had no school today.. cause it's Deepavali.. hmmm.. woke up at around 9plus.. my initial plan was to SLEEP till 10am.. but then... my whole family woke up and my dear brother is kicking his soccer ball outside my room.. and it's SO KIND of him to CLOSE my DOOR.. but i SEE NO POINT in doing this.. cause.. my bedroom's door isnt SOUND-PROVED.. so you see the point now? ultimately, he will just CREATE more NOISE.. cause the ball will knocked onto my DOOR.. and CREATE more unnecessary NOISE.. ARGH!! it's HOLIDAY and yet i cant get the PEACE i want..
so, i woke up.. SCREWED him upside down and went to wash up.. since i wake up so EARLY.. i decided to IRON my clothes for Friday SSEAYP event and iron my uniform as well.. mom's COMPLAINING again.. complaining that my IRONING skill is lousy and terrible.. lolx! i'm arent a PROFESSIONAL HOUSEWIFE after all.. though many people thinks i look like one.. " you think, i thought, we confirm? " hahaz!
meeting Chong at 11.30pm at novena.. then going down today.. that's e GOOD thing about having a friend staying on the same mrt line as you.. as least, you wont be BORED going home alone and stuff.. SERIOUSLY.. i LOVE travelling alone.. cause this is the time i'll listen to my mp3 and think through some stuff i need to REFLECT on.. and things i have to think through and analyse.. i was LATE.. cause mom was COMPLAINING AGAIN.. as usual.. on my outfit.. cause will be going back to ah gong's place later..
she wants me to look PRESENTABLE.. BUT.. i guess being there is already PRESENTABLE enough.. hahaz! then.. had a HARD TIME trying to CALL my DEAREST too.. call him at 11.10am.. BUT.. his mobile is OFF.. and his home phone NOBODY bothers to PICK it up.. then, i got NO CHOICE but to turn to Shaun.. then..... i REALISED... that.... Shaun had called him at 10.50am to WAKE him up le.. was guessing that maybe he PURPOSELY off his phone lahz.. and indeed.. my SIXTH SENSE was RIGHT!
he told Shaun himself that he PURPOSELY off his phone.. well, whatever.. you're the one who ask me to wake u up and yet you off your phone.. cant be bother.. i did tried.. so i'm not at fault if he really gone back to sleep.. on the way there.. was thinking about a number of stuff.. and guessing a number of things too.. and indeed.. my SIXTH SENSE was RIGHT!! can it NOT be RIGHT? i JUST HATE the FEELING of that.. hais! anyway.. it doesnt MATTER much.. it's just MY SELF-CENTRED mind causing TROUBLES..
many were LATE.. and i SERIOUSLY DISLIKE people with NO SENSE of TIME-CONTROL.. shall NOT find FAULT.. they might REASONS behind why they are LATE.. you shall be FORGIVEN then.. BUT.. kick that bad habit! then, we made our WAY to marina square.. the moment Tom arrived, i didnt really wanted to TALK to HIM.. just ANGRY cause he PURPOSELY off his phone.. if he's AFRAID that he will be AWAKEN a second time by ME.. at least CALL or SMS to tell ME that Shaun has woke him up already.. then i SAVE my EFFORT of CALLING him..
BUT.. he just didnt even BOTHER to do so.. then he CAME up to me and asked why i didnt want to TALK to him.. sometimes i just wonder.. am i too PETTY?? but i can FEEL that i'm much better than the "ME" few weeks ago.. at least i FEEL that the UNDERSTANDING ME is COMING BACK!! yupz.. that should be the WAY.. shall drop this subject since it's OVER!! but this isnt the ONLY issue that SPOILT my day..
NEXT.. it's RUIFEN INCIDENT.. we were all waiting for her to come.. she didnt know the way and yet she kept telling me she knows.. then.. gradually.. i found out that she dont know how to make her way to marina square long john silver.. so.. i called and guided her how to come.. when i put down the phone.. Guosheng started to comment.. saying that i shouldnt have tell her all at a goal.. she might not know her way.. i didnt know why i was SO AGITATED.. i SHOUTED back at HIM.. shall not REPEAT what i said to him.. cause i feel it's really BAD.. just know that it's a few phases of words that makes the yep family members present STARE with EYES open BIG... i can easily say that their pupils are dropping out.. lolx..
after that.. i went out to look for Ruifen.. and i managed to find her.. hais! then.. they decided to have a change in venue.. then.. here we are.. starting our scavenger hunt at city hall.. hunting from marina square to meillia walk to suntec city to convection hall then back to marina square yoshi.. ALAMAK! ended up.. i only spent about 20minutes with them for the discussion.. FEEL so BAD.. but i have no choice.. got to go off to ah gong's place.. rushed my way down to lakeside.. had some food at ah gong's place.. some buffet stuff.. and ate a piece of his birthday cake.. it's MANGO cake.. my FAVOURITE!!
seeing grandma walking even without a walking frame.. i'm so HAPPY.. able to see her growing fatter.. and eating well.. and was having a GREAT time suan-ing my cousin about his girlfriend.. cause he and his girl got a period of time seperately.. so me and my brother were happily guessing the reason behind it.. Tom went movie with Shaun, his girlfriend, Zaki and Khai.. Mom was asking me why i didnt go when she asked where Tom go.. so, i told Mom that Tom went for a movie with some of the yep family people.. and she asked why i didnt go with him.. suddenly, i just feel i dont know how to answer her question.. and i REALISED that Tom and me HAVE NOT been for a MOVIE at ALL.. oh.. how SADDENING it can be.. well, we only go on our own now.. the ONLY time we are TOGETHER will be with events with the yep family and that attendance is COMPULSORY..
and Mom dont seems to UNDERSTAND that we DONT get to SEE each other even though we are in the same school.. well.. there's nothing much i can do.. just hopes she can be more UNDERSTANDING.. and that i can be more UNDERSTANDING.. as a girlfriend.. as a daughter..
left home at about 5plus.. really TIRED.. hais! came home and read one of my friend's blog.. then i realised someone close to me has cheated me for the first time.. it's a very close friend of mine.. i trusted him a lot.. and tells him practically everything.. though it seems like it isnt anything big that he had kept away from me.. BUT.. i just feel very UNCOMFORTABLE being CHEATED.. really HATE this kind of feeling.. for friends who know me for long, you should all be clear that i always HATE people who CHEATS me.. and i always say.. " if you want to lie or bluff me something, make sure you bluff your way through and never ever give me an opportunity to find out.." i HATE. HATE that my SENSITIVITY is so STRONG.. HATE that my SIXTH SENSE is always so ACCURATE.. something just MEANT to be NOT KNOWN.. if you KNOW it, you will feel AFFECTED.. tired... sleeping soon.....
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