boring.....
it's wednesday!! i'm left with about one week plus left before i start my attachment!! oh man! was pretty tired after yesterday's bbq at east coast park.. mom's only home in the morning.. she will be going to work in the afternoon.. no home-cooked food despite it being a wednesday.. cause mom's working..
went to meet xianyun at vivo.. i left home around 2pm and took bus 855 to vivo city.. reached just on the dot.. was pretty tired actually.. but she say she didnt want to go home after school.. so she suggested to meet up to grab a bite or go shop shop around.. we went to the kopitium at vivo and grab something to eat.. she ate fried hokkien noodles and i had pig stomach soup..
after which.. we went to superdog and bought a spicy bacon meal with a ice lemon tea and beef fries.. well.. it's quite nice actually... just that it's a bit too expensive.. we sat down and xianyun took out the birthday card she bought for marvin.. and told me to write my greetings to him.. was like kind of dont know what to do.. though i know marvin since secondary school.. i didnt really know him in depth.. so writing him a card is so DIFFICULT!! lolx.. was thinking, pausing and writing.. and xianyun actually laughed at me..
she asked me to think through how i get to know him.. seriously.. i dont remember!! hahaz.. kind of having STM!! short-term memory.. wahahaz.. so lucky.. managed to write something.. at least.. hahaz.. was feeling a bit cold so we went out and xianyun say she want to go to supermarket there.. hmmm.. was looking through what she should get for saturday's steamboat session at her house.. i'll be having study meeting that night!! OH MAN!! i just hope i can go!! if not, xianyun will KILL me!! hahaz..
then went to buy ice-cream.. xianyun had lemon ice-cream and i had mango ice-cream... hmmm.. it isnt as nice as it seems to be.. the one at novena square is still a BETTER choice.. i will eat it more often when i got for my attachment at ttsh!! wahahaz! will definitely grow FATTER.. oh man!! not any further.. seriously NOT!
was having a bit of sore throat.. think it's because of the bbq food yesterday.. oh no! i dont want to fall sick.. it will be a waste of time to fall sick during holidays.. will have lesser time to PLAY.. hahaz..at around 6pm, i went to work and xianyun went to orchard to meet marvin.. went back from work at around 8pm... was having miagraine.. and i couldnt concentrate.. only managed to get one appointment that night.. but zhi hao kor kor say it's very good already.. cause i wasnt feeling well.. so NICE of him.. jeslyn jie not around.. he actually sent me down from the office.. thank you!
called mom and meet her yishun mrt.. she's also on her way home after work.. well, it's just another TIRING day!
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
[JN0704C class gathering!!]
JN0704C class gathering!!
today... as usual.. woke up at 10plus.. actually was awaken at 5plus.. didi go to school... 6plus.. mom go to work.. then 7plus again.. dad left for work.. then called daryl also.. he going to school.. then i happily still sleeping in my cosy bed.. woke up... did my morning prayers and had my shower.. after which.. went to brother's room to use the com and on the tv...
went out of the house at around 12pm.. meeting Douglas and Farhan at Bedok mrt control at 1pm to go to Joyce house.. me and Douglas were a bit late.. and poor Farhan.. have to wait for us there.. SORRY! after which, we took bus 222 to her house.. lazy her.. didnt even want to come to the bus stop to pick us.. called her and she asked us to just go up her flat ourselves.. luckily, i still know the way.. didnt walk with her blindly yesterday.. if not, she sure have to come down.. hahaz.. went to her house.. and survey her house a bit before we left her house for East Coast Park.. we are expecting that Nad and Hazwan will definitely be late.. so the EARLY us just slack a bit..
with both our hands OCCUPIED.. we went down from her house to hire a cab.. cant AFFORD to take bus.. everything is so heavy.. 10 bottles of 1.5litres's soft drinks.. potato salad.. tibits and stuff.. and many many more..... we dropped at car park C and walked to all the way to our pitch - 27C... the weather is TERRIBLY HOT!!! when we reached the bbq pitch, me and Joyce set off to Parkway Parade to get the ice box and Hadi's birthday cake.. the wather is so HOT.. i mean WARM!! hahaz... it took us about half an hour to walk to Parkway Parade.. along the way.. we chatted..
reached Parkway market and bought my favourite peppermint milk tea.. and Joyce bought peach green tea for herself.. helped Farhan and Douglas to buy their bubble tea too!! after which.. we went to Parkway Parade shopping centre to shop and hunt for Hadi's birthday cake.. after much consideration, we bought a cake at black forest cake from Breadtalk with a 40% discount.. hahaz.. great budget! after which, we went to get the icebox and some plates and satay sticks with the nearby NTUC.. luckily Douglas sms just in time to ask us to buy.. if not we'll be walking into the underpass already..
went back there and went to find place to put the cake.. we are so LUCKY.. managed to freeze our cake at Mac cafe.. the guys there are so KIND.. hahaz.. and went to GANG 5kg ice.. was kind of ANGRY.. cause the guys arent helping much! was carrying the 5kg ice and nad called to ask if need to buy ice not.. saying tat vin can helped.. i was like kind of angry.. i only 2more steps away from the pitch then say got people willing to help.. is it a bit too late?? feel so bad for Joyce.. i made her so TIRED.. cause was asking her to help me with many stuffs.. SORRY huh!
many people didnt turned up.. and somemore are the ONES who DEMANDED for a class gathering.. well, it might be the first and the last time class committee going to come up with a gathering.. we OVER-SPENT our BUDGET.. cause TOO MANY PEOPLE didnt turn up.. and MANY unexpected ones turned up instead.. some of the girls brought their boyfriends along with them without informing us before hand.. maybe we should make CLEAR something.. it's a CLASS GATHERING!!! but their boyfriends all quite OKIE.. just ONLY one NOT REALLY OKIE de..
really SPOILT my MOOD further.. i almost SLAP him at ECP... i dont want to name out who he is.. and who's boyfriend is that.. people are present should know.. cause, it really makes me CATCH FIRE!! i almost JUMP into the SEA to MIAN DIAO the fire!! hahaz.. and shakinah.. her fiance really very nice.. he insisted on paying for the food though i say dont need.. cause the rest of the girls.. their boyfriends.. super not intiative.. think everything also free.. we dont have FEW MILLIONS inside our class fund okie! .. yupz.. but it's really SO NICE OF HIM.. feel so happy for shakinah to have such a NICE husband in FUTURE!! kekez..
we left the pitch at around 8.15pm.. we managed to CONQUER all the food prepared.. except for the bee hoon nad's mom fried.. it's NICE.. but just cant finished all.. but really thanks nad and her mom a lot.. for SPONSORING the bee hoon!! took 196 with joyce and farhan to bedok.. then at bedok.. taking 67 to tampines.. it's so nice of joyce to wait for the bus with us.. think we spent about 20mins waiting for bus 67.. farhan dropped at tampines safra and walked home.. i went on to tampines.. at tampines interchange.. i spent about 30mins waiting for bus 969..
oh man!! want my life sia... i got no choice to board the bus though it's like so packed.. i STAND all my way home.. sobx(T.T)! managed to get home at 10.30pm.. and mom nagged at me cause it's like a bit too LATE liao..anyway.. really have lots of fun today!! i'm TIRED.. off to sleep~
today... as usual.. woke up at 10plus.. actually was awaken at 5plus.. didi go to school... 6plus.. mom go to work.. then 7plus again.. dad left for work.. then called daryl also.. he going to school.. then i happily still sleeping in my cosy bed.. woke up... did my morning prayers and had my shower.. after which.. went to brother's room to use the com and on the tv...
went out of the house at around 12pm.. meeting Douglas and Farhan at Bedok mrt control at 1pm to go to Joyce house.. me and Douglas were a bit late.. and poor Farhan.. have to wait for us there.. SORRY! after which, we took bus 222 to her house.. lazy her.. didnt even want to come to the bus stop to pick us.. called her and she asked us to just go up her flat ourselves.. luckily, i still know the way.. didnt walk with her blindly yesterday.. if not, she sure have to come down.. hahaz.. went to her house.. and survey her house a bit before we left her house for East Coast Park.. we are expecting that Nad and Hazwan will definitely be late.. so the EARLY us just slack a bit..
with both our hands OCCUPIED.. we went down from her house to hire a cab.. cant AFFORD to take bus.. everything is so heavy.. 10 bottles of 1.5litres's soft drinks.. potato salad.. tibits and stuff.. and many many more..... we dropped at car park C and walked to all the way to our pitch - 27C... the weather is TERRIBLY HOT!!! when we reached the bbq pitch, me and Joyce set off to Parkway Parade to get the ice box and Hadi's birthday cake.. the wather is so HOT.. i mean WARM!! hahaz... it took us about half an hour to walk to Parkway Parade.. along the way.. we chatted..
reached Parkway market and bought my favourite peppermint milk tea.. and Joyce bought peach green tea for herself.. helped Farhan and Douglas to buy their bubble tea too!! after which.. we went to Parkway Parade shopping centre to shop and hunt for Hadi's birthday cake.. after much consideration, we bought a cake at black forest cake from Breadtalk with a 40% discount.. hahaz.. great budget! after which, we went to get the icebox and some plates and satay sticks with the nearby NTUC.. luckily Douglas sms just in time to ask us to buy.. if not we'll be walking into the underpass already..
went back there and went to find place to put the cake.. we are so LUCKY.. managed to freeze our cake at Mac cafe.. the guys there are so KIND.. hahaz.. and went to GANG 5kg ice.. was kind of ANGRY.. cause the guys arent helping much! was carrying the 5kg ice and nad called to ask if need to buy ice not.. saying tat vin can helped.. i was like kind of angry.. i only 2more steps away from the pitch then say got people willing to help.. is it a bit too late?? feel so bad for Joyce.. i made her so TIRED.. cause was asking her to help me with many stuffs.. SORRY huh!
many people didnt turned up.. and somemore are the ONES who DEMANDED for a class gathering.. well, it might be the first and the last time class committee going to come up with a gathering.. we OVER-SPENT our BUDGET.. cause TOO MANY PEOPLE didnt turn up.. and MANY unexpected ones turned up instead.. some of the girls brought their boyfriends along with them without informing us before hand.. maybe we should make CLEAR something.. it's a CLASS GATHERING!!! but their boyfriends all quite OKIE.. just ONLY one NOT REALLY OKIE de..
really SPOILT my MOOD further.. i almost SLAP him at ECP... i dont want to name out who he is.. and who's boyfriend is that.. people are present should know.. cause, it really makes me CATCH FIRE!! i almost JUMP into the SEA to MIAN DIAO the fire!! hahaz.. and shakinah.. her fiance really very nice.. he insisted on paying for the food though i say dont need.. cause the rest of the girls.. their boyfriends.. super not intiative.. think everything also free.. we dont have FEW MILLIONS inside our class fund okie! .. yupz.. but it's really SO NICE OF HIM.. feel so happy for shakinah to have such a NICE husband in FUTURE!! kekez..
we left the pitch at around 8.15pm.. we managed to CONQUER all the food prepared.. except for the bee hoon nad's mom fried.. it's NICE.. but just cant finished all.. but really thanks nad and her mom a lot.. for SPONSORING the bee hoon!! took 196 with joyce and farhan to bedok.. then at bedok.. taking 67 to tampines.. it's so nice of joyce to wait for the bus with us.. think we spent about 20mins waiting for bus 67.. farhan dropped at tampines safra and walked home.. i went on to tampines.. at tampines interchange.. i spent about 30mins waiting for bus 969..
oh man!! want my life sia... i got no choice to board the bus though it's like so packed.. i STAND all my way home.. sobx(T.T)! managed to get home at 10.30pm.. and mom nagged at me cause it's like a bit too LATE liao..anyway.. really have lots of fun today!! i'm TIRED.. off to sleep~
Monday, July 09, 2007
[sheng siong trip]
sheng siong trip
woke up quite early.. was awaken by his call.. yupz.. he start school today liao.. think he's pretty upset with it.. cause we wont be able to spend much time playing and meeting up le.. hahaz.. dont be sad about it lahz.. kekez.. we can always try to plan and work more time for each other de.. meeting the class committee at bedok to buy all the neccessarities for tomorrow's bqq.. i was slightly a bit late... was having lunch with him before i went to meet them at bedok... we took 969 to tampines and from tampines, we took mrt to bedok.. i dropped off and he went on to travel home.. passed by simei ite.. kind of miss school seriously.. wishing that i'll be going back to campus on the 16th instead of to the polyclinic.. yupz.. actually polyclinic not so scary.. it's the 2nd week that will bring me nightmares.. oh man!!
people presented were : Nadiah, Hazwan, Farhan, Joyce and me..... we waited for Joyce to come and we went to the sheng siong supermarket at the bedok interchange.. it was really CROWDED.. and somehow, we just look as though we are 5 country bumpkins going to the supermarket for the first time.. talking really loud and screaming and shouting.. wahahaz...but it's really FUN!! FIRST time go MARKETING with them.. hahaz.. we really VERY AUNTIE!! everything also BUDGET.. everything also find the CHEAPEST!! hahaz...
spend about 40bucks on the necessarites.. then.. we took bus222 to joyce's house.. going to DEPOSIT some dry items at her place.. it's the nearest place to East Coast Park we can find.. THANKS JOYCE!! after which,, we went back to Bedok central.. wanted to grab a bite.. everyone is HUNGRY!! hahaz.. had Long John Silver... after which.. we went on shop shop around.. Hazwan bought a pair of slippers... after which.. we went walking around to hunt a CAKE for Hadi's birthday.. it's TOMORROW.. same day as our BBQ.. just feel a bit MEANINGLESS and UPSET cause Mdm Qian wont be back in Singapore to join us for the bbq.. SOBX (T.T)..
after that.. Nad went to meet her boyfriend and Farhan headed back home.. i accompany Joyce to NTUC to buy some groceries.. she's making POTATO SALAD for us TOMORROW!!! MY FAVOURITE!! *saliva flowing* hahaz.. sound so DISGUSTING of me.. after which.. i took the mrt to tanjong pagar and went to work.. kind of TIRED.. but. no choice.. have to go work.. cause i wont be going tomorrow.. will be meeting them quite early to get the things done before they come... oh man!!.......
woke up quite early.. was awaken by his call.. yupz.. he start school today liao.. think he's pretty upset with it.. cause we wont be able to spend much time playing and meeting up le.. hahaz.. dont be sad about it lahz.. kekez.. we can always try to plan and work more time for each other de.. meeting the class committee at bedok to buy all the neccessarities for tomorrow's bqq.. i was slightly a bit late... was having lunch with him before i went to meet them at bedok... we took 969 to tampines and from tampines, we took mrt to bedok.. i dropped off and he went on to travel home.. passed by simei ite.. kind of miss school seriously.. wishing that i'll be going back to campus on the 16th instead of to the polyclinic.. yupz.. actually polyclinic not so scary.. it's the 2nd week that will bring me nightmares.. oh man!!
people presented were : Nadiah, Hazwan, Farhan, Joyce and me..... we waited for Joyce to come and we went to the sheng siong supermarket at the bedok interchange.. it was really CROWDED.. and somehow, we just look as though we are 5 country bumpkins going to the supermarket for the first time.. talking really loud and screaming and shouting.. wahahaz...but it's really FUN!! FIRST time go MARKETING with them.. hahaz.. we really VERY AUNTIE!! everything also BUDGET.. everything also find the CHEAPEST!! hahaz...
spend about 40bucks on the necessarites.. then.. we took bus222 to joyce's house.. going to DEPOSIT some dry items at her place.. it's the nearest place to East Coast Park we can find.. THANKS JOYCE!! after which,, we went back to Bedok central.. wanted to grab a bite.. everyone is HUNGRY!! hahaz.. had Long John Silver... after which.. we went on shop shop around.. Hazwan bought a pair of slippers... after which.. we went walking around to hunt a CAKE for Hadi's birthday.. it's TOMORROW.. same day as our BBQ.. just feel a bit MEANINGLESS and UPSET cause Mdm Qian wont be back in Singapore to join us for the bbq.. SOBX (T.T)..
after that.. Nad went to meet her boyfriend and Farhan headed back home.. i accompany Joyce to NTUC to buy some groceries.. she's making POTATO SALAD for us TOMORROW!!! MY FAVOURITE!! *saliva flowing* hahaz.. sound so DISGUSTING of me.. after which.. i took the mrt to tanjong pagar and went to work.. kind of TIRED.. but. no choice.. have to go work.. cause i wont be going tomorrow.. will be meeting them quite early to get the things done before they come... oh man!!.......
Saturday, July 07, 2007
[ssa 40th anniversary]
ssa 40th anniversary
today is SSA's 40th anniversary.. year 1967 till now.. 40years has passed by so fast.. time waits for no man!! woke up and went to the market with mom and didi.. went to the dry market to get some groceries.. and went to coffeeshop to have our breakfast.. and guess what we saw?? people putting their bets for illegal 4D.. oh man!! i have yet to call the police.. think this is not the first time already.. and.. people just dont know how to read the sign "NO SMOKING".. in coffeeshop.. seats at the corner is smoking area..whereas those inside or right in front is NO SMOKING area.. i'm happy EATING and in front of me.. few of those uncilivised uncles are smoking!! oh man!! not afraid lung cancer... ARGH!~
went home and had my shower and did my morning prayers.. after which, i took bus 851 to bugis.. going to work.. but somehow, the traffic at thomson and novena area isnt moving that smoothly.. and i'm LATE!! sms-ed Jeslyn jie to tell her i'll be late for work.. and so coincidentally.. she just finished her appointment with her cilent and is at bugis TOO! so, she waited for me and the bus stop i'm alighting.. when i'm alighting, bus 145 is just right behind.. thank godness.. we dont have to wait for bus..
both of us are really pretty tired! think i PLAYED too much nowadays and she WORKED too hard.. hahaz.. see the difference.. i'm TIRED because i'm spending my days PLAYING!! she's TIRED because she's spending her time WORKING!! was yawning our way throughout.. Jeslyn jie is real cute.. she's a PEEPING TOM!! she peeps into people's newspaper.. hahaz.. at first, i thought what happened.. i realised her head slanting to my shoulder.. i thought she has fallen asleep.. end up.. the reason is because she's looking at the newspaper in front of her.. she's trying to see what's the headline news.. lolx.. so cute of her...
we dropped at the bus stop at amara hotel and decided to grab something to eat and drink.. drinking and eating cure BOREDOM.. hahaz... she brought me to grab some MUFFINS!!! i had double chocolate and cheese muffins.. and a cup of lime juice.. REAL REAL NICE!! must try! Jeslyn jie met some nasty cilents that really spoilt her saturday afternoon.. one minute say free to meet up.. another minute say cannot.. luckily, zhihao kor kor called her.. at least i can see her smiling when talking to her boyfriend..
intend to work till 6pm before i go meet mom and didi at kallang.. BUT..... since Jeslyn jie is leaving at 5pm, i also try to eat snake.. went to tiong to meet daryl to grab a bite.. ate taiwan's oyster mee sian.. then went to walk around before taking the mrt to kallang.. he dropped at lavender.. cause mom and didi already reached kallang le.. didnt want them to knock into each other..
intend to bus11 into SIS (singapore indoor stadium).. BUT.. that stupid bus doesnt seems to come.. luckily we managed to grab a cab.. reached SIS around 7plus.. and saw shanice at the north entrance.. she REBONDED her LONG hair.. NICE NICE.. and went on to proceed to south entrance.. was pretty cold inside the indoor stadium.. saw jiu jian, zhu yong qing and ye li mei.. they sang songs to entertain the audience before the actual performance starts..
lots of lots of speechs by YMD chief, YWD chief, youth chief, GD Ong.... and awards presentation too.. the actual performance started around 8plus.. saw ming liang, pinwen, gilbert, raymond.... they are at the performing ground.. performing wushu.. and there was a march pass session too.. saw many sk kids.. they are REAL CUTE!! with mrs wong, wu lao shi and mrs tay..... and saw eunice jie performing for the ywd mass dance item...
the whole performance ended at around 10plus.. intend to buy the anniversary gift de.. but mom seems to be in a rush.. she want to get home as quickly as possible.. cause she's working tomorrow afternoon.. walked all the way to kallang mrt.. and managed to get a cab there.. the traffic was quite jammed at kallang.. and at CTE area.. maybe because the ndp performance at marina that just ended.. managed to reach home at around 11plus.. and had my dinner.. mom cooked lotus soup.. *yum yum* and ate some rice and veggies.. and ate chicken feet..
suddenly.. i thought of my tai po.. my great grandmother.. if she knows how cold i am towards my mama.. will she be angry?? if she knows how mama treats me, how they bad mouth about me, will she xin teng me?? tai po.. i really miss the days you're still around...........
today is SSA's 40th anniversary.. year 1967 till now.. 40years has passed by so fast.. time waits for no man!! woke up and went to the market with mom and didi.. went to the dry market to get some groceries.. and went to coffeeshop to have our breakfast.. and guess what we saw?? people putting their bets for illegal 4D.. oh man!! i have yet to call the police.. think this is not the first time already.. and.. people just dont know how to read the sign "NO SMOKING".. in coffeeshop.. seats at the corner is smoking area..whereas those inside or right in front is NO SMOKING area.. i'm happy EATING and in front of me.. few of those uncilivised uncles are smoking!! oh man!! not afraid lung cancer... ARGH!~
went home and had my shower and did my morning prayers.. after which, i took bus 851 to bugis.. going to work.. but somehow, the traffic at thomson and novena area isnt moving that smoothly.. and i'm LATE!! sms-ed Jeslyn jie to tell her i'll be late for work.. and so coincidentally.. she just finished her appointment with her cilent and is at bugis TOO! so, she waited for me and the bus stop i'm alighting.. when i'm alighting, bus 145 is just right behind.. thank godness.. we dont have to wait for bus..
both of us are really pretty tired! think i PLAYED too much nowadays and she WORKED too hard.. hahaz.. see the difference.. i'm TIRED because i'm spending my days PLAYING!! she's TIRED because she's spending her time WORKING!! was yawning our way throughout.. Jeslyn jie is real cute.. she's a PEEPING TOM!! she peeps into people's newspaper.. hahaz.. at first, i thought what happened.. i realised her head slanting to my shoulder.. i thought she has fallen asleep.. end up.. the reason is because she's looking at the newspaper in front of her.. she's trying to see what's the headline news.. lolx.. so cute of her...
we dropped at the bus stop at amara hotel and decided to grab something to eat and drink.. drinking and eating cure BOREDOM.. hahaz... she brought me to grab some MUFFINS!!! i had double chocolate and cheese muffins.. and a cup of lime juice.. REAL REAL NICE!! must try! Jeslyn jie met some nasty cilents that really spoilt her saturday afternoon.. one minute say free to meet up.. another minute say cannot.. luckily, zhihao kor kor called her.. at least i can see her smiling when talking to her boyfriend..
intend to work till 6pm before i go meet mom and didi at kallang.. BUT..... since Jeslyn jie is leaving at 5pm, i also try to eat snake.. went to tiong to meet daryl to grab a bite.. ate taiwan's oyster mee sian.. then went to walk around before taking the mrt to kallang.. he dropped at lavender.. cause mom and didi already reached kallang le.. didnt want them to knock into each other..
intend to bus11 into SIS (singapore indoor stadium).. BUT.. that stupid bus doesnt seems to come.. luckily we managed to grab a cab.. reached SIS around 7plus.. and saw shanice at the north entrance.. she REBONDED her LONG hair.. NICE NICE.. and went on to proceed to south entrance.. was pretty cold inside the indoor stadium.. saw jiu jian, zhu yong qing and ye li mei.. they sang songs to entertain the audience before the actual performance starts..
lots of lots of speechs by YMD chief, YWD chief, youth chief, GD Ong.... and awards presentation too.. the actual performance started around 8plus.. saw ming liang, pinwen, gilbert, raymond.... they are at the performing ground.. performing wushu.. and there was a march pass session too.. saw many sk kids.. they are REAL CUTE!! with mrs wong, wu lao shi and mrs tay..... and saw eunice jie performing for the ywd mass dance item...
the whole performance ended at around 10plus.. intend to buy the anniversary gift de.. but mom seems to be in a rush.. she want to get home as quickly as possible.. cause she's working tomorrow afternoon.. walked all the way to kallang mrt.. and managed to get a cab there.. the traffic was quite jammed at kallang.. and at CTE area.. maybe because the ndp performance at marina that just ended.. managed to reach home at around 11plus.. and had my dinner.. mom cooked lotus soup.. *yum yum* and ate some rice and veggies.. and ate chicken feet..
suddenly.. i thought of my tai po.. my great grandmother.. if she knows how cold i am towards my mama.. will she be angry?? if she knows how mama treats me, how they bad mouth about me, will she xin teng me?? tai po.. i really miss the days you're still around...........
Friday, July 06, 2007
[my RESULTS]
my RESULTS
it's FRIDAY.. so FAST!! 3rd week of my holidays is almost GONE!! as usual.. woke up at about 9.30am in the morning.. was actually awaken by Nad's sms.. she's asking me if i have check my results... so i woke up and on my com to check my results.. YES!! Nursing A, Bioscience B.. GPA 3.556!!!!! HURRAY!!!
did my morning prayers and again.. on my tv and computer again.. was trying badly to finish blogging.. but somehow, i cant really fulfill it.. got lots of things to blog.. but yet, i doesnt have the will to finish it.. waited till about 12pm and give mom a call.. intend to have lunch together with her.. eating food alone is boring.. i dont really like this kind of feeling.. kekez..
meet mom at Yishun mrt control at around1plus coming to 2.. then.. we took the underpass to Northpoint.. we just need some air-conditioned places to enjoy our meal.. the weather out there is so HOT!! hahaz.. i mean WARM.. heez=] and.. mom suggested to eat KFC.. it's not that i dislike eating KFC but just that.. i'm SERIOUSLY ON DIET.. but i didnt voice out anything and go ahead with mom's idea.. she just want to eat it.. alright mom.. your wishes has come TRUE.. and my GOAL is tarnished! haiz.. back to square.. i'm like so full already.. simply cannot work.. alamak.. after which.. we went home and i took a half an hour break before i had myself showered before i set off to work..
meeting daryl for dinner before i go for work.. will be working at 7pm.. supposed to meet him at 5.30pm.. but he's LATE!! davin will be joining us for dinner TOO!! but somehow, he feel so weird.. i also dont mind liao, you mind wat.. hahaz.. it's like so LONG i never see him liao.. still the same old davin.. took a bus from bugis to maxwell market.. and... we had our dinner there.. i ate the hongkong fried noodles.. hmmm.. not really that nice.. and daryl had curry chicken noodles.. dont look appetizing to me too.. and davin had mian fen guo.. hmm.. looks quite okie.. hahaz.. he has something really common with daryl.. both of them dont eat vegetables!! no wonder they are BROTHERS!! oh man!! is it because guys usually dont eat veggies??
i drink lime juice.. davin had grass jelly drink and daryl drank soyabean .. i'm pretty full actually.. cannot really finished the food.. actually dont feel like eating de.. just that daryl dont like people dont eat and stare at him eat.. that's why.. after which.. we walked 2 bus-stops to my company at Fuji Xerox Tower.. along the way.. we passed by lots of bridal shops.. and some came up to me and daryl and asked us to take a look.. oh man! i was really EMBARRASSED.. and that stupid daryl.. kept TEASING me.. make me BLUSHED!! *red cheeks*
they dropped me at the lobby area of my company and went back home.. thanks so much! thanks for sending me to work.. so SWEET!! worked till 10plus before returning home with jeslyn and zhihao.. tired!~
it's FRIDAY.. so FAST!! 3rd week of my holidays is almost GONE!! as usual.. woke up at about 9.30am in the morning.. was actually awaken by Nad's sms.. she's asking me if i have check my results... so i woke up and on my com to check my results.. YES!! Nursing A, Bioscience B.. GPA 3.556!!!!! HURRAY!!!
did my morning prayers and again.. on my tv and computer again.. was trying badly to finish blogging.. but somehow, i cant really fulfill it.. got lots of things to blog.. but yet, i doesnt have the will to finish it.. waited till about 12pm and give mom a call.. intend to have lunch together with her.. eating food alone is boring.. i dont really like this kind of feeling.. kekez..
meet mom at Yishun mrt control at around1plus coming to 2.. then.. we took the underpass to Northpoint.. we just need some air-conditioned places to enjoy our meal.. the weather out there is so HOT!! hahaz.. i mean WARM.. heez=] and.. mom suggested to eat KFC.. it's not that i dislike eating KFC but just that.. i'm SERIOUSLY ON DIET.. but i didnt voice out anything and go ahead with mom's idea.. she just want to eat it.. alright mom.. your wishes has come TRUE.. and my GOAL is tarnished! haiz.. back to square.. i'm like so full already.. simply cannot work.. alamak.. after which.. we went home and i took a half an hour break before i had myself showered before i set off to work..
meeting daryl for dinner before i go for work.. will be working at 7pm.. supposed to meet him at 5.30pm.. but he's LATE!! davin will be joining us for dinner TOO!! but somehow, he feel so weird.. i also dont mind liao, you mind wat.. hahaz.. it's like so LONG i never see him liao.. still the same old davin.. took a bus from bugis to maxwell market.. and... we had our dinner there.. i ate the hongkong fried noodles.. hmmm.. not really that nice.. and daryl had curry chicken noodles.. dont look appetizing to me too.. and davin had mian fen guo.. hmm.. looks quite okie.. hahaz.. he has something really common with daryl.. both of them dont eat vegetables!! no wonder they are BROTHERS!! oh man!! is it because guys usually dont eat veggies??
i drink lime juice.. davin had grass jelly drink and daryl drank soyabean .. i'm pretty full actually.. cannot really finished the food.. actually dont feel like eating de.. just that daryl dont like people dont eat and stare at him eat.. that's why.. after which.. we walked 2 bus-stops to my company at Fuji Xerox Tower.. along the way.. we passed by lots of bridal shops.. and some came up to me and daryl and asked us to take a look.. oh man! i was really EMBARRASSED.. and that stupid daryl.. kept TEASING me.. make me BLUSHED!! *red cheeks*
they dropped me at the lobby area of my company and went back home.. thanks so much! thanks for sending me to work.. so SWEET!! worked till 10plus before returning home with jeslyn and zhihao.. tired!~
Thursday, July 05, 2007
[ cycling trip ]
cycling trip
woke up at 9plus today.. and Daryl called saying that he's on his way to my house already.. so I quickly go brush my teeths, did my morning prayers and went to shower.. after which, went to meet Daryl at the bus stop.. we went to North point to have our breakfast.. have Big Breakfast with milo today.. *yum yum*.. it's kind of long I havent eat big breakfast.. hahaz.. was eating the hashbrown.. while eating it, i thought of yuan.. he was the one who love to eat hashbrown a lot.. just like me.. Ms Doris Lim call him hashbrown.. lolx.. but that is really a cute nick..
after we had our breakfast, we went to the bus interchange and took bus 854 to bedok interchange.. the waiting time for the bus is really long.. I think we waited for more than 20mins.. wanted my life.. and i was like so damn full after the Mac breakfast.. it's like so long i havent been taking breakfast so early.. lolx.. we took bus to bedok interchange and took 196 from there to east coast park.. it's like so long ago since i last cycled at east coast.. since secondary3 till now.. almost 4years liao i guess..
it was kind of warm and hot when we reached east coast park.. so we decided to sit at the bench and enjoy the breeze first.. wait till it's not so hot before we got cycling.. the cycling itself is $5 an hour and free one hour.. but.. we only managed to cycle for about 45mins only.. really exhausted... somemore my leg and knee cap is so painful... after which.. and around 3plus.. we left east coast park.. we took bus 196 all the way from east coast to clementi.. then.. we took 173 to bukit timah.. goin to beauty world hawker to eat.. the western food there is real nice.. deyun biao ge brought me there to eat before.. nice nice..
after which, we went to bukit batok to buy mom portuguese egg tarts.. managed to reach the cake shop and about 8plus.. BUT.. dont managed to buy it.. OUT OF STOCK.. OH MAN! end up.. we bought mom 6 pieces of dou sha bing.. that's her favourite too.. after which, we took 852 home.. was really tired.. how i wish mom can know my situation now.. so it will be no more hiding......
woke up at 9plus today.. and Daryl called saying that he's on his way to my house already.. so I quickly go brush my teeths, did my morning prayers and went to shower.. after which, went to meet Daryl at the bus stop.. we went to North point to have our breakfast.. have Big Breakfast with milo today.. *yum yum*.. it's kind of long I havent eat big breakfast.. hahaz.. was eating the hashbrown.. while eating it, i thought of yuan.. he was the one who love to eat hashbrown a lot.. just like me.. Ms Doris Lim call him hashbrown.. lolx.. but that is really a cute nick..
after we had our breakfast, we went to the bus interchange and took bus 854 to bedok interchange.. the waiting time for the bus is really long.. I think we waited for more than 20mins.. wanted my life.. and i was like so damn full after the Mac breakfast.. it's like so long i havent been taking breakfast so early.. lolx.. we took bus to bedok interchange and took 196 from there to east coast park.. it's like so long ago since i last cycled at east coast.. since secondary3 till now.. almost 4years liao i guess..
it was kind of warm and hot when we reached east coast park.. so we decided to sit at the bench and enjoy the breeze first.. wait till it's not so hot before we got cycling.. the cycling itself is $5 an hour and free one hour.. but.. we only managed to cycle for about 45mins only.. really exhausted... somemore my leg and knee cap is so painful... after which.. and around 3plus.. we left east coast park.. we took bus 196 all the way from east coast to clementi.. then.. we took 173 to bukit timah.. goin to beauty world hawker to eat.. the western food there is real nice.. deyun biao ge brought me there to eat before.. nice nice..
after which, we went to bukit batok to buy mom portuguese egg tarts.. managed to reach the cake shop and about 8plus.. BUT.. dont managed to buy it.. OUT OF STOCK.. OH MAN! end up.. we bought mom 6 pieces of dou sha bing.. that's her favourite too.. after which, we took 852 home.. was really tired.. how i wish mom can know my situation now.. so it will be no more hiding......
Wednesday, July 04, 2007
[ let everything start afresh ]
let everything start afresh
mom's home today.. supposed wanted to guai guai stay home.. end up.. Daryl sms and said he dont want to stay at home.. ask me if i can go out or not.. end up.. we decided to meet and go for a movie.. choosing a movie is so difficult.. we keep discussing over the phone which movie to watch.. end up.. we watched DIE HARD 4.0 at plaza singapura golden village.. supposed to meet him at 2pm.. end up.. i was slightly late.. SORRY!! we bought the tickets and was still quite early..
actually he haven eat anything yet.. but i ate already.. so he say.. he dont want to eat.. cause i will end up seeing eat.. that's what he never like.. we went walking round and round PS.. feel kind of weird.. we used to be couple.. so it's like kind of weird as friends now.. our show started at 3pm.. before that, we went to buy Nacho combo and popcorn.. he thought me how to dip the popcorn into the cheese.. *nice nice*.. was kind of feeling cold when i stepped into the cinema... i didnt bring my sweater.. and it's so SWEET of him.. he brought it for ME!! *so touched* .. he know me so well.. if it's last time, he will hug me tight.. make sure i dont feel cold.. but now.. he cant.. so he brought his sweater along.. Le coq de.. nice nice..
it's a real nice show!! never regret watching it!!! and thanks for the treat Daryl!! when the show is coming to an end, he's was blowing hot air to his hands.. he's cold.. so i actually grab and rub his palm to keep him warm.. at that point of time, i feel that he feel like grabbing my hands.. *illusion*.. wake up jessica!! after which.. all a sudden.. he mentioned that he wants to buy portuguese egg tarts.. was thinking real hard where to get it beside bukit batok.. so we walked to taka.. hoping to give it a try.. end up we didnt find it.. even the pineapple tarts i want to buy for mom that time i also cannot find..
so we went to bugis.. hoping to find.. end up.. also dont have.. he brought me to go look for Huiqing's girlfriend again.. *haiz* think back.. i feel so funny why i will like huiqing last time.. his character and my character is at the far two extremes.. lolx.. end up.. we couldnt get the egg tarts and we went back.. he actually sent me back to yishun.. we took bus851 together.. we were practically quiet through out the journey.. just listening to my mp3.. he seems to be in his thoughts..
reached home.. he sent me to my void deck area.. and he called me.. after about 5mins i got home.. he saw my dad at my void deck.. oh man!! think my dad recognised him.. he sms-ed and asked me.. is 2years too late?? i was kind of blur.. dont really know what is he refering to.. at first.. he pondered.. so i told him.. if you dont say what you want to say, then dont regret.. end up.. he asked.. he asked if he has a chance to start afresh with me.. was kind of "dont know" what to do.. got online and luckily saw xianyun online.. so i asked xianyun for her opinion and advice..
i'm kind of worried that it's really unfair for him.. yes.. i never forget him all these while.. but there's another person who came and left my life recently only.. and.. our issue also not really settled yet.. i asked Daryl.. are you sure you dont mind?? he said he dont mind, and wants me to put that incident behind.. thank you! thank you for all your understanding.. and thank you for not forgetting me......
let everything start afresh.....
mom's home today.. supposed wanted to guai guai stay home.. end up.. Daryl sms and said he dont want to stay at home.. ask me if i can go out or not.. end up.. we decided to meet and go for a movie.. choosing a movie is so difficult.. we keep discussing over the phone which movie to watch.. end up.. we watched DIE HARD 4.0 at plaza singapura golden village.. supposed to meet him at 2pm.. end up.. i was slightly late.. SORRY!! we bought the tickets and was still quite early..
actually he haven eat anything yet.. but i ate already.. so he say.. he dont want to eat.. cause i will end up seeing eat.. that's what he never like.. we went walking round and round PS.. feel kind of weird.. we used to be couple.. so it's like kind of weird as friends now.. our show started at 3pm.. before that, we went to buy Nacho combo and popcorn.. he thought me how to dip the popcorn into the cheese.. *nice nice*.. was kind of feeling cold when i stepped into the cinema... i didnt bring my sweater.. and it's so SWEET of him.. he brought it for ME!! *so touched* .. he know me so well.. if it's last time, he will hug me tight.. make sure i dont feel cold.. but now.. he cant.. so he brought his sweater along.. Le coq de.. nice nice..
it's a real nice show!! never regret watching it!!! and thanks for the treat Daryl!! when the show is coming to an end, he's was blowing hot air to his hands.. he's cold.. so i actually grab and rub his palm to keep him warm.. at that point of time, i feel that he feel like grabbing my hands.. *illusion*.. wake up jessica!! after which.. all a sudden.. he mentioned that he wants to buy portuguese egg tarts.. was thinking real hard where to get it beside bukit batok.. so we walked to taka.. hoping to give it a try.. end up we didnt find it.. even the pineapple tarts i want to buy for mom that time i also cannot find..
so we went to bugis.. hoping to find.. end up.. also dont have.. he brought me to go look for Huiqing's girlfriend again.. *haiz* think back.. i feel so funny why i will like huiqing last time.. his character and my character is at the far two extremes.. lolx.. end up.. we couldnt get the egg tarts and we went back.. he actually sent me back to yishun.. we took bus851 together.. we were practically quiet through out the journey.. just listening to my mp3.. he seems to be in his thoughts..
reached home.. he sent me to my void deck area.. and he called me.. after about 5mins i got home.. he saw my dad at my void deck.. oh man!! think my dad recognised him.. he sms-ed and asked me.. is 2years too late?? i was kind of blur.. dont really know what is he refering to.. at first.. he pondered.. so i told him.. if you dont say what you want to say, then dont regret.. end up.. he asked.. he asked if he has a chance to start afresh with me.. was kind of "dont know" what to do.. got online and luckily saw xianyun online.. so i asked xianyun for her opinion and advice..
i'm kind of worried that it's really unfair for him.. yes.. i never forget him all these while.. but there's another person who came and left my life recently only.. and.. our issue also not really settled yet.. i asked Daryl.. are you sure you dont mind?? he said he dont mind, and wants me to put that incident behind.. thank you! thank you for all your understanding.. and thank you for not forgetting me......
let everything start afresh.....
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
[regrets]
regrets
woke up today at 9am.. want to update my blog and gonna meet JN0704C class committee for a meeting at bugis.. supposed to meet them at 1pm.. end up.. the time changed and changed.. Hazwan couldnt make it for the meeting.. he having diarrohoea and fever.. Farhan cant make it too.. got some family matters to settle.. and Nad has to make a trip to NUH to visit her uncle.. so.. the time changed from 1pm to 1.30pm... ask Joyce along too.. since only left with me, Nad and Vin.. was quite worried the 3 of us cannot think of anything.. took 851 to bugis.. and reached around 1.15pm..
YES.. i'm early! and die.. i know they will be late.. luckily.. i still have JOYCE!! she reached around 1.25pm.. and DEFINITELY not late.. we went to pay my hp bill at 7-eleven and went to Bugis Mac and take a seat while waiting for Nad and Vin.. we ate Mcnuggets Student meal.. YES.. who else has that privilege to do so?? ONLY WE STUDENTS!! hahaz.. supposed to meet Daryl later to eat.. but was kind of hungry also.. plus.. i havent eat anything much since last night..
was feeling so terrible the whole night.. having gastric pain.. was bearing with the pain the whole night.. luckily didnt vomit or anything.. just afraid that i will vomit for hours like last time again.. *paranoid*.. Vin sms-ed and said he will reached by 2pm..we WAITED and WAITED.. real PATIENTLY.. but still didnt see HIM.. and Nad.. just left the hospital at 2pm... and reached around 2.30pm... i supposed to meet Daryl at 3pm.. end up.. must make him wait.. feel so BAD.. sorry! we ended our discussion at around 3.30pm.. Douglas came to look for Joyce also.. they want to go get Hadi's birthday present..
finally met Daryl at 3.30pm.. we went to Bugis Street to go take a look at how's Huiqing's girlfriend look like.. *kpo me* kekez.. and that Daryl.. cannot stand him.. ask him where he want to go eat.. he kept repeating: "you boss, you decide..." AIYOZ! *dont treat me too good,i'm afraid i will fall for you again*.. actually, i cant really forget him as well.. he was the best boyfriend i ever had.. we really gone through lots of thick and thin together.. from parents' objection to friends' problems to our studies to my operation.. we conquered them one by one.. but somehow, we are just too immatured that time.. didnt know how to think for our own future...
we went so many places.. from bugis junction to bugis street to beach road.. then took bus100 to queensway.. then from queensway took bus14 to orchard..from lucky plaza walked till cenileisure to PS.. to cathay back to ceni there take bus 16 to tiong.. from tiong to henderson road, Huiqing's house.. then take bus 63 to bugis again..then from bugis i tool bus851 home.. i really feel that Daryl still like me a lot.. actually, what my mom said is right.. i cant really put behind this past relationship with him.. i have always compared him with other of my boyfriends after him..
you're my GREATEST REGRET!!
woke up today at 9am.. want to update my blog and gonna meet JN0704C class committee for a meeting at bugis.. supposed to meet them at 1pm.. end up.. the time changed and changed.. Hazwan couldnt make it for the meeting.. he having diarrohoea and fever.. Farhan cant make it too.. got some family matters to settle.. and Nad has to make a trip to NUH to visit her uncle.. so.. the time changed from 1pm to 1.30pm... ask Joyce along too.. since only left with me, Nad and Vin.. was quite worried the 3 of us cannot think of anything.. took 851 to bugis.. and reached around 1.15pm..
YES.. i'm early! and die.. i know they will be late.. luckily.. i still have JOYCE!! she reached around 1.25pm.. and DEFINITELY not late.. we went to pay my hp bill at 7-eleven and went to Bugis Mac and take a seat while waiting for Nad and Vin.. we ate Mcnuggets Student meal.. YES.. who else has that privilege to do so?? ONLY WE STUDENTS!! hahaz.. supposed to meet Daryl later to eat.. but was kind of hungry also.. plus.. i havent eat anything much since last night..
was feeling so terrible the whole night.. having gastric pain.. was bearing with the pain the whole night.. luckily didnt vomit or anything.. just afraid that i will vomit for hours like last time again.. *paranoid*.. Vin sms-ed and said he will reached by 2pm..we WAITED and WAITED.. real PATIENTLY.. but still didnt see HIM.. and Nad.. just left the hospital at 2pm... and reached around 2.30pm... i supposed to meet Daryl at 3pm.. end up.. must make him wait.. feel so BAD.. sorry! we ended our discussion at around 3.30pm.. Douglas came to look for Joyce also.. they want to go get Hadi's birthday present..
finally met Daryl at 3.30pm.. we went to Bugis Street to go take a look at how's Huiqing's girlfriend look like.. *kpo me* kekez.. and that Daryl.. cannot stand him.. ask him where he want to go eat.. he kept repeating: "you boss, you decide..." AIYOZ! *dont treat me too good,i'm afraid i will fall for you again*.. actually, i cant really forget him as well.. he was the best boyfriend i ever had.. we really gone through lots of thick and thin together.. from parents' objection to friends' problems to our studies to my operation.. we conquered them one by one.. but somehow, we are just too immatured that time.. didnt know how to think for our own future...
we went so many places.. from bugis junction to bugis street to beach road.. then took bus100 to queensway.. then from queensway took bus14 to orchard..from lucky plaza walked till cenileisure to PS.. to cathay back to ceni there take bus 16 to tiong.. from tiong to henderson road, Huiqing's house.. then take bus 63 to bugis again..then from bugis i tool bus851 home.. i really feel that Daryl still like me a lot.. actually, what my mom said is right.. i cant really put behind this past relationship with him.. i have always compared him with other of my boyfriends after him..
you're my GREATEST REGRET!!
Monday, July 02, 2007
[ struggling with a fight inside ]
struggling with a fight inside
it's YOUTH DAY today.. ya.. but makes not much different to me.. cause.. i'm having my HOLIDAYS now.. and i dont think youth day is public holiday for ite students also.. didi is home.. having his one day holidays.. woke up at about 9plus.. did my morning prayers and then on the tv.. FINALLY.. i get to OCCUPY the tv set.. watch 幸福星期六 repeat.. it's a real nice show.. channel 56.. at around 12plus.. i went to buy my breakfast cum lunch... ate shredded chicken guo tian and 2chicken wings.. *yum yum*
after which.. i got online... saw him online also.. *woaini -holdmyhand*... how terrible can it go?? not any FURTHER!! it's always so COINCIDENTAL that he changes his nick everytime i'm online.. PURPOSELY de ma?? PURPOSELY want to let me see de ma?? i dont believe it's always so COINCIDENTAL all the time..
was online for few hours.. intend to change my blogskin.. FINALLY.. managed to get an idea one after changing and changing.. the html really driving me crazy... at around 4.15.. left for work.. will be working from 6pm to 10pm today.. *sianz*.. again.. took 851 to bugis and take another bus.. so tired.. i slept on the bus.. real real tired.. also dont know why.. reached amara hotel at about 5.30pm.. went into edo sushi and bought some sushi.. ya.. that's gonna be my DINNER..
first day of the week.. and i'm hoping that weekend can come faster.. cause.. this saturday.. it will be 07072007... it will be a very BIG day.. SSA will be celebrating our 40th anniversary at Singapore Indoor Stadium.. it gonna be a real GRAND event.. i'm looking forward to it!!! this time round.. going to be audience..
will be meeting JN0704C class committee members tomorrow.. have to come up with the neccessary planning for our bbq next tuesday!!! we gonna have a GATHERING.. but .. so sad.. think Mdm Qian cant join us.. her dad is terminally ill in hongkong.. think she wont be able to come back.. will be meeting Daryl tomorrow too!!.. so EXCITED.. it's been 2years we never see each other!! oh man!! *pumping heart*.. he told me.. once again.. that he regretted letting me go for no reason .. and said few months back.. he was thinking to patch up with me.. *shocking* i was damn SHOCKED till my heart almost fall out.... tomorrow... please come FASTER!!!!!
got a nice song to recommend.. it's by wang xin lin.. title is 第一次爱的人
灰色的天你的脸
爱过也哭过笑过痛过之后只剩再见
我的眼泪湿了脸
失去第一次爱的人竟然是这种感觉
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
我看着你走过街
还穿着去年夏天我送你的那双球鞋
银色手炼还耀眼
你的世界似乎一点也没有因此改变
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
有一天也许我能把自己治好
再一次想起来应该要怎么笑
第一次爱的人它的坏他的好
却像胸口刺青是永远的记号
跟着我的呼吸直到停止心跳
it's YOUTH DAY today.. ya.. but makes not much different to me.. cause.. i'm having my HOLIDAYS now.. and i dont think youth day is public holiday for ite students also.. didi is home.. having his one day holidays.. woke up at about 9plus.. did my morning prayers and then on the tv.. FINALLY.. i get to OCCUPY the tv set.. watch 幸福星期六 repeat.. it's a real nice show.. channel 56.. at around 12plus.. i went to buy my breakfast cum lunch... ate shredded chicken guo tian and 2chicken wings.. *yum yum*
after which.. i got online... saw him online also.. *woaini -holdmyhand*... how terrible can it go?? not any FURTHER!! it's always so COINCIDENTAL that he changes his nick everytime i'm online.. PURPOSELY de ma?? PURPOSELY want to let me see de ma?? i dont believe it's always so COINCIDENTAL all the time..
was online for few hours.. intend to change my blogskin.. FINALLY.. managed to get an idea one after changing and changing.. the html really driving me crazy... at around 4.15.. left for work.. will be working from 6pm to 10pm today.. *sianz*.. again.. took 851 to bugis and take another bus.. so tired.. i slept on the bus.. real real tired.. also dont know why.. reached amara hotel at about 5.30pm.. went into edo sushi and bought some sushi.. ya.. that's gonna be my DINNER..
first day of the week.. and i'm hoping that weekend can come faster.. cause.. this saturday.. it will be 07072007... it will be a very BIG day.. SSA will be celebrating our 40th anniversary at Singapore Indoor Stadium.. it gonna be a real GRAND event.. i'm looking forward to it!!! this time round.. going to be audience..
will be meeting JN0704C class committee members tomorrow.. have to come up with the neccessary planning for our bbq next tuesday!!! we gonna have a GATHERING.. but .. so sad.. think Mdm Qian cant join us.. her dad is terminally ill in hongkong.. think she wont be able to come back.. will be meeting Daryl tomorrow too!!.. so EXCITED.. it's been 2years we never see each other!! oh man!! *pumping heart*.. he told me.. once again.. that he regretted letting me go for no reason .. and said few months back.. he was thinking to patch up with me.. *shocking* i was damn SHOCKED till my heart almost fall out.... tomorrow... please come FASTER!!!!!
got a nice song to recommend.. it's by wang xin lin.. title is 第一次爱的人
灰色的天你的脸
爱过也哭过笑过痛过之后只剩再见
我的眼泪湿了脸
失去第一次爱的人竟然是这种感觉
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
我看着你走过街
还穿着去年夏天我送你的那双球鞋
银色手炼还耀眼
你的世界似乎一点也没有因此改变
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
总以为爱是全部的心跳
失去爱我们就要~
就要一点点慢慢的死掉
当我失去你那一秒心突然就变老
the day you went away
喧闹的街没发现我的泪被遗忘在街角
the day you went away
有一天也许我能把自己治好
再一次想起来应该要怎么笑
第一次爱的人它的坏他的好
却像胸口刺青是永远的记号
跟着我的呼吸直到停止心跳
(( it's a very important today.. it used to be.. me and daryl's anniversary.. but now.. it's no longer important.......... ))
Sunday, July 01, 2007
[ milkwalk?? ]
milkwalk ??
yupz.. woke up at 9plus today.. actually i intend to sleep till 10am.. but somehow.. i awaken by all the cling cling clack clack produced my DEAREST mom... she woke up.. and was doing so cleaning up in the kitchen.. did my morning prayers and went to have a shower.. at the same time.. my brother woke up.. was begging him to let me watch the tv programme at 11am.. want to watch wei xiao pasta before i go for the milkrun.. at first.. he didnt really agree.. end up.. i told him.. i will help to get him breakfast.. and he AGREED.. FINALLY.. i just have a feeling i wont get a chance to watch any tv programme in the evening.. dad will be home by then.. he sure will be the one OCCUPYING the tv.. and i guesss i will return home quite late also..
naomi sms and asked me what time i'm reaching zouk for the milkrun.. she didnt bring her running tag.. and asked if i can get it for her.. lolx.. somehow it sounds too impossible.. i'm no longer staying at clementi.. if not, going to holland village (her house) wont be a problem.. but now.. i'm staying at yishun.. meeting xianyun at 2pm at tiong bahru plaza... yupz. she's going for the milkrun too!!! actually i asked her quite last minute also.. only on monday.. and somehow.. to my surprise.. she agreed to take part.. love you lots xianyun!!!
left home at around 12.45.. took bus 851 to tiong.. i'm like practically taking this bus everyday.. cause everytime i go work, i'll take 851 to bugis and transfer to bus80 to tanjong pagar.. so afraid that i will be late.. but luckily.. i didnt.. just reached in time at 2pm.. xianyun was slightly late.. she was having church service.. feel so BAD that i must make her rush here and there.. but thanks for coming.. it's like so few months ago we seen each other.. somehow, beside all the blog entries.. we dont even know how each other is doing in our own respective life..
ya.. indeed.. i didnt do that well.. and things isnt going that well all this while for me.. and practically everyday, i'm repeating my story time and again.. i dont really want to say it.. but i know friends who are concern for me wants to know what really happened to me in order to encourage me.. yupz.. thanks guys!! i really feel so thankful and grateful to have such great friends in life.. the weather is kind of warm today.. and i simply sweat from head to toe even before the run starts.. kenji hurted himself so didnt make it for the milkrun.. but alvin came!! at least he make an effort.. though he is almost late for the event..
the run started at 4plus.. it was a 4km run.. but i think i practically walk through out.. lolx.. my leg is kind of painful all a sudden..maybe because of the fall the other time ba.. 4km.. challenging.. it's like so long i never walked such long distance.. last time.. i remember when me and Daryl are still together.. we once walked from bukit merah back to clementi.. pro right?? i also dont know how we made it.. kekez.. but that was SO LONG ago.. many years back.. saw many familiar faces also.. and hear many familiar voices.. and one of them is mr F.. dont want to mention who's he.. someone i'm afraid to see...
finally.. we made it for the WALK!! hahaz.. back to zouk at around 5plus.. went to queue at the bag deposit counter to claim our bags.. we waited for more than 30mins to get our barang barang back.. oh gosh!! xianyun almost went CRAZY queuing for the bags.. lolx.. after which , we went back to great world to get ourselves washed up... at first, xianyun supposed to meet her family at bugis for steamboat session.. but it will be the 3rd time she eating it if she goes.. end up.. she didnt go.. and we went into 7-eleven to get a drink.. had soya bean milk.. like so long never drink it liao le.. hahaz.. seriously..
after then, we took 51 to bugis.. throughout the journey.. was telling her about yuan.. i think i really makes her blood boiled.. she must be thinking : "yinmun, you're real stupid".. ya.. how stupid can i go ar? i tink not any further ba.. love makes me real stupid somehow.. has Mos burger for dinner.. ebi rice burger.. our favourite!! she was like cursing her way through.. but i dont hate him lehz.. if it's e jessica loh last time.. i'll sure hate him. but i dont.. i also dont know why.. i just believe.. it takes two hands to clap.. i think i must bear the responsiblity.. cant really blame him totally.. it sound so unfair.. jiayou ba!!
saw his msn nick yesterday.. "when will i get the chance to tell you i love you?? -but.. the heartless wind keep blowing in.." i really want to know who's the girl... she has really good ability to capture and lock your heart.. she must be someone real pretty.. real nice.. maybe by knowing, it will make the cells in my heart die faster.. Nad told me it isnt worthwhile.. and pointless to know.. but Joyce encouraged me to go talk to him and find out from him.. i want to.. and dying to.. but.. i know him well enough to confirm that he wont tell me.. who am i to him?? just a NOBODY.. seriously a NOBODY.. if he said and that person isnt me, that's worse.. i'll be like knocking myself against the wall right?? so stupid.. why must use a knife and pierce into your own heart??
xianyun asked me if he were to come back, will i still accept him?? i said i wont.. but xianyun just know me too well, she say i will... ya.. that's what in my mind.. i told her depend what's e reason he gave me... you're such a weakling !! *haiz*... saw him online again.. at 11plus somemore.. was kind of shocked he's online at this hour.. i just wonder he always change his nick purposely when i'm online to let me see ma?? you dont even consider how i feel.. if those words arent meant for me, you know how hurting it will be to see all those msn nicks?? "woaini, hold my hand".... i'm not blind.. seriously, i hope i am now..
hope i am blind.. so that i wont see what you writes.. hope i am deaf.. so that i wont have to hear what my friends are telling me to do... to be haste to him and things and that.. hope i am mute.. so that i wont have to repeat our story time and again.. hope that i can lose my sense of touch.. so that i wont feel the pain i'm bearing now.. grant me my wish!!
yupz.. woke up at 9plus today.. actually i intend to sleep till 10am.. but somehow.. i awaken by all the cling cling clack clack produced my DEAREST mom... she woke up.. and was doing so cleaning up in the kitchen.. did my morning prayers and went to have a shower.. at the same time.. my brother woke up.. was begging him to let me watch the tv programme at 11am.. want to watch wei xiao pasta before i go for the milkrun.. at first.. he didnt really agree.. end up.. i told him.. i will help to get him breakfast.. and he AGREED.. FINALLY.. i just have a feeling i wont get a chance to watch any tv programme in the evening.. dad will be home by then.. he sure will be the one OCCUPYING the tv.. and i guesss i will return home quite late also..
naomi sms and asked me what time i'm reaching zouk for the milkrun.. she didnt bring her running tag.. and asked if i can get it for her.. lolx.. somehow it sounds too impossible.. i'm no longer staying at clementi.. if not, going to holland village (her house) wont be a problem.. but now.. i'm staying at yishun.. meeting xianyun at 2pm at tiong bahru plaza... yupz. she's going for the milkrun too!!! actually i asked her quite last minute also.. only on monday.. and somehow.. to my surprise.. she agreed to take part.. love you lots xianyun!!!
left home at around 12.45.. took bus 851 to tiong.. i'm like practically taking this bus everyday.. cause everytime i go work, i'll take 851 to bugis and transfer to bus80 to tanjong pagar.. so afraid that i will be late.. but luckily.. i didnt.. just reached in time at 2pm.. xianyun was slightly late.. she was having church service.. feel so BAD that i must make her rush here and there.. but thanks for coming.. it's like so few months ago we seen each other.. somehow, beside all the blog entries.. we dont even know how each other is doing in our own respective life..
ya.. indeed.. i didnt do that well.. and things isnt going that well all this while for me.. and practically everyday, i'm repeating my story time and again.. i dont really want to say it.. but i know friends who are concern for me wants to know what really happened to me in order to encourage me.. yupz.. thanks guys!! i really feel so thankful and grateful to have such great friends in life.. the weather is kind of warm today.. and i simply sweat from head to toe even before the run starts.. kenji hurted himself so didnt make it for the milkrun.. but alvin came!! at least he make an effort.. though he is almost late for the event..
the run started at 4plus.. it was a 4km run.. but i think i practically walk through out.. lolx.. my leg is kind of painful all a sudden..maybe because of the fall the other time ba.. 4km.. challenging.. it's like so long i never walked such long distance.. last time.. i remember when me and Daryl are still together.. we once walked from bukit merah back to clementi.. pro right?? i also dont know how we made it.. kekez.. but that was SO LONG ago.. many years back.. saw many familiar faces also.. and hear many familiar voices.. and one of them is mr F.. dont want to mention who's he.. someone i'm afraid to see...
finally.. we made it for the WALK!! hahaz.. back to zouk at around 5plus.. went to queue at the bag deposit counter to claim our bags.. we waited for more than 30mins to get our barang barang back.. oh gosh!! xianyun almost went CRAZY queuing for the bags.. lolx.. after which , we went back to great world to get ourselves washed up... at first, xianyun supposed to meet her family at bugis for steamboat session.. but it will be the 3rd time she eating it if she goes.. end up.. she didnt go.. and we went into 7-eleven to get a drink.. had soya bean milk.. like so long never drink it liao le.. hahaz.. seriously..
after then, we took 51 to bugis.. throughout the journey.. was telling her about yuan.. i think i really makes her blood boiled.. she must be thinking : "yinmun, you're real stupid".. ya.. how stupid can i go ar? i tink not any further ba.. love makes me real stupid somehow.. has Mos burger for dinner.. ebi rice burger.. our favourite!! she was like cursing her way through.. but i dont hate him lehz.. if it's e jessica loh last time.. i'll sure hate him. but i dont.. i also dont know why.. i just believe.. it takes two hands to clap.. i think i must bear the responsiblity.. cant really blame him totally.. it sound so unfair.. jiayou ba!!
saw his msn nick yesterday.. "when will i get the chance to tell you i love you?? -but.. the heartless wind keep blowing in.." i really want to know who's the girl... she has really good ability to capture and lock your heart.. she must be someone real pretty.. real nice.. maybe by knowing, it will make the cells in my heart die faster.. Nad told me it isnt worthwhile.. and pointless to know.. but Joyce encouraged me to go talk to him and find out from him.. i want to.. and dying to.. but.. i know him well enough to confirm that he wont tell me.. who am i to him?? just a NOBODY.. seriously a NOBODY.. if he said and that person isnt me, that's worse.. i'll be like knocking myself against the wall right?? so stupid.. why must use a knife and pierce into your own heart??
xianyun asked me if he were to come back, will i still accept him?? i said i wont.. but xianyun just know me too well, she say i will... ya.. that's what in my mind.. i told her depend what's e reason he gave me... you're such a weakling !! *haiz*... saw him online again.. at 11plus somemore.. was kind of shocked he's online at this hour.. i just wonder he always change his nick purposely when i'm online to let me see ma?? you dont even consider how i feel.. if those words arent meant for me, you know how hurting it will be to see all those msn nicks?? "woaini, hold my hand".... i'm not blind.. seriously, i hope i am now..
hope i am blind.. so that i wont see what you writes.. hope i am deaf.. so that i wont have to hear what my friends are telling me to do... to be haste to him and things and that.. hope i am mute.. so that i wont have to repeat our story time and again.. hope that i can lose my sense of touch.. so that i wont feel the pain i'm bearing now.. grant me my wish!!
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
[ i miss you so muchhhhh ]
i miss you so muchhhhh.........
i slept till 12pm today.. was really tired.. and today.. i'm off from work.. mom's home.. didi also.. cause he over-slept and didnt go school.. *yawn*... i already slept till like noon time.. but.. i still feel so tired.. bored bored bored.. whole day at home... was trying to blog for the past few entries..
was quite disappointed yesterday at work.. didnt managed to make any appointment for my advisors.. *haiz*.. *demoralised* ... somemore i wasnt feeling that well yesterday.. not really in the mood.. had breakfast and lunch together at one goal.. with mom and didi.. and went to the market with them as well.. so sianz.. was on the com the whole day.. and mom is like screaming practically every an hour.. nothing to do what.. seriously boring.. somemore not much nice tv program to watch also..
made jellies again.. mom special requested for it.. she wants to eat.. lolx.. when making the jellies.. i just remembered that i said before that i want to make for him to eat.. when i did my PIE project the other time in school, he was absent.. he once promised that he will save a share of his cheese cake the other day when he did it for his PIE project.. but he didnt.... TJY... since when the things you promised me you got fulfilled ar? why must you DISAPPOINT me TIME and AGAIN?? i really want to know.. want to know badly if you still love me?? want to know badly if you still have feelings for me?? who is the girl are your msn nicks are refering to??
was hiding in the room just now.. listening to the song : 如果你还爱我 ( if you still love me ).... i CRIED.. I CRIED!! I REALLY MISSES YOU A LOT!!!! sms Nad and told her.. she told me to bear with it.. MISS and FORGET.. and ask me not to sms him... ya.. i didnt.. but really misses him a lot........ do you miss me how i miss you??
[ love has many forms.. jealous is definitely NOT one of them... ]
i slept till 12pm today.. was really tired.. and today.. i'm off from work.. mom's home.. didi also.. cause he over-slept and didnt go school.. *yawn*... i already slept till like noon time.. but.. i still feel so tired.. bored bored bored.. whole day at home... was trying to blog for the past few entries..
was quite disappointed yesterday at work.. didnt managed to make any appointment for my advisors.. *haiz*.. *demoralised* ... somemore i wasnt feeling that well yesterday.. not really in the mood.. had breakfast and lunch together at one goal.. with mom and didi.. and went to the market with them as well.. so sianz.. was on the com the whole day.. and mom is like screaming practically every an hour.. nothing to do what.. seriously boring.. somemore not much nice tv program to watch also..
made jellies again.. mom special requested for it.. she wants to eat.. lolx.. when making the jellies.. i just remembered that i said before that i want to make for him to eat.. when i did my PIE project the other time in school, he was absent.. he once promised that he will save a share of his cheese cake the other day when he did it for his PIE project.. but he didnt.... TJY... since when the things you promised me you got fulfilled ar? why must you DISAPPOINT me TIME and AGAIN?? i really want to know.. want to know badly if you still love me?? want to know badly if you still have feelings for me?? who is the girl are your msn nicks are refering to??
was hiding in the room just now.. listening to the song : 如果你还爱我 ( if you still love me ).... i CRIED.. I CRIED!! I REALLY MISSES YOU A LOT!!!! sms Nad and told her.. she told me to bear with it.. MISS and FORGET.. and ask me not to sms him... ya.. i didnt.. but really misses him a lot........ do you miss me how i miss you??
[ love has many forms.. jealous is definitely NOT one of them... ]
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
[ 幸福它真的不容易 happiness is not that easy ]
幸福它真的不容易 happiness is not that easy
yesterday.. that stupid Farhan begged me like dont know what just to hope that i can make it for the meet up today with him and Nad.. ya.. your dream has been fulfilled.. woke up at about 10am in the morning.. i'm so TIRED.. and ironed all the clothes.. yupz.. cause i just know my mom too well.. if i never do anything to help her and go out every single day, she will HORN at me.. Nad and Farhan meet each other and i'm meeting them at 2pm..
i'm like having a bad headache.. think my miagrain giving me problem again.. BUT.. no choice.. PROMISE them liao.. so i still went.. think the weather nowadays is real bad.. that's why i'm feeling sick this few days.. we went to Peninsula plaza and make rounds.. actually dont intend to spend or buy anything.. just plain window shopping.. BORING!! happened to walk pass some shops selling guitars and stuffs.. so.. i went in.. was thinking to buy some picks for a friend's birthday next year.. going to keep accumulating till the day arrived.. hahaz.. let's keep it a secret.. shall not reveal that friend's name.. kekez..
after which.. we went to Funan IT Mall for our breakfast cum lunch.. i ate KFC AGAIN!! oh man!! i'm like practicaly everyday i'm eating fastfood.. NOooooo.. this is not going to be the way.. after which.. we went to suntec city.. passed by citylink.. so many things had changed.. i'm like so long never shop at citylink and suntec city liao.. i guess also got one year liao le.. purposely took a walk into carrefour.. think he's no longer working there liao.. it's been 1 week i never see him.. hardly see him online also.. think he's busy with his work and his archery club ba..
benjamin came to meet me today after work.. was having a bad headache.. he tried to sweet talk with me.. but.. i'm SORRIE.. i dont have feelings for you anymore.. seriously.. save your efforts of trying to make me happy ba.. it wont works.. i only have HIM in my heart now.. this is going to be an unchangable fact... oh ya.. Daryl also came to talk to me online today morning.. and asked about about my msn nick.. and i told him what happened.. nothing disgrace to hide also.. and he actually confessed something to me.. he said he regretted letting me go.. ya.. it's been 2 years.. 2 years since we broke up... everything is gonna be coming to an end soon...
a new song to recommend... title of the song is : 我可以
寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背影有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福真的不容易
Happiness is not easy... really not easy..
yesterday.. that stupid Farhan begged me like dont know what just to hope that i can make it for the meet up today with him and Nad.. ya.. your dream has been fulfilled.. woke up at about 10am in the morning.. i'm so TIRED.. and ironed all the clothes.. yupz.. cause i just know my mom too well.. if i never do anything to help her and go out every single day, she will HORN at me.. Nad and Farhan meet each other and i'm meeting them at 2pm..
i'm like having a bad headache.. think my miagrain giving me problem again.. BUT.. no choice.. PROMISE them liao.. so i still went.. think the weather nowadays is real bad.. that's why i'm feeling sick this few days.. we went to Peninsula plaza and make rounds.. actually dont intend to spend or buy anything.. just plain window shopping.. BORING!! happened to walk pass some shops selling guitars and stuffs.. so.. i went in.. was thinking to buy some picks for a friend's birthday next year.. going to keep accumulating till the day arrived.. hahaz.. let's keep it a secret.. shall not reveal that friend's name.. kekez..
after which.. we went to Funan IT Mall for our breakfast cum lunch.. i ate KFC AGAIN!! oh man!! i'm like practicaly everyday i'm eating fastfood.. NOooooo.. this is not going to be the way.. after which.. we went to suntec city.. passed by citylink.. so many things had changed.. i'm like so long never shop at citylink and suntec city liao.. i guess also got one year liao le.. purposely took a walk into carrefour.. think he's no longer working there liao.. it's been 1 week i never see him.. hardly see him online also.. think he's busy with his work and his archery club ba..
benjamin came to meet me today after work.. was having a bad headache.. he tried to sweet talk with me.. but.. i'm SORRIE.. i dont have feelings for you anymore.. seriously.. save your efforts of trying to make me happy ba.. it wont works.. i only have HIM in my heart now.. this is going to be an unchangable fact... oh ya.. Daryl also came to talk to me online today morning.. and asked about about my msn nick.. and i told him what happened.. nothing disgrace to hide also.. and he actually confessed something to me.. he said he regretted letting me go.. ya.. it's been 2 years.. 2 years since we broke up... everything is gonna be coming to an end soon...
a new song to recommend... title of the song is : 我可以
寄没有地址的信
这样的情绪有种距离
你放着谁的歌曲
是怎样的心情
能不能说给我听
雨下得好安静
是不是你偷偷在哭泣
幸福真的不容易
在你的背影有我爱你
我可以陪你去看星星
不用再多说明
我就要和你在一起
我不想再一次和你分离
我多么想每一次的美丽
是因为你
幸福真的不容易
Happiness is not easy... really not easy..
Monday, June 25, 2007
[ first day at work ]
first day at work
It's Monday.. 3 more weeks before my attachment starts.. woke up early morning at 9am.. supposed to be at Ngee Ann at 11am.. BUTtttt... I was late.. woke up, brush my teeth, had a shower and did my morning prayer.. after which, I actually iron my own clothes before my mom going to horn at me because of my un-iron clothes piling up.. and that was the the reason why I was late.. hahaz.. left home at about 10.15am.. it took me about 10mins to walk to the mrt.. after which, i took the mrt to Clementi.. it was around 11am already when I reach Clementi..
I walked to the Mac and bought my breakfast.. I had Sausage McMuffin with egg.. *yum yum*.. the NPSD actually set up a booth at the atrium... our motive is to get more non-members from Ngee Ann Poly to take part in the Milkrun event.. helping there are Weilun, Jefferson, Layleng, Yvonne, Xueyun, Teck Kun, me..... and many many...
Seriously speaking.. I didnt help much in the promoting over there.. but.. I managed to get 2 of my friends to join.. one of them is SPSD de, Naomi.. and another one is only new friend and my best bud in secondary school, Xianyun.. Yupz yupz.. she has agreed to join!!! Hurray.. Hao nan de worz.. but we also very long never see each other le.. So, it also serve as a good meet up for us.. Heez=]
During lunch time, I had the chicken soup... nice nice.. and layleng and yvonne ate the butter teriyaki chicken rice.. *yum yum*.. shall try it the next time round... at around 4plus, Xueyun finished school and came to look for us.. we didnt really help lahz.. just online and doing things are not really concerning the milkrun.. *guilty* saw Kenji too.. but so bad of him.. just say hi and walked away liao.. saying that he's rushing for time.. at about 5plus, me and xueyun left.. before i left, i went to buy the potato salad and bacon and cheese sandwiches.. *yum yum*... it's gonna be my dinner..
i took bus 74 to dover mrt station and took a train to tanjong pagar.. at the lobby area of my office, there's a coffeebean and i had chocolate ice-blended... *nice nice* ... i waited for Jeslyn to come before going into the office... first day of work.. so scary!! Jeslyn told me that the other advisor I'm working under sprain her ankle and couldnt come to work today.. her name is Jolene.. first day at work.. kind of stressful.. It's something I never I have never tried before.. But must give a big thanks to Jeslyn.. she's always there to help me..
After calling about more than 40calls, finally, there's a kind young man who's willing to make the appointment with Jeslyn!! YES!! it really serve as a qiang xin zhen for me!! I finished my work at around 10plus.. and another kind soul actually want to send Jeslyn and another advisor back, so i managed to get a ride too! I dropped off at YCK mrt control and with another advisor.. Actually Jeslyn wanted to accompany to wait for bus.. but that advisor.. zhi gao fen yong.. say want to accompany.. actually he's Jeslyn's boyfriend.. my instinct is so strong.. who will be so kinded ar?? hahaz!!
first day at work.... everything is so good..... tomorrow will be a better day!!!!
It's Monday.. 3 more weeks before my attachment starts.. woke up early morning at 9am.. supposed to be at Ngee Ann at 11am.. BUTtttt... I was late.. woke up, brush my teeth, had a shower and did my morning prayer.. after which, I actually iron my own clothes before my mom going to horn at me because of my un-iron clothes piling up.. and that was the the reason why I was late.. hahaz.. left home at about 10.15am.. it took me about 10mins to walk to the mrt.. after which, i took the mrt to Clementi.. it was around 11am already when I reach Clementi..
I walked to the Mac and bought my breakfast.. I had Sausage McMuffin with egg.. *yum yum*.. the NPSD actually set up a booth at the atrium... our motive is to get more non-members from Ngee Ann Poly to take part in the Milkrun event.. helping there are Weilun, Jefferson, Layleng, Yvonne, Xueyun, Teck Kun, me..... and many many...
Seriously speaking.. I didnt help much in the promoting over there.. but.. I managed to get 2 of my friends to join.. one of them is SPSD de, Naomi.. and another one is only new friend and my best bud in secondary school, Xianyun.. Yupz yupz.. she has agreed to join!!! Hurray.. Hao nan de worz.. but we also very long never see each other le.. So, it also serve as a good meet up for us.. Heez=]
During lunch time, I had the chicken soup... nice nice.. and layleng and yvonne ate the butter teriyaki chicken rice.. *yum yum*.. shall try it the next time round... at around 4plus, Xueyun finished school and came to look for us.. we didnt really help lahz.. just online and doing things are not really concerning the milkrun.. *guilty* saw Kenji too.. but so bad of him.. just say hi and walked away liao.. saying that he's rushing for time.. at about 5plus, me and xueyun left.. before i left, i went to buy the potato salad and bacon and cheese sandwiches.. *yum yum*... it's gonna be my dinner..
i took bus 74 to dover mrt station and took a train to tanjong pagar.. at the lobby area of my office, there's a coffeebean and i had chocolate ice-blended... *nice nice* ... i waited for Jeslyn to come before going into the office... first day of work.. so scary!! Jeslyn told me that the other advisor I'm working under sprain her ankle and couldnt come to work today.. her name is Jolene.. first day at work.. kind of stressful.. It's something I never I have never tried before.. But must give a big thanks to Jeslyn.. she's always there to help me..
After calling about more than 40calls, finally, there's a kind young man who's willing to make the appointment with Jeslyn!! YES!! it really serve as a qiang xin zhen for me!! I finished my work at around 10plus.. and another kind soul actually want to send Jeslyn and another advisor back, so i managed to get a ride too! I dropped off at YCK mrt control and with another advisor.. Actually Jeslyn wanted to accompany to wait for bus.. but that advisor.. zhi gao fen yong.. say want to accompany.. actually he's Jeslyn's boyfriend.. my instinct is so strong.. who will be so kinded ar?? hahaz!!
first day at work.... everything is so good..... tomorrow will be a better day!!!!
Sunday, June 24, 2007
[ PATHETIC CHINGAY TRAINERS GATHERING ]
PATHETIC CHINGAY TRAINERS GATHERING
yupz.. i woke up at about 10plus.. i heard mom yelling why am i not waking up.. was real TIRED.. i slept at 2am in the morning again.. and cant to sleep simply because the weather is too HOT!!! i'm NOT HOT.. BUT.. i'm FEELING WARM.. hahaz.. Farhan's favourite question : " ARE YOU HOT?" if he asked me.. i'll always say: "I'M WARM!!".. muahahaz.. i woke up.. did my morning prayers, ate my breakfast and took a shower.. then.. i made JELLIES.. it's for meant for tonight's Chingay Trainers' Gathering..
was trying real hard to get the names of those coming down.. so that i can judge how much i need to make.. and meet up with them to bring them to Willie's house.. FINALLY got Xueyun.. she is the organizer of this gathering.. end up.. she told me she's not going.. she cant finished her project which will due tomorrow when poly school reopen.. and Maymay also.. she wont be going down either.. Received Gina jie's sms at 3plus.. telling me she's not coming either.. and Melvin's sms at 4plus.. trying me he wont be able to go either.. he cant finished his planning for the SSA "7777" event..
now.. it's left with 5 PATHETIC trainers.. mi, Willie, Stephanie, Stella and Kevin.. sound so PITIFUL right?? people tried so hard to get a GATHERING organized.. YET, the outcome is like that.. LISTEN CAREFULLY!! the FULL STRENGTH is 18people.. and only 5 turned up.. it's a gathering not well planned.. JC students are having their exams.. they cant turn up.. Poly students chiong-ing their project and school going to start tomorrow.. and many leaders are involved in"7777" event.. so our item i/cs and cheoros all very busy.. who else will be free? only people like me who's having holidays now, people who are working like Stephanie and Stella, and people who are slacking like Kevin.. and of cause Willie.. we are using his house.. I feel so bad to disturb his family.. it's SUNDAY.. and meant to be FAMILY DAY!
i'm REALLY ON FIRE!! HYPER-TENSION.. SERIOUSLY.. but it turned out to be something good.. We had CURRY CHICKEN (Willie's mom cooked),DUCK(Kevin bought), KFC FAMILY FEAST (Stephanie bought), GREEN BEAN SOUP and GUAVA DRINK (Willie's mom made), Jellies (by me) and Cakes (by Stella) for Desserts!!! it was a COSY session.. after eating.. we hide in Willie's airconditioned room and talked many things.. from my problem to Stella's... and crack lots of jokes.. i really feel MUCH MUCH better after sharing with them.. overall, they are waiting for this day to come to hear what's happening to me!! THANKS GUYS!! love you lots!
when i was talking till halfway, Stella ask me if my school outsiders can go in or not.. so i told her shouldnt be a problem.. then she say, she will bring a cup of super dark coffee and go in front of him and pour the dark coffee on his uniform.. seriously, it will definitely be DIFFICULT to WASH off.. lolx.. so funny of her.. she somemore say she will use the act cute face to say sorry to him.. lolx.. she's just KIDDING.. kekez.. she somemore ask Willie to accompany her go and video down the whole process and put in youtube.. haiyo.. girls cannot be offended de worz.. hahaz..
Stephanie and Stella took 969 with me.. and on the bus.. we continued our girls' talk.. real real HAPPY tonight.. dont think so LITTLE people we cant ENJOY ourselves.. i think i have a better time.. with all those people who really know me well.. and i felt much more COMFORTABLE sharing it out!! i HOPE the next gathering will be a better one.....................................
[ i thought of you today again... after sharing our STORY.......... miss you much ]
yupz.. i woke up at about 10plus.. i heard mom yelling why am i not waking up.. was real TIRED.. i slept at 2am in the morning again.. and cant to sleep simply because the weather is too HOT!!! i'm NOT HOT.. BUT.. i'm FEELING WARM.. hahaz.. Farhan's favourite question : " ARE YOU HOT?" if he asked me.. i'll always say: "I'M WARM!!".. muahahaz.. i woke up.. did my morning prayers, ate my breakfast and took a shower.. then.. i made JELLIES.. it's for meant for tonight's Chingay Trainers' Gathering..
was trying real hard to get the names of those coming down.. so that i can judge how much i need to make.. and meet up with them to bring them to Willie's house.. FINALLY got Xueyun.. she is the organizer of this gathering.. end up.. she told me she's not going.. she cant finished her project which will due tomorrow when poly school reopen.. and Maymay also.. she wont be going down either.. Received Gina jie's sms at 3plus.. telling me she's not coming either.. and Melvin's sms at 4plus.. trying me he wont be able to go either.. he cant finished his planning for the SSA "7777" event..
now.. it's left with 5 PATHETIC trainers.. mi, Willie, Stephanie, Stella and Kevin.. sound so PITIFUL right?? people tried so hard to get a GATHERING organized.. YET, the outcome is like that.. LISTEN CAREFULLY!! the FULL STRENGTH is 18people.. and only 5 turned up.. it's a gathering not well planned.. JC students are having their exams.. they cant turn up.. Poly students chiong-ing their project and school going to start tomorrow.. and many leaders are involved in"7777" event.. so our item i/cs and cheoros all very busy.. who else will be free? only people like me who's having holidays now, people who are working like Stephanie and Stella, and people who are slacking like Kevin.. and of cause Willie.. we are using his house.. I feel so bad to disturb his family.. it's SUNDAY.. and meant to be FAMILY DAY!
i'm REALLY ON FIRE!! HYPER-TENSION.. SERIOUSLY.. but it turned out to be something good.. We had CURRY CHICKEN (Willie's mom cooked),DUCK(Kevin bought), KFC FAMILY FEAST (Stephanie bought), GREEN BEAN SOUP and GUAVA DRINK (Willie's mom made), Jellies (by me) and Cakes (by Stella) for Desserts!!! it was a COSY session.. after eating.. we hide in Willie's airconditioned room and talked many things.. from my problem to Stella's... and crack lots of jokes.. i really feel MUCH MUCH better after sharing with them.. overall, they are waiting for this day to come to hear what's happening to me!! THANKS GUYS!! love you lots!
when i was talking till halfway, Stella ask me if my school outsiders can go in or not.. so i told her shouldnt be a problem.. then she say, she will bring a cup of super dark coffee and go in front of him and pour the dark coffee on his uniform.. seriously, it will definitely be DIFFICULT to WASH off.. lolx.. so funny of her.. she somemore say she will use the act cute face to say sorry to him.. lolx.. she's just KIDDING.. kekez.. she somemore ask Willie to accompany her go and video down the whole process and put in youtube.. haiyo.. girls cannot be offended de worz.. hahaz..
Stephanie and Stella took 969 with me.. and on the bus.. we continued our girls' talk.. real real HAPPY tonight.. dont think so LITTLE people we cant ENJOY ourselves.. i think i have a better time.. with all those people who really know me well.. and i felt much more COMFORTABLE sharing it out!! i HOPE the next gathering will be a better one.....................................
[ i thought of you today again... after sharing our STORY.......... miss you much ]
Saturday, June 23, 2007
[ would you be there for me?? ]
would you be there for me??
i sianz half half.. almost type finished this entry then whole thing lost because i pressed something wrong.. dont care liao.. dont want to write liao.. just want to recommend a great song..
title of the song : would you be there (redwan ali)
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me,
let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care.
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
And never look back
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
would you be there....
If i'm away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
All the way
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there,
to kiss my pain away?
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there,
to kiss my pain away?
would you be there.... for me....
these are the questions in my mind.. i really dont know what you are thinking.. SERIOUSLY.. I REALLY DONT KNOW!! will you still be there for me?? are all the msn nicks refering to me?? how i wish it is....
i sianz half half.. almost type finished this entry then whole thing lost because i pressed something wrong.. dont care liao.. dont want to write liao.. just want to recommend a great song..
title of the song : would you be there (redwan ali)
If I were blue, would you be there for me,
And whisper in my ears that's okay,
Would you stand by me,
let me hold you tight,
And say you love me one more time.
If I feel good, would you slow dance with me,
And touch my lips with tender love and care.
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
And never look back
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
would you be there....
If i'm away, would you still think of me?
And wish that you could hold me now
Would you die for me,
Would you run with me,
All the way
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there,
to kiss my pain away?
Would you be there to love,to be with me?
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be the one,
to take my breath away
Would you be there to save my soul tonight,
Would you swear that your love is always true?
Would you say that you’ll always be there,
to kiss my pain away?
would you be there.... for me....
these are the questions in my mind.. i really dont know what you are thinking.. SERIOUSLY.. I REALLY DONT KNOW!! will you still be there for me?? are all the msn nicks refering to me?? how i wish it is....
Friday, June 22, 2007
[ 如果你还爱我 ]
如果你还爱我
woke up at 7.45am today morning.. cause.. i am supposed to attend the Blood Drive CIP today at harbourfront.. supposed to meet Joyce and Daphne de.. but end up.. they are in the afternoon shift.. and me in the morning shift.. so Hazel asked me to meet her.. at 10am for breakfast at Harbourfront.. END UP!!! she was LATE.. and real real LATE.. luckily still got Nabilah and Firin.. we had Mac's breakfast.. and Hazel finally reached at 10.45am.. haiyo.. my dear girl.. you're a nurse.. cannot like that you know..
the CIP started at 11am.. i'm under Xiangyun's group.. people from Red Cross are real good.. Candy also very nice.. i helped at counter 1 to issue the queue no.. was pretty fun and tiring too.. Joyce and Daphne came at 1plus and went to shop at vivo city.. their duty will only start at 3pm.. i left at 3.45pm and went to meet Darren.. accompany go bras brasah sell his old textbooks.. after which we walked to bugis to have our dinner.. we had long john silver.. the last time i went there was with him.. and his friends.. that day was his brother's girlfriend birthday.. and still remember that was the last time he sent me home.. we took 851 actually..
on my way back.. i remembered i almost quarrelled with him because of jasmine that girl.. haiz.. i'm just looking back.. after that, we took 51 to SYC.. there's friday rendeavous there.. and Pinwen is performing.. waited for siyi at the sitting area outside SYC.. and saw many our chingay kids.. eugena, jerry, meimei(yon chin), serene, vanessa, eng peng.. they are performing..
first song heard... title is 如果你还爱我.. it's real nice.. and tells my STORY.. friends who are reading this entry of mine.. read the lyrics.. it's really MEANING.. and it really DESCRIBE me the FULLEST now.. Pinwen was pretty nervous when performing.. luckily got Gilbert by his side.. and saw Benny too.. lolx. really very long never see him liao.. after which.. i took 855 back home.. *yawn*.. i'm MEETING NAD and FARHAN TOMORROW!!!!
was on the phone with Joyce just now.. and talked about his 100marks shuai ge.. ya.. he's quite shuai le.. my vitamin J also okie!! hahaz!! (Joyce, please see this entry!!).. wahahaz.. now.. i realised i no longer will cry when talking about him already.. my heart has stopped bleeding.. and just feeling numb only.. my tears has dried up after so many weeks of weeping and crying..
the song is a chinese one.. i did some simply translation for the benefit of the doubt.. for those who dont understand chinese..
我带着一颗疲惫的心走了 I brought along a tiring heart and left
我知道自己在你心里已不重要 I know in your heart , it's no longer important
虽然我们曾经相聚过 though we might once be together
也许对于你来说 But to you,
已经没有什么值得回忆 It's no longer worth remembering
我带着一颗沉重的心走了 I brought along a heavy heart and left
我知道自己没有勇气道别离 I know myself that I dont have the courage to say "good-bye"
虽然我们曾经拥有过 Though we might once own each other
但是对于你来说 But to you,
已经没有什么值得回忆 Its's no longer worth remembering
难道早以注定 Maybe it has longed been fated,
不能真正拥有你 I cant really own you
难道我真心付出一切 Maybe what i have sacrifice wholeheartedly
只为了承受孤单和寂寞 are just meant to endure loneliness and emptiness
我知道你不敢对我坦白 I know you dare not say it truthfully to me,
是不要看到我的伤怀 is not wanting to see me upset
虽然你没有说要离开我 Though you didnt say you want to leave me,
我已经感到你不再属于我 I know that you no longer belong to me
如果你还爱我 If you still love me,
你不会对我如此的冷漠 You wont treat me so cold
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊 and wont let me ponder through this lonely night
如果你还爱我 If you still love me,
你不会对我如此的冷漠 You wont treat me so cold
我只能含着眼 All i can is to hold on to my tears
泪默默的离开 and leave quietly
[ 如果你还爱我............. ]
woke up at 7.45am today morning.. cause.. i am supposed to attend the Blood Drive CIP today at harbourfront.. supposed to meet Joyce and Daphne de.. but end up.. they are in the afternoon shift.. and me in the morning shift.. so Hazel asked me to meet her.. at 10am for breakfast at Harbourfront.. END UP!!! she was LATE.. and real real LATE.. luckily still got Nabilah and Firin.. we had Mac's breakfast.. and Hazel finally reached at 10.45am.. haiyo.. my dear girl.. you're a nurse.. cannot like that you know..
the CIP started at 11am.. i'm under Xiangyun's group.. people from Red Cross are real good.. Candy also very nice.. i helped at counter 1 to issue the queue no.. was pretty fun and tiring too.. Joyce and Daphne came at 1plus and went to shop at vivo city.. their duty will only start at 3pm.. i left at 3.45pm and went to meet Darren.. accompany go bras brasah sell his old textbooks.. after which we walked to bugis to have our dinner.. we had long john silver.. the last time i went there was with him.. and his friends.. that day was his brother's girlfriend birthday.. and still remember that was the last time he sent me home.. we took 851 actually..
on my way back.. i remembered i almost quarrelled with him because of jasmine that girl.. haiz.. i'm just looking back.. after that, we took 51 to SYC.. there's friday rendeavous there.. and Pinwen is performing.. waited for siyi at the sitting area outside SYC.. and saw many our chingay kids.. eugena, jerry, meimei(yon chin), serene, vanessa, eng peng.. they are performing..
first song heard... title is 如果你还爱我.. it's real nice.. and tells my STORY.. friends who are reading this entry of mine.. read the lyrics.. it's really MEANING.. and it really DESCRIBE me the FULLEST now.. Pinwen was pretty nervous when performing.. luckily got Gilbert by his side.. and saw Benny too.. lolx. really very long never see him liao.. after which.. i took 855 back home.. *yawn*.. i'm MEETING NAD and FARHAN TOMORROW!!!!
was on the phone with Joyce just now.. and talked about his 100marks shuai ge.. ya.. he's quite shuai le.. my vitamin J also okie!! hahaz!! (Joyce, please see this entry!!).. wahahaz.. now.. i realised i no longer will cry when talking about him already.. my heart has stopped bleeding.. and just feeling numb only.. my tears has dried up after so many weeks of weeping and crying..
the song is a chinese one.. i did some simply translation for the benefit of the doubt.. for those who dont understand chinese..
我带着一颗疲惫的心走了 I brought along a tiring heart and left
我知道自己在你心里已不重要 I know in your heart , it's no longer important
虽然我们曾经相聚过 though we might once be together
也许对于你来说 But to you,
已经没有什么值得回忆 It's no longer worth remembering
我带着一颗沉重的心走了 I brought along a heavy heart and left
我知道自己没有勇气道别离 I know myself that I dont have the courage to say "good-bye"
虽然我们曾经拥有过 Though we might once own each other
但是对于你来说 But to you,
已经没有什么值得回忆 Its's no longer worth remembering
难道早以注定 Maybe it has longed been fated,
不能真正拥有你 I cant really own you
难道我真心付出一切 Maybe what i have sacrifice wholeheartedly
只为了承受孤单和寂寞 are just meant to endure loneliness and emptiness
我知道你不敢对我坦白 I know you dare not say it truthfully to me,
是不要看到我的伤怀 is not wanting to see me upset
虽然你没有说要离开我 Though you didnt say you want to leave me,
我已经感到你不再属于我 I know that you no longer belong to me
如果你还爱我 If you still love me,
你不会对我如此的冷漠 You wont treat me so cold
又怎会让我在漫漫长夜独自徘徊 and wont let me ponder through this lonely night
如果你还爱我 If you still love me,
你不会对我如此的冷漠 You wont treat me so cold
我只能含着眼 All i can is to hold on to my tears
泪默默的离开 and leave quietly
[ 如果你还爱我............. ]
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
[ a PASSER-BY that brighten my days and once painted my life in RAINBOW colours ]
a PASSER-BY that brighten my days and once painted my life in RAINBOW colours
it's wednesday.. the first day of my holidays.. BUT.. i'm like ROTTING at home.. *rotten apple* .. was just now looking back and my friendster's testimony and comments given by my friends.. ya.. apple used to be the nick headache virus always call me.. hahaz.. think back. it's kind of stupid to have such a nick huh.. ya.. it's because of my red cheeks.. and i blushed too easily.. that's why they call me apple.. BUT somehow.. i just hate this nick now.. because this nick is associated to a girl i dont really like.. ya.. what rights do i have to dislike her?? after all, SHE is the ONE who GAIN your ATTENTION now..
was on the phone with my cousin last night.. and was telling him what have happened to me recently.. good for you kor.. finally find your happiness.. i'm still searching for it!! i'm kind of DISTRACTED due to the UNNECESSARY DISTURBANCE i have for the past 3 months.. ya.. i got almost a month holidays now.. and follow on with three months attachment.. luckily and unluckily, we arent in the same hospital.. i guess it will STOP all my URGE to SEE you.. and can be make FULL USE to HEAL my PAINFUL WOUND..
got a nice song to share - "dying inside to hold you" by Timmy Thomas.. super old song liao.. those who want to listen to it, can tag me.. and i'll send it to you.. real MEANINGFUL lyrics..
had breakfast together with mom and didi.. mom seems really TROUBLED.. and really DISAPPOINTED over what dad DID.. *haiz* how long must this go on?? mom is TIRED!!
Dying inside to hold you
It's started out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
When i turned to leave
I couldn't believe my eyes
Standing there i didn't know what to say
Without one touch
We stood there face to face
Chorus
(And) i was dying inside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you
You said hello then you asked my name
I didn't know if i should go home or remain
Inside i felt my life had really changed
I knew that it would never be the same
Standing there i didn't know what to say
First I looked away and i whispered your name
Chorus 2x
One hello changed my life
I didn't believe in love at first sight
But you have shown me what is like
And I now i know my love (i know this love is right)
Chorus (fade)
it's wednesday.. the first day of my holidays.. BUT.. i'm like ROTTING at home.. *rotten apple* .. was just now looking back and my friendster's testimony and comments given by my friends.. ya.. apple used to be the nick headache virus always call me.. hahaz.. think back. it's kind of stupid to have such a nick huh.. ya.. it's because of my red cheeks.. and i blushed too easily.. that's why they call me apple.. BUT somehow.. i just hate this nick now.. because this nick is associated to a girl i dont really like.. ya.. what rights do i have to dislike her?? after all, SHE is the ONE who GAIN your ATTENTION now..
was on the phone with my cousin last night.. and was telling him what have happened to me recently.. good for you kor.. finally find your happiness.. i'm still searching for it!! i'm kind of DISTRACTED due to the UNNECESSARY DISTURBANCE i have for the past 3 months.. ya.. i got almost a month holidays now.. and follow on with three months attachment.. luckily and unluckily, we arent in the same hospital.. i guess it will STOP all my URGE to SEE you.. and can be make FULL USE to HEAL my PAINFUL WOUND..
got a nice song to share - "dying inside to hold you" by Timmy Thomas.. super old song liao.. those who want to listen to it, can tag me.. and i'll send it to you.. real MEANINGFUL lyrics..
had breakfast together with mom and didi.. mom seems really TROUBLED.. and really DISAPPOINTED over what dad DID.. *haiz* how long must this go on?? mom is TIRED!!
Dying inside to hold you
It's started out just another day
I took a shower and I went on my way
I stopped there as usual
had a coffee and pie
When i turned to leave
I couldn't believe my eyes
Standing there i didn't know what to say
Without one touch
We stood there face to face
Chorus
(And) i was dying inside to hold you
I couldn't believe what i felt for you
Dying inside i was dying inside
But i couldn't bring myself to touch you
You said hello then you asked my name
I didn't know if i should go home or remain
Inside i felt my life had really changed
I knew that it would never be the same
Standing there i didn't know what to say
First I looked away and i whispered your name
Chorus 2x
One hello changed my life
I didn't believe in love at first sight
But you have shown me what is like
And I now i know my love (i know this love is right)
Chorus (fade)
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
[ let everything be calibrated to ZERO again! ]
[ let everything be calibrated to ZERO again! ]
just yesterday i didnt get a chance to blog.. and i'm DYING to POUR everything out already.. hahaz!!! FIRST of all, i have FINISHED my EXAMS already.. it's HOLIDAYS from this very MOMENT.. muahahaz.. yupz.. let's talk about what happened yesterday first..
MONDAY (18.06.07) - as usual ma.. wake up at 4.45am just to go school.. so PATHETIC right?? and i'm only staying at YISHUN.. not JB.. BLAME the bus 969 lohz.. if i go out too late, i wont get a chance to even board the bus.. i dont want to take cab to school.. SERIOUSLY.. DONT WANT! and i'm like so TIRED.. i simple DRAGGED myself out of the bed.. *yawn* ya.. it's NURSING STUDIES paper.. oh man!! seriously i'm NOT really that confident that i can do well after seeing the paper.. the MCQs are quite tricky.. and the short answer questions.. how much PASSION we need to get the paper done?? (o^.^o) SERIOUSLY.. A LOT!!
the paper is from 8.30am to 10.30am... rule no 1: we are not allowed to walk out of the hall for the first 30mins and last 15mins of the time .. if in the midst we finished, we can just let the lecturers know and we can walk out.. he was the FIRST person to walk out of the exam hall.. really IDOL him sia.. actually i think i finished much earlier than he do.. just DARE NOT walk out.. wahahaz.. seeing his back view. REALLY makes my HEART ACHES badly.. this time round, will i DEFINITELY GIVE UP?? can i REALLY GIVE UP??
i really dont know.. after the paper itself, Nad went home to rest.. Farhan and me headed to TM.. we went to grab a bite.. actually dont really feel like eating.. just FEEL like SLEEPING.. hahaz.. but POOR farhan.. parents went to KL.. no body at home.. so accompany him go eat.. we had long john silver at TM.. OH MAN!! SINNER!! i'm a REAL SINNER sia.. want to lose weight still eating fastfood.. *haiyoyo*
after which.. i went home and sleep.. real real tired ne!! was awaken by Nad's phone call.. and woke up to wash my uniform and iron my own clothes.. and my STUPID mom callled.. she asked me if i'm going for the planning meeting.. my dear mom, i'm having EXAM.. see again!! EXAM lehz.. haiz.. end up, i still guai guai finish my revision and headed for the meeting.. SERIOUSLY.. i dont feel like going... but i still went.. have red bean pancake and lime juice for dinner.. seriously dont feel like eating... i was quite early so i sat at the shelter near to uncle hua thong's place..
when i was about i leave the shelter.. *piang* i FELL down AGAIN.. it hurts my left ankle AGAIN.. and my right kneecap (patella).. and it's BLUE BLACK now!! real real painful.. was so afraid that i will limp to school AGAIN!! ya.. SERVE me RIGHT actually.. i was the one who OPPOSE STRONGLY that i dont want to go for the meeting.. now i went.. and Gohonzon PUNISHED me!! *sobx sobx*
our meeting ended at 9.30pm sharp.. mom and i took a cab back home... really very tired!!
TUESDAY - yupz.. I HAVE FINISHED my bioscience paper.. yupz.. SERIOUSLY speaking.. if we did study for bioscience paper, we can DEFINITELY score a distinction.. BUT somehow, got MENTAL BLOCK.. cannot really remember some of it.. i walked out of the hall at around 9plus coming to 10.. ya.. finished the paper in quite a short time..
After the paper itself, i made our way to MLT with Daphne, Joyce and Dougles.. actually walking with Nad, Shiffa and Farhan de.. end up, also dont know where they go.. and while waiting to going into MLT.. saw him.. he's just behind us (Daphne, Joyce, Dougles and me).. and that stupid Dougles.. talked so loud just to attract attention.. SAVE YOUR EFFORTS ba.. NO MATTER how HARD i tried.. he will just be HEARTLESS.. why make my LIFE so MISERABLE when i can CHOOSE to be HAPPY?? STUPID right?? in life, in many situations, there's only 2 choices.. either you CHOOSE to be HAPPY or MISERABLE.. since i already KNOW that i have a CHOICE to MAKE, why dont just CHOOSE to be HAPPY?
like what xueyun da jie say, " look FORWARD and NOT backward. you can be HAPPY AGAIN!! " true.. " The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you cant go on well in life until you let go your past failures and heartaches. " ... this is one of my favourite phase of words.. REAL TRUE right? Jessica Loh, you got almost one month before your clinical attachment.. treat this period as the HEALING PROCESS ba..
yupz.. FINALLY.. we know which hospital we are posted too!! i'm going to TTSH.. Nad to NUH.. Farhan to SGH.. and he went to CGH.. he must be very disappointed.. cause all along, he shares the same thinking as me.. to go to SGH.. and Farhan.. he also kind of disappointed.. cause he wants to go to TTSH so badly.. anyway, i'm going to MISS you guys real a LOT!! *sobx sobx*.. first week of my posting will be at Yishun polyclinic.. after that, the following 8weeks will be at TTSH.. 4weeks at surgical ward and 4 weeks at medical ward.. it's going to the TOUGEST period i'm going to FACE.. so... i REALLY need to stay POSITIVE all the time.. JIAYOU!!
1-3pm is the Red Cross Welcome Party.. yupz.. i'm in the Red Cross.. going for a CIP programme this coming friday at vivo city.. yupz.. and i'm seeing xueyun da jie and yvonne er jie this coming thursday for milkrun training at NP!!! REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to it!! it's like so long we didnt go out together le.. HAHAZ!! girls' talk TIME!!
"until the day i die.. `missingyou`" - who can this be?? let just let everything be CALIBRATED to ZERO once AGAIN!!!!!!!...........................
[ how STUPID can i go?? not any FURTHER!! ]
just yesterday i didnt get a chance to blog.. and i'm DYING to POUR everything out already.. hahaz!!! FIRST of all, i have FINISHED my EXAMS already.. it's HOLIDAYS from this very MOMENT.. muahahaz.. yupz.. let's talk about what happened yesterday first..
MONDAY (18.06.07) - as usual ma.. wake up at 4.45am just to go school.. so PATHETIC right?? and i'm only staying at YISHUN.. not JB.. BLAME the bus 969 lohz.. if i go out too late, i wont get a chance to even board the bus.. i dont want to take cab to school.. SERIOUSLY.. DONT WANT! and i'm like so TIRED.. i simple DRAGGED myself out of the bed.. *yawn* ya.. it's NURSING STUDIES paper.. oh man!! seriously i'm NOT really that confident that i can do well after seeing the paper.. the MCQs are quite tricky.. and the short answer questions.. how much PASSION we need to get the paper done?? (o^.^o) SERIOUSLY.. A LOT!!
the paper is from 8.30am to 10.30am... rule no 1: we are not allowed to walk out of the hall for the first 30mins and last 15mins of the time .. if in the midst we finished, we can just let the lecturers know and we can walk out.. he was the FIRST person to walk out of the exam hall.. really IDOL him sia.. actually i think i finished much earlier than he do.. just DARE NOT walk out.. wahahaz.. seeing his back view. REALLY makes my HEART ACHES badly.. this time round, will i DEFINITELY GIVE UP?? can i REALLY GIVE UP??
i really dont know.. after the paper itself, Nad went home to rest.. Farhan and me headed to TM.. we went to grab a bite.. actually dont really feel like eating.. just FEEL like SLEEPING.. hahaz.. but POOR farhan.. parents went to KL.. no body at home.. so accompany him go eat.. we had long john silver at TM.. OH MAN!! SINNER!! i'm a REAL SINNER sia.. want to lose weight still eating fastfood.. *haiyoyo*
after which.. i went home and sleep.. real real tired ne!! was awaken by Nad's phone call.. and woke up to wash my uniform and iron my own clothes.. and my STUPID mom callled.. she asked me if i'm going for the planning meeting.. my dear mom, i'm having EXAM.. see again!! EXAM lehz.. haiz.. end up, i still guai guai finish my revision and headed for the meeting.. SERIOUSLY.. i dont feel like going... but i still went.. have red bean pancake and lime juice for dinner.. seriously dont feel like eating... i was quite early so i sat at the shelter near to uncle hua thong's place..
when i was about i leave the shelter.. *piang* i FELL down AGAIN.. it hurts my left ankle AGAIN.. and my right kneecap (patella).. and it's BLUE BLACK now!! real real painful.. was so afraid that i will limp to school AGAIN!! ya.. SERVE me RIGHT actually.. i was the one who OPPOSE STRONGLY that i dont want to go for the meeting.. now i went.. and Gohonzon PUNISHED me!! *sobx sobx*
our meeting ended at 9.30pm sharp.. mom and i took a cab back home... really very tired!!
TUESDAY - yupz.. I HAVE FINISHED my bioscience paper.. yupz.. SERIOUSLY speaking.. if we did study for bioscience paper, we can DEFINITELY score a distinction.. BUT somehow, got MENTAL BLOCK.. cannot really remember some of it.. i walked out of the hall at around 9plus coming to 10.. ya.. finished the paper in quite a short time..
After the paper itself, i made our way to MLT with Daphne, Joyce and Dougles.. actually walking with Nad, Shiffa and Farhan de.. end up, also dont know where they go.. and while waiting to going into MLT.. saw him.. he's just behind us (Daphne, Joyce, Dougles and me).. and that stupid Dougles.. talked so loud just to attract attention.. SAVE YOUR EFFORTS ba.. NO MATTER how HARD i tried.. he will just be HEARTLESS.. why make my LIFE so MISERABLE when i can CHOOSE to be HAPPY?? STUPID right?? in life, in many situations, there's only 2 choices.. either you CHOOSE to be HAPPY or MISERABLE.. since i already KNOW that i have a CHOICE to MAKE, why dont just CHOOSE to be HAPPY?
like what xueyun da jie say, " look FORWARD and NOT backward. you can be HAPPY AGAIN!! " true.. " The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you cant go on well in life until you let go your past failures and heartaches. " ... this is one of my favourite phase of words.. REAL TRUE right? Jessica Loh, you got almost one month before your clinical attachment.. treat this period as the HEALING PROCESS ba..
yupz.. FINALLY.. we know which hospital we are posted too!! i'm going to TTSH.. Nad to NUH.. Farhan to SGH.. and he went to CGH.. he must be very disappointed.. cause all along, he shares the same thinking as me.. to go to SGH.. and Farhan.. he also kind of disappointed.. cause he wants to go to TTSH so badly.. anyway, i'm going to MISS you guys real a LOT!! *sobx sobx*.. first week of my posting will be at Yishun polyclinic.. after that, the following 8weeks will be at TTSH.. 4weeks at surgical ward and 4 weeks at medical ward.. it's going to the TOUGEST period i'm going to FACE.. so... i REALLY need to stay POSITIVE all the time.. JIAYOU!!
1-3pm is the Red Cross Welcome Party.. yupz.. i'm in the Red Cross.. going for a CIP programme this coming friday at vivo city.. yupz.. and i'm seeing xueyun da jie and yvonne er jie this coming thursday for milkrun training at NP!!! REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to it!! it's like so long we didnt go out together le.. HAHAZ!! girls' talk TIME!!
"until the day i die.. `missingyou`" - who can this be?? let just let everything be CALIBRATED to ZERO once AGAIN!!!!!!!...........................
[ how STUPID can i go?? not any FURTHER!! ]
Sunday, June 17, 2007
[ it's NOT EASY to be ME!! ]
it's NOT EASY to be ME!!
had a real early rest last night.. by 10.30pm, my whole family are all in bed.. but i turning and tossing in bed actually.. cannot sleep.. and still hoping he will sms.. i actually sms him yesterday morning to wish him all the best in his NUS competition.. but i guess this time round, he's disappointed with his performance again?? the last round.. he had a competition on the saturday after the "incident" took place.. and i sms him saying the same old words too.. and he did replied in the night telling me how he did.. but this time round, he didnt.. my instinct tell me he didnt do well..
i think and think.. and fall asleep.. woke up at 9plus today morning.. kind of early for a sunday morning huh.. dad's home.. bro too.. mom has just left home for work.. *sianz*.. going to face the two MEN at home.. Nad sms and asked if i can go out to study.. *haiz* just too bad.. I CANT!! cause mom took my farecard to top the concession for me.. if not, i will have to walk to school tomorrow!! hahaz.. i'm still on the com.. havent start studying for my nursing studies YET.. Jessica Loh, with this kind of efforts you are putting in, how well do you think you will do?? *haiz* i'm just easily distracted.. that's why i DONT WANT to STUDY at HOME!!
i'm still dwelling in the problem.. my heart is still STUCK inside.. pull me out, somebody!! if da jie see this entry of mine, she will be real disappointed that i'm still like that after she had that talk with me.. FORGET all about it, Jess.. YOU CAN DO IT DE!! JUST DO IT!! (sound like nike's advertisment).. it's NOT EASY to be ME!! SERIOUSLY..
daryl talked to yesterday on msn.. he thought he's the one who made me angry.. WAHAHAZ!! *laughing my ass out* you dont have such ability now ANYMORE.. ya.. he's my ex-boyfriend.. and he advised me not to take things so seriously in life.. he's the one who know me inside out.. i'm always SERIOUS in things i do.. ESPECIALLY those that interest me.. he said that after minus-ing the sadness, the stress, illness and stuff.. we are only left with 70years to live.. and now, we are now almost 20years old liao.. only left with 50more years.. should CHERISH the good moments..
yupz.. just blaming myself how come my fate with daryl is so SHORT?? if not, we'll still be e COUPLE everyone around envies.. SERIOUSLY.. my secondary school mates really envy me having such a nice boyfriend.. BUT.. it's all short term happiness.. let everything ends FASTER!! i NEED a BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!
had a real early rest last night.. by 10.30pm, my whole family are all in bed.. but i turning and tossing in bed actually.. cannot sleep.. and still hoping he will sms.. i actually sms him yesterday morning to wish him all the best in his NUS competition.. but i guess this time round, he's disappointed with his performance again?? the last round.. he had a competition on the saturday after the "incident" took place.. and i sms him saying the same old words too.. and he did replied in the night telling me how he did.. but this time round, he didnt.. my instinct tell me he didnt do well..
i think and think.. and fall asleep.. woke up at 9plus today morning.. kind of early for a sunday morning huh.. dad's home.. bro too.. mom has just left home for work.. *sianz*.. going to face the two MEN at home.. Nad sms and asked if i can go out to study.. *haiz* just too bad.. I CANT!! cause mom took my farecard to top the concession for me.. if not, i will have to walk to school tomorrow!! hahaz.. i'm still on the com.. havent start studying for my nursing studies YET.. Jessica Loh, with this kind of efforts you are putting in, how well do you think you will do?? *haiz* i'm just easily distracted.. that's why i DONT WANT to STUDY at HOME!!
i'm still dwelling in the problem.. my heart is still STUCK inside.. pull me out, somebody!! if da jie see this entry of mine, she will be real disappointed that i'm still like that after she had that talk with me.. FORGET all about it, Jess.. YOU CAN DO IT DE!! JUST DO IT!! (sound like nike's advertisment).. it's NOT EASY to be ME!! SERIOUSLY..
daryl talked to yesterday on msn.. he thought he's the one who made me angry.. WAHAHAZ!! *laughing my ass out* you dont have such ability now ANYMORE.. ya.. he's my ex-boyfriend.. and he advised me not to take things so seriously in life.. he's the one who know me inside out.. i'm always SERIOUS in things i do.. ESPECIALLY those that interest me.. he said that after minus-ing the sadness, the stress, illness and stuff.. we are only left with 70years to live.. and now, we are now almost 20years old liao.. only left with 50more years.. should CHERISH the good moments..
yupz.. just blaming myself how come my fate with daryl is so SHORT?? if not, we'll still be e COUPLE everyone around envies.. SERIOUSLY.. my secondary school mates really envy me having such a nice boyfriend.. BUT.. it's all short term happiness.. let everything ends FASTER!! i NEED a BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!
Saturday, June 16, 2007
[ even heros hav e right 2 bleed... ]
[ even heros hav e right 2 bleed... ]
mom's home today.. and i slept till 11am today.. didnt meet Nad and Farhan to study.. mom wants me to be home during weekends.. and it's like so boring study alone at home.. with all the unneccessary noise pollution.. and my cosy bedroom with my super comfortable bed.. *haiz*.. had breakfast and lunch together at the same time.. one shot finish it.. we had duck rice.. something which i dont really love eating.. only ate about half the plate of the rice.. just want to cut down the carbohydrate i taking in everyday.. want to look slimmer.. and prettier.. smile =]
started revision at around 1plus after i had my shower and did my morning prayers.. i also dont know how i managed to watch tv and revise at the same time.. i'm still stuck with my bioscience.. havent really start studying for my nursing studies which is on monday.. *haiz* after studying only for less than 2hours, i started to sneeze again.. i think it's because of yesterday at the hdb hub ba.. i was sneezing all the way in the room during the workshop.. and with the sick body, i travelled all the way to simei.. and from tampines i take bus home.. listen carefully.. i'm sick okie.. and yet.. i go deliver things as though i'm a postwoman..
alright.. let's talk about what happened yesterday.. it's over already!! everything has come to an END!! i went to sleep.. and sleep till almost 7pm before i wake up and have my dinner.. mom's at home.. so got to eat some home cooked food.. somehow satisified with the food i have today.. and sneezing again.. *ah choo* he having competition today at NUS.. dont know how is it.. *aiyo*.... Jessica Loh, stop bothering about him.. just feel bad that because of me, Farhan and Nad also having a change of their impression of him.. is he real like that?? or just doing this to make my heart dead?? whatever the reason or excuse is it behind what he did, he has hurted me deep enough already.. one day... one day, you will know how hurtful it is to do all these to me..
i havent do the things xueyun da jie asked me to.. cant bring myself to do it.. i just want him to remain the heartless one.. i dont hate him.. seriously.. and Nad is right.. i dont hate him at all.. *struggling with a fight inside* i know after already so many things had happened.. there isnt a need to need to know why already.. there isnt a need for any form of explaination.. but i really want to know what happened.. what is the cause behind all these.. if you want my heart to die without any regrets, tell me the reason behind it.. even if it's going to be an excuse, lie your way through and make it sound convicting to me.. and stop pinching salt on my wound.. it WONT help by being HEARTLESS.. i'm feeling NUMB inside.. the one you affected is MY FRIENDS.. my dear friends who really cares for me..
at least EXPLAIN something.. it's better this way than making me jump to conculsions.. that's what i hate to do.. i dont want to give you DEATH PENALTY without giving you the right for SELF DEFENCE.. BUT.. the worse thing is.. you dont sound as though you're guilty of anything.. you dont sound as though you really need that chance of self defending your actions.. you just cant be bother what's happening.. what EFFECTS your actions has on me.. is this what you mean NORMAL FRIENDS should behave?? if that's e case, you shouldnt have APPEAR in my life!!! let YOU be my GREATEST REGRET in 2007.......
-[unforgivable sinner - you wont ever be the same . someone cries and you're to blame]-
mom's home today.. and i slept till 11am today.. didnt meet Nad and Farhan to study.. mom wants me to be home during weekends.. and it's like so boring study alone at home.. with all the unneccessary noise pollution.. and my cosy bedroom with my super comfortable bed.. *haiz*.. had breakfast and lunch together at the same time.. one shot finish it.. we had duck rice.. something which i dont really love eating.. only ate about half the plate of the rice.. just want to cut down the carbohydrate i taking in everyday.. want to look slimmer.. and prettier.. smile =]
started revision at around 1plus after i had my shower and did my morning prayers.. i also dont know how i managed to watch tv and revise at the same time.. i'm still stuck with my bioscience.. havent really start studying for my nursing studies which is on monday.. *haiz* after studying only for less than 2hours, i started to sneeze again.. i think it's because of yesterday at the hdb hub ba.. i was sneezing all the way in the room during the workshop.. and with the sick body, i travelled all the way to simei.. and from tampines i take bus home.. listen carefully.. i'm sick okie.. and yet.. i go deliver things as though i'm a postwoman..
alright.. let's talk about what happened yesterday.. it's over already!! everything has come to an END!! i went to sleep.. and sleep till almost 7pm before i wake up and have my dinner.. mom's at home.. so got to eat some home cooked food.. somehow satisified with the food i have today.. and sneezing again.. *ah choo* he having competition today at NUS.. dont know how is it.. *aiyo*.... Jessica Loh, stop bothering about him.. just feel bad that because of me, Farhan and Nad also having a change of their impression of him.. is he real like that?? or just doing this to make my heart dead?? whatever the reason or excuse is it behind what he did, he has hurted me deep enough already.. one day... one day, you will know how hurtful it is to do all these to me..
i havent do the things xueyun da jie asked me to.. cant bring myself to do it.. i just want him to remain the heartless one.. i dont hate him.. seriously.. and Nad is right.. i dont hate him at all.. *struggling with a fight inside* i know after already so many things had happened.. there isnt a need to need to know why already.. there isnt a need for any form of explaination.. but i really want to know what happened.. what is the cause behind all these.. if you want my heart to die without any regrets, tell me the reason behind it.. even if it's going to be an excuse, lie your way through and make it sound convicting to me.. and stop pinching salt on my wound.. it WONT help by being HEARTLESS.. i'm feeling NUMB inside.. the one you affected is MY FRIENDS.. my dear friends who really cares for me..
at least EXPLAIN something.. it's better this way than making me jump to conculsions.. that's what i hate to do.. i dont want to give you DEATH PENALTY without giving you the right for SELF DEFENCE.. BUT.. the worse thing is.. you dont sound as though you're guilty of anything.. you dont sound as though you really need that chance of self defending your actions.. you just cant be bother what's happening.. what EFFECTS your actions has on me.. is this what you mean NORMAL FRIENDS should behave?? if that's e case, you shouldnt have APPEAR in my life!!! let YOU be my GREATEST REGRET in 2007.......
-[unforgivable sinner - you wont ever be the same . someone cries and you're to blame]-
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