 2 make u grow n learn frm it..it came 2 mature ur tinkin..ur mindset..dun alwaz grumble tat ur life sucks..e more n more complain..e more bad karma u will accumulate..create gd fortune by doin gd deeds..even wat u sae n wat u tink will harm u..dun complain..when probz cum..face it wif ur courage,ur determination..n hav e mindset 2 get it solve..instead of wastin time complaining..use tat precious time 2 pray..2 tink of solution 2 get ur probz solved..lolx..
gtg le..take care guys..muackz~
*is jus bored bored bored..borin!!!!!!! aiyo..v borin at hm sia..doc give mi mc until 11th feb..nw is jus a few daes n i cant stand it le..aiyoz..cannot go out..cannot eat wat i lyk..cannot tis cannot tat..lolx..i cannot eat seafood..oh no..no seoul garden..i cannot eat tonkichi..e steam egg got prawn de..i realli misses e potato salad at tonkichi..wanna eat!!!! i wanna eat chicken rice.. i wan spring chicken wif lotsa fries..i wan fish n chip..i wan kfc..i wan macdonald..i wan mac spicy double..i wan i wan i wan..i wan laksa..mayb i shld list out ltr..lolx..
sobx..but cannot..operation operation operation..y durin sumwhere it is near new yr..cannot wear high heels..no jeans..aiyo..then wear wat??..next time even figure gd..no bikini..cos operation got scar..sobx sobx..so ke lian of mi..sobx sobx..stuck at hm..hm..hm..1st is hospital..hopin 4 hm..nw is hm..hopin 4 food..ltr is wk..then hopin 4 rest..y pple simply cant get grateful abt thingys god had given n arranged?? aiyoz..is jus lyk men can nv understand women n women can nv noe men well..mars v.s. venus..
after e operation..i hav learnt 2 b more gratefull..i cherish wat i had nw..realli thkful 4 frenz relatives n family hu r ard 4 mi when i realli need tat..if nt 4 my mom hu called hm durin wk 2 check on mi..i'll b dead le..tat's how serious it can b..dun tink appendix operation onli a minor operation..is realli depeneds on e condition wif ur illnesses..my appendix is filled wif paste..if it boom!!! tat's e end..jus in time..my appendix n all those intestines r alread swollen when i had my xray..cant realli imagine wat will happened..wat will it b lyk when i realli cannot b cured n hav 2 rise 2 heaven?? aiyoz..choi!! touchwood sia..
i tink i'll b lost..so is my family..my relatives..my frenz..my dear of cos.."da nan bu si bi you hou fu" ..lolx..pple..cherish wat u hav..dun take it 4 granted..dun alwaz tink tat thingy cum as u wish..no..it dun..dun alwaz tink tat thingy happened 2 make u suffer..it came 4 a reason..it came 2 make u grow n learn frm it..it came 2 mature ur tinkin..ur mindset..dun alwaz grumble tat ur life sucks..e more n more complain..e more bad karma u will accumulate..create gd fortune by doin gd deeds..even wat u sae n wat u tink will harm u..dun complain..when probz cum..face it wif ur courage,ur determination..n hav e mindset 2 get it solve..instead of wastin time complaining..use tat precious time 2 pray..2 tink of solution 2 get ur probz solved..lolx..
gtg le..take care guys..muackz~
Sunday, January 30, 2005
* OPERATION *
[ OPERATION ]
*haiz..nv even expect tat i'll land in e hospital..i tot mayb next give birth need lahz..lolx..but nt nw..but too bad..dun wan oso landed liao le..summore discharged liao le..haiz..e story starts lyk tat..
on e 15th..which is a saturdae..i started 2 experience pain..in my back..then..at 1st i tot is jus a sign tat i'm overwk n over tired..i decided 2 go c doc..which was on e 17th nitez..doc sae nth much..jus gave mi so painkillers..then e pain spread frm onli e left side of e back 2 thru out e back..haiz..i didnt wanna go 4 xray cos scare go liao nth on then waste money..if got sumthingy on then oso waste money cure...on e 19th nitez..my mom accompany go c doc again..doc oso sae nth on..then onli gave mi sum stronger painkillers..haiz..
e pain grows dae by dae..more n more painful..on e sundae mornin [23rd]..at ard 5 in e mornin..i experienced gastric pain..tis gastric pain wasnt e same kinda pain as b4..v v v v v painful..i was supposed 2 go shoppin wif yun n attend my religion stuff on tat dae..i wasnt able 2..i vomitted..vomitted 4 3 hrs++... i struggled till 8.30am..till e clinic is opened..e doc gave mi a jab..n as usual..sum gastric pills..tis time.. sumthingy is wrong..e jab didnt cure my pain as it did b4..my face is pale..my bodi even dehydrated..i didnt eat..jus 2 to 3 mouth of porriage.. n i'm shivering n havin high fever.. but i kept tis from my parents cos i dun wan them 2 worry..
on mondae..which was e 24th..my fever goes off.. so i tot i'll b okie.. so my mom bought mi kui diao mi fishball soup..i cant eat..jus 2 mouth again..she went 2 wk in e afternoon..dear came 2 c mi in e afternoon.. i started 2 shiver n hav high fever again.. i wanna rest so i chase him hm at 4.30.. he keep starin at mi i cannot slp..then at ard 5.30..i wakey n watch tv..a sudden pain attacked mi..v v v v v v v v v pain till i cannot describe..
my mom called at 6pm..jus in time 2 rescue mi..i cried..cryin in pain..then my aunt came n fetch mi 2 her hse..then send mi 2 hospital..then rush mi 2 A&E lohz..go in..1st thingy...take i tink 5 or 6 tubes of blood..i oso cannot rmb..cos alread v pain le..then..nurse ask mi go take urine test..but cant urinate..mayb too pain liao le..then go xray..after which..go observation ward slp..then put drip oso..haiz..
2hrs++ later..finally..hospitalised liao le..when reach ward..doc doc sae xray cum out can c tat my appendix tat area all swollen..95% shld b appendix probz..mus go operation..at tat time was alread slightly past midnite liao le..haiz..12++ lyk tat went in2 operation theatre..OPERATION..wah..tell u sumthingy...e doc v shuai..lolx..kekez..c him alread hao yi ban le..lolx..
thkz 2 gohonzon..i'm back hm after sum sufferin at e hospital..but e nurses n doc i met all v gd..thkz..i'm blessed.. even my dear oso visit mi everydae..my parents n grandparents oso..gtg le..wanna rest~*
*haiz..nv even expect tat i'll land in e hospital..i tot mayb next give birth need lahz..lolx..but nt nw..but too bad..dun wan oso landed liao le..summore discharged liao le..haiz..e story starts lyk tat..
on e 15th..which is a saturdae..i started 2 experience pain..in my back..then..at 1st i tot is jus a sign tat i'm overwk n over tired..i decided 2 go c doc..which was on e 17th nitez..doc sae nth much..jus gave mi so painkillers..then e pain spread frm onli e left side of e back 2 thru out e back..haiz..i didnt wanna go 4 xray cos scare go liao nth on then waste money..if got sumthingy on then oso waste money cure...on e 19th nitez..my mom accompany go c doc again..doc oso sae nth on..then onli gave mi sum stronger painkillers..haiz..
e pain grows dae by dae..more n more painful..on e sundae mornin [23rd]..at ard 5 in e mornin..i experienced gastric pain..tis gastric pain wasnt e same kinda pain as b4..v v v v v painful..i was supposed 2 go shoppin wif yun n attend my religion stuff on tat dae..i wasnt able 2..i vomitted..vomitted 4 3 hrs++... i struggled till 8.30am..till e clinic is opened..e doc gave mi a jab..n as usual..sum gastric pills..tis time.. sumthingy is wrong..e jab didnt cure my pain as it did b4..my face is pale..my bodi even dehydrated..i didnt eat..jus 2 to 3 mouth of porriage.. n i'm shivering n havin high fever.. but i kept tis from my parents cos i dun wan them 2 worry..
on mondae..which was e 24th..my fever goes off.. so i tot i'll b okie.. so my mom bought mi kui diao mi fishball soup..i cant eat..jus 2 mouth again..she went 2 wk in e afternoon..dear came 2 c mi in e afternoon.. i started 2 shiver n hav high fever again.. i wanna rest so i chase him hm at 4.30.. he keep starin at mi i cannot slp..then at ard 5.30..i wakey n watch tv..a sudden pain attacked mi..v v v v v v v v v pain till i cannot describe..
my mom called at 6pm..jus in time 2 rescue mi..i cried..cryin in pain..then my aunt came n fetch mi 2 her hse..then send mi 2 hospital..then rush mi 2 A&E lohz..go in..1st thingy...take i tink 5 or 6 tubes of blood..i oso cannot rmb..cos alread v pain le..then..nurse ask mi go take urine test..but cant urinate..mayb too pain liao le..then go xray..after which..go observation ward slp..then put drip oso..haiz..
2hrs++ later..finally..hospitalised liao le..when reach ward..doc doc sae xray cum out can c tat my appendix tat area all swollen..95% shld b appendix probz..mus go operation..at tat time was alread slightly past midnite liao le..haiz..12++ lyk tat went in2 operation theatre..OPERATION..wah..tell u sumthingy...e doc v shuai..lolx..kekez..c him alread hao yi ban le..lolx..
thkz 2 gohonzon..i'm back hm after sum sufferin at e hospital..but e nurses n doc i met all v gd..thkz..i'm blessed.. even my dear oso visit mi everydae..my parents n grandparents oso..gtg le..wanna rest~*
Sunday, January 16, 2005
* i wan my past back *
[ i want my PAST back.... ]
*haiz..i dunoe wat can sae beside sayin i'm sad..mi n lazyboi nwadaes got so much probz sia..alwaz quarrellin n arguin 4 no valid reasons de..haiz..frm small thingy lyk nt callin him or smsin him 2 big thingys lyk cheatin n hidin secrets..haiz..our times simply dun meet de..wheneva i wanna ask him out..he will b busi slpin or wif his frenz playin bball..wheneva he wanna ask mi out..
i'll b busi restin or goin out wif my soka frenz or sch frenz..wheneva i tried tellin him those probz i faced in e company i'm wkin..he will b givin mi those kinda of bhl attitude..he jus cant b bother my condition at wk..n wheneva he starts tokin abt his thingys..he will b sayin abt his "mei"..wat sae is tat man?? although i oso got tok abt my kor..is jus bcos i'm angry abt him..so i wanna make him jealous..haiz..
wat r we doin 2 1 another?? wat can we do 2 brin us back 2 those sweet moments we used 2 had?? haiz..we used b so en ai..yester went 2 hospital 2 visit a pri sch fren hu is hospitalised..she's contractin cancer..haiz..although e alread remove e affected area le..is still a long period 4 her 2 struggle..c her bf everydae go hospital pei her..c them so en ai..let mi tot of mi n lazyboi..we used 2 b lyk tat oso..haiz..make mi so envy 2 c them lyk tat..
we used 2 b lyk tat..pple alwaz envy us de..nw..y mus i envy other pple??i cannot 4get..i cannot 4get e incident where u lied 2 mi..i cant..i realli cannot..wheneva i'm alone..tis incident will appear in my mind..is jus lyk a movie repeatin its episode of stories..haiz..tell mi..tell mi wat shld i do 2 allow myself 2 4get tis?? how?? plz heal my wound..is hurtin mi..i'm afraid i will suffocate cos of tis..haiz..
i wan those sweet moments..i wan those happi times..plz give mi back wat i deserve 2..plz!!!!!!~
*haiz..i dunoe wat can sae beside sayin i'm sad..mi n lazyboi nwadaes got so much probz sia..alwaz quarrellin n arguin 4 no valid reasons de..haiz..frm small thingy lyk nt callin him or smsin him 2 big thingys lyk cheatin n hidin secrets..haiz..our times simply dun meet de..wheneva i wanna ask him out..he will b busi slpin or wif his frenz playin bball..wheneva he wanna ask mi out..
i'll b busi restin or goin out wif my soka frenz or sch frenz..wheneva i tried tellin him those probz i faced in e company i'm wkin..he will b givin mi those kinda of bhl attitude..he jus cant b bother my condition at wk..n wheneva he starts tokin abt his thingys..he will b sayin abt his "mei"..wat sae is tat man?? although i oso got tok abt my kor..is jus bcos i'm angry abt him..so i wanna make him jealous..haiz..
wat r we doin 2 1 another?? wat can we do 2 brin us back 2 those sweet moments we used 2 had?? haiz..we used b so en ai..yester went 2 hospital 2 visit a pri sch fren hu is hospitalised..she's contractin cancer..haiz..although e alread remove e affected area le..is still a long period 4 her 2 struggle..c her bf everydae go hospital pei her..c them so en ai..let mi tot of mi n lazyboi..we used 2 b lyk tat oso..haiz..make mi so envy 2 c them lyk tat..
we used 2 b lyk tat..pple alwaz envy us de..nw..y mus i envy other pple??i cannot 4get..i cannot 4get e incident where u lied 2 mi..i cant..i realli cannot..wheneva i'm alone..tis incident will appear in my mind..is jus lyk a movie repeatin its episode of stories..haiz..tell mi..tell mi wat shld i do 2 allow myself 2 4get tis?? how?? plz heal my wound..is hurtin mi..i'm afraid i will suffocate cos of tis..haiz..
i wan those sweet moments..i wan those happi times..plz give mi back wat i deserve 2..plz!!!!!!~
Sunday, January 09, 2005
* tonkichi . neoprint . gungfu hustle *
[ * tonkichi . neoprint . gungfu hustle * ]
*muahahaz..2dae is e dae i relax myself after wkin so hard 4 sooooooooooooooooooooooo long..lolx..frenz got difficulties dating mi oso..lolx..kekez..2dae mi, yun n anna went 2 isetan tonkichi 2 eat..lolx..eat until so shiok sia..potato salad, chawhamushi..lolx..n a lot more lahz..lolx..eat until 90++ sia..lolx..summore mi n yun half half treat anna eat..cos she alwaz treat us ma..lolx..
then went 2 far east take neo print n look at clothes lohz..cos new yr cumin le ma..lolx..haiz..no time 4 my dear oso..sobx sobx..so sorrie..haiz..oh ya..after takin neoprint..rush back 2 isetan lido watch gungfu hustle..actuall feel lyk watchin wif my dear de..but yester ask him out he sae his mum dun let..so 2dae i abandon him go watch wif my fren lohz..
wah..veri tired ar..feel lyk slpin le..*yawn*..hmmm..gtg le..take care worz!!~
*muahahaz..2dae is e dae i relax myself after wkin so hard 4 sooooooooooooooooooooooo long..lolx..frenz got difficulties dating mi oso..lolx..kekez..2dae mi, yun n anna went 2 isetan tonkichi 2 eat..lolx..eat until so shiok sia..potato salad, chawhamushi..lolx..n a lot more lahz..lolx..eat until 90++ sia..lolx..summore mi n yun half half treat anna eat..cos she alwaz treat us ma..lolx..
then went 2 far east take neo print n look at clothes lohz..cos new yr cumin le ma..lolx..haiz..no time 4 my dear oso..sobx sobx..so sorrie..haiz..oh ya..after takin neoprint..rush back 2 isetan lido watch gungfu hustle..actuall feel lyk watchin wif my dear de..but yester ask him out he sae his mum dun let..so 2dae i abandon him go watch wif my fren lohz..
wah..veri tired ar..feel lyk slpin le..*yawn*..hmmm..gtg le..take care worz!!~
Saturday, January 01, 2005
* lazying ard at hm *
[ lazying around at home!.... ]
*finally got a chance 2 rest 4 2 daes..hahaz..at last..my sundae is free..hmmm..but oso v tired lehz..kaoz..having bad ache sia..sorrie ar dear..mus hav made u angry on e 31st of dec..last dae of e yr i still make u dulan..sorrie worz..nt i dun wanna go countdown..but i dun feel lyk..feel v tired n havin flu ma..dun wish 2 trouble u send mi hm oso..dun hav mi ard u can dun need troubled tat i cannot take it ma..lolx..2dae..a special dae..mi n dear 2gether 4 half a yr le..so fast sia..6 mths over liao le..hahaz..lurve u dear..n onli u..
dun make mi angry le..i dun lyk pple lie 2 mi de..so..dun hurt mi by lyin 2 mi again le..otherwise i can confirm tat i wun 4give u anymore..nw at wk place..got a super gd kor n a jie..closer 2 kor than jie..i oso dunoe y..mayb kor more frenly ba..lolx..hahaz(^_^")..feel tat wkin isnt an easy task worz..v tiring de..n mus face those stupid pple hu backstab pple..jie i jus hope u stop hanging ard wif her..she's such a bitch 2 mi..oops..so long nv use tis word le..i oso nv de zui her..siao cha bo..haiz..dun tok abt it le..make mi dulan n will lose appetize sia..haiz..
kor u v gd..xiao mei will rmb u de..even when i resign 2 go study..i will rmb u de..go back malaysia mus tell mi worz..xiao mei will go ur hmtown visit u de..hahaz..beta find mi a sao sao b4 i kopi go find 1 4 u..hahaz..i wun de..i believe tat true lurve mus patiently wait de..hahaz..anw..is a new yr..a new beginnin..wish every1 in tis world can live harmoniously 2gether wif no war n disaster..4 those hu perish in e tsunami disaster..may all e unfortunate rest in peace..take care guys(^.^)*
*finally got a chance 2 rest 4 2 daes..hahaz..at last..my sundae is free..hmmm..but oso v tired lehz..kaoz..having bad ache sia..sorrie ar dear..mus hav made u angry on e 31st of dec..last dae of e yr i still make u dulan..sorrie worz..nt i dun wanna go countdown..but i dun feel lyk..feel v tired n havin flu ma..dun wish 2 trouble u send mi hm oso..dun hav mi ard u can dun need troubled tat i cannot take it ma..lolx..2dae..a special dae..mi n dear 2gether 4 half a yr le..so fast sia..6 mths over liao le..hahaz..lurve u dear..n onli u..
dun make mi angry le..i dun lyk pple lie 2 mi de..so..dun hurt mi by lyin 2 mi again le..otherwise i can confirm tat i wun 4give u anymore..nw at wk place..got a super gd kor n a jie..closer 2 kor than jie..i oso dunoe y..mayb kor more frenly ba..lolx..hahaz(^_^")..feel tat wkin isnt an easy task worz..v tiring de..n mus face those stupid pple hu backstab pple..jie i jus hope u stop hanging ard wif her..she's such a bitch 2 mi..oops..so long nv use tis word le..i oso nv de zui her..siao cha bo..haiz..dun tok abt it le..make mi dulan n will lose appetize sia..haiz..
kor u v gd..xiao mei will rmb u de..even when i resign 2 go study..i will rmb u de..go back malaysia mus tell mi worz..xiao mei will go ur hmtown visit u de..hahaz..beta find mi a sao sao b4 i kopi go find 1 4 u..hahaz..i wun de..i believe tat true lurve mus patiently wait de..hahaz..anw..is a new yr..a new beginnin..wish every1 in tis world can live harmoniously 2gether wif no war n disaster..4 those hu perish in e tsunami disaster..may all e unfortunate rest in peace..take care guys(^.^)*
Saturday, December 25, 2004
* tIrEd wKiN eVerYdAe*
[ tired working everyday.... ]
* hahaz..even since i wk..tis is e 1st dae i'm nt workin worz..lolx..i started wkin on e 25th of nov..2dae is e 25th of dec le..wao!!! is 1 mth le..so fast sia..aiyo..hmmm..mani change in mi worz..emmm..i hav jus rebonded my hair..lolx..jus 4 info 4 those hu haven seen mi 4 long..lolx..n my hp no oso change liao le..hp oso change le..hahaz..on e veri 1st dae i start wkin..hmmm..i realised tat it's so tirin wkin..8.30 start wk..5.30 knock off..but i everydae oso OT..usuall will wk till 8.30 lohz..wao!! 12hrs lehz..
everydae wakey at 6am..jus lyk i'm goin 2 sch..hahaz..pom pom liao then leave hm 4 wk at 6.40am..then take bus 2 tanjong katong..then take another bus 2 wkplace at arumugam rd..it takes abt 1hr30mins lyk tat of bus journey..ard 8++ will reach office lohz..then eat breakfast then start wkin le..haiz..veri tirin de..pants n skirts oso loose liao...hahaz..although i lyk nv slim down..1 mth onli lehz..u tink superwoman ar..hmmm..but weight oso lose lahz..kekez..
if wk till 8.30..reach hm almost 10pm le..pom pom liao slp..dinner usually wun eat de..so late eat..will grow fat de..lolx..so long nv watch tv 4 long hrs le..jus lyk last time..nv tok on fone 4 long le oso..com hardly play le..tat's y blog oso nv update..at office got use com..but 2 do wk de..nt play de..haiz..veri tired sia..even bf i oso hardly tok 2 him..sorrie dear..i realli veri tired..abandon u temporary hor..dun angry or sad hor..kekez..
realli veri tired..back ache..i wan 2 rest..tired..got a new nick in my company..collegues call my dad "fei zai long"..then they call mi "xiao long nu".. lolx..stupid sia..i got a kor n jie in my company.."zhu rou zhan" n "xiu juan jie"..n jie fu (ah wen) oso..hahaz..quite okie lahz..still satisfactory wif my wk...hmmm..gtg le..veri tired..wanna rest..kekez..take care guys~
* hahaz..even since i wk..tis is e 1st dae i'm nt workin worz..lolx..i started wkin on e 25th of nov..2dae is e 25th of dec le..wao!!! is 1 mth le..so fast sia..aiyo..hmmm..mani change in mi worz..emmm..i hav jus rebonded my hair..lolx..jus 4 info 4 those hu haven seen mi 4 long..lolx..n my hp no oso change liao le..hp oso change le..hahaz..on e veri 1st dae i start wkin..hmmm..i realised tat it's so tirin wkin..8.30 start wk..5.30 knock off..but i everydae oso OT..usuall will wk till 8.30 lohz..wao!! 12hrs lehz..
everydae wakey at 6am..jus lyk i'm goin 2 sch..hahaz..pom pom liao then leave hm 4 wk at 6.40am..then take bus 2 tanjong katong..then take another bus 2 wkplace at arumugam rd..it takes abt 1hr30mins lyk tat of bus journey..ard 8++ will reach office lohz..then eat breakfast then start wkin le..haiz..veri tirin de..pants n skirts oso loose liao...hahaz..although i lyk nv slim down..1 mth onli lehz..u tink superwoman ar..hmmm..but weight oso lose lahz..kekez..
if wk till 8.30..reach hm almost 10pm le..pom pom liao slp..dinner usually wun eat de..so late eat..will grow fat de..lolx..so long nv watch tv 4 long hrs le..jus lyk last time..nv tok on fone 4 long le oso..com hardly play le..tat's y blog oso nv update..at office got use com..but 2 do wk de..nt play de..haiz..veri tired sia..even bf i oso hardly tok 2 him..sorrie dear..i realli veri tired..abandon u temporary hor..dun angry or sad hor..kekez..
realli veri tired..back ache..i wan 2 rest..tired..got a new nick in my company..collegues call my dad "fei zai long"..then they call mi "xiao long nu".. lolx..stupid sia..i got a kor n jie in my company.."zhu rou zhan" n "xiu juan jie"..n jie fu (ah wen) oso..hahaz..quite okie lahz..still satisfactory wif my wk...hmmm..gtg le..veri tired..wanna rest..kekez..take care guys~
Tuesday, November 23, 2004
* mom v.s. didi *
mom v.s. didi!!* mom n didi quarrelled le..cos didi alwaz bully mi..then mom veri angry..as a didi..he alwaz scream n scold mi..nv show mi respect..so mom veri angry..she took tis chance 2 tiao jiao him lohz..then wateva mom sae..he tok back..then mom slap didi until he cried..mom almost took small chili n feed him..oh my god!!!!! 1st time c mom so angry ever since she start workin le..actuall i didnt noe mom will treat didi tis way..i tink she hav been hidin her tots long le ba..didi oso..he sae he wun respect mi n dad..cos we dun deserve his respect..mom got even more angry..n slap him even harder..omg..relax sia..
i dare nt voice out..cos i scare didi will sae more..n mom will slap even harder.. aiya..i oso dunoe wat gappened..my family got big communcation breakdown probz sia..haiz..i oso dunoe wat i can do 2 resolve it..mayb we realli lack communcation ba..no time 4 1 another..wanna tok oso hard ar..anw..i workin tis cumin wk le..cumin thurs goin 4 interview..workin n earnin le..haiz..hmmm..gtg le..tired liao le..take care guys*
Saturday, November 20, 2004
*tired. exhausted. drained*
tired . exhausted . drained .* hmmm..even since my prelims exams started..i hav nv been 2 orchard rd shop shop le..lolx..after my prelims..was my o'level..dun even can anyhow wonder around..coz mom will scold ar..lolx..haiz..after swimmin e dae b4 which is on thursdae..veri tired..2dae gana drag out by yun 2 pei her go shop 4 her grad nite dress..hmmm..frm ck tang 2 isetana 2 taka then back 2 isetana again..then 2 far east..lolx..veri tired ar..lolx..stayed at far east 4 veri long sia..at
then walk around c thingy..at
end up xiang xiang bought a white heals..then jie jie bought a pair of silver coloured heals..then after tat she left us at orchard..then went 2 long john n eat..actuall wanna eat e oyster mian xian de..but e queue veri long lohz..went 2 guardian bought e strengthen nails de..lolx..<5> lolx..those fussy gers..aiyo..my legs goin 2 dian le lahz..then take bus 2 meredian..go look 4 daryl..at meredian..xiang xiang bought a scarf she took such a long time 2 choose..kaoz a..
next time dun wanna cum orchard le lahz..at e 25hrs watch gallery..saw many couple watches..was tinkin 2 buy 4 my parents when i start 2 work..tokin abt work..haiz..next thursdae..25th nov..goin 4 interviw at alignment(tools) pte ltd..e place where my dad is workin..haiz..then after seein..went 2 look 4 daryl lohz..after awhile..then go og at e orchard branch de..then go john little lohz..after which xiang xiang n yun went 2 heeren..mi n daryl went hm..coz i realli drained liao le..cannot take it anymore..2dae got another mood..
havin pms 2dae sia..mood veri bad..jus cannot stand SUMTHINGY..yi du zi qi..blood realli boils..anw..is e past le..dun wanna sae le..*
Thursday, November 18, 2004
* is workin time after xams *
is working time after exams....*4 mani pple..is playin after xams..lolx..but after most of e o'level students..is workin n busy wif earnin money..lolx..is holidae ma..play 4 six mths will madi de..lolx..earn money wun worz..lolx..my dad askin his boss whether wanna hire mi or nt..lolx..actually oso gd..can help mom keep an eye on dad..lolx..but hope yun oso can work wif mi..lolx..otherwise she sae i abandon her..lolx..but cant help if realli cannot ma..e most i help her find job..yun ah yun..u dun so fussy sure can find job..those pple in my dad's wk place veri gd de..u sound as if u dun care when i tell u..if u wanna wk there..u mus earn 2 get involved wif them..lyk tat got zhao ying ma..aiyo..tat's wat i tink lahz..summore dun cause trouble 4 mi if we realli wk there..i dun wan 2 hai my lao pa..my lao ma will oso scold de..lolx
haiz..2dae a maths paper..hmmm..wan dan le..nt in e mood 2 do..feel so RESTLESS..jus wanna slp n hav a gd rest..daryl ah u..cannot go chalet nvm lahz..so du lan oso no use..haiz..i jus dun understand..is there a need 2 hurry 2 gather all frenz n play?? i believe..if u guys cherish ur frenship..then will sure meet out again..n oso nt sae u dyin tml le..mus do everythingy by 2dae..otherwise no time le..till nw..i still dun wish 2 go 2 tat chalet..c it pointless..wastin my time..all bcoz of u lahz..yun all ur fault..drag mi go..if nt fun summore make mi upset..i chop ur head down ar..lolx..kiddin onli..go go lohz..big deal.. haiz..gather liao so wat?? nv gather so wat??mayb bcoz i c until sianz liao ba..so i dun feel anythingy..sound a bit cold-blooded..shui jiao frenz around mi so mani r hypocrites?? haiz..tis is SHI SHANG YI DA BEI SHI ar..haiz..
after my o'level..there's a lot of frenz i will sae SAYONARA 4eva..mayb even sayonara oso dun need 2 sae..jus treat it as i nv had such frenz ba..i will treat u as INVISIBLE..coz i noe u will oso..anw..sad thingys dun wanna sae le..onli wanna noe gd thingys..hmmm..i'm lookin 4ward 4 a CHANGE in my ENVIRONMENT..a CHANGE in my SURROUNDING AIR..I WAN FRESHER AIR..lolx..cant wait 4 tat..I WANNA SCREAM..I WANNA SHOUT..I WANNA B FREE..gtg le..lolx..take care worz^.^*
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Wednesday, November 17, 2004
*bReAkIn fRee fRm e hURtIn pAst*
[ breaking free from the hurting past... ]
* free frm humanities le..lolx..FINALLY ar..hahaz..hmmm..jus finished my fnn paper lohz..CRAP..study so chan then onli got 8 questions sia..aiyo..processin food..i didnt study much sia..aiyo..tis time die le lahz..then my coursewk oso NV do SUPER GD..all bcoz of sum biased act..wateva lahz..is over le..haiz..FINALLY 3 wks of xams is cumin 2 an end soon le..hahaz..so happi..but will keep myself busy countin money..eh..no lahz..is busy wif workin lahz..lolx..
KAOZ a..pure science big deal ar?? make so much stupid noise...can sure pass physics de ma?? got learn sound ma?? u guys causin noise pollution..pple havin paper lehz..although u guys havin break..but sae i pin pointin lohz..DRAGGIN CHAIRS..HOPPIN HERE N THERE..SCREAMIN N SHOUTIN OUTSIDE E HALL..ur lao du sch ar?? cant stand it sia..aiyo..a little noise here n there will turns out 2 b ENORMOUS de lehz.. kaoz a..bloody ass..wakey lahz..go SOUL-SEARCH hor..plz lahz..got learn CME de ma?? CONSIDERATION u noe ma?? sickenin sia..aiyo..dun tok abt tis le..MY BLOOD BOILIN..
.[wo bu xiang huo zan guo qu de yin ying le]~* bReAkIn fRee fRm e hURtIn pAst *~ (qing ni gao tai gui shou fang wo yi ma).
help mi break free from my hurtin past..i jus i rmb nth nw..haiz..e pain i hav..hu noe?? sheng bu ru si ar...haiz..wat 2 do..is e past tat makes mi grow up..tat's wat i am grateful abt..if nt 4 tat..i will still b e CHILDISH, STUBBORN, NAIVE mi..i will NOT GIVE IN so easily le..i will NOT BELIEVE any1 so easily le..i will nt..I WILL NOT!!!!!!! stop plannin any traps 4 mi 2 fall in iiiiiidiots..dun eva under-estamine ur enemies..tat's wat i learnt..b more skeptical...anw..ALWAZ LOOK ON E BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE..i will de..i'm happi wif wat i hav nw..JUS WANNA B HAPPI 4EVA!!!!!!~*
* free frm humanities le..lolx..FINALLY ar..hahaz..hmmm..jus finished my fnn paper lohz..CRAP..study so chan then onli got 8 questions sia..aiyo..processin food..i didnt study much sia..aiyo..tis time die le lahz..then my coursewk oso NV do SUPER GD..all bcoz of sum biased act..wateva lahz..is over le..haiz..FINALLY 3 wks of xams is cumin 2 an end soon le..hahaz..so happi..but will keep myself busy countin money..eh..no lahz..is busy wif workin lahz..lolx..
KAOZ a..pure science big deal ar?? make so much stupid noise...can sure pass physics de ma?? got learn sound ma?? u guys causin noise pollution..pple havin paper lehz..although u guys havin break..but sae i pin pointin lohz..DRAGGIN CHAIRS..HOPPIN HERE N THERE..SCREAMIN N SHOUTIN OUTSIDE E HALL..ur lao du sch ar?? cant stand it sia..aiyo..a little noise here n there will turns out 2 b ENORMOUS de lehz.. kaoz a..bloody ass..wakey lahz..go SOUL-SEARCH hor..plz lahz..got learn CME de ma?? CONSIDERATION u noe ma?? sickenin sia..aiyo..dun tok abt tis le..MY BLOOD BOILIN..
.[wo bu xiang huo zan guo qu de yin ying le]~* bReAkIn fRee fRm e hURtIn pAst *~ (qing ni gao tai gui shou fang wo yi ma).
help mi break free from my hurtin past..i jus i rmb nth nw..haiz..e pain i hav..hu noe?? sheng bu ru si ar...haiz..wat 2 do..is e past tat makes mi grow up..tat's wat i am grateful abt..if nt 4 tat..i will still b e CHILDISH, STUBBORN, NAIVE mi..i will NOT GIVE IN so easily le..i will NOT BELIEVE any1 so easily le..i will nt..I WILL NOT!!!!!!! stop plannin any traps 4 mi 2 fall in iiiiiidiots..dun eva under-estamine ur enemies..tat's wat i learnt..b more skeptical...anw..ALWAZ LOOK ON E BRIGHT SIDE OF LIFE..i will de..i'm happi wif wat i hav nw..JUS WANNA B HAPPI 4EVA!!!!!!~*
Tuesday, November 16, 2004
* history....dyin le..*
[ history... dying le.... ]
*haiz..i jus cant imagine tat e pain at my stomach will result in m 4gettin wat i studies 4 my history..source-based question abt soviet union gorbachev..kaoz..i nv realli touch on tat..hmmm..nvm..then structured questions r on china[guo ming dang], germany[hilter] n on europe[cold war]..3 questions..i study e onli 2 came out..which is germany n europe..end up..i did e question on germany de..tat hilter..do so mani thingys 4 wat..write until my hand almost crippled le..wah kaoz..part b of e question i dun realli noe wat shit is it tokin..end up..tok crap lohz..haiyo..i shld hav do on e europe de..on berlin blockade n ussr v.s. us de..diaoz..nv read properly e question..but was too late 2 save..cos i onli left 15mins b4 i realised i dunoe how 2 do part b de..kaoz..
university of cambridge..is university ma..i repeat..university..is spell as u n i v e r s i t y..aiyoo..y mus go work wif singapore moe 2 set o'level 4 us..it realli makes sec 4 n 5 students life difficult sia,,lyk tat singapore will hav low population of youngsters de..cos if cannot tahan e stress..go tiao lou how?? lolx..mus de-stress b4 i jiayou 4 my fnn paper tml..i tink tis yr all e humanities teacher SUDDENLY,MIRACALLY,SURPRISINGLY bcame so clever..lolx..all those questions that guess came came out le..jus lyk 4 history n ss ba..4 geo still dunoe yet..mus wait till tml then noe..hahaz..so unfair..heard tat those pple in pure science class finishin their last paper tis wk lehz..sub-science still hav 2 wait till next mondae..so unfair..haiyo
hmmm...next wk 24th still mus back take leavin cert..a lot of pple bui song..cos is grad nite tat dae..then a lot of pple..esp bois buyin their clothes onli in e mornin ba..lolx..kekez..gers..hahaz..dun need sae..will b givin money 2 salon n facial shop..lolx..but i'm nt goin..sound a bit saddenin..cos i dun wanna waste money..although is e last chance..if i realli hav veri gd frenz in sch..we will auto meet up n xu jiu de..if nt..simply sae sayonara after o'level lohz..sound a bit bu zhong gan qing..but then is wat i feel..crap lahz..as if go 4 grad nite liao..bad relation will turn gd durin e grad nite..wah lyk tat grad nite is HILTER?? bad relation is GERMANY??
lolx.. sae sumthingy truthfully..it is even worse..coz pple will act hypocritcally 4 e grad nite..tok 2 tis person tok 2 another person..take pic wif tis person then wif another..even wif ur GREATEST ENEMY..tis is called NING KE SHA ZUO BU KE FANG GUO!!!!! jus dun wish 2 b left out of e beautiful picture..so act tis act tat lohz..isnt tat SADDENIN?? i'm selfish..i dun wanna force myself 2 b squeeze in2 e picture tat would nv suit mi..i dun wanna make myself sad n others uneasy..so wat am i left out of e picture?? by squeezing oso got no benefit ar..MEI YOU LI YI DE SHI.. FEI XIN SHI LAI ZI TIAO KU CHI MA?? ben dan..iiiiiiodit...stupidity..haiz..
tat's my tinkin..nt tryin 2 pin point any1 hor..lolx..oso gd lahz..last chance..take it as e last chance 2 show "GERMANY"..b4 HILTER go commit suicide..no lahz..sae sayonara after givin in ur last effort..jus lyk GORBACHEV.. he tried savin SOVIET UNION..although his efforts was swept by e powerful historical forces..he put in efforts le.. WU YUAN WU HUI..
goin 4 check-up after my o'level le..coz i feel a pain in my stomach are..3 daes le..aiyo..oso dunoe wat's tat..dare nt anyhow eat medi oso..haiz..arghhhhhhhhhh..tis pain..make mi unable 2 slp in e nite oso..wat e hell...haiz..gtg le..goin 2 rest awhile n study fnn le..take care guys*
*haiz..i jus cant imagine tat e pain at my stomach will result in m 4gettin wat i studies 4 my history..source-based question abt soviet union gorbachev..kaoz..i nv realli touch on tat..hmmm..nvm..then structured questions r on china[guo ming dang], germany[hilter] n on europe[cold war]..3 questions..i study e onli 2 came out..which is germany n europe..end up..i did e question on germany de..tat hilter..do so mani thingys 4 wat..write until my hand almost crippled le..wah kaoz..part b of e question i dun realli noe wat shit is it tokin..end up..tok crap lohz..haiyo..i shld hav do on e europe de..on berlin blockade n ussr v.s. us de..diaoz..nv read properly e question..but was too late 2 save..cos i onli left 15mins b4 i realised i dunoe how 2 do part b de..kaoz..
university of cambridge..is university ma..i repeat..university..is spell as u n i v e r s i t y..aiyoo..y mus go work wif singapore moe 2 set o'level 4 us..it realli makes sec 4 n 5 students life difficult sia,,lyk tat singapore will hav low population of youngsters de..cos if cannot tahan e stress..go tiao lou how?? lolx..mus de-stress b4 i jiayou 4 my fnn paper tml..i tink tis yr all e humanities teacher SUDDENLY,MIRACALLY,SURPRISINGLY bcame so clever..lolx..all those questions that guess came came out le..jus lyk 4 history n ss ba..4 geo still dunoe yet..mus wait till tml then noe..hahaz..so unfair..heard tat those pple in pure science class finishin their last paper tis wk lehz..sub-science still hav 2 wait till next mondae..so unfair..haiyo
hmmm...next wk 24th still mus back take leavin cert..a lot of pple bui song..cos is grad nite tat dae..then a lot of pple..esp bois buyin their clothes onli in e mornin ba..lolx..kekez..gers..hahaz..dun need sae..will b givin money 2 salon n facial shop..lolx..but i'm nt goin..sound a bit saddenin..cos i dun wanna waste money..although is e last chance..if i realli hav veri gd frenz in sch..we will auto meet up n xu jiu de..if nt..simply sae sayonara after o'level lohz..sound a bit bu zhong gan qing..but then is wat i feel..crap lahz..as if go 4 grad nite liao..bad relation will turn gd durin e grad nite..wah lyk tat grad nite is HILTER?? bad relation is GERMANY??
lolx.. sae sumthingy truthfully..it is even worse..coz pple will act hypocritcally 4 e grad nite..tok 2 tis person tok 2 another person..take pic wif tis person then wif another..even wif ur GREATEST ENEMY..tis is called NING KE SHA ZUO BU KE FANG GUO!!!!! jus dun wish 2 b left out of e beautiful picture..so act tis act tat lohz..isnt tat SADDENIN?? i'm selfish..i dun wanna force myself 2 b squeeze in2 e picture tat would nv suit mi..i dun wanna make myself sad n others uneasy..so wat am i left out of e picture?? by squeezing oso got no benefit ar..MEI YOU LI YI DE SHI.. FEI XIN SHI LAI ZI TIAO KU CHI MA?? ben dan..iiiiiiodit...stupidity..haiz..
tat's my tinkin..nt tryin 2 pin point any1 hor..lolx..oso gd lahz..last chance..take it as e last chance 2 show "GERMANY"..b4 HILTER go commit suicide..no lahz..sae sayonara after givin in ur last effort..jus lyk GORBACHEV.. he tried savin SOVIET UNION..although his efforts was swept by e powerful historical forces..he put in efforts le.. WU YUAN WU HUI..
goin 4 check-up after my o'level le..coz i feel a pain in my stomach are..3 daes le..aiyo..oso dunoe wat's tat..dare nt anyhow eat medi oso..haiz..arghhhhhhhhhh..tis pain..make mi unable 2 slp in e nite oso..wat e hell...haiz..gtg le..goin 2 rest awhile n study fnn le..take care guys*
Monday, November 15, 2004
* guess i did sumthingy wrong again *
guess i did something wrong AGAIN!
*i jus dun understand y pple gets upset n angry so easily..i cant stand my didi anymore..when u pls sum1 2 do sumthingy..wat type of tone shld u use?? lyk tat?? "hey bitch..how 2 spell tis word?" or "can i noe how 2 spell tis word?" haiz..i wun give in so easily le..alwaz give in 2 u..u tink u e emperor in my family?? bull-shittin!!!!! xams realli stress pple..n makes us even harder 2 control our feelings..am i rite??
hmmm..we gets hot-tempered easily..n harder 2 calm n cool ourselves down..haiz..i guess i did sumthingy wrong again..i tink i made my best fren angry le..she cannot watch e show she wan 2 ..n call mi 2 let out her anger..but i wanted 2 watch so i hang up e conversation wif her..
yun ah..u relax can or nt?? i noe u r nt satisfied tat u cant watch e tv programme..but ji ren li xia is lyk tat..i noe bu hao shou..but u dun wanna go hm oso ar..so all i can sae is bear wif it..i noe angry will tends 2 make u complain a bit..but by complain..hehez..sae truthfully..cant do any help..onli waste ur energy onli..lolx..ren yi ren..i noe u ren veri long le..jus bear wif it till u finished ur o'level ba..
after ur o'level..u will work..n will hav lesser time at hm..so no more qi 2 for u 2 ren le..relax lahz..lolx..when u gets angry..u urself oso bu hao shou de ma..so y nt sae?? i'm lookin 4ward 4 a beta life..i will hav it de..lolx..jus need time onli..so sorrie abt yester oso..i realli wanna watch e show..so i hang up ur call..but then i tried callin u..i noe u dun wanna tok 2 onli..rite?? haiz..i noe u still angry..jus relax..i wun blame u de..lolx..
gtg 2 prepare my hsitory le..take care guys*
*i jus dun understand y pple gets upset n angry so easily..i cant stand my didi anymore..when u pls sum1 2 do sumthingy..wat type of tone shld u use?? lyk tat?? "hey bitch..how 2 spell tis word?" or "can i noe how 2 spell tis word?" haiz..i wun give in so easily le..alwaz give in 2 u..u tink u e emperor in my family?? bull-shittin!!!!! xams realli stress pple..n makes us even harder 2 control our feelings..am i rite??
hmmm..we gets hot-tempered easily..n harder 2 calm n cool ourselves down..haiz..i guess i did sumthingy wrong again..i tink i made my best fren angry le..she cannot watch e show she wan 2 ..n call mi 2 let out her anger..but i wanted 2 watch so i hang up e conversation wif her..
yun ah..u relax can or nt?? i noe u r nt satisfied tat u cant watch e tv programme..but ji ren li xia is lyk tat..i noe bu hao shou..but u dun wanna go hm oso ar..so all i can sae is bear wif it..i noe angry will tends 2 make u complain a bit..but by complain..hehez..sae truthfully..cant do any help..onli waste ur energy onli..lolx..ren yi ren..i noe u ren veri long le..jus bear wif it till u finished ur o'level ba..
after ur o'level..u will work..n will hav lesser time at hm..so no more qi 2 for u 2 ren le..relax lahz..lolx..when u gets angry..u urself oso bu hao shou de ma..so y nt sae?? i'm lookin 4ward 4 a beta life..i will hav it de..lolx..jus need time onli..so sorrie abt yester oso..i realli wanna watch e show..so i hang up ur call..but then i tried callin u..i noe u dun wanna tok 2 onli..rite?? haiz..i noe u still angry..jus relax..i wun blame u de..lolx..
gtg 2 prepare my hsitory le..take care guys*
Sunday, November 14, 2004
*in a fool mood now*
in a foul mood now....*haiz..yester nite..so called quarrelled wif my dear..cos he wanna buy e gb pre-paid card 4 my didi when he gets his pay..realli veri angry..cos i tink is a waste of money doin tis..he promised mi tat he wun but it anymore de..y mus lyk tat?? u promised my didi u mus fulfill...then wat abt e promises u made 2 mi?? izzit simply jus empty promises?? izzit?? haiz..after tinkin..i feel tat i shouldnt hav force him 2 do thingys tat he hate 2 do..tis is too selfish le..wateva u wanna do..if u feel tat is alrite..go ahead n do ba..i wun obstruct ur decision de..dun worry abt tat..haiz..sae veri easy lahz..wanna fulfill n force myself 2 do it realli tough sia..
haiz..but i will try my veri best 2 do even tough it is tough 2 b fulfilled..cos u my dear ma..i realli lurve u a lot..n will do anythingy jus 4 ur sake..aiya..my hand still achin sia..lolx..but then swimmin is a gd exercise..i realised tat it can help whiten e mosquito scars on my hands n legs..lolx..but i tink can onli go swimmin wif yun le..cos my dear workin le..no time 2 pei mi..onli got time 2 pei money$$..lolx..hahaz..kiddin lahz..i can understand de..nvm lohz..hahaz..anw..when my xam finishes..i will go work oso..so we will b busied wif our own thingys..but my heart will alwaz b there dear!!
haiz..i simply dun understand y i got such a didi..so kao bei..anythingy oso wanna voice out his comments..summore wun even consider whether his comment is useful or useless..haiz..realli sickenin..sae mi sore loser..kaoz..u veri gd mehz?? u hav no rites 2 kao bei mi lahz..xiao kao bei..argh..make my blood wanna boil till 1000degree celusis le lahz..shut ur ass lahz..hear ur voice oso feel uneasy ar..argh..anw..i wun b as PETTY as my brother de..so i wun care wat he sae..jus in a foul mood 2dae..dun provoke mi..or evn try 2 test my patience..gtg liao le..
take care guys*
Saturday, November 13, 2004
*wah kaoz..my hand achin sia..*
wah kaoz.. my hand is aching sia.... *wah kaoz ar..2dae soooooo early go swimmin sia..wakey at 6.30am..n left e hse at 7am sharp 2 meet yun then go meet dear at delta swimmin complex..lolx..8am sharp when e swimmin complex jus open..we jump in2 e cold pool n swim..hahaz..go big pool lehz..sooooo deep sia..i jus realised tat i realli veri short sia..sobx sobx..hehez..hmmm..tat lazyboi of mine..ask us go swimmin..then end up he slp at e pool..lolx..mao mao[my didi] n yun he hao le..tat time they quarrelled over stupid thingy online sia..cant stand them..lolx..quite enjoyable 2dae..cos e lazyger hu dunoe how 2 swim managed 2 learn breaststroke le..wah kaoz..but my hand veri pain ar!!!!!!!!
it is achin lyk hell..came hm at around 12pm sharp..supposed every saturdae will watch meteor garden 1 de..but too tired liao le..went 2 slp at 1pm..till 4++ then wakey..when wakey tat time my hand lyk paralysed..veri pain sia..lyk cannot move lyk tat..hahaz(^.^)..hmmm..next tuesdae havin history..but i haven start 2 study yet..oh no!!!!!!!!!!!!! no time le lahz..hahaz(^.^")..ears oso veri pain..i tink dear a bit sad..coz he actuall wan onli e both of us 2 go swimmin de..then end up..i asked my best fren, yun n my didi 2 go..aiyo..after xams then go wif u dear..so sorrie..hmmm..gtg le..rest awhile wanna settle down n study le..take care guys*
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