my love my fate you will fade away....

my love my fate you will fade away....

my love my fate you will fade away
以后隔天与地
i love i hate i'll miss you always
我永远亦爱你
太美好的东西会走
还未爱够了你怎放手
从来不肯假想
失去你那感受
我这对脚怎黱走
从来并未练习过温柔
迟学你或已经没法接受
然后你会说我跟她分左与右
谁希罕造种手拖手
my love my fate you will fade away
再没有恋爱味
i love i hate i'll always be afraid
永远也害怕你
我要首先讲声我走
还是爱到你说请你走
如果讲一声
请照顾我感受
我最怕你讲出口
从来并未练习过温柔
迟学你或已经没法接受
然后你会说我跟她分左与右
谁希罕造种手拖手
下次开心已要靠自己
下次顶多饰演好知己
其实再次见你真需要
靠演技也要你我好心地
my love my fate you will fade away
过去当做看戏
世界当没有你
ooh......

this is a Cantonese song he put in my ipod touch.. title of the song is: "my love my fate"... it explains my feelings.. hais.. "我要首先讲声我走, 还是爱到你说请你走".. that was what i thought.. i always wanted to be one who say good bye cause i scared you dumped me.. end up i still love you till you asked me to leave.. even when i know you are showing me cold shoulder and our relationship might be gone, i still tolerated.. i still tried to please you.. try to make you happy and don't disturb you unnecessarily..

BUT.. have you thought of how would i feel? actually i feel VERY TERRIBLE, BUT i kept quiet.. cause i didn't want to lose you.. end up, you gave up way before i did.. even till that moment that you said things clear to me, i am still holding on.. till now.. one month liao, i am still holding on.. do you know? i really hope you will know.. i know "love a person necessarily need to be with that person, he happy can le"... BUT, i cant bear to let you go.. i cant ar!!

please come back.... please....................... looking at my wishlist on my blog, it reminded me of you said.. you said you will work hard and fulfill them with me one by one.. have you forgotten? Dad asked about you today.. asked me if you called me.. hais.. how heartless ar.. cause you didn't.. not even a sms.. I'm always the one who sms you.. 10days liao.. 10days didn't sms you le.. i really feel like sms-ing you, BUT, i keep controlling myself.. i hoping the day you will sms me on your own accord.. i am hoping... do you know?

to someone: thanks for treating me so nice.. i can only let you be sad now.. i dont wish to hide.. i still have feelings for him.. even though how terrible others might feel about him, i still have feelings for him.. but i really want to thank you for being so good to me.. thank you.