[ let everything be calibrated to ZERO again! ]

[ let everything be calibrated to ZERO again! ]

just yesterday i didnt get a chance to blog.. and i'm DYING to POUR everything out already.. hahaz!!! FIRST of all, i have FINISHED my EXAMS already.. it's HOLIDAYS from this very MOMENT.. muahahaz.. yupz.. let's talk about what happened yesterday first..

MONDAY (18.06.07) - as usual ma.. wake up at 4.45am just to go school.. so PATHETIC right?? and i'm only staying at YISHUN.. not JB.. BLAME the bus 969 lohz.. if i go out too late, i wont get a chance to even board the bus.. i dont want to take cab to school.. SERIOUSLY.. DONT WANT! and i'm like so TIRED.. i simple DRAGGED myself out of the bed.. *yawn* ya.. it's NURSING STUDIES paper.. oh man!! seriously i'm NOT really that confident that i can do well after seeing the paper.. the MCQs are quite tricky.. and the short answer questions.. how much PASSION we need to get the paper done?? (o^.^o) SERIOUSLY.. A LOT!!

the paper is from 8.30am to 10.30am... rule no 1: we are not allowed to walk out of the hall for the first 30mins and last 15mins of the time .. if in the midst we finished, we can just let the lecturers know and we can walk out.. he was the FIRST person to walk out of the exam hall.. really IDOL him sia.. actually i think i finished much earlier than he do.. just DARE NOT walk out.. wahahaz.. seeing his back view. REALLY makes my HEART ACHES badly.. this time round, will i DEFINITELY GIVE UP?? can i REALLY GIVE UP??

i really dont know.. after the paper itself, Nad went home to rest.. Farhan and me headed to TM.. we went to grab a bite.. actually dont really feel like eating.. just FEEL like SLEEPING.. hahaz.. but POOR farhan.. parents went to KL.. no body at home.. so accompany him go eat.. we had long john silver at TM.. OH MAN!! SINNER!! i'm a REAL SINNER sia.. want to lose weight still eating fastfood.. *haiyoyo*

after which.. i went home and sleep.. real real tired ne!! was awaken by Nad's phone call.. and woke up to wash my uniform and iron my own clothes.. and my STUPID mom callled.. she asked me if i'm going for the planning meeting.. my dear mom, i'm having EXAM.. see again!! EXAM lehz.. haiz.. end up, i still guai guai finish my revision and headed for the meeting.. SERIOUSLY.. i dont feel like going... but i still went.. have red bean pancake and lime juice for dinner.. seriously dont feel like eating... i was quite early so i sat at the shelter near to uncle hua thong's place..

when i was about i leave the shelter.. *piang* i FELL down AGAIN.. it hurts my left ankle AGAIN.. and my right kneecap (patella).. and it's BLUE BLACK now!! real real painful.. was so afraid that i will limp to school AGAIN!! ya.. SERVE me RIGHT actually.. i was the one who OPPOSE STRONGLY that i dont want to go for the meeting.. now i went.. and Gohonzon PUNISHED me!! *sobx sobx*

our meeting ended at 9.30pm sharp.. mom and i took a cab back home... really very tired!!

TUESDAY - yupz.. I HAVE FINISHED my bioscience paper.. yupz.. SERIOUSLY speaking.. if we did study for bioscience paper, we can DEFINITELY score a distinction.. BUT somehow, got MENTAL BLOCK.. cannot really remember some of it.. i walked out of the hall at around 9plus coming to 10.. ya.. finished the paper in quite a short time..

After the paper itself, i made our way to MLT with Daphne, Joyce and Dougles.. actually walking with Nad, Shiffa and Farhan de.. end up, also dont know where they go.. and while waiting to going into MLT.. saw him.. he's just behind us (Daphne, Joyce, Dougles and me).. and that stupid Dougles.. talked so loud just to attract attention.. SAVE YOUR EFFORTS ba.. NO MATTER how HARD i tried.. he will just be HEARTLESS.. why make my LIFE so MISERABLE when i can CHOOSE to be HAPPY?? STUPID right?? in life, in many situations, there's only 2 choices.. either you CHOOSE to be HAPPY or MISERABLE.. since i already KNOW that i have a CHOICE to MAKE, why dont just CHOOSE to be HAPPY?

like what xueyun da jie say, " look FORWARD and NOT backward. you can be HAPPY AGAIN!! " true.. " The brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past, you cant go on well in life until you let go your past failures and heartaches. " ... this is one of my favourite phase of words.. REAL TRUE right? Jessica Loh, you got almost one month before your clinical attachment.. treat this period as the HEALING PROCESS ba..

yupz.. FINALLY.. we know which hospital we are posted too!! i'm going to TTSH.. Nad to NUH.. Farhan to SGH.. and he went to CGH.. he must be very disappointed.. cause all along, he shares the same thinking as me.. to go to SGH.. and Farhan.. he also kind of disappointed.. cause he wants to go to TTSH so badly.. anyway, i'm going to MISS you guys real a LOT!! *sobx sobx*.. first week of my posting will be at Yishun polyclinic.. after that, the following 8weeks will be at TTSH.. 4weeks at surgical ward and 4 weeks at medical ward.. it's going to the TOUGEST period i'm going to FACE.. so... i REALLY need to stay POSITIVE all the time.. JIAYOU!!

1-3pm is the Red Cross Welcome Party.. yupz.. i'm in the Red Cross.. going for a CIP programme this coming friday at vivo city.. yupz.. and i'm seeing xueyun da jie and yvonne er jie this coming thursday for milkrun training at NP!!! REALLY LOOKING FORWARD to it!! it's like so long we didnt go out together le.. HAHAZ!! girls' talk TIME!!

"until the day i die.. `missingyou`" - who can this be?? let just let everything be CALIBRATED to ZERO once AGAIN!!!!!!!...........................

[ how STUPID can i go?? not any FURTHER!! ]