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平常心.......

slept till 1.30pm today.. and i decided to ROT at HOME today.. grandma called and asked if i want to tag along her to go visiting.. but, i was TOO TIRED.. didnt want to go anywhere today.. so i have chosen to stay home today.. didnt sleep well for the past 2days.. and lao zhen.. now my neck cant turn to the right.. so PAINFUL!! had seaweed chicken and honey water as my breakfast and lunch.. then just eat some pineapple tarts while watching tv..

then had my shower and did my morning prayers.. Xianyun called and ask me if i want to join her and the npcc peeps for dinner.. after thinking.. i decided not to.. really TIRED. think it would be better for me to stay home to conserve my energy.. been thinking so much today.. ya.. i'm such a fool.. like what many people has said.. and saw that mom has removed all my photos with him.. ya.. i know mom is determined to get him out of my mind.. ya.. think is time to do something about it..

like what mom says.. i deserve better guys.. and think i really look forward to my next relationship and hopes it will last till me and him will get marry and stuff.. shall not talk so much about this.. let nature takes its course.. and concentrate on my studies now.. dinner with mom and didi just now.. had chicken rice and oyster egg just now.. and through out the dinner.. mom and didi was talking about him.. like putting salt on my wound.. well.. it will heal someday.. Prisicilla called just now to tell me about the gathering tomorrow at Bingyuan's place.. still thinking whether i should go or not.. cause monday is back to hospital again...

平常心 by 张惠妹

街道静的刺耳
夜被路灯染色
趁感伤醒来前
先上车不会不舍
承认我是弱者
不敢再对爱假设
我真的累得不想再拉扯

我寻找的平静
是我将来看电影
带着一颗平常心
不必为谁心碎闭上眼睛
我需要的平静
是敢回头看曾经
那些为爱患得患失的情景
我选择忘记
我不懂得取舍
才让心痛堆着
找得到前些年
的快乐只是偶尔
回忆是个诱饵
是来叫我回去的
要伤能愈合
我非走不可