缘份说走就走，不会有征兆。

缘份说走就走，不会有征兆。

I used to count the number of days we have been together.. and now, i have started counting the number of days since we became strangers.. today is the 11th day already.. everyday still seems to be a dream.. a dream i wish i didnt wake up from..

during these period last year, we were walking into each other's life gradually.. the feelings developed.. and i really feel blessed.. cause everyday, i wake up with someone to lean on, someone cares about me.. someone bothers about my feelings.. BUT now, it's a different story.. i saw friends of yours tagging you on facebook.. and see how you are enjoying yourself during the Airshow.. have you seen those photos my friends tagged me?

was i really that happy? am i really putting on a true smile? to be frank, i dont know it myself either.. i cant differentiate now if i did it just because i dont want those who cares about me to worry about me or am i really happy with this ending.. Dad knows about it already.. he seems okie with it, and encourages me a lot.. As for mom, it's as usual, she's filled with anger.. cause she feels her daughter loses out as a girl.. Even harry boy was shocked that this was what had happened to us...

when we started, we did have blessings from friends around right? so why did all these happened? have you changed and I didnt realised? or is there a new eye candy that caused the change? was it true that this is the ending because you cant stand the feeling i am not going to be around when you go back to HK? or is it because there is a new eye candy? are you that stupid to give up someone you already had to someone you are trying to pursue? is there a new eye candy that you really want to make HER your FUTURE that's you want to make ME your PAST?

have you forgotten how did we got together? have you forgotten what you promised? have you forgotten what you said? why did all these turned into an EMPTY CHEQUE over the night? do you know i still bother about you? do you i still ponder what will you be doing now? do you know i still will worry if you ate well? do you know i still worry if you slept well? BUT.... what am i now in your heart? that kind of friends who are almost equivalent to strangers? do you still bother if i ate well? do you still bother if i slept well? do you bother if it's dangerous that i am staying out late?

how long will i take for this wound to heal and leave a scar in me? can i move on? can i still believe in love? can i still have the right to love someone else? what is my motivation now? what can be my motivation? or am i going to walk through this lifetime aimlessly?

who can give me the answers to my worries? i am SCARED.. i dont know how to walk alone..............