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face the reality, face the fact...

it's been few days since i last update.. well, i'm just too TIRED and too LAZY to update.. cause i know once i turn on the computer and log on to my blogger.. i will feel like talking about that incident.. and i really wish i can bring out some happy things on my blog..

Monday - was on PH today.. stayed at home cause i was really TIRED.. feel so bad that i fly Calvan aeroplane.. he took leave on purpose for me and yet i didnt go out with him.. just NOT in the MOOD to do anything.. so stayed at home.. slack around and took afternoon nap as well.. cause i'm just too TIRED after crying SO MUCH yesterday...

Tuesday - on afternoon shift today.. couldnt sleep well last night.. i think maybe because i slept too much yesterday and at the same time too troubled ba.. didnt have much happening.. was just blindly chiong-ing skills like mad.. Woanlan sms me also.. thanks for all your concern girl!! you have been a great support to me!! thanks a lot! :D

Wednesday - on morning shift today.. really really TIRED.. but thinking of going to watch movie after work makes me more ENERGETIC! chiong skills like mad.. running here and there.. and Mdm Syamalla came.. and told us that if we cant complete our critical skills and attain 75% of our skills, we'll fail our posting! gosh manz! this is a real threaten manz! finished work at 3pm, and had my shower in the hospital.. then went to meet Calvan.. he supposed to pick me at ttsh but his car broke down.. end up, have to go by public transport.. headed to Toa Poyah for some food and left for PS.. went to walk around and had our dinner at Sakae Sushi.. eat very very little.. for the first time, my appetite is so BAD even though i'm eating my favourite food.. went to watch "Money not enough 2".. super TOUCHING!! and NICE!! and reminds me of my ah ma and my mom.. well.. i'm just too EMO lahz.. and talked to Ben Ben too.. thanks for listening to my grumble and trying to divert my attention to other things.. thanks a lot!! :D

Today - WORSE day of all among the 2 weeks in 12C! been very very BUSY since early morning.. bed making, bathe patients, do dressings, hypocount, insulin injection.... till i only have my break at 1pm!!!! my gosh!! lolx.. really HUNGRY but thank god didnt faint lahz huh.. i just dont know why.. usually this kind of situation, i will go hypo.. but this time didnt.. prayers enough lahz huh!! hahaz.. waited for Amanda to finish work at 4pm.. then went to out patient pharmacy and stroll one round.. get some medication and stuff.. then headed home.. really TIRED now..

it's been FOUR days already.. and things arent getting better i guess.. i have been so AFRAID to stay at home nowadays.. i just dont know why.. maybe i just feel like running away from the fact ba.. hais! just hope this can be resolved soon..