yesterday night.. i felt as though i was FORCED to make a decision.. MR "F" has been sms-ing me recently.. i didnt know what his motive was till yesterday.. i just dont understand how come after almost 2years, he still behave this way.. HAIS! do you really understand english not? i have been saying times and again to you that we are impossible.. even if you dont have a girlfriend, even if you are younger, we are just IMPOSSIBLE..
i treated him like a friend.. cause i know we will have pretty much chances to bump into each other during our activities.. therefore, i have chosen not to avoid him totally, but just keeping a fair distance away.. i dont sms him unnecessarily.. and try to push away every opportunity that he wants to meet me.. BUT, time and again, he will try his luck.. yesterday, he smsed me and told me many mushy things.. saying that he got lots more things to tell me when we meet.. and ask me if he's now not attached, will i be with him... hais! it's just so IRRITATING..
i dont know how to tell him off.. after saying so many times.. hais! mom knows about it.. and told me that i should be frank with him. i have been FRANK enough liao.. he's just STUBBORN.. maybe i should just lie saying that i'm attached liao.. hope his heart can die.. 勉强是没有幸福的!! even if your love for me continues for 20years, NO FATE means NO FATE! you can fall for me when you have a girlfriend, this also means when you are with me, you can fall for another girl TOO right? i dont want to fall into love traps again and make my life so terrible.. i just want to live CAREFREE-ly and PEACEFULLY.... by FORCING me to make a decision will just make me HATE you more! and feel DISGUSTED by you.. you think people will think feel that you very 可怜? they will just think it's 可笑 only.. hais! GIVE ME UP ba!
plans for today has been changed.. supposed to attend the wake today.. now.. i'll be attending the wake tomorrow.. and dinner with ben ben will be today.. Ben Ben called when he was having his lunch break.. i think the weather is BAD.. so everyone is in a BAD MOOD.. i think he a bit irritated cause he have to stand outside his office and talk ti me while i was trying to get my lappy started.. hais.. cant blame me mahz.. it's the computer lag.. spent HOURS searching and looking for what to eat.. end up.. the conculsion is to meet him outside AH then head to Toa Poyah for dinner..
left home at about 5plus.. it's raining CATS and DOGS!... and mom was discouraging me not to go out cause it's raining so HEAVILY.. BUT, it didnt stop me.. cause it's a promise made to Ben Ben liao.. that we will meet for dinner.. took 855 from Yishun then alight near Queensway shopping centre.. it was still EARLY.. so i went there and make a round.. then Ben Ben smsed to ask me to meet him in AH.. seriously speaking.. i havent been into AH.. just know how it looks like from outside.. he wanted me to wait for him at the canteen.. and i think we got all the places mix up..
both of us actually end up at 2 different exits!! hahaz! LAME lohz! took 153 to Toa Poyah.. and Ben Ben was telling me how NICE Kungfu Panda this movie is.. SO IRRITATED lohz!! PURPOSELY IRRITATE me! NEVER MIND.. i shall get the dvd when it's OUT! dinner was at Sizzler.. FIRST time eating there.. Ben Ben also.. then he was saying that we have given each other our FIRST TIME! after saying that, both of us keep laughing! that sounds so WRONG, ben ben! lolx..
Ben Ben had "Singapore spicy chicken" and lime juice.. as for me, i ate "grilled dory" and passion fruit soda.. and we ate some salad.. ice-cream.. and soups! i drank my FAVOURITE - clam soup.. and Ben ben had cream of mushroom.. and that Ben ben.. didnt test the thousand island sauce before adding into the salad.. the sauce itself just taste so disgusting.. after eating, we headed to NTUC to grab some cerels and HL milk.. didnt know that he likes strawberry milk until today.. SUCH a RARE! guys only will like food made from strawberry..
outside the Mrt station, there's prudential people doing some survery.. then.. Ben Ben was complaining that why nobody approach him to do the survey.. then when someone approached him, he rejected and turned people down.. LOLX! BAD lohz!! took 157 to his place and from there, i too 852 home.. had a GREAT day today! thanks for the treat Ben Ben!! ^-^
the disgusting salad..
my CHOCOLATE ice-cream
BEN BEN's vanillia ice-cream
plans tomorrow - attend wake at night..
tired.. going to sleep..
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAMLAN and ALVIN (lee)!
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