[ even heros hav e right 2 bleed... ]

[ even heros hav e right 2 bleed... ]

mom's home today.. and i slept till 11am today.. didnt meet Nad and Farhan to study.. mom wants me to be home during weekends.. and it's like so boring study alone at home.. with all the unneccessary noise pollution.. and my cosy bedroom with my super comfortable bed.. *haiz*.. had breakfast and lunch together at the same time.. one shot finish it.. we had duck rice.. something which i dont really love eating.. only ate about half the plate of the rice.. just want to cut down the carbohydrate i taking in everyday.. want to look slimmer.. and prettier.. smile =]

started revision at around 1plus after i had my shower and did my morning prayers.. i also dont know how i managed to watch tv and revise at the same time.. i'm still stuck with my bioscience.. havent really start studying for my nursing studies which is on monday.. *haiz* after studying only for less than 2hours, i started to sneeze again.. i think it's because of yesterday at the hdb hub ba.. i was sneezing all the way in the room during the workshop.. and with the sick body, i travelled all the way to simei.. and from tampines i take bus home.. listen carefully.. i'm sick okie.. and yet.. i go deliver things as though i'm a postwoman..

alright.. let's talk about what happened yesterday.. it's over already!! everything has come to an END!! i went to sleep.. and sleep till almost 7pm before i wake up and have my dinner.. mom's at home.. so got to eat some home cooked food.. somehow satisified with the food i have today.. and sneezing again.. *ah choo* he having competition today at NUS.. dont know how is it.. *aiyo*.... Jessica Loh, stop bothering about him.. just feel bad that because of me, Farhan and Nad also having a change of their impression of him.. is he real like that?? or just doing this to make my heart dead?? whatever the reason or excuse is it behind what he did, he has hurted me deep enough already.. one day... one day, you will know how hurtful it is to do all these to me..

i havent do the things xueyun da jie asked me to.. cant bring myself to do it.. i just want him to remain the heartless one.. i dont hate him.. seriously.. and Nad is right.. i dont hate him at all.. *struggling with a fight inside* i know after already so many things had happened.. there isnt a need to need to know why already.. there isnt a need for any form of explaination.. but i really want to know what happened.. what is the cause behind all these.. if you want my heart to die without any regrets, tell me the reason behind it.. even if it's going to be an excuse, lie your way through and make it sound convicting to me.. and stop pinching salt on my wound.. it WONT help by being HEARTLESS.. i'm feeling NUMB inside.. the one you affected is MY FRIENDS.. my dear friends who really cares for me..

at least EXPLAIN something.. it's better this way than making me jump to conculsions.. that's what i hate to do.. i dont want to give you DEATH PENALTY without giving you the right for SELF DEFENCE.. BUT.. the worse thing is.. you dont sound as though you're guilty of anything.. you dont sound as though you really need that chance of self defending your actions.. you just cant be bother what's happening.. what EFFECTS your actions has on me.. is this what you mean NORMAL FRIENDS should behave?? if that's e case, you shouldnt have APPEAR in my life!!! let YOU be my GREATEST REGRET in 2007.......


-[unforgivable sinner - you wont ever be the same . someone cries and you're to blame]-