[ my confidence level has dropped! ]

my confidence level has dropped!

afternoon shift today.. didi know his posting results today! he's posted to TP, chemical engineering.. so HAPPY for him.. good also.. Raymond will become his senior.. anything got people can help him.. am HAPPY for Joyce and Daphne also.. they can be posted to nursing also.. but Daphne will continue with nursing.. as for Joyce.. heard that she's quitting nursing.. anyway, still hope for the best for her!

really STRESSFUL lately.. and after hearing what that "someone" told me.. i think my STRESS level goes higher.. looking through my log book.. i realised teacher only assess me ONCE for skills.. REALLY STRESSFUL.. Mdm Tan popped in suddenly to our ward.. my GODNESS! got a SCARE! luckily she ask question i can answer, if not sure gana MARKED!

dinner was at 4.30.. went break with Davinder, Puspa and Vicky.. had fried fish beehoon soup.. during the breaktime itself, we were discussing about the skills we havent do.. then, we decided to have a talk with teacher.. i just feel so STRESSED! i'm really WORRIED they i will have to repeat this term and need to pay back the money.. and i CRIED.. this is the FIRST time after so long that i cried during the posting..

back to work.. i charted all the i/o charts by myself and keep away all the trays for all 18patients.. work is quite heavy today but luckily, get to sit down and read the case notes.. got to do something before the deadline of submittion is drawing near.. tired.. got to rest..

morning shift tomorrow! gosh!~