[ sneezing.... ]

sneezing....

was at home in the morning.. till about 11am.. set off to clementi.. mom got to settle some bills stuff and that.. so we headed to Clementi.. my old HOMETOWN!! hahaz! no lahz.. just somewhere i used to stay.. after settling some bills, we went to have our brunch session.. ya.. breakfast and lunch at the same time.. we had CHICKEN RICE!! my favourite.. BUT i still miss the stall under my old block.. not the one at clementi central..

after which, we walked towards the bus-stop.. and on our way there, we saw 二舅母and Yeeling表姐.. they just finished eating too! and 二舅母actually ask where are we heading too.. well.. it's to SGH lohz.. we are going to visit ah ma.. took bus147 from the bus-stop at the ntuc.. it was quite a distance.. i wanted so much to take a nap.. but.. i just CANT.. i just dont know why..

very tired.. and since morning.. i have been SNEEZING way before i get my head out of my blanket.. think i was TRAMASTIC after yesterday's fall ba.. hahaz! BUT.. it's making me real UNCOMFORTABLE.. while making our way into the hospital, i felt a sudden GIDDINESS.. i think i almost FAINTED! cause i feel that i'm walking side way.. BUT.. luckily.. i didnt.. went up to SICU to see ah ma.. she's responsing and times and not responsing at times.. so WORRIED about her situation..

she wanted so much to talk.. BUT.. she cant.. due to the tubes in her mouth.. and luckily, i know how to read lips.. she wanted to tell us she got no voice, cant talk.. ah ma, we understand that.. i just want to get well.. FASTER and SOONER.. dont wish to see you suffer.. dear's working today.. he must be TIRED.. went home so LATE last night.. feel so心疼 of him.. cause he's like working.. studying and got so many events and sc stuffs on in school.. just hoping that his investiture can come FASTER so that he can step down faster..

called him when i was in the hospital.. wanted to make sure he didnt over-slept.. mom's asking why he didnt come to visit ah ma.. well, i know he's busy.. at times, i do grumble that he didnt visit ah ma right at his face.. BUT.. inside my heart, i know he's busy.. and i can UNDERSTAND him well.. dont want to be so 辛苦! sometimes, i do feel i am not good enough to be his girlfriend.. cause i'm always not able to 分担 his 忧愁.. comes to STUDIES.. i CANT HELP him.. cause he's not in the same course as me.. comes to SC stuff.. i CANT HELP him.. cause i dont know anything.. comes to work, i CANT HELP him.. cause he need that for a living..

i guess what i CAN DO is to give him more understanding and be more understanding towards him.. whatever problem i can solve on my own, i wont go bother him.. whatever problem that might affect him to be more stressful, i shall keep it to myself.. that's my conviction from NOW..

went home at about 5plus.. REALLY TIRED.. and what irritates me the most is.. i'm SNEEZING like dont know what.. i cant go near my ah ma at all.. just dont want to spread germs to her when her immune system is already so weak.. grandma, get well soon!.....

tired le.. off to sleep....