[ if you are not the one..... ]

if you are not the one......

i seriously got insufficient amount of sleep last night.. i went to my bedroom at 10plus last night.. hoping to have a good sleep so as to feel refresh today.. then i only managed to go into my lala land at about 11plus.. and was awaken by a friend's phone call.. dont wish to mention who that person is.. BUT.. this call really come UNEXPECTEDLY!!!..

friend ask me if i am sleeping.. actually i am lahz.. but happened to wake up and read sms.. and i can sense something is wrong with friend.. therefore, i have chosen to lie to friend that i arent sleeping.. friend told me friend got some problem with friend's relationship.. and i told friend actually i knew it days ago.. i can sense that something is wrong.. BUT, didnt know things was that bad.. sometimes, 爱或不爱只在一线之隔.... nobody knows when the feeling will just go away..

it can be quite CRUEL.. to hear that someone who you love just tell you at the face that he/she dont love you anymore.. just simply because no feelings lohz or feelings arent the same anymore.. anyway, friend isnt the first person that i met is like that lahz.. people i have good impressions of will say such things too.. 我真的听不下去... 难道人与人之间的感情就那么经不起考验吗？though i advise friend to say it out friend's thoughts to be FAIR.. but in my heart, i really pity that victim.. putting the victim situation in my shoes, i think i wont be able to take it too!!.. BUT... i would hope my boyfriend will be trueful to me to tell me the truth.. cause i believe that if you try not to hurt someone, the hurt you will cause might be bigger than you think..

that was just part of the BIG thing.. friend continued to tell me that there an extra feeling toward somebody else.. hais! this is the 晴天霹雳 part! i felt as though lightning strikes! cant imagine that things are happening this way.. HAIS! what to do? i just a 旁观者... no rights to comment.. hais! talked with friend for almost 2hours till 3am.. then went back to sleep.. seriously couldnt sleep after hearing what friend said.. hais! and i even cried.. i think i am too worried about it.. and suddenly, i felt that i have been through such situation.. really very 难受! hais! why have things turned out this way ar? 天意弄人啊！

alarm clock rang at 5.20am and i woke up to get ready myself.. showered and did morning prayers.. then left home and took 969 to Tampines.. met Stella at 7.15am for breakfast.. had sausage mcmuffin with egg, hashbrown and ice milo.. my gastric is PROTESTING!! 胃好痛！hais.. i also dont know what happened and why am i that AFFECTED? maybe i'm just worried about friend ba..

talking about today.. am happy that i went back to SK with Stella for the Children's Day celebration.. we had games day!!:D really had lots of FUN! the children saying "thank you jie jie", "i like you, jie jie" and many many HUGS! i just feel so much better after that.. and that moment, i really forget about friend's problem.. the kids were CUTE! just plain CUTE!! :D saw Eveleign today.. she's so CUTE! give me kiss and hug me too! :D

whether is it the K1 i took in the morning or the Nursery kids i took in the afternoon, they just LOVE me!! hahaz! i am not being thick-skinned.. BUT, they really LOVE me.. i can hear "jie jie" resounding in my ears! hahaz! went home at about 4pm.. took 969 and i really KNOCKED OFF! just too too TOO TIRED! and reached home at about 5pm.. nap till dinner time then i wake up.. too TIRED liao.. already not sleeping enough and somemore play whole day with those energetic kids.. i just CANT deny that i am getting old......

the coaches there were cool.. actually i dont really like that Mr Aw lahz.. since the open house, i kind of dislike him.. BUT Mr Soon was cute!:D Stella, i know you will continue to tease me! :P am TIRED today.. friend's problem keep resounding in my head.. i really hope i can help friend and lighten his load on this problem..

friend, no matter what happened.. remember there's always listening ear for you here okie? like i said, i'll be here to support you no matter what decision you made.. just like what you told me, "shout my name and i'll be there"! jiayou le friend..i hope to see the cheerful you again! smile OKIE? :D

If you are not the one by Daniel Bedingfield

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i


it really express how i feel..