[ when you fell deep down... ]

when you fell deep down...

i welcomed a new day with my whole body aching.. one day of infant and adult choking, infant cpr have almost turned my whole immune system upside down.. well, i cant deny that i am getting older day by day.. and i am no longer than strong before.. no more intensive physical training that i used to had when i was in my secondary school days.. i just fall sick too easily recently.. still having miagraine though my flu has got away from me..

started off with my Mac breakfast as my first meal of the day.. been a long time since i last ate Mac breakfast.. but now, i learnt to be more obedient.. drank hot milo instead of cold milo.. lolx! :D BCLS.. one man cpr and 2-man cpr demo was quite okie.. but the hands-on part almost wanted my life.. compression was too shallow cause my wrist is aching.. and that i had hurt both my wrist before.. compression didnt have relaxation in between.. my graph just look terrible! after doing 4 rounds of practice, managed to make it better..

then was 2-man cpr practice.. screwed up the first one cause we didnt know the sequencing well enough.. but Shiffa and i managed to make it through the second one.. then was break for lunch.. had nasi lemak and ribena to build up more energy.. then was our theory test.. hais.. after discussing answers, i think i only get one mistake.. here comes the nightmare.. went in, did one round and it was HORRIBLE.. then Ms Juiliana gave me another choice and wanted to threw my first graph away.. BUT.. Mdm Le stepped in.. i knew i am dead.. she said 2nd try means 2 attempts liao.. which means my A will be gone..

hais! i cried!! cried like mad.. cried for more than an hour.. i just cant stop thinking that my gpa will drop!! hais.. i'm just too worried that i cant make it for my 2.2.. it's my last sememster le.. i dont wish anything bad to happened.. went in.. *gosh*.. this time round is Mdm Mages.. i must grateful to her i guess.. i managed to make it through.. by the time, i do with her my last attempt.. i'm already really TIRED.. and my back starting to ache.. my wrist and palm are already red and swollen liao..

Mdm Mages was right.. our class is too into our marks.. really competitive class.. but, cant be help too.. the working society outside look at your marks! it is not that we want to be competitive.. hais.. there goes my A.. i really dont wish to see my gpa dropping in my last sememster.. hais! i'm just so disappointed with myself.. what to do.. i guess i didnt pray hard enough.. hais.. although whether you are a good nurse or not doesnt depend on your grades, i really need that grades to make it through for my poly enrollment.. hais..

i just need to cool down and take a break..


read through her blog and saw her how much she have gone through with YOU.. only going to 3months only and YOU are already doing this to her.. meet her 2weeks once.. YOU never changed!! well, a leopard will never change its spots.. and as usual, dragging your friends down together during your date with her.. I am UPSET cause i just feel that YOU dont deserve any true love!! you dont deserve any love!! YOU just deserve to be living ALONE FOREVER!! although she might not be a good girl, BUT, i still feel that it's your PROBLEM and she dont have to gone through this with YOU! can YOU wake up your idea? can YOU stop hurting another person just like how you hurt me? HATE YOU HATE YOU HATE YOU!!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!! i guess you wont be able to find someone who can tolerate your nonsense till the last minute and dare not even scold you? i cant believe she can scold YOU on her blog! i guess i didnt even have the courage to do this when i was with YOU.. i just only grumble behind your back.. BUT, i am glad.. after 9months plus le, i didnt regret even for one second that i have left YOU.. though our break-up wasnt a clear one, but i am grateful that YOU left me so that i can get out of the suffering.. i must thank YOU huh! GET LOST ba! and stop hurting her le..