[ tired . tired . tired ]

tired . tired . tired

woke up at around 10plus today.. did my morning prayers and had my breakfast at home.. brother bought it for me.. thanks huh.. i'm really TIRED to even go downstairs.. then i went online to get some red cross stuff done.. then at around 2pm.. i started my "WORK".. first was to sweep the floor.. then i mopped the floor.. after which.. i took down the dried clothes and fold it.. then putting them nicely into the drawers..

it's really a humid day.. then.. i went to have my shower.. i really SMELLS after all the housework.. then.. i went to iron my clothes and stuff.. before i go out, i did my evening prayers.. i'm AFRAID that i will return home late.. went out with brother at around 4pm.. ate chicken burger and fries for lunch.. i'm really HUNGRY after sweating so much...

went on our way to see grandma.. she's so AGITATED today.. she kept struggling to get out of bed.. and see her wanting to talk but she cant.. and tried knocking away the blankets.. till her IV cannula came out.. hais! i just dont know how long this will last.. then.. i left for clementi at about 6pm.. went to cheers to get some ice-cream.. i'm really SAD.. and STRESS.. and eating ice-cream makes me feel better.. how i wish i can eat one tub now? BUT.. it doesnt seems to help MUCH.. HAIS.. GONE CASE liao..

took 147 from SGH down to Clementi.. managed to get her before 7pm.. was meeting Aunt Sherley, Aunt Suni and Yee Ling for planning meeting for this month's YWD/WD combined discussion meeting.. Really not in the mood.. and forced myself to eat too.. cause i know i cant afford to COLLAPSE at this crucial moment.. managed to finish the planning in an hour's time.. and sat down with Yee ling and Aunt Lian See.. they were really concern about my mom.. and about my grandma.. thanks for all the encouragement.. dont worry.. i'll do my BEST to keep my THINKING POSITIVE..

took mrt from clementi home.. and called Tom.. BUT.. he's having his dinner.. and while waiting for him to call back.. i fall asleep in the mrt.. i'm REALLY TIRED.. but.. till i reach home.. he didnt call.. dont know what he's BUSY with.. really WISH to TALK to HIM.. just need someone to talk to.. BUT when i called him again, he told me he's meeting tian chen.. and said i called at the wrong time.. hais! i know he sound he's joking.. BUT, to the person who hears it.. it's HURTING..

and i just need him to be there.. for this very moment.. want to find one day i'm free to go to the seaside.. or to the reservoir.. and sit down quietly to think.. want to relieve my stress.. longing for that day to come...

" Life is full of battles. Each victory is determined by the path you take and the role you play "