你最近还好吗??

你最近还好吗??

Pharmaco paper today was okie.. but i know i lost some marks in my careless eyes.. hais.. but i know definitely wont fail lahz.. still got 2 more tougher paper to come.. CMBIO and AAP2.. hais. cannot imagine how i am going to chiong.. CMBIO is on wed afternoon, and then AAP2 is on thurs morning! need to let me suffer until like that mahz? i seriously suffer a lot these 2 months liao..

even seeleng jie say i look pale and lethargic.. i really don't know what have i been doing for these whole term.. i was bounded with many other problems.. and now i am suffering for what i have done, while in the midst of overcoming my problems.. 2010, i seriously see no rainbow in front of this year ahead of me.. only 2 months passed, i am like that liao, still got 10more months to go.....

挑一张耶诞卡写上满满祝福的话
地址写的是心底你能不能收到它
天有点冷风有点大城市宁静而喧哗
这一个冬天我得一个人走回家
问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达
旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬
昨天远了明天还长回忆模糊但巨大
这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下

问自己习惯了吗
没有你每到夜褃回声变得好大
有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发
你最近还好吗
是不是也在思念褃挣扎
你说会记得我还记得吗
你最近还好吗
忙碌吗累吗心还会痛吗
如果真不得已忘了我
快向快乐出发

this song really speaks my thoughts.. can someone tell me why when someone is down, every song to her is meaningful and emotional? sometimes, by listening to the songs in the ipod touch you gave me, my tears just flow.. i have overcome the urge of wanting to sms you.. it's been few days since i last text you.. but i still cant control my tears from flowing, everyday, without fail, my tears will drop.. especially when i am alone.. either i am traveling or when getting ready to go to bed..

"有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达" - it really sound like applying it to me.. so what if i still miss you? what rights do i have now to express it? know the reason why i am telling myself not to sms you? it is not because i don't miss you, but i don't know what rights do i have to miss you.. i rather suffer quietly than make you hate me because of my actions..

why did all these happened? why have i let all these happened? everyone envied how sweet we are when we were together.. why did all these happened? WHY!? letting you go wasn't my choice.. i just grant your wish, so who can grant mine?

i still miss you...