woke up at 8am today.. so EARLY for a SUNDAY MORNING!! but i promised Priscilla.. so i make sure i make an EFFORT to be there.. having itesd prayer meeting today.. many were LATE.. well, i dislike it.. BUT, i also understand it's HUMAN NATURE! saw Cherie.. so happy to see her! and know a new IIC, Weiling..
the prayers meeting was kind of a mess.. all i can say is i am still adapting to the people in itesd.. NOT really that comfortable yet i should say.. i still miss npsd peeps lots! got to visit you guys some day.. weiling's place is at Sengkang.. quite convenient for me actually.. straight bus only takes me 20minutes.. we had some sharings after the daimoku session.. i guess some of the ICs are shocked how come i know so much.. lolx! i also dont know.. wisdom after the dynamic daimoku?
hahaz! had some prayers in mind..
1. My grandma's recovery
2. To do well in my end-of-module exams and be able to concentrate on my revision
3. To be able to strengthen my relationship with Tom
almost 3months together but i feel we are still rocky.. many things, we arent able to sit down and talk yet.. like what you say, talk things out when you feel something isnt right.. are you doing it? and why do i have the fear when i wish to voice out something? where's your courage Jessica Loh? hais! this thing has been in my mind for weeks.. and i dont know what went wrong! am i the one at FAULT? i guess i am.. Self reflecting!!!!
had a great talk with Colin.. Nice IIC i should say.. thanks for being so concern over my results and stuff!! thanks for sharing so much with me and lending me a listening ear too! back home.. and i went straight to bed.. really TIRED! intend to study late tonight so i chose to recharge my battery first..
had some talks with some close friends of mine.. all of them are worried for me.. dont worry i am okie.. i know i can tide through it.. 先苦后甜嘛！that's my belief isnt it? i know you guys know i am down.. but i feel the problem lies in me.. i will face it.. and change it.. so dont worry! wait for my good news ba! i will base everything on daimoku.. like what Xueyun jie says.. "no prayers will go unanswered" ma.. i will CHANT! chant harder for it! i wont GIVE UP so easily... stop worrying for me and send me prayers ba! whatever problems i am facing now.. i know i can FACE it with prayers!
got to go mugging!! mug mug mug!~
There is a saying that the earth upon which we fall is the same ground which enables us to push ourselves up again.
There's another which maintains that barley grows better after it has been trampled on.
Human relationships are sometimes painful, but there is no such pain from which we cannot recover.
It is up to us to decide to live a life free from self-doubt and despair in spite of our failures.
Indeed, it is during our most humbling moments that we should show greatest poise and grace.
Then the dignity of our lives will truly shine.
-Daisaku Ikeda-
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