[ i must learn.... ]

i must learn....

monday blues.. first lesson was CN theory.. BUT this whole week.. all CN practical and theory lesson will be changed for us to complete the PBL project.. oh MAN! i just HATE it.. BUT well, the second attempt doing the PBL wont be as bad as the first attempt i guess.. just HOPING it will turn out well.. lesson from 10-12 was at techno block.. and dear came to look for me.. to get his forms he kept with me the other day.. and he's LATE for class.. bite u ar! everytime also like that..

had an early lunch today at cafe2.. bought fish beehoon soup.. BUT only managed to finish half of it.. just lost the appetite all of a sudden.. headed to MLC after the quick lunch.. and started to do some typing for the PBL project while the others did the researches.. and.. here came a 不俗之客 that almost make my breakfast and lunch rise to my esophagus.. i know it's BAD saying that.. BUT.. i just CANT HELP it! anyway, dont wish to talk about it..

back track.. had a hard time at MLC.. BUT.. had a GREAT time playing with the printer.. no lahz.. is handling the printer i should say!! hahaz! after spending almost 2hours at the MLC, i feel more RELIEVED.. cause almost half of the project is DONE.. BUT.. dont be TOO HAPPY, JESSICA LOH.. you still got your cms presentation, your cms assignment and your CN class test!! came out of the MLC and it's 13:57!! oh man! 3 more minutes for us for RUSH from MLC to MLT!! without saying much, we held our breath and walked all the way.. almost SUFFOCATE sia. it's really COLD cause it's RAINING and we are walking so FAST!!

came into MLT.. and was SHOCKED.. lecturer of the day.. our DEAREST section-head => MR TAY.. he's CATCHING hold of those who are LATE for lecture.. LUCKILY, we managed to run away from it.. topic of the day.. "perception" and "ego-defence mechanisms".. i really ENJOYED the lecture.. first lecture after so long in this term that didnt make me feel like sleeping.. hahaz! ACHIEVEMENT.. and he share so many personal stories of his with us.. MAKING ME laughing out loud all the way!! i feel so much RELIEVED after laughing so much..

called Chong after my lecture.. and headed to SDC to look for him.. before that.. i went into cafe1 to grab a cup of triple chocolate ice-cream.. dont know why.. just feel like eating it.. maybe because i'm NOT in the MOOD ba.. dear and Shaun were kind of SHOCKED to see me there.. and he asked why i was there.. was quite BLUNT in my words actually.. SORRY if i have made you angry, dear.. i dont mean it.. just have some frustration and feels that i have no one to turn to..

went home ALONE after that.. just need some TIME to REFLECT on my own.. and i CRIED.. i'm really TIRED.. so much things has happened.. and i kind of cant accept the hardest facts of lives.. why things happened this way? why things end up like that? i just need time to adapt.. maybe because i'm WORRIED about too many stuffs recently le..

and i feel kind of STUPID to have talk to dear like that when he talked to me nicely.. i know you have your problems too.. you have your committments and stress too.. BUT.. i hope.. you can share it with me.. and talked to me things that happened to you like you used to do last time.. let us face the stress we have together.. "stand alone spirit" is tiring..

i remembered before i sleep last night.. i was reading through all the sms dear sent me.. and remember i once said to dear.. "when i'm with you, i feel that i have nothing to worry about.." and dear replied to me "got.. me lohz.. got me to worry".. TRUE enough.. you're the one i worried about the MOST now.. especially when you dont share your problems with me, i'll feel more WORRIED.. well.. i guess.. i just have to learn.. to learn to be more UNDERSTANDING..

[ i know my love for you will never change.... loveulotsdear! ]