[ i know i am touched... ]

i know i am touched....

work afternoon shift today.. woke up at 10am and saw that Dad really went to work.. so i sms and persuaded him to go to the A&E to consult a doctor.. see if there's a need to be hospitalised for further investgation or need any specialist reference.. and really.. i did managed to PERSUADE him..

physically was at work.. but spirtually not.. was so WORRIED for my Dad.. and didi just get me on FIRE when he call during my working hours for STUPID questions.. told teacher about it.. and he said sorry for neglecting me in terms of my skills.. ya.. say truthfully.. i'm really being neglected badly in this posting.. till now, i have only been assess ONCE by this teacher.. i'm sure i am PROACTIVE enough.. but GOD isnt on my side.. everytime i want to do skills, teacher isnt around.. and so unlucky.. it's always critical skill that teacher MUST assess.. hais!

dinner was at 4.30pm today.. had niang dou fu with mom and didi.. dad was in the observation ward.. he has to stay there for 6hours for observation.. after SWALLOWING all my food down, i went to A&E to look for dad.. went in and took a look at him.. he looks quite okie to me and eating the porriage give to him.. was HAPPY to hear that he actually feel better after the jab doctor has given to him..

then i went back to work.. feel quite HAPPY working with SN Anna and AN Ariel.. they are so FAST in their work.. and this SN is good.. she even helps us in doing change... i cant imagine that i can clear all the food trays for 18persons within 15minutes and chart all the I/O.. i am SUPER to take charge 18patients while my 3friends went for break.. my FIRST time doing this without anyone's help and it really leaves me with a sense of FULFILLMENT after completing the task.. and saw this message from "SOMEONE".. shall not mentioned who he is...

"I miss you.. I regret saying those hasty words to break up with you.. When i know you got a new boyfriend, my life crumbled.. I didnt know you can get over it so fast.. Till now I cant get over it.. Everywhere I go reminds me of our past.. I was thinking of asking you to give me a chance to love you truely with me whole heart again? This is what I want to say..... "

It SHOCKS me when i saw this sms from this person.. i didnt know after so long.. he still cant get over it.. and the first thing that came into my mind was FEAR.. the FEAR to be loved and the FEAR to love.. i think i'm seriously not PREPARE for anything now.. except my studies, my gakkai activities, my red cross... NOTHING else.. finished work at 9pm and went to A&E to look for mom and didi.. after which, doctor came to make rounds and said that dad can go home.. is a GOOD NEWS.. but, at the same time, i am worried.. WORRIED to lose another loved one.....

this is quite meaningful...

" A girl and a guy can be just friends but at one point, they willl fall for each other.... maybe TEMPORARILY, maybe AT THE WRONG TIME, maybe TOO LATE, maybe FOREVER.."