[ disappointed with MYSELF! ]

[ disappointed with MYSELF! ]

woke up early today.. wanted to check my results.. BUT, my brother is still sleeping.. so i have to wait till he wakes up before i can check.. so ANXIOUS about knowing the results as i really have high expectation this time round with myself.. so while waiting for him to wake up, i went to cook some breakfast for myself.. had ham sandwiches today.. and immediately after eating, my stomach starts to aches.. then i went to the toilet.. then when i'm out.. my eyes just feel so itchy.. and in a few minutes time.. my vision starts to grow blur..

so i went to the mirrior.. i saw my eyes swollen.. and my right eye totally cant open.. really panicked at that moment.. so i called mom and she told me to go to the doctor.. thanks godness that my brother is at home.. if not, i really dont know what to do myself.. went to the doctor and had a jab.. doctor said it's allergy reactions and caused my breathing to be a bit rapid.. doctor say if i still feel that my breathing is still quite rapid.. then i have to go to A&E..

checked my results.. both subjects got A!! including my independent studies - my yunnan trip also A!! BUT, my GPA!! hais! cause it's accumulative de! so first sem got a B.. so now my GPA is pulled down because of that.. GPA is 3.789!! it will just go lower if i continue to have B or worse C in my results.. just hope it gets higher.. BUT will forever wont reach 4 de!! hais! BUT, i guess i already did my very best.. and least i have proved something.. though i'm in a relationship, mom.. i still did well in my studies.. i said before.. i want to prove it to YOU, mom.. he wont affect my results.. he will only motivate me to work harder for our future..

slept for quite a few hours BUT my condition doesnt seems to get any better.. i dont want to be hospitalised!! hais! it's the LAST day of 2007 yet i have to STAY at HOME!! hais! feel so TERRIBLE! sobx!