[寂寞了誰在身旁 ]

寂寞了誰在身旁............................

拼命的上網　悶壞的胸口讓我
想大聲的吶喊

我努力不放　你冷淡　你讓分手就這樣
我連做夢也感覺受傷

一年過了　還是一天？　計算著慌張
計程車上的音響
我們最愛的情歌 這一刻卻重重擊破思念的心臟

夜深了我怎麼辦　
寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜　想她　念她　恨她

一個人你害怕嗎　
細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開　多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔
心放空了　寂寞好了

堅強外表下　我脆弱　情人節開始失常
別人慶祝我卻很失落

秋天過了　冬天漫長 歡愉而感傷
我們天真的勇敢
我們追求的夢想 捨不得也只能收藏旅行的時光

夜深了我怎麼辦　
寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜　想她　念她　恨她

一個人你害怕嗎　
細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開　多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔
心放空了　寂寞好了

寂寞感冒全都可以好的
愛多甜　傷多痛　都釋放


夜深了我怎麼辦　
寂寞了誰在身旁
心情變得好複雜　想她　念她　恨她

一個人你害怕嗎　
細數過滿天星光
說好永遠不分開　多假 多假 多假
讓記憶長出翅膀飛翔
沒有你 心放空了　寂寞好了

it's a song by 蔡旻佑 - 寂寞，好了. It really explains my feelings.. talked to Stella on msn.. it's seems like an awaken call.. Stella asked me if he checked on me after we ended.. suddenly, i dont know how to answer.. cause he really didnt.. i was the one being stupid to sms him and tell him how terrible i felt.. but the reply i got seems cold and heartless..

he even said things like "i am going back, probably after some time, when i am not around, you will gradually forgotten about me.. " we know it well.. i will be the one being forgotten by you easily.. cause... it seems like now.. you already forgotten about me.. and how stupid i am still hoping that you will know that i am still waiting for you.......

although i know you will be spending time with your friend(s) during reunion dinner.. i also hope i can know who is that person.. is it someone your eye candy now? i really hope is not... i am concern of your well-being.. so are you also? what am i still hoping for? when i tell you i am going for surgery, are you worried for me? do you bother about me? do you still love me? or your love for me already evaporated way before we ended? tell me.. tell me... please tell me...............................