[ i'm really SORRY.. i didnt mean it.. ]

i'm really SORRY... i didnt mean it..


YESTERDAY.. something BIG happened!! just before i'm going to sleep.. i was just happily talking to my friend when i received a phone call from "E"... i was SHOCKED that i got her in deep ship.. hais! i didnt know that my unconscious words can meant such BIG IMPACT to her..

HAIS.. i didnt know what to do.. and was like crying like mad.. it's been quite some time since i burst out in tears in my own room.. i just feel bad.. feel LOST suddenly.. suddenly ben ben strike my mind and i sms him.. but he was with his girl.. so i just have to keep quiet regarding what have happened.. i actually cry myself to sleep last night.. woke up this morning with both eyes SWOLLEN!! i didnt expect is that "J" is such a person.. WHY do you have to STEP ON others to climb up higher? WHY? i look upon you as a person i can learn a lot from.. BUT, it turns out like that.. HAIS! really disappointed..

mom's finally talking to me last night.. exams are over then she's okie.. when i'm having my exams she treated me this way.. hais! brunch with mom at the coffeeshop.. then went over to the bookshop to buy some stuffs.. Ben ben called.. hais.. feel so BAD.. yesterday he was with the girlfriend then i sms him.. just hope that i didnt get into trouble.. sometimes i just feel that maybe i should stay away from him.. i just dont wish to affect him and his girlfriend.. just dont wish to cause any unneccessary trouble for him..

got home and it was almost 1pm. then i went to prepare myself to go school.. workshop was from 2.30 to 5.30pm.. kind of interesting.. but i still feel uneasy to speak in front of people i'm not close with.. lolx! one day of holiday was BURST.. dinner was at yishun with mom and didi.. ate hotplate beancurd, jie lan, tom yam soup and tian ju.. NICE NICE.. then went to Northpoint to shop shop.. didi bought a pants from OP and i got a new bag! didi also got 2 polo tee-shirts from Giodarno..

then headed home.. today.. while wanting to find a notebook.. i happened to see my old diary book.. it was my diary book when i wrote when i was daryl.. saw many unhappiness i wrote when i was daryl.. miss him suddenly=]