怎么会狠心离开我?? 怎么会狠心伤害我??

怎么会狠心离开我?? 怎么会狠心伤害我??

每个孤独的晚上
就像电影的散场
身边的人都离开
不知何时有泪光
每个相爱的地方
都像回忆织的网
多少痛苦关在胸膛
谁能看出我的伤

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当我松开你的手
眼泪离开眼眶后
喝下沉溺的烈酒
醒来最终要接受
当爱散落的时候
何谓天长和地久
痛苦了一生的时间
是否明白 是否足够

怎么会狠心离开我
这一切到底为什么
分不清一切都是谁的错
付出换来这种结果
怎么会狠心伤害我
可怜我爱你那么多
失去了快乐 幻灭了承诺
守住两个人的日子
一个人过

finished my last AAP2 paper today.. totally screwed up.. CMBIO paper was in the afternoon, and AAP2 paper is in the morning.. to be frank, not enough time to study.. paper wasn't that tough to be frank.. just that really have no time to revise... i think my 'A' for this paper gone to drain liao.. BUT... i feel i have tried my best.. in such a situation, i still can try my best to focus, i think i already considered strong ba?

went to try relaxing myself after the paper.. went to sing k with Jo, Sharon, Puvaneas and Chun Haw.. everything was fine till i was singing the song i listed on top... title of song is - 怎么会狠心伤害我.. i really cried.. cause it really speaks up what i feel... especially these part - “怎么会狠心离开我? 这一切到底为什么? 分不清一切都是谁的错, 付出换来这种结果... 怎么会狠心伤害我? 可怜我爱你那么多, 失去了快乐, 幻灭了承诺... 守住两个人的日子, 一个人过..........”

hais.. i seriously don't know why is it so tough this time round for me to get on my feet again.. and i know i am saddening people who really cares for me... BUT, i really cant help it. now that my exams are over, and attachment is coming, which means he is leaving for home soon.... hais.. i really miss him.. miss him a lot.. today is the 6th day i didn't text him liao.. does he misses me? already 27days since we are separated.. almost coming to one month liao.. and it seems like you have been adapting well.. and have you even bother how i am enduring all these?

do you really care? or is it you are worried that if you care, you wont be able to let go of me? i rather that you don't let go... i never want you to go... maybe... "很多事一开始可能本来就没有拥有过. 只是梦醒而已.." probably feeling this way would make me feel better.. if i keep thinking i once have it before, it will really makes me feel terrible..

went to PP youth gathering at Chevron after the k-session.. had quite a lot of fun.. know some new friends.. hope to have chance to meet them again... all those fun, will just disappear when it's over.. and i am back to square again....