我不是你想像那麽勇敢...........
有时候太坚强笑容却填不满眼眶
越是想要隐藏歌声就唱的更响亮
直到入到心底最深处 oh~
你不要追问我还缺了些什麽
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最后一站 oh~
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
每个人都有梦幸福总站在最远方
心中越是渴望越是不敢伸手拥抱
谁的心是我最后一站 oh~
我强问我自己现在还没有个答案
我不是你想像总是扮演坚强
多想让你知道我也要个伴
放下讨厌武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上
我不是你想像的那麽勇敢
a nice song by 梁文音.. CMBIO paper today just over.. don't know if can do well not.. but i know... i have tried my best liao le.. so ya.. got to work hard for AAP paper tomorrow.. then going to relax! heez! ya, i am still ANGRY over that incident.. do you know that you shouldn't be blaming whoever the person who told us the incident but blame yourself for the childish actions? go REFLECT after exams are over ba.. that's all i want to say...
still misses you as usual... friends around me have been trying their best to divert my attention.. like Ben and Stella.. and thanks to Joanna.. always spend time with me.. like studying and so.. so that i can at least stay focus when i am outside.. i really dont wish to disappoint those who are concern about me.. but for now.. i can only stay in this situation.. just let me dwell into this ba.. at least now, i am still trying to motivate myself to carry on by thinking about him.. he's my hope, my only hope..
i really wish that he can know that i am still waiting.. i am still waiting for him to come back to me.. but yet, he don't know this blog of mine exists.. cause i changed my blog link liao.. i want him back yet i don't want him to worry about me but concentrate on working for his future.. how confusing it is.. hais.. why have i done wrong that the situation suddenly changes? is your love for me that little? or you think that i am not worth your love?
Dad mentioned you today again.. it's like still a daily routine that your name will never fail to be mentioned everyday.. my parents can still even remember your FIN no.. how good their memories are.. and Dad's bad at remembering names especially Chinese names.. but he still pronounce your name correctly.. he said he still consistently thought of you.. and said he dont know why but feel that one day we will get back together.. really ma? i am waiting....
even my parents are still remembering you.. do you still remember how well they treated you? sometimes they even blamed themselves and feels that they said something wrong to you that's why you become like that... they are reflecting... so are you? are you reflecting that you have made a wrong decision? or will you think that this is the best decision and for your entire life, you will not regret? i know that you have been regretting that you didnt cherish the girl you really like when you were in secondary school.. so if you really love me, why let this be your 2nd regret? or maybe i just think too highly of myself that you actually love me a lot? do you know i really loves you?
to a good friend: thanks for letting me know you care about me.. but please dont treat me so nice, cause i only have HIM in mind.. my heart has no more space to hold another person. all i can say is: i'm sorry and thanks for being so good to me..
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